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Isn't it interesting, how one mistake can make your life change forever? One little mistake. Just because I did one or two things wrong in life, I changed my life forever. His name was on the lips of many. Her name was on the lips of many. But not mine. Never mine. Isn't it interesting?
They pity her, honor him and have forgotten me. Shame at first, anger, sorrow. But now simply not knowing. Her name they know, as a warning of what could happen. But not mine. Do they fear that a mistake of centuries ago could change their life as well? Only their mistakes could do that. Not mine. They can only affect three lives, and those of long ago: hers, his and mine.
Long ago I would have blamed others for what my life became, but not now. Now I see whose fault it was: mine and mine alone. Isn't it odd how one step can change your life forever? One movement forward, and one choice. And all over honor and revenge. Spilling blood to avenge that already spilled. I thought it so important once. Now I see what the Herald-Mage who took me under her wing meant. It's a stupid reason to murder and suicide. It's a stupid reason to bring about an end, whether mine, hers or someone elses all togther.
I'm sorry too, for more things than anyone could ever imagine. Sorry for ruining their lives. The lives of the ones I loved. Love still. Why did I ever take that step, or make that decision? They say we cannot choose how we go, but I did, in a horrible way. I took my life in my own hands and in doing so, took theirs as well. Why did I ever jump? I should have jumped into his arms, onto her back. What they say is that we cannot choose the way we go. What they don't say, is that it's possible, but that the price is too terrible to ever imagine. I payed it, and still feel the guilt.
Isn't it funny how one choice -one step- can change your life and that of those you love forever? And forever is a very long time.
Isn't it interesting, how one mistake can make your life change forever? One little mistake. Just because I did one or two things wrong in life, I changed my life forever. His name was on the lips of many. Her name was on the lips of many. But not mine. Never mine. Isn't it interesting?
They pity her, honor him and have forgotten me. Shame at first, anger, sorrow. But now simply not knowing. Her name they know, as a warning of what could happen. But not mine. Do they fear that a mistake of centuries ago could change their life as well? Only their mistakes could do that. Not mine. They can only affect three lives, and those of long ago: hers, his and mine.
Long ago I would have blamed others for what my life became, but not now. Now I see whose fault it was: mine and mine alone. Isn't it odd how one step can change your life forever? One movement forward, and one choice. And all over honor and revenge. Spilling blood to avenge that already spilled. I thought it so important once. Now I see what the Herald-Mage who took me under her wing meant. It's a stupid reason to murder and suicide. It's a stupid reason to bring about an end, whether mine, hers or someone elses all togther.
I'm sorry too, for more things than anyone could ever imagine. Sorry for ruining their lives. The lives of the ones I loved. Love still. Why did I ever take that step, or make that decision? They say we cannot choose how we go, but I did, in a horrible way. I took my life in my own hands and in doing so, took theirs as well. Why did I ever jump? I should have jumped into his arms, onto her back. What they say is that we cannot choose the way we go. What they don't say, is that it's possible, but that the price is too terrible to ever imagine. I payed it, and still feel the guilt.
Isn't it funny how one choice -one step- can change your life and that of those you love forever? And forever is a very long time.