Author's brief note:
Hey! I'm glad some of you liked my story. Most of the reviewers told me that they didn't understand some things. I hope I can help with this chapter. Anyway feel free to ask whatever you don't get. * winks *
Never Again
Chapter 2: ** Nameless and loveless **
My P.O.V.
That night I couldn't sleep. The room was dark and cold, but the covers of my bed warmth my body. I looked around a couple of times studying the person laying in the next bed. Lily Evans a extremely beautiful woman with long bright red curly hair and huge emerald green eyes was lost in a deep sleep. Then I remembered, the first day in my whole life I was noticed. Not by her exactly, but someone noticed and remembered me.
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As always I sat in a far corner of the Great Hall at breakfast time staring at my plate. It was empty, I was not hungry. I thought about OWLS and my dream of being an auror when someone or something interrupted my thoughts.
A great brun owl was standing in front of me with a tiny piece of paper attach to its leg.
"Oh..." that was everything I could say. Then I took the parchment and began reading. The owl flew away oddly. The letter was pretty short, it was mostly a note.
- Look for me in the Owlery in 15 minutes. -
That was something new. Who in the whole school really had the desire of meeting me secretly? It must be a mistake. Or maybe not. However there's nothing to lose by going. If the note is not for me, I would just improve something like: I'm going to send a letter. To whom? No idea, but that was something nobody cared.
So filled in curiosity I started walking upstairs to the famous Owlery. When I got there I stared at the door feeling nervous. I put my pale white hand in the doorknob but after I could pull it open, someone inside opened it before me.
I looked into his eyes and he did so with mines.
"I was waiting for you.." He said calmly and walked back into the room. It smelled really shitty. I grinned nastily at the place and at the awful quantity of sleeping owls, but then looked out the window. I had a perfect view of the grounds. The Forbidden Forest, the black deep lake, the light green quiddich pitch with the houses' towers and the goal posts... Everything was there. I smiled, something really rare in me. He laid his hand on my shoulder and sighed. I stepped back looking confused and in a rush of nerves said.
"W-w-what do you want from me?" He looked at me raising an eyebrow, making me understand that sounded in a wrong way.
"I'm not going to hurt you." He said with a weakly faked laugh. " I just wanted to know your name."
"My name?" I said most to myself than to him.
"No your twin sister's name..." He joked. "Of course your name. Or is that you don't have one."
I nodded, then asked. "Yours?"
He lend me a hand and said smirking. "Remus Lupin."
"Oh.." I tossed my hair back and shook his hand, then heard his weak tired voice again.
"I really want to know your name." The bell rang signaling all the students to go to their first class, I ran to the door and opened it then started running downstairs without looking back. I knew he was chasing me.
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Slowly my eyes began to close. I was falling asleep and the sun was already setting.
A couple of hours later Lily grabbed my shoulder and shook me slightly repeating my name. I opened my eyes lazily and sat on the bed.
"Good Morning." She said smiling brightly already dressed with a short blood red dress that made her flame curls glow laying heavily on her shoulders.
"Morning." I answered, not even looking up. Stretching slightly my arms I gazed to the showers. Twenty minutes later I was already dressed, my long black hair flung in my back as I put on my black long coat. As I walked downstairs the enthusiastic conversation caught my ears coming from the kitchen. I opened the door, everyone was there, they looked at me weirdly. Suppose they were not used to have such a young kid in the meetings.
Dumbledore and Remus walked up to me smiling politely.
"What about some bacon an eggs?" Dumbledore offered.
"No thanks." I smiled weakly.
Remus shook his head. "You haven't changed."
I laughed also weakly. "Just coffee." Remus looked at me confused, I realized coffee was a muggle drink.
"Muggle drink." I cleared my point as he nodded.
"Do you fancy a walk?" This suggestion took me for surprise, but I understood he wanted to talk about something important. I had plenty of time so I agree with him. We went to the backyard, which was hilariously enormous. Full of colorful flowers of all types, shapes and colors (I even thought I spotted one black flower) and huge green trees with glowing light green leaves, huge strong trunks and large curly roots. The fresh smell of grass caught my senses. His face looked worried and slightly blushed, his hands in his pockets were moving nervously as he walked along with me.
"What ails you?" I asked almost immediately. He didn't spoke a word until we were really deep in the garden. Then he sat on the ground and patted the place next to him. I didn't asked again, there was no need, I just sat where he signaled me.
"Yesterday, that you got to The Order I felt something weird recalling when we met."
I raised an eyebrow trying to comprehend what he was saying. "What do you mean?"
"Well," He sighed. "I told you I wanted to be Head Boy.. and practically I told you I was jealous about James."
I nodded. "And that was not the only reason." He completed the idea.
"I know.." I said cautiously, it was a pretty delicate subject. Then I remembered.
