Rating: R
Summary: Since from the summer before his sixth year at Hogwarts, Harry understands his love for Hermione; seeing her with Ron is a shock, and he is angry with both his friends but then he has to save her.
Disclaimer: The story is based on the first four books and for some details on HP and the Psychic Serpent
Harry Potter and the Death Arch
Chapter Three
"Lonely Christmas"
Harry's relation with Ron and Hermione improved a lot with the nearing of Christmas; Harry was afraid of repeating the Snape's error, becoming Death Eater, they were afraid of loosing their best friend, so the three started to reconcile a little, even if the intimacy of the past years was still very far between them now. However, for Hermione this was enough for the moment; how many sleepless nights she passed, remembering Harry's face on the Express and the tear on his face, while he was going away alone. How much she feared having lost him forever. When she saw him with Malfoy, she had understood what she didn't understand until that moment: he was trying to avoid them because he couldn't sustain her being with Ron, because he was completely fallen in love with her.
However, she wasn't sure that he still loved her, so continued giving attention to Ron; Harry, as usual, in those days studied a lot and went fitting himself, running two times a day; he was the Gryffindor Quidditch team captain and he had to show the good example, being always fit; many times she saw him running alone on the snow, also in the coldest days, and often she wanted to go to him to speak, but she always retrained herself, fearing to ruin more the situation.
In the meanwhile the Quidditch Cup started with Gryffindor against Hufflepuff and Harry caught the Snitch after only five minutes, fixing the new Hogwarts record; then, after the match, when everyone returned to the castle, he remained there, on the pitch, thinking about Hermione, about his love for her. After some time, Snape found him, worried for his health and with a message from Dumbledore:
"Don't be silly, think about your feelings before acting. Be careful!"
He asked himself what Dumbledore was meaning, however stopped thinking that he wanted to not see Hermione for the rest of his life.He was also wishing a rape to not see her.but stopped these thoughts.
He returned to the castle, had a warm shower, then dressed his new robes, with his prefect badge, and went to finish his homeworks; after this, he went to Hagrid, to be in a good company, while Ron was searching him to speak; Hermione finally, sobbing, had told him about the Express and he wanted to tell Harry something about this, but not finding him, he went back, thinking that if Harry were in his situation, he would have left him alone to resolve his problem.
Some days later, Harry was very happy for the first time in this term.he trained a lot to become an Animagus and finally he succeeded in it.he used a golden griffin shape and so he could fly.he went to Hogsmeade alone, happy for not have to explain his feelings to nobody; being alone all the day, however, wasn't a good idea: he started to think about the suicide as the best thing to do.
He found the force to return to the castle and here he decided to not suicide:
"No, it isn't an Harry Potter action." he thought while he was going down for the dinner; after this he went to reflect about himself and his life in the library.
Hogwarts emptied itself, for the Christmas holidays; for the first time Harry was alone with the Professors; "It isn't bad" he thought "finally I don't have them always around me for some time"; he tried many winter sports, as skiing, sledding, skating on ice, always enjoying the Professors company.Dumbledore, Snape, Hagrid, McGonagall were always with him and he felt free; Snape was always more friendly with him, and he was annoyed only because Draco wasn't with him.he needed someone with his same problem, and even if Snape lived something similar, it wasn't enough for him.
On Christmas he opened alone the gifts, as a gold watch from Dudley, and he wrote a letter to him thanking for this, then he found a letter from Uncle Vernon:
"This summer we will go away all the time, so you could invite your friends if you want.you will be alone at home."
Harry smiled bitter , thinking "My friends.What friends? I don't have them now." then he suddenly remembered Krum, asking himself if he knew about Ron and Hermione, but he decided to not tell him; "After all, this isn't a my problem" he thought "If Hermione is happy in this way, for me is good.first or later I will accept this."
He opened all the gifts, and the last was from Hermione, and it hurt him a lot: it was a picture of he and her at Privet Drive, the last summer, taking each other's hand.and there was also a letter:
"Dear Harry, I know that in this term it is very hard for you to think about me and Ron as friends; I understood too late what you were feeling about me.but now I tell you: I pray you, accept that I and Ron are together, don't make it more difficult! Hermione"
Harry started to cry and threw the letter and the picture in the fire of the common room, then he went to McGonagall to have an advice from her. After his explaining, the teacher said: "You know, I understood that you had some problem with them, seeing how much you studied; you had results very good, better than the other years and I suspected something like this; but be calm.. it is normal for a teenager as you feeling as this moment... but it will pass." Then she tried to make him laugh, telling him about her first crush for a guy one year bigger; when they went to lunch, he was very relieved.
