A/N: As some reviewers were commenting about it, sorry about the not
letting anonymous reviewers review, I had no clue it was set to that, so
thank you for informing me. Anyway it's fixed now, and I'll try to have
little replies for people who have reviewed, though I haven't done many
this time. If I don't have any specific replies, I list you. - Ashes
jossi-31: Thankz. I'm hoping for some fluff to happen myself. But who knows what will actually happen when I start writing. -._-*
Esca-lover: I know, I've watched that one scene so many times I say things along with them, in Japanese ^.- . It's getting sad. I think I'll definitely read your fic and in fact I already have (though I found, any criticism I might have had was lost), and thank you for the appraisal. (I've also read Ink Stained Hands though I've never had time to review, it's good, you're quite a talented AU writer :D)
Adriana Huffle: Yes, well, I all the wonderfully loved the happy people too! (joking, *L*)
And thanks to the rest of the reviewers, Crystal Night, Sailor Centauri, Cascata, Geminidragon, dilly-sammas luver, snow blossoms, ice, aradow, Chan, Dariel, Kat-Tastrophe, and SilverPrincess (who happens to be my beta -.-*)
Disclaimer: I have no owning of Escaflowne or the escaflowne plot or esca characters, though they rock my world. Ye ha. -._-*
Through the Rainy Haze
Chapter#2: The Blinded Seer
This was wrong. This was all very wrong.
That was what had coursed through her mind while it had happened. So wrong. As Allen broke the kiss, it was all she could think. All that was in her mind. For the longest time Hitomi had thought she was in love with Allen. His beautiful blue eyes, his long gorgeous blond hair.... But it had only been a large infatuation, and she saw that now. Millerna loved Allen. Or at least, had more feelings for him than she herself did. She shouldn't have let herself get pulled towards him, and she had protested in the beginning. But then a haze had swamped over her. It was like she couldn't control what she was doing any more. There was something.pushing her, closer and closer to Allen. And he reminded her so much of Amano, so much of home. Earth. But being with him would not make her any closer to her home, she knew that, or at least now she did. How she missed her home though....and Allen had said such wonderful things to her.
Hitomi shook her head. No matter how luring Allen was, being with him felt wrong, and her heart screamed it. She was only doing this because she was hurt over what Van had said earlier. This idea shocked her. The only reason she had let this happen was because she wanted to erase the pain from what Van had said to her. But it hadn't worked.
As their lips slowly parted the rain stopped. The haze, and the spell over her were broken. She had given Allen the honour of her first kiss. She felt hollow inside. She didn't...really want to be with Allen after all. She turned away from him. And there, standing near the entrance to an alleyway, was Van.
He had seen her with Allen, and it made her feel like she had been caught doing something wrong. And the look in Van's eyes was her punishment. He was wet, soaked like her. The pain in his eyes made her want to reach out to him. They looked accusingly and sadly at her, as if she had betrayed him. She realized then that he had been out in the rain, looking for her. "Van", she whispered, the name felt so good on her tongue. She wanted to take back what she had just done, just with that name.
But just like that, he was gone. He ran, and she watched him go in a trance. Allen reached out and placed his hand on her shoulder. They stayed like this for a long time, probably only minutes, but it seemed like hours to Hitomi. Hitomi then whipped around to face him, his natural scent wafting over her, his deep blue eyes gazing down at her, his usually impeccably perfect hair swept attractively in all directions. He smelled so much like Amano. No, she thought. This is wrong.
"I want whatever this is to end, Allen", she whispered, barely audible, her eyes wide and shining. "I'm sorry, I just can't do this. It.it ...isn't right!" she cried the last bit and ran. She heard him call out her name. But she still ran. Away from Allen. Away from home. Towards Van. She had made her choice. If only she could mend what she had done.
No, she did not love Allen. It was true, and she knew for sure now. She had once thought that Allen was her savior, her angel who came to save her at the end of her visions. But Van was truly her angel. He had saved her, just like her vision had predicted, and shared with her the secrets of his past and blood. It was he who held the strange qualities of an angle, or Draconian as they called them here.
Though neither Hitomi nor Van had realized it yet, they both protected and looked out for another, saving each other's lives time and time again. Both had grown to worry and care about the other on an equal level.
