I know it's been a while. Left you hanging, that was really rather cruel
of me huh? I'll try to be nicer. I hope you enjoy.
You know it, I know it I don't own rights to anything, so don't sue me.
Music From My Heart
Neo Princess Moon
Song: Hello
Sung by: Evanesance
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
There was a brilliant flash of light in the sky, and Mamoru collapsed to his knees. Michiru rushed to his side.
"She's gone." He said tears rolling down his cheeks.
"She could have just shut off the link." Minako replied hopefully. Mamoru shook his head.
"Usako, she's dead."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Mamoru walked passed the Juuban Junior High school and listened to the sound of the first bell chiming. He walked around the corner, Usagi ran toward him at full speed. He stepped in front of her. Just as she was about to collide with him Mamoru noticed something. This girl, she was tall, too tall, under developed and her hair, while it was fixed in Usagi's signature style, was dirty blond and just a tad too short. He stepped out of the way. How could he have been so stupid? It was the one year anniversary of the day Usagi Tsukino had disappeared. The press was having a field day, and this girl was just another adoring fan. Then again weren't they all. Everyone had loved Usagi Tsukino, lead singer for Tsuki no Romansu, which had been formed when Usagi started singing with the Three Lights. Everyone had been heartbroken the day she had disappeared. No one could figure out exactly what happened, no one except of course the senchi. The press had come up with all kinds of explanations, but no one could guess the real reason the Usagi was gone.
Mamoru sighed and ran a shaky hand through his hair. It was long now, greasy. He hadn't taken the time to wash it in kami-knew-how-long. There was no point now. Usako was the one who had loved to run her hands through it. He sighed remembering those happy times he had shared with her. Her death had been hard on all the senchi. Everything since then had been hard. Every moment of every day. Mamoru still remembered the heartbroken looks on Usagi's family's faces. The way that Usagi's mother had sat there with the most shocked expression on her face, too shocked and heartsick to cry. The way Usagi's father had broken down crying. It was odd to watch him cry, the man whom Mamoru had feared for so long. This man loved Usagi just as much as he did, and they shared a common pain. He remembered they way Shingo had stood there numb, shocked to find out that his favorite heroine, his beloved sister was dead. While trying to explain what had happened Ami had burst in to tears, and Shingo moved to comfort her, needing to be close to someone else to comfort himself. God he had wished that this could have happened any other way. He would have given anything else in the world, if only he could have had Usako back, not just for himself, but for everyone. For her fans, for her band mates, for her friends, for her family, for him for their daughter. Chibi-Usa, whom had disappeared without a trace when Usagi died. God, he wanted Usagi back. He need her, he was slowly going insane without her. It would kill him soon.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Mamoru turned up the street and entered his apartment complex. He eventually made it to his apartment, and slowly he reached for his key. He slipped it into the lock and turned his wrist. He waited for a moment before pushing the door opened. He didn't want to enter his empty apartment. He considered staying outside a while longer, but remembering the gray skies he decided against it. With all the strength inside his soul he shoved the door opened and closed it behind him. He looked around his impeccably neat apartment. It would be neat; he was the only one living there. He had hopped that by this time in his life he would be living with Usako in a nice house just outside of Toukyou (spelled the Japanese way), and he would have plenty of children running around who could make a mess. He looked at his couch, at the perfectly placed cushions. He wanted one of those cushions to have been carelessly kicked off the couch by Usako. He wanted to see her sprawled across the couch, watching some horrid romance or soap opera, procrastinating against doing her homework. He wanted to scold her and watch a pout form on her perfect lips, and he wanted to lean down and kiss those perfect lips, until they were bruised. He wanted to take her into his room and lay her on his bed and just lay next to her for forever, just lay there, holding and stroking her, his beloved Usako. He wanted it so badly he could see her lying across the couch. He whispered her name tenderly, and she looked up, and then faded into nothing. Just an illusion. Mamoru picked up a cushion and threw it across the room as hard as he could. It hit a wall and bounced off. He fell into a heap on the floor and sobbed.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Usagi watched the reflection in a pond. It was not her own reflection staring back at her, but Mamoru. She watched him through this pond, as though watching a sad movie. Tears fell from her eyes and into the pond, and back on earth drops of rain began to fall to the ground. He was in so much pain; she could feel it even now. She wanted so badly to be there, to comfort him. She sensed her Mother's presence behind her.