Summary: Since from the summer before his sixth year at Hogwarts, Harry understands his love for Hermione; seeing her with Ron is a shock, and he is angry with both his friends but then he has to save her.
Disclaimer: The story is based on the first four books and for some details on HP and the Psychic Serpent
Harry Potter and the Death Arch
Chapter Three
"Lonely Christmas"
Harry's relation with Ron and Hermione improved a lot with the nearing of Christmas; Harry was afraid of repeating the Snape's error, becoming Death Eater, they were afraid of loosing their best friend, so the three started to reconcile a little, even if the intimacy of the past years was still very far between them now. However, for Hermione this was enough for the moment; how many sleepless nights she passed, remembering Harry's face on the Express and the tear on his face, while he was going away alone. How much she feared having lost him forever. When she saw him with Malfoy, she had understood what she didn't understand until that moment: he was trying to avoid them because he couldn't sustain her being with Ron, because he was completely fallen in love with her.
However, she wasn't sure that he still loved her, so continued giving attention to Ron; Harry, as usual, in those days studied a lot and went fitting himself, running two times a day; he was the Gryffindor Quidditch team captain and he had to show the good example, being always fit; many times she saw him running alone on the snow, also in the coldest days, and often she wanted to go to him to speak, but she always retrained herself, fearing to ruin more the situation.
In the meanwhile the Quidditch Cup started with Gryffindor against Hufflepuff and Harry caught the Snitch after only five minutes, fixing the new Hogwarts record; then, after the match, when everyone returned to the castle, he remained there, on the pitch, thinking about Hermione, about his love for her. After some time, Snape found him, worried for his health and with a message from Dumbledore:
"Don't be silly, think about your feelings before acting. Be careful!"
He asked himself what Dumbledore was meaning, however stopped thinking that he wanted to not see Hermione for the rest of his life.He was also wishing a rape to not see her.but stopped these thoughts.
He returned to the castle, had a warm shower, then dressed his new robes, with his prefect badge, and went to finish his homeworks; after this, he went to Hagrid, to be in a good company, while Ron was searching him to speak; Hermione finally, sobbing, had told him about the Express and he wanted to tell Harry something about this, but not finding him, he went back, thinking that if Harry were in his situation, he would have left him alone to resolve his problem.
Some days later, Harry was very happy for the first time in this term.he trained a lot to become an Animagus and finally he succeeded in it.he used a golden griffin shape and so he could fly.he went to Hogsmeade alone, happy for not have to explain his feelings to nobody; being alone all the day, however, wasn't a good idea: he started to think about the suicide as the best thing to do.
He found the force to return to the castle and here he decided to not suicide:
"No, it isn't an Harry Potter action." he thought while he was going down for the dinner; after this he went to reflect about himself and his life in the library.
Hogwarts emptied itself, for the Christmas holidays; for the first time Harry was alone with the Professors; "It isn't bad" he thought "finally I don't have them always around me for some time"; he tried many winter sports, as skiing, sledding, skating on ice, always enjoying the Professors company.Dumbledore, Snape, Hagrid, McGonagall were always with him and he felt free; Snape was always more friendly with him, and he was annoyed only because Draco wasn't with him.he needed someone with his same problem, and even if Snape lived something similar, it wasn't enough for him.
On Christmas he opened alone the gifts, as a gold watch from Dudley, and he wrote a letter to him thanking for this, then he found a letter from Uncle Vernon:
"This summer we will go away all the time, so you could invite your friends if you want.you will be alone at home."
Harry smiled bitter , thinking "My friends.What friends? I don't have them now." then he suddenly remembered Krum, asking himself if he knew about Ron and Hermione, but he decided to not tell him; "After all, this isn't a my problem" he thought "If Hermione is happy in this way, for me is good.first or later I will accept this."
He opened all the gifts, and the last was from Hermione, and it hurt him a lot: it was a picture of he and her at Privet Drive, the last summer, taking each other's hand.and there was also a letter:
"Dear Harry, I know that in this term it is very hard for you to think about me and Ron as friends; I understood too late what you were feeling about me.but now I tell you: I pray you, accept that I and Ron are together, don't make it more difficult! Hermione"
Harry started to cry and threw the letter and the picture in the fire of the common room, then he went to McGonagall to have an advice from her. After his explaining, the teacher said: "You know, I understood that you had some problem with them, seeing how much you studied; you had results very good, better than the other years and I suspected something like this; but be calm.. it is normal for a teenager as you feeling as this moment... but it will pass." Then she tried to make him laugh, telling him about her first crush for a guy one year bigger; when they went to lunch, he was very relieved.