Allen was not Hitomi's equal. Or at least, he did not consider her his equal, nor did she. She called him 'Allen-san', where as Van was a king and she still merely referred to him as Van all the same.
Hitomi wanted to believe that Van hadn't meant what he had said at the mill earlier that afternoon. That the only reason he had stayed around her, saved her, cared for her, made her promises, it was all just because he wanted her power so he could defeat Zaibach and get his revenge. That he only thought of her as an object, a weapon he could use in the war. She didn't know what she would do if this was truly the only reason.
She turned another corner. She had lost him. No! Hitomi shook her head. She would follow him, and fix what she had started. She had so many questions, and she wanted answers. And Van was the only one who could explain things to her it seemed. Like if she meant nothing to him, and if so why did he look so betrayed at the bridge? Or why was she suddenly no longer in love with Allen? And why did she feel so warm inside at the thought that Van might really care about her? Or maybe, why she felt a twinge of happiness at the fact he might have been jealous of Allen..
Hitomi closed her eyes. She had to find him. She pictured her pendant in her mind, holding the actual necklace out in her hand. Her brow furrowed in concentration. She focused on Van with all of her heart. His dark, glaring maroon eyes, his midnight hair falling into his face, his small pout he always sported, always upset about something...that red shirt and beige pants....The pendant in her mind swung to the left and Hitomi raced down the alleyway. 'Where the heck is Van going?' she wondered. If she hadn't been following him, she would have been completely lost. And it wasn't like he knew his way around Palas any more than she did.
The sadness she had seen in his eyes instantly appeared in her mind. His eyes had never looked that sad before. God, she hoped she would find him. Van had been through enough already. Suddenly Hitomi no longer needed her pendant, the picture of it in her mind had vanished. Hitomi stumbled slightly in confusion. She could feel him, feel which direction he had gone in, what roads and passageways he had traveled along. It was a strange new power she had never experienced before. Her mind felt..like it was bursting...It was like wherever he went he left his essence behind...and she could feel it...She had never been able to do this before, and she wasn't sensing anyone else's essence, if that was what it was. Why could she only sense Van?
Quickly pushing this puzzling subject aside Hitomi sped along down the different passageways. She had more problems to figure out as of the moment; she could dwell on that later, besides this would help her. New questions were surfacing in her mind. How was she going to fix what she had done? What would she say when she found him? How was he going to react? ..Did he even care about what she had done; was he only upset because he had lost his tool?
Hitomi gulped. She hoped the latter wasn't true. But she would take things as they came. Right now she had to find him first. It seemed she had now left the city and was out in the bordering fields. She could feel him..he had stopped moving! This would give her a chance to catch up.
Hitomi ran as fast as she could, through the high grass and past the newly blown flowers. She sprinted for what seemed like ages until she found him. Lying beneath a large abundant tree. His face was to the ground and his body moved raggedly up and down as he took in raspy breaths. Now that she was near him her senses tingled from being joined with what they had been searching out for so desperately. He didn't seem to notice she was there.
"Van!" she called out, bending over slightly from lack of breath as it hit her she should announce she was there. She had finally found him, she felt so triumphant and full of glee. Until she remembered what she had done, and she became utterly speechless with nervousness.
"Hitomi".
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Hitomi: MY SPIDER SENSES ARE TINGLING, ASH!!!!!! XO ó.ò****
Ashes: Don't worry you aren't turning into a mutant or anything. Just getting cool powers 'cause of the whole AU thing. O.o
Hitomi: COOL!
Ashes: stop yelling. -._-*
A/N: Mwaaaaaahaa! I didn't have anything new happen! Alright calming down. But Hitomi is going to experience new power changes because she makes a different choice after the bridge scene (Yes, this fic actually does have a plot and isn't just some useless romance thing!) See I felt Van should have his own little explanation, but Hitomi's going to get some cool new sensing techniques and I needed to explain that when it happens. Not to mention it really needs to be explained how the hell she managed to find him. I mean Van doesn't even know where he is. I think I may have the whole next chapter dedicated to them just trying to find their way back. Hehehe. ( Joking. Anyway, write me any ideas or opinions you might have, and if you don't feel like reviewing you can send them to me at luverofvanfanel@hotmail.com. Also, thanks to my gorgeous and talented beta, Cat! ((a.k.a. SilverPrincess)) and my sub-beta as well, Mere!
