AN: Screw disclaimers. Look in the parts before this if you love them so
much! =P
Disclaimer: ^.^;; It just doesn't seem right without one though lol. Ok... you know the drill. Not mine.
The crunch of leaves alerted me that someone was approaching. Yet another way of the forest telling me that it would be friendlier to me than the mansion could ever be. I ignored the urge to run away from who the footsteps would belong to. If something happened to me, my family would worry and then they'd find out how much they would miss me.
The walking ceased to continue. "Audrina, what was that about? After all these years, is this your way of telling me you're insecure?" I didn't have to lift my head to know that the voice belonged to papa.
My own came out low and muffled. "I don't like her."
"Why not?"
"You know why."
From within him erupted a growl. "Well at least look at me when you're speaking."
"No."
I think papa wished he could rip out all his precious hair. Balding was a no no since it was another one of the many symbols of aging. "Why do you think that everything has to revolve around you? Maybe I love Clarria for her personality and I don't care what she looks like."
Finally removing my head from my legs, my chilly eyes met papa's. "I don't believe in love at first sight."
He easily found another tree trunk and leaned against it. "Oh Audrina," papa simply muttered.
"Please get rid of her. I was okay with Billie but I just can't handle her. I don't want her."
He whispered without emotion, "Is this your way of telling me it's either you or her?"
"Yes."
"Then I choose Clarria," he shouted angrily. Papa quickly strolled back towards the house.
He had picked a stranger over me. A stranger. It just shows how much he cared about our relationship as father and daughter. Our history had spanned over 2 decades. Then an Audrina-wannabe waltzes in and I was out of the picture. Maybe there really was nothing he wouldn't do to get the first Audrina back. Maybe he had never really gotten over me getting raped.
When the night winds blowing over threw my dirty dress into tumbles and the howling disrupted my mindless thoughts, I wrapped my arms tighter around my legs. There was no way I was going somewhere I wasn't wanted. I would be damned before I would cry another tear for the stupid man that claimed to be my papa. I would rather die. It's not like I had anything to live for anyway.
I don't know how long I stayed outside. All I know is that I had fallen asleep and my freezing body had turned numb. No amount of shivering would give me back my warmth. It began to rain soon after that. I wasn't ready when it started tumbling down in huge drops; one after the other. They were sent from the heavens to tell me I was unwanted everywhere. I was depressed as I tried to get closer to the tree trunk. The water just dripped through the branches of the newly developing leaves and soaked me through from head to toe.
There was a point during that night when I was delirious. Nothing made sense anymore and reality was no more. Within my mystic mind, I heard a distraught cry. "Au-dr-drina!"
"Later Sylvia. Not now," I whispered out loud, shaking my head against limp legs.
Then came the soft, startlingly dry chest that I was shoved against. I just kept murmuring, "Later Sylvia. Not now. Leave me alone!" My mind wasn't thinking right. Deep down, I knew that it couldn't be my sister carrying me somewhere. She didn't have that kind of strength.
Luckily or unluckily, there were even spaces during the haunting darkness where I managed to glimpse into my life again.
"-- call the doctor!"
"Now? But what if--"
"-- three weeks, at the most --"
"Forgive me Audrina."
I saw people I never thought I would see again. I recall being squished against my real mommy and she was whispering endearing words to me. "It's okay Audrina honey. I love you. I love you forever and beyond that. I will always be by your side. Don't forget, I'll be your guardian angel for all of eternity. Miss you sweetheart." Her multi-colored hair sprinkling across my forehead, she kissed me.
I snuggled closer and smiled. Finally, I would be with mother again. She was the only one I knew that brought back a time of an innocent, naive Audrina. Suddenly, I was hurled away from my lovely mother. She didn't do anything about it but smile like a goddess.
"No! Mommy! Don't leave me!," I screamed, each letter jerking tears from my eyes.
Billie looked at me strictly. "Why are you yelling at me? Oh well, the important thing is I thought I told you to take good care of my son."
"I tried," I whispered to nothing and everything.
"No you didn't. You're lying," she accused me as she suddenly turned pale, her eyes sunken in, and her skin growing non-existent. "You're lying," Billie's maggot-covered skull muttered again while the meatless finger pointed at me.
I was jerked around and the independent woman I loved disappeared. "What's the matter? Is the Audrina not perfect anymore? Awww, poor baby. No one loves you," Vera snickered.
