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this has the song "Crawling" by Linkin Park. Enjoy!and REVIEW!
Letty's POV
\\ Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real //
I sat inside the house I was traped in.My Mom and Dad are gone and all I have is
my dumb ass boyfriend that beats the shit out of me just for fun.Then he uses me
like I'm his toy.I cannot believe I let this happened to me.I never thought that
the guy I liked and went with would rape me,and abuse me.I hate it I can't find
away out.I'm always crying and screaming for help but I guess no one hears me.
Josh is always gone,I don't know why I want just run away.I guess because he
will find me and then kill me.I wanna leave this place and never come back.I
wanna be someone I'm not.I wish I had freedom!
\\ There's something inside of my that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem //
Day after day,night after night of being beating til blood flows out this weak thing
I call a body.I always say I'm gonna escape,but I never do.And each day I hate
myself for it.I wish I didn't get myself into this shit!I know my friend was right
when she told me I don't need to be with him.I just didn't want to believe it.And
now look where I am.I'm in a house that is dark and cold.With a person that
is called a man.He is gone out right now,drinking the night away like there is
no tomorrow.I wanna leave,and I'm gonna leave I pack my things and go to
door.I reach for it but I trun around and run back to my room.I put my
things back and feel myself falling down to the ground.Tears running down
my face and I can't hold them back.Once again I'm not leaving because the
fears of him finding me.
\\To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(With out a sense of comfidence and I'm convinced that there's just to much
pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure //
God help me.I'm so tired of being like this.I'm hurting on the inside and the out
but I don't know how to stop it.I fall asleep in a ball on the floor.I wake up as
I hear the door close.I stay in my room with the door locked and I'm listening
as I sit in the dark.I can tell he is drunk because the is running into the walls.
The next thing I know there is a bang on the door,nonstop.I don't have enough
strengh to say anything so I get up and open the door,scared to know what he
is going to do with me.
"Why the hell was your door locked?"He said in an angry voice
"I.....I.....I......."I struggled to get that much out
"Well tell me.Damnit!"
"I'm...........-"
"Damnit!"He yelled as he picked me up by my neck and and punched me in my
side about 5 times and then in my face 2 times.I fell to floor when he let go
of me.Blood coming out my nose like a river.
"Please."I say
"Give me one good reason why."
He picked me back up and kicked me.I thought right then and there I was gonna die.
He left the room and I didn't hear from him the rest of the night.He just left me on
the floor in a puddle of my own blood.I got up and ran to the bathroom to wash up.
It was so hard for me to get up because I was so sore.I looked at myself,this thing
known as my reflection,I looked at the blood on my face,the cuts and bruises on my
body.I cannot believe this is me that I'm looking at.I wish it was all a dream and I
would wake up.But I can't because I know this is all real.But why?
\\ Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real //
\\ Discomfront,endlessly,has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem... //
-1 week later-
I was sitting in my room looking out the window down the street.4 guys and 1gurl
were out there in street-racing cars.I bet there life is perfect.I trun around and see
him,Josh.with a bastball bat in his hand.I started to scream and he started to beat
me.Hitting every where on my body,even my face.I cry for him to stop but he just
hits my harder and harder til I can;t feel my body.I see my life pass by me before I
black out,not knowing if he is still beating me or if I'll ever wake back up.
\\ ...To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Witout a sense of confident and I'm convinced that there is just to much
pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So Insecure
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real //
- ok guys thats all for my first chapter.I hope you guys liked it!Please review b/c I
don't know if I should keep going,you guys might not like it so tell me wut you
think about it and I'll post my next chapter.- ---kourtney---
¤ In loving memory of Kasey Peters ¤
this has the song "Crawling" by Linkin Park. Enjoy!and REVIEW!
Letty's POV
\\ Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real //
I sat inside the house I was traped in.My Mom and Dad are gone and all I have is
my dumb ass boyfriend that beats the shit out of me just for fun.Then he uses me
like I'm his toy.I cannot believe I let this happened to me.I never thought that
the guy I liked and went with would rape me,and abuse me.I hate it I can't find
away out.I'm always crying and screaming for help but I guess no one hears me.
Josh is always gone,I don't know why I want just run away.I guess because he
will find me and then kill me.I wanna leave this place and never come back.I
wanna be someone I'm not.I wish I had freedom!
\\ There's something inside of my that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem //
Day after day,night after night of being beating til blood flows out this weak thing
I call a body.I always say I'm gonna escape,but I never do.And each day I hate
myself for it.I wish I didn't get myself into this shit!I know my friend was right
when she told me I don't need to be with him.I just didn't want to believe it.And
now look where I am.I'm in a house that is dark and cold.With a person that
is called a man.He is gone out right now,drinking the night away like there is
no tomorrow.I wanna leave,and I'm gonna leave I pack my things and go to
door.I reach for it but I trun around and run back to my room.I put my
things back and feel myself falling down to the ground.Tears running down
my face and I can't hold them back.Once again I'm not leaving because the
fears of him finding me.
\\To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(With out a sense of comfidence and I'm convinced that there's just to much
pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure //
God help me.I'm so tired of being like this.I'm hurting on the inside and the out
but I don't know how to stop it.I fall asleep in a ball on the floor.I wake up as
I hear the door close.I stay in my room with the door locked and I'm listening
as I sit in the dark.I can tell he is drunk because the is running into the walls.
The next thing I know there is a bang on the door,nonstop.I don't have enough
strengh to say anything so I get up and open the door,scared to know what he
is going to do with me.
"Why the hell was your door locked?"He said in an angry voice
"I.....I.....I......."I struggled to get that much out
"Well tell me.Damnit!"
"I'm...........-"
"Damnit!"He yelled as he picked me up by my neck and and punched me in my
side about 5 times and then in my face 2 times.I fell to floor when he let go
of me.Blood coming out my nose like a river.
"Please."I say
"Give me one good reason why."
He picked me back up and kicked me.I thought right then and there I was gonna die.
He left the room and I didn't hear from him the rest of the night.He just left me on
the floor in a puddle of my own blood.I got up and ran to the bathroom to wash up.
It was so hard for me to get up because I was so sore.I looked at myself,this thing
known as my reflection,I looked at the blood on my face,the cuts and bruises on my
body.I cannot believe this is me that I'm looking at.I wish it was all a dream and I
would wake up.But I can't because I know this is all real.But why?
\\ Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real //
\\ Discomfront,endlessly,has pulled itself upon me
Distracting/reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem... //
-1 week later-
I was sitting in my room looking out the window down the street.4 guys and 1gurl
were out there in street-racing cars.I bet there life is perfect.I trun around and see
him,Josh.with a bastball bat in his hand.I started to scream and he started to beat
me.Hitting every where on my body,even my face.I cry for him to stop but he just
hits my harder and harder til I can;t feel my body.I see my life pass by me before I
black out,not knowing if he is still beating me or if I'll ever wake back up.
\\ ...To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(Witout a sense of confident and I'm convinced that there is just to much
pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So Insecure
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real //
- ok guys thats all for my first chapter.I hope you guys liked it!Please review b/c I
don't know if I should keep going,you guys might not like it so tell me wut you
think about it and I'll post my next chapter.- ---kourtney---
¤ In loving memory of Kasey Peters ¤