Also, I am going to be doing a lot of switching between Hitomi and Van's POVs, but not crazily like every few paragraphs (and yes next chapter I'll actually continue on with where I left it off in the first one)
jossi-31: Thankz. I'm hoping for some fluff to happen myself. But who knows what will actually happen when I start writing. -._-*
Esca-lover: I know, I've watched that one scene so many times I say things along with them, in Japanese ^.- . It's getting sad. I think I'll definitely read your fic and in fact I already have (though I found, any criticism I might have had was lost), and thank you for the appraisal. (I've also read Ink Stained Hands though I've never had time to review, it's good, you're quite a talented AU writer :D)
Adriana Huffle: Yes, well, I all the wonderfully loved the happy people too! (joking, *L*)
And thanks to the rest of the reviewers, Crystal Night, Sailor Centauri, Cascata, Geminidragon, dilly-sammas luver, snow blossoms, ice, aradow, Chan, Dariel, Kat-Tastrophe, and SilverPrincess (who happens to be my beta -.-*)
Disclaimer: I have no owning of Escaflowne or the escaflowne plot or esca characters, though they rock my world. Ye ha. -._-*
Through the Rainy Haze
Chapter#2: The Blinded Seer
This was wrong. This was all very wrong.
That was what had coursed through her mind while it had happened. So wrong. As Allen broke the kiss, it was all she could think. All that was in her mind. For the longest time Hitomi had thought she was in love with Allen. His beautiful blue eyes, his long gorgeous blond hair.... But it had only been a large infatuation, and she saw that now. Millerna loved Allen. Or at least, had more feelings for him than she herself did. She shouldn't have let herself get pulled towards him, and she had protested in the beginning. But then a haze had swamped over her. It was like she couldn't control what she was doing any more. There was something.pushing her, closer and closer to Allen. And he reminded her so much of Amano, so much of home. Earth. But being with him would not make her any closer to her home, she knew that, or at least now she did. How she missed her home though....and Allen had said such wonderful things to her.
Hitomi shook her head. No matter how luring Allen was, being with him felt wrong, and her heart screamed it. She was only doing this because she was hurt over what Van had said earlier. This idea shocked her. The only reason she had let this happen was because she wanted to erase the pain from what Van had said to her. But it hadn't worked.
As their lips slowly parted the rain stopped. The haze, and the spell over her were broken. She had given Allen the honour of her first kiss. She felt hollow inside. She didn't...really want to be with Allen after all. She turned away from him. And there, standing near the entrance to an alleyway, was Van.
He had seen her with Allen, and it made her feel like she had been caught doing something wrong. And the look in Van's eyes was her punishment. He was wet, soaked like her. The pain in his eyes made her want to reach out to him. They looked accusingly and sadly at her, as if she had betrayed him. She realized then that he had been out in the rain, looking for her. "Van", she whispered, the name felt so good on her tongue. She wanted to take back what she had just done, just with that name.
But just like that, he was gone. He ran, and she watched him go in a trance. Allen reached out and placed his hand on her shoulder. They stayed like this for a long time, probably only minutes, but it seemed like hours to Hitomi. Hitomi then whipped around to face him, his natural scent wafting over her, his deep blue eyes gazing down at her, his usually impeccably perfect hair swept attractively in all directions. He smelled so much like Amano. No, she thought. This is wrong.
"I want whatever this is to end, Allen", she whispered, barely audible, her eyes wide and shining. "I'm sorry, I just can't do this. It.it ...isn't right!" she cried the last bit and ran. She heard him call out her name. But she still ran. Away from Allen. Away from home. Towards Van. She had made her choice. If only she could mend what she had done.
No, she did not love Allen. It was true, and she knew for sure now. She had once thought that Allen was her savior, her angel who came to save her at the end of her visions. But Van was truly her angel. He had saved her, just like her vision had predicted, and shared with her the secrets of his past and blood. It was he who held the strange qualities of an angle, or Draconian as they called them here.
Though neither Hitomi nor Van had realized it yet, they both protected and looked out for another, saving each other's lives time and time again. Both had grown to worry and care about the other on an equal level.
Allen was not Hitomi's equal. Or at least, he did not consider her his equal, nor did she. She called him 'Allen-san', where as Van was a king and she still merely referred to him as Van all the same.