"Oh, shut your trap. Stop talking and clean up this mess. Why must I be the one to always clean up?," a very tired Aunt Ellsbeth disciplined to her. "And you, Audrina. I'm dead and you're alive. You're lucky but do you think you deserved to be the one in the waking world while we're wandering around like ghosts?"
"No," I whimpered, crying. Crazy, I shut my eyes tightly and pressed my hands firmly against my unwilling ears to block the dead. Why were they all taunting me? Why?
I felt warm fingers prying my cold hands away. "You're better than all of us Audrina. You don't belong here." That deep voice was so familiar yet... I opened my eyes out of curiosity. It was Lamar! My pianist teacher.
"Shush. I'll make it all better." He kissed me on the top of my head and I blushed.
***
"Please wake up Audrina. I'm sorry. Forgive me. I didn't mean it," papa managed to strangle out.
I mumbled something even I couldn't comprehend. My whole body ached and my eyes were still closed. I didn't want to face the world I dreaded so much.
"I'll get rid of Clarria since you seem to hate her so much. I love you more than her. I was just-- I was angry with everything that was going on. Please just get better. I admit that the thought of having a grandchild was too much at first. But now, I want one so much, I can hear the baby cry. If you..."
"What are you talking about," I croaked from my sore throat. Was I dreaming still?
I heard something rustling. "With all this excitement of a future baby in the household, I forgot you didn't know yet. You're pregnant."
My eyes snapped open. My feverish forehead crinkled as I sneezed. "What?!"
"You're three weeks pregnant according to the doctor that came to see you about your amazingly high fever. He said if you're not careful, you may lose the baby but..." he rambled on but I tried to catch every word. I wanted the newborn, my child. I would try with all my strength, heart, and soul to give birth to him or her.
Oh yes. Finally. Something to live for.
AN: I know, I know. It's the shortest part so far but this is the PERFECT place to end it, don't you think? Oh ya, and I know that in real life, Audrina would have probably lost the baby or something but how could you think of doing something like that to poor, sweet Audrina?? I couldn't bear to do it. Who disagrees with me? *someone slowly raises their hands but I glare at them with my author powers and they quickly lower it again* alrighty then... PLEASE REVIEW! lol.
P.S. For all you people asking if I will continue... I will as long as I get reviews. But seriously, it's my goal to finish ALL my stories so probably yep! lol
Disclaimer: ^.^;; It just doesn't seem right without one though lol. Ok... you know the drill. Not mine.
The crunch of leaves alerted me that someone was approaching. Yet another way of the forest telling me that it would be friendlier to me than the mansion could ever be. I ignored the urge to run away from who the footsteps would belong to. If something happened to me, my family would worry and then they'd find out how much they would miss me.
The walking ceased to continue. "Audrina, what was that about? After all these years, is this your way of telling me you're insecure?" I didn't have to lift my head to know that the voice belonged to papa.
My own came out low and muffled. "I don't like her."
"Why not?"
"You know why."
From within him erupted a growl. "Well at least look at me when you're speaking."
"No."
I think papa wished he could rip out all his precious hair. Balding was a no no since it was another one of the many symbols of aging. "Why do you think that everything has to revolve around you? Maybe I love Clarria for her personality and I don't care what she looks like."
Finally removing my head from my legs, my chilly eyes met papa's. "I don't believe in love at first sight."
He easily found another tree trunk and leaned against it. "Oh Audrina," papa simply muttered.
"Please get rid of her. I was okay with Billie but I just can't handle her. I don't want her."
He whispered without emotion, "Is this your way of telling me it's either you or her?"
"Yes."
"Then I choose Clarria," he shouted angrily. Papa quickly strolled back towards the house.
He had picked a stranger over me. A stranger. It just shows how much he cared about our relationship as father and daughter. Our history had spanned over 2 decades. Then an Audrina-wannabe waltzes in and I was out of the picture. Maybe there really was nothing he wouldn't do to get the first Audrina back. Maybe he had never really gotten over me getting raped.
When the night winds blowing over threw my dirty dress into tumbles and the howling disrupted my mindless thoughts, I wrapped my arms tighter around my legs. There was no way I was going somewhere I wasn't wanted. I would be damned before I would cry another tear for the stupid man that claimed to be my papa. I would rather die. It's not like I had anything to live for anyway.
I don't know how long I stayed outside. All I know is that I had fallen asleep and my freezing body had turned numb. No amount of shivering would give me back my warmth. It began to rain soon after that. I wasn't ready when it started tumbling down in huge drops; one after the other. They were sent from the heavens to tell me I was unwanted everywhere. I was depressed as I tried to get closer to the tree trunk. The water just dripped through the branches of the newly developing leaves and soaked me through from head to toe.