"Serenity?" He mother asked kneeling down.
"My name is Usagi." Usagi replied biting out the words. She felt bad being so cold to her mother, but it wasn't fair that her friends and family suffered on earth, while she was up here in supposed paradise. She hated it here. She couldn't do anything. All she could do was watch as everyone suffered.
Queen Serenity noticed the tear streaks down her daughter's face. "Darling, please stop crying. This place is supposed to be perfect. It looks exactly like our moon palace used to."
"But it's not our moon palace. The earth doesn't hang in the sky the same way, the senchi aren't practicing in the courts and Endymion isn't hiding in corners as he waits for me. I want to be able to kill my self, but no, I'm already dead, so I have to live out this after life." Usagi replied sadly. Queen Serenity remained silent. "I hate it here. I want to go back to earth, I want to go home."
"Seren- Usagi darling this is your home-"
"No it's not!" Usagi yelled back. "Earth is my home, with my family is home."
"Aren't I your family?" Queen Serenity asked. Usagi was silent for a moment.
"Of course you are, you know that I love you Mother. I just, I want to be with my family from earth, I want to be with my friends. I want to be with Mamo-chan. I want to get married and have a family. Do you understand mother? Look at Mamo-chan. He's going crazy. He's going to get himself killed. I have to be there for him. I have to save him. I love him, mother."
"Do you really love him enough to go back to Earth, to go back to life? One of the fundamental principles of Buddhism states the 'life is suffering.' Do you really want to go back to suffering in life just for one boy?" Serenity asked already knowing the answer.
"It's not just for one boy, It's for all my friends and family, but even if Mamo-chan was the only person I had left in the world I would go back for him." Usagi replied. Her mother simply nodded. There was a blinding flash of light and Usagi disappeared.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Eventually Mamoru climbed to his feet. He had to get ready for Usagi's service. He stumbled into his bathroom and began to cut his hair and shave. When he was finished he looked clean and neat again. He shed this clothing and stepped into the shower. (A visual all the ladies would like to see, yes?) He began to wash himself when a bright flash filled the room and he felt another mass pushed up against his muscular back. There was a slight shriek. It sounded like. . . . no it couldn't be. . . . Usako? He waited for a moment before turning around to come face to bright red face with the one and only Usagi. She was clothed in what looked to be a white nightgown with spaghetti straps. It came down only a little past her buttocks. Water streamed down her body and made her clothing stick to her, hiding nothing. He began to blush as the irony of the situation came to mind. Here he was in the shower standing face to face with the most perfect girl in the entire universe, and she was nothing more than and arousing illusion. He cried out in frustration and reached out to shove the illusion when his hands connected with solid shoulders. His eyes widened in surprise and he whispered her name.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Usagi was blushing so hard she wondered how there was still blood available to rush down to certain unmentionable areas of her body. She couldn't stop her eyes from looking over Mamoru's body, he was so handsome. She had forgotten how much more handsome he was in person. She wasn't sure what to do, what to say. She has wanted to teleport so that she was a close to him as possible, but she had forgotten to check where that was. So now her she was in his shower, with him nude and her barely covered. She watched as a flurry of emotions crossed his perfect face. She knew he thought she was just an illusion. She watched silently as he reached up. He seemed to be preparing to push her, but as soon as his hands connected with solid flesh his eyes widened. She heard him whisper her name, so softly, as though he thought she would disappear. His hands slid gently down her back until he had his arms wrapped around her waist. She gently wrapped her arms around his neck and their lips met.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The moment their lips met all doubt was gone from Mamoru's mind, Usako was back. It didn't matter how, she was here with him and in his arms. He broke away from her and picked her up princess style. Not bothering to shut off the water he walked into his bedroom and laid his soaked, but beautiful Usako across the bed.
"Angle" He whispered. Usagi shook her head.
"I'm alive." She replied. Mamoru nodded and nuzzled her neck.
"Goddess." He mumbled kissing a sensitive spot on her neck. She shivered.
"I love you."
"I love you too, Usako, my baby bunny."
Almost finished, I have one more chapter to go. It's been a great ride and I want to thank everyone who had reviewed, read and enjoyed. Please review.