Hitomi wanted to believe that Van hadn't meant what he had said at the mill earlier that afternoon. That the only reason he had stayed around her, saved her, cared for her, made her promises, it was all just because he wanted her power so he could defeat Zaibach and get his revenge. That he only thought of her as an object, a weapon he could use in the war. She didn't know what she would do if this was truly the only reason.
She turned another corner. She had lost him. No! Hitomi shook her head. She would follow him, and fix what she had started. She had so many questions, and she wanted answers. And Van was the only one who could explain things to her it seemed. Like if she meant nothing to him, and if so why did he look so betrayed at the bridge? Or why was she suddenly no longer in love with Allen? And why did she feel so warm inside at the thought that Van might really care about her? Or maybe, why she felt a twinge of happiness at the fact he might have been jealous of Allen..
Hitomi closed her eyes. She had to find him. She pictured her pendant in her mind, holding the actual necklace out in her hand. Her brow furrowed in concentration. She focused on Van with all of her heart. His dark, glaring maroon eyes, his midnight hair falling into his face, his small pout he always sported, always upset about something...that red shirt and beige pants....The pendant in her mind swung to the left and Hitomi raced down the alleyway. 'Where the heck is Van going?' she wondered. If she hadn't been following him, she would have been completely lost. And it wasn't like he knew his way around Palas any more than she did.
The sadness she had seen in his eyes instantly appeared in her mind. His eyes had never looked that sad before. God, she hoped she would find him. Van had been through enough already. Suddenly Hitomi no longer needed her pendant, the picture of it in her mind had vanished. Hitomi stumbled slightly in confusion. She could feel him, feel which direction he had gone in, what roads and passageways he had traveled along. It was a strange new power she had never experienced before. Her mind felt..like it was bursting...It was like wherever he went he left his essence behind...and she could feel it...She had never been able to do this before, and she wasn't sensing anyone else's essence, if that was what it was. Why could she only sense Van?
Quickly pushing this puzzling subject aside Hitomi sped along down the different passageways. She had more problems to figure out as of the moment; she could dwell on that later, besides this would help her. New questions were surfacing in her mind. How was she going to fix what she had done? What would she say when she found him? How was he going to react? ..Did he even care about what she had done; was he only upset because he had lost his tool?
Hitomi gulped. She hoped the latter wasn't true. But she would take things as they came. Right now she had to find him first. It seemed she had now left the city and was out in the bordering fields. She could feel him..he had stopped moving! This would give her a chance to catch up.
Hitomi ran as fast as she could, through the high grass and past the newly blown flowers. She sprinted for what seemed like ages until she found him. Lying beneath a large abundant tree. His face was to the ground and his body moved raggedly up and down as he took in raspy breaths. Now that she was near him her senses tingled from being joined with what they had been searching out for so desperately. He didn't seem to notice she was there.
"Van!" she called out, bending over slightly from lack of breath as it hit her she should announce she was there. She had finally found him, she felt so triumphant and full of glee. Until she remembered what she had done, and she became utterly speechless with nervousness.
"Hitomi".
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Hitomi: MY SPIDER SENSES ARE TINGLING, ASH!!!!!! XO ó.ò****
Ashes: Don't worry you aren't turning into a mutant or anything. Just getting cool powers 'cause of the whole AU thing. O.o
Hitomi: COOL!
Ashes: stop yelling. -._-*
A/N: Mwaaaaaahaa! I didn't have anything new happen! Alright calming down. But Hitomi is going to experience new power changes because she makes a different choice after the bridge scene (Yes, this fic actually does have a plot and isn't just some useless romance thing!) See I felt Van should have his own little explanation, but Hitomi's going to get some cool new sensing techniques and I needed to explain that when it happens. Not to mention it really needs to be explained how the hell she managed to find him. I mean Van doesn't even know where he is. I think I may have the whole next chapter dedicated to them just trying to find their way back. Hehehe. ( Joking. Anyway, write me any ideas or opinions you might have, and if you don't feel like reviewing you can send them to me at luverofvanfanel@hotmail.com. Also, thanks to my gorgeous and talented beta, Cat! ((a.k.a. SilverPrincess)) and my sub-beta as well, Mere!
Also, I am going to be doing a lot of switching between Hitomi and Van's POVs, but not crazily like every few paragraphs (and yes next chapter I'll actually continue on with where I left it off in the first one)