Disclaimer: I don't own Rurouni Kenshin series. I wish I did but I don't. : (
Kenshin's Perspective:
Poem 2
Why did it have to be this way?
Above all things,
You came number one.
Beyond all boundaries,
You were the one who came through.
Down the depths below,
I clung desperately to claim you,
Yet why does it have to be this way?
From the distance I watched you,
But you never looked this way.
I made eye contact with you,
Yet you looked away.
Was it me?
Or was it you?
The day she came,
You acted in such a weird way.
The times we talked, you never talked this way.
Your sapphire eyes filled with life,
Dulled till there was no light.
The smile that always brightened your face,
Was no longer the same,
As if it's very existence,
Ran away in shame.
When you did not noticed,
I see the very tears you tried so hard to hide.
And here I am wondering,
Why you're so sad all the time.
Was it me?
Or was it you?
Kaoru,
You are a very dear friend,
No you're morelike a sister to me.
I love you and care for you,
You should know,
I'll never turn away from you.
Now these days are so different.
When she came,
You lost your very existence.
You stopped our special meetings that very instant.
And then became someone else at a different moment.
There are times,
I wish to understand you better,
But your unnatural ways,
Makes me go away to another distance.
Was it me?
Or was it you?
I tried calling you on the phone,
Only to speak to your mom at home.
She said you were not in,
You were somewhere,
Like in the middle of nowhere.
I asked her if you were fine,
She said yes you were going to find something.
I didn't know what she meant,
But hey I never comprehend what she said,
Nor was there a time to compromise with her.
I sat down by myself under the oak tree,
Where we first met that special night.
I thought of times we had together,
When it was only you and me playing forever.
I could still hear your laughter in my mind,
Like it was there until sunshine.
I could remember the sparkle in your eyes,
Like it was there ever since yesterday.
As the memories flooded in me,
Did I realize how much I missed you.
But as time passes, things change.
The day she came,
Oh my dear sweet Tomoe,
I never knew how beautiful the world can be.
With her urbane ways,
Her grace like ways,
The pleasant smile,
Those beautiful captivating big bright brown eyes,
She kept me in.
She swallowed me from the real world,
And took me far away to her world.
She kept me prisoner,
Until she drowned me in her sweet ways,
Making my mind astray.
Her love for me,
Made me so complete.
To have her smile at me,
Was different from the way you use to smile at me.
Your smile brought assurance to my surroundings,
Always did lift the burden from my shoulders,
But her smile was like the sun,
Always making everything beautiful,
Everything filled with happiness, with life.
Your friendship was like an anchor,
That kept me adept to one place.
Her love was like the storm,
Which plundered me through high rage,
Moved me away,
Until I experienced everything that could be known,
And taught me there were ways, more things for one to learn.
You were like the supporter,
Always there through the rough times,
Supporting me, defending me when it was needed.
She came with idealistics,
Taught me the true meaning of life,
Inquest me with her knowledge,
Making me look at her as my leader.
You and me were considered equal,
Always agreeing never giving out on each other.
But her and I were like two different people on a scale,
Only she weighed higher than me,
Winning the tall tales.
Your flames was like a candle to my shadow,
Always flickering,
Afraid to show your brightness,
Even when the slightest wind came,
Your candle almost went out without a flame.
But hers flames were like roaring fire,
Which sparked so much life, so much hope,
Even with the strongest wind,
It kept soaring to the heavens up above.
From the distance you and I stood about the same height.
You always looked upon me from eye level,
And never beyond that point.
But she and I were never the same,
For she was on pedestal,
And always looked beautiful and sane.
Yes my love for her is strong,
It burns deep within my heart,
Linger in my soul,
Where there is no sanity for me.
Her love goes through me with ease,
Yet leaves astonishing pain,
Which you could never understand.
Now as I stand here,
I look upon you,
To see tears in your eyes.
Do you now understand why I love her?
Why I can't leave her so easily?
Do you understand why I need her?
Without her,
I would be no shadow,
For it's the roaring fires that casts my big shadow.
It's her pleasant smile that keeps me going,
It's the sound of her voice that keeps me living.
It's her laughter,
Her urbane ways which makes me brighter.
All the love I have for her, can only grow much stronger.
If only you could understand what love is.
I see how left out you feel.
I know the reasons for your tears.
I see the emotions in your eyes,
For it's something you cannot hide.
I feel the tremors of your body,
I hear quickening of your heart.
Yet here we stand,
Here I stand waiting for you to answer me.
"Why did it have to be this?" I asked,
You turned around and never answered.
I asked once more,
But words never left your lips.
I stood waiting patiently for you,
To only stand and watch you cry silently.
The day I saw him walked into your life,
I never understood what you saw in him.
You're a good-hearted person,
Always giving and never taking.
Strong yet weak.
Vibrant yet restrained.
Filled with compassion,
Never any emotions left to spare.
And yet I could not understand why I felt like he didn't deserve you.
You're someone special who needs someone who could return everything you give.
You need someone to make you smile once again,
To breathe fresh air,
To live again.
But to see you with him,
Brought out a predatory instinct.
One, which I never knew, existed inside,
And made me feel like a monster on the outside.
I tried desperately to control myself around you,
But thinking of both him and you together,
Turned me off until I could no longer contain myself.
I grabbed your shoulders and pushed you against the wall.
Your eyes never met mine,
It was then I could tell that they were no longer mine.
"Why did it have to be this way?"
Why did it have to be this way?
You stood silent for a moment,
Then looked at me the next minute.
"The reason for it to be this way," you said.
"Is because I love you more then you will ever know or comprehend."
(To be continued.)