Koisuru Otome wa Makenai!!!
You know it, I know it I don't own rights to anything, so don't sue me.
Music From My Heart
Neo Princess Moon
Song: Hello
Sung by: Evanesance
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
There was a brilliant flash of light in the sky, and Mamoru collapsed to his knees. Michiru rushed to his side.
"She's gone." He said tears rolling down his cheeks.
"She could have just shut off the link." Minako replied hopefully. Mamoru shook his head.
"Usako, she's dead."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Mamoru walked passed the Juuban Junior High school and listened to the sound of the first bell chiming. He walked around the corner, Usagi ran toward him at full speed. He stepped in front of her. Just as she was about to collide with him Mamoru noticed something. This girl, she was tall, too tall, under developed and her hair, while it was fixed in Usagi's signature style, was dirty blond and just a tad too short. He stepped out of the way. How could he have been so stupid? It was the one year anniversary of the day Usagi Tsukino had disappeared. The press was having a field day, and this girl was just another adoring fan. Then again weren't they all. Everyone had loved Usagi Tsukino, lead singer for Tsuki no Romansu, which had been formed when Usagi started singing with the Three Lights. Everyone had been heartbroken the day she had disappeared. No one could figure out exactly what happened, no one except of course the senchi. The press had come up with all kinds of explanations, but no one could guess the real reason the Usagi was gone.
Mamoru sighed and ran a shaky hand through his hair. It was long now, greasy. He hadn't taken the time to wash it in kami-knew-how-long. There was no point now. Usako was the one who had loved to run her hands through it. He sighed remembering those happy times he had shared with her. Her death had been hard on all the senchi. Everything since then had been hard. Every moment of every day. Mamoru still remembered the heartbroken looks on Usagi's family's faces. The way that Usagi's mother had sat there with the most shocked expression on her face, too shocked and heartsick to cry. The way Usagi's father had broken down crying. It was odd to watch him cry, the man whom Mamoru had feared for so long. This man loved Usagi just as much as he did, and they shared a common pain. He remembered they way Shingo had stood there numb, shocked to find out that his favorite heroine, his beloved sister was dead. While trying to explain what had happened Ami had burst in to tears, and Shingo moved to comfort her, needing to be close to someone else to comfort himself. God he had wished that this could have happened any other way. He would have given anything else in the world, if only he could have had Usako back, not just for himself, but for everyone. For her fans, for her band mates, for her friends, for her family, for him for their daughter. Chibi-Usa, whom had disappeared without a trace when Usagi died. God, he wanted Usagi back. He need her, he was slowly going insane without her. It would kill him soon.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry
~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Mamoru turned up the street and entered his apartment complex. He eventually made it to his apartment, and slowly he reached for his key. He slipped it into the lock and turned his wrist. He waited for a moment before pushing the door opened. He didn't want to enter his empty apartment. He considered staying outside a while longer, but remembering the gray skies he decided against it. With all the strength inside his soul he shoved the door opened and closed it behind him. He looked around his impeccably neat apartment. It would be neat; he was the only one living there. He had hopped that by this time in his life he would be living with Usako in a nice house just outside of Toukyou (spelled the Japanese way), and he would have plenty of children running around who could make a mess. He looked at his couch, at the perfectly placed cushions. He wanted one of those cushions to have been carelessly kicked off the couch by Usako. He wanted to see her sprawled across the couch, watching some horrid romance or soap opera, procrastinating against doing her homework. He wanted to scold her and watch a pout form on her perfect lips, and he wanted to lean down and kiss those perfect lips, until they were bruised. He wanted to take her into his room and lay her on his bed and just lay next to her for forever, just lay there, holding and stroking her, his beloved Usako. He wanted it so badly he could see her lying across the couch. He whispered her name tenderly, and she looked up, and then faded into nothing. Just an illusion. Mamoru picked up a cushion and threw it across the room as hard as he could. It hit a wall and bounced off. He fell into a heap on the floor and sobbed.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Usagi watched the reflection in a pond. It was not her own reflection staring back at her, but Mamoru. She watched him through this pond, as though watching a sad movie. Tears fell from her eyes and into the pond, and back on earth drops of rain began to fall to the ground. He was in so much pain; she could feel it even now. She wanted so badly to be there, to comfort him. She sensed her Mother's presence behind her.