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After running off the Owlery I went to my first class. Potions. It was like every class. Boring. After two more classes I walked back to the Great Hall, every single student at Hogwarts was there, so I felt, like always, out of context.
It was such a pretty noon that I decided to immerse myself into the books fairy world. I gazed to the library, then. My favorite seat, between Care of Magical Creatures section and Divination section was deserted, but after I could even set my things on the table I heard something. Two people laughing. A girl and a boy, I could recognize. So I smirked between the shelves and spotted one tall, skinny, flame red haired girl and a boy with muscular body, hazel eyes, wearing golden round glasses. My skin turned blood red as they kissed around the Potions section. I turned around and sighed deeply not knowing what to do. As a prefect, I told to myself, you should say something. But as a girl you should shut up and continue your reading, and that's what I did. Sat and took out an old huge book trying to concentrate, but it was awful, they were so noisy! Then I heard something else, a heavy breath coming from the other side of the section. I stood up confidently and looked around, and there he was Remus, again, smirking, just as I did, between the shelves.
"Um.." I cleared my throat. "Excuse me, but you shouldn't." My sentence was interrupted by his look, Again, sad and tired. "Are you okay?" I let my curiosity talk. He examined me for a while and staring at his feet said lowly. "No."
Another rush of curiosity talked. "What's wrong?"
"He.." He pointed to the other side of the shelf where the two people were making out.
"Oh..." I understood wrongly. "Yes, I know it is SO annoying. People thinks this is a Hotel. They" I also pointed at the other side of the shelf. "Should get a room, I'm sure there must be one in Hogwarts made specially for that kind of kinkiness."
He widen his eyes and faked a laugh. "That's not what I'm referring to." He took his pile of books from the floor and started walking outside, lowering his head at every new step. I followed him forgetting about my schoolbag.
"Then?" He stopped abruptly and I could notice a tear falling to the floor directly from his eye. "He's stolen everything I dreamed."
I sighed and didn't say anything for a while, then I realized he was waiting for an answer. "If you dreamed about it, then you don't own it, so he can't steal something from you." That was certainly not the answer he expected, but I was not the person everybody expected me to be.
"I suppose." He said coldly. "You haven't fell in love."
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We stared at each other, me containing tears. It was a tuff thing to remember and not just because he felt upset about James being a Head Boy and Lily's boyfriend. Then I remembered I had my own ails.. my own failed dreams.
That's it for this chapter. I hope you liked it! Review and tell me what you think. Also if you got any chance read my fic "Where does love come from?" *winks*
Hey! I'm glad some of you liked my story. Most of the reviewers told me that they didn't understand some things. I hope I can help with this chapter. Anyway feel free to ask whatever you don't get. * winks *
Never Again
Chapter 2: ** Nameless and loveless **
My P.O.V.
That night I couldn't sleep. The room was dark and cold, but the covers of my bed warmth my body. I looked around a couple of times studying the person laying in the next bed. Lily Evans a extremely beautiful woman with long bright red curly hair and huge emerald green eyes was lost in a deep sleep. Then I remembered, the first day in my whole life I was noticed. Not by her exactly, but someone noticed and remembered me.
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As always I sat in a far corner of the Great Hall at breakfast time staring at my plate. It was empty, I was not hungry. I thought about OWLS and my dream of being an auror when someone or something interrupted my thoughts.
A great brun owl was standing in front of me with a tiny piece of paper attach to its leg.
"Oh..." that was everything I could say. Then I took the parchment and began reading. The owl flew away oddly. The letter was pretty short, it was mostly a note.
- Look for me in the Owlery in 15 minutes. -
That was something new. Who in the whole school really had the desire of meeting me secretly? It must be a mistake. Or maybe not. However there's nothing to lose by going. If the note is not for me, I would just improve something like: I'm going to send a letter. To whom? No idea, but that was something nobody cared.
So filled in curiosity I started walking upstairs to the famous Owlery. When I got there I stared at the door feeling nervous. I put my pale white hand in the doorknob but after I could pull it open, someone inside opened it before me.
I looked into his eyes and he did so with mines.
"I was waiting for you.." He said calmly and walked back into the room. It smelled really shitty. I grinned nastily at the place and at the awful quantity of sleeping owls, but then looked out the window. I had a perfect view of the grounds. The Forbidden Forest, the black deep lake, the light green quiddich pitch with the houses' towers and the goal posts... Everything was there. I smiled, something really rare in me. He laid his hand on my shoulder and sighed. I stepped back looking confused and in a rush of nerves said.
"W-w-what do you want from me?" He looked at me raising an eyebrow, making me understand that sounded in a wrong way.
"I'm not going to hurt you." He said with a weakly faked laugh. " I just wanted to know your name."
"My name?" I said most to myself than to him.
"No your twin sister's name..." He joked. "Of course your name. Or is that you don't have one."
I nodded, then asked. "Yours?"
He lend me a hand and said smirking. "Remus Lupin."