There was a point during that night when I was delirious. Nothing made sense anymore and reality was no more. Within my mystic mind, I heard a distraught cry. "Au-dr-drina!"
"Later Sylvia. Not now," I whispered out loud, shaking my head against limp legs.
Then came the soft, startlingly dry chest that I was shoved against. I just kept murmuring, "Later Sylvia. Not now. Leave me alone!" My mind wasn't thinking right. Deep down, I knew that it couldn't be my sister carrying me somewhere. She didn't have that kind of strength.
Luckily or unluckily, there were even spaces during the haunting darkness where I managed to glimpse into my life again.
"-- call the doctor!"
"Now? But what if--"
"-- three weeks, at the most --"
"Forgive me Audrina."
I saw people I never thought I would see again. I recall being squished against my real mommy and she was whispering endearing words to me. "It's okay Audrina honey. I love you. I love you forever and beyond that. I will always be by your side. Don't forget, I'll be your guardian angel for all of eternity. Miss you sweetheart." Her multi-colored hair sprinkling across my forehead, she kissed me.
I snuggled closer and smiled. Finally, I would be with mother again. She was the only one I knew that brought back a time of an innocent, naive Audrina. Suddenly, I was hurled away from my lovely mother. She didn't do anything about it but smile like a goddess.
"No! Mommy! Don't leave me!," I screamed, each letter jerking tears from my eyes.
Billie looked at me strictly. "Why are you yelling at me? Oh well, the important thing is I thought I told you to take good care of my son."
"I tried," I whispered to nothing and everything.
"No you didn't. You're lying," she accused me as she suddenly turned pale, her eyes sunken in, and her skin growing non-existent. "You're lying," Billie's maggot-covered skull muttered again while the meatless finger pointed at me.
I was jerked around and the independent woman I loved disappeared. "What's the matter? Is the Audrina not perfect anymore? Awww, poor baby. No one loves you," Vera snickered.
"Oh, shut your trap. Stop talking and clean up this mess. Why must I be the one to always clean up?," a very tired Aunt Ellsbeth disciplined to her. "And you, Audrina. I'm dead and you're alive. You're lucky but do you think you deserved to be the one in the waking world while we're wandering around like ghosts?"
"No," I whimpered, crying. Crazy, I shut my eyes tightly and pressed my hands firmly against my unwilling ears to block the dead. Why were they all taunting me? Why?
I felt warm fingers prying my cold hands away. "You're better than all of us Audrina. You don't belong here." That deep voice was so familiar yet... I opened my eyes out of curiosity. It was Lamar! My pianist teacher.
"Shush. I'll make it all better." He kissed me on the top of my head and I blushed.
***
"Please wake up Audrina. I'm sorry. Forgive me. I didn't mean it," papa managed to strangle out.
I mumbled something even I couldn't comprehend. My whole body ached and my eyes were still closed. I didn't want to face the world I dreaded so much.
"I'll get rid of Clarria since you seem to hate her so much. I love you more than her. I was just-- I was angry with everything that was going on. Please just get better. I admit that the thought of having a grandchild was too much at first. But now, I want one so much, I can hear the baby cry. If you..."
"What are you talking about," I croaked from my sore throat. Was I dreaming still?
I heard something rustling. "With all this excitement of a future baby in the household, I forgot you didn't know yet. You're pregnant."
My eyes snapped open. My feverish forehead crinkled as I sneezed. "What?!"
"You're three weeks pregnant according to the doctor that came to see you about your amazingly high fever. He said if you're not careful, you may lose the baby but..." he rambled on but I tried to catch every word. I wanted the newborn, my child. I would try with all my strength, heart, and soul to give birth to him or her.
Oh yes. Finally. Something to live for.
AN: I know, I know. It's the shortest part so far but this is the PERFECT place to end it, don't you think? Oh ya, and I know that in real life, Audrina would have probably lost the baby or something but how could you think of doing something like that to poor, sweet Audrina?? I couldn't bear to do it. Who disagrees with me? *someone slowly raises their hands but I glare at them with my author powers and they quickly lower it again* alrighty then... PLEASE REVIEW! lol.
P.S. For all you people asking if I will continue... I will as long as I get reviews. But seriously, it's my goal to finish ALL my stories so probably yep! lol