"Serenity?" He mother asked kneeling down.
"My name is Usagi." Usagi replied biting out the words. She felt bad being so cold to her mother, but it wasn't fair that her friends and family suffered on earth, while she was up here in supposed paradise. She hated it here. She couldn't do anything. All she could do was watch as everyone suffered.
Queen Serenity noticed the tear streaks down her daughter's face. "Darling, please stop crying. This place is supposed to be perfect. It looks exactly like our moon palace used to."
"But it's not our moon palace. The earth doesn't hang in the sky the same way, the senchi aren't practicing in the courts and Endymion isn't hiding in corners as he waits for me. I want to be able to kill my self, but no, I'm already dead, so I have to live out this after life." Usagi replied sadly. Queen Serenity remained silent. "I hate it here. I want to go back to earth, I want to go home."
"Seren- Usagi darling this is your home-"
"No it's not!" Usagi yelled back. "Earth is my home, with my family is home."
"Aren't I your family?" Queen Serenity asked. Usagi was silent for a moment.
"Of course you are, you know that I love you Mother. I just, I want to be with my family from earth, I want to be with my friends. I want to be with Mamo-chan. I want to get married and have a family. Do you understand mother? Look at Mamo-chan. He's going crazy. He's going to get himself killed. I have to be there for him. I have to save him. I love him, mother."
"Do you really love him enough to go back to Earth, to go back to life? One of the fundamental principles of Buddhism states the 'life is suffering.' Do you really want to go back to suffering in life just for one boy?" Serenity asked already knowing the answer.
"It's not just for one boy, It's for all my friends and family, but even if Mamo-chan was the only person I had left in the world I would go back for him." Usagi replied. Her mother simply nodded. There was a blinding flash of light and Usagi disappeared.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Eventually Mamoru climbed to his feet. He had to get ready for Usagi's service. He stumbled into his bathroom and began to cut his hair and shave. When he was finished he looked clean and neat again. He shed this clothing and stepped into the shower. (A visual all the ladies would like to see, yes?) He began to wash himself when a bright flash filled the room and he felt another mass pushed up against his muscular back. There was a slight shriek. It sounded like. . . . no it couldn't be. . . . Usako? He waited for a moment before turning around to come face to bright red face with the one and only Usagi. She was clothed in what looked to be a white nightgown with spaghetti straps. It came down only a little past her buttocks. Water streamed down her body and made her clothing stick to her, hiding nothing. He began to blush as the irony of the situation came to mind. Here he was in the shower standing face to face with the most perfect girl in the entire universe, and she was nothing more than and arousing illusion. He cried out in frustration and reached out to shove the illusion when his hands connected with solid shoulders. His eyes widened in surprise and he whispered her name.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Usagi was blushing so hard she wondered how there was still blood available to rush down to certain unmentionable areas of her body. She couldn't stop her eyes from looking over Mamoru's body, he was so handsome. She had forgotten how much more handsome he was in person. She wasn't sure what to do, what to say. She has wanted to teleport so that she was a close to him as possible, but she had forgotten to check where that was. So now her she was in his shower, with him nude and her barely covered. She watched as a flurry of emotions crossed his perfect face. She knew he thought she was just an illusion. She watched silently as he reached up. He seemed to be preparing to push her, but as soon as his hands connected with solid flesh his eyes widened. She heard him whisper her name, so softly, as though he thought she would disappear. His hands slid gently down her back until he had his arms wrapped around her waist. She gently wrapped her arms around his neck and their lips met.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The moment their lips met all doubt was gone from Mamoru's mind, Usako was back. It didn't matter how, she was here with him and in his arms. He broke away from her and picked her up princess style. Not bothering to shut off the water he walked into his bedroom and laid his soaked, but beautiful Usako across the bed.
"Angle" He whispered. Usagi shook her head.
"I'm alive." She replied. Mamoru nodded and nuzzled her neck.
"Goddess." He mumbled kissing a sensitive spot on her neck. She shivered.
"I love you."
"I love you too, Usako, my baby bunny."
Almost finished, I have one more chapter to go. It's been a great ride and I want to thank everyone who had reviewed, read and enjoyed. Please review.
Koisuru Otome wa Makenai!!!