"Oh.." I tossed my hair back and shook his hand, then heard his weak tired voice again.
"I really want to know your name." The bell rang signaling all the students to go to their first class, I ran to the door and opened it then started running downstairs without looking back. I knew he was chasing me.
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Slowly my eyes began to close. I was falling asleep and the sun was already setting.
A couple of hours later Lily grabbed my shoulder and shook me slightly repeating my name. I opened my eyes lazily and sat on the bed.
"Good Morning." She said smiling brightly already dressed with a short blood red dress that made her flame curls glow laying heavily on her shoulders.
"Morning." I answered, not even looking up. Stretching slightly my arms I gazed to the showers. Twenty minutes later I was already dressed, my long black hair flung in my back as I put on my black long coat. As I walked downstairs the enthusiastic conversation caught my ears coming from the kitchen. I opened the door, everyone was there, they looked at me weirdly. Suppose they were not used to have such a young kid in the meetings.
Dumbledore and Remus walked up to me smiling politely.
"What about some bacon an eggs?" Dumbledore offered.
"No thanks." I smiled weakly.
Remus shook his head. "You haven't changed."
I laughed also weakly. "Just coffee." Remus looked at me confused, I realized coffee was a muggle drink.
"Muggle drink." I cleared my point as he nodded.
"Do you fancy a walk?" This suggestion took me for surprise, but I understood he wanted to talk about something important. I had plenty of time so I agree with him. We went to the backyard, which was hilariously enormous. Full of colorful flowers of all types, shapes and colors (I even thought I spotted one black flower) and huge green trees with glowing light green leaves, huge strong trunks and large curly roots. The fresh smell of grass caught my senses. His face looked worried and slightly blushed, his hands in his pockets were moving nervously as he walked along with me.
"What ails you?" I asked almost immediately. He didn't spoke a word until we were really deep in the garden. Then he sat on the ground and patted the place next to him. I didn't asked again, there was no need, I just sat where he signaled me.
"Yesterday, that you got to The Order I felt something weird recalling when we met."
I raised an eyebrow trying to comprehend what he was saying. "What do you mean?"
"Well," He sighed. "I told you I wanted to be Head Boy.. and practically I told you I was jealous about James."
I nodded. "And that was not the only reason." He completed the idea.
"I know.." I said cautiously, it was a pretty delicate subject. Then I remembered.
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After running off the Owlery I went to my first class. Potions. It was like every class. Boring. After two more classes I walked back to the Great Hall, every single student at Hogwarts was there, so I felt, like always, out of context.
It was such a pretty noon that I decided to immerse myself into the books fairy world. I gazed to the library, then. My favorite seat, between Care of Magical Creatures section and Divination section was deserted, but after I could even set my things on the table I heard something. Two people laughing. A girl and a boy, I could recognize. So I smirked between the shelves and spotted one tall, skinny, flame red haired girl and a boy with muscular body, hazel eyes, wearing golden round glasses. My skin turned blood red as they kissed around the Potions section. I turned around and sighed deeply not knowing what to do. As a prefect, I told to myself, you should say something. But as a girl you should shut up and continue your reading, and that's what I did. Sat and took out an old huge book trying to concentrate, but it was awful, they were so noisy! Then I heard something else, a heavy breath coming from the other side of the section. I stood up confidently and looked around, and there he was Remus, again, smirking, just as I did, between the shelves.
"Um.." I cleared my throat. "Excuse me, but you shouldn't." My sentence was interrupted by his look, Again, sad and tired. "Are you okay?" I let my curiosity talk. He examined me for a while and staring at his feet said lowly. "No."
Another rush of curiosity talked. "What's wrong?"
"He.." He pointed to the other side of the shelf where the two people were making out.
"Oh..." I understood wrongly. "Yes, I know it is SO annoying. People thinks this is a Hotel. They" I also pointed at the other side of the shelf. "Should get a room, I'm sure there must be one in Hogwarts made specially for that kind of kinkiness."
He widen his eyes and faked a laugh. "That's not what I'm referring to." He took his pile of books from the floor and started walking outside, lowering his head at every new step. I followed him forgetting about my schoolbag.
"Then?" He stopped abruptly and I could notice a tear falling to the floor directly from his eye. "He's stolen everything I dreamed."
I sighed and didn't say anything for a while, then I realized he was waiting for an answer. "If you dreamed about it, then you don't own it, so he can't steal something from you." That was certainly not the answer he expected, but I was not the person everybody expected me to be.
"I suppose." He said coldly. "You haven't fell in love."
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We stared at each other, me containing tears. It was a tuff thing to remember and not just because he felt upset about James being a Head Boy and Lily's boyfriend. Then I remembered I had my own ails.. my own failed dreams.
That's it for this chapter. I hope you liked it! Review and tell me what you think. Also if you got any chance read my fic "Where does love come from?" *winks*