A/N: Please excuse my lack of italics and bold, it shows up when I do this
on Microsoft word, but not when I send it here. Anyways, thank you for
reviewing my last chapter (the very few that did) and please review this
one. I LIVE OFF THEM!!!!
Are You Happy Now?
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Another day. Yes, another day, of staring out my window, watching the seasons change, watching the doctors and nurses pass by my window, trying not to look at me. They get to go home, I don't. Its not fair. The door on the other side of the room creaks open, and my doctor walks in. I'm not sure of his real name, but I don't really care. I never really talk to him. He's mean, I hate him, always asking the nurses to inject me with that, and hide this in my food, his medicine makes me ever so sleepy. But I wonder, what does he really think of me? Whats he really like? Does he have a family?
(Now, Don't just walk away, Pretending everythings okay, And you don't care about me.)
If he does, he sure doesn't act like it. I change my gaze from the window to him, and stare. I stare a lot these days, its fun. I like how it unsettles people so. Its unsettling him, I know. He takes out his notebook and starts scribbling away, about nothing in particular, I guess. I wonder whats in that notebook.
(And I, Know its just no use, When all your lies become your truths And I don't care...)
He's so quiet. I watch him wander around the halls, and watch him through the "mirror" on the side of the room by the door. He never really talks to any of the nurses, when all the other doctors gabble all day about insignificant things. He's very solitary, but in a way, Im sure he's very smart. None of his elixirs (which he makes himself, that's a feat) has killed me yet. Now now! Stop it Alice! I try to tell myself this, I really shouldn't be praising the one that continuously makes me sleep. Sleep is the enemy. But I wonder still..
"Doctor, Are you happy?"
(Could you look me in eyes, And tell me that you're happy now? (Could you tell it to my face, Or have I been erased, Are you happy now?..
Are you happy now?)
"Excuse me?" He asks.
I guess I must have startled him, judging from his expression. I never really talk, this is the first time in awhile. My, it feels strange, to talk after such a long time! But still, my curiosity is eating my inside, among other things, and I must satisfy it.
"Are you happy, doctor?" I ask again.
(Look, To call it was to take, And left me with an empty place, And you don't care about it..)
Oh well, he's not answering. I suppose that means he's not happy. Well, I don't care. He's done so many nasty things to me, I'm sure he deserves what unhappiness he has. The bastard, now, I'm angry.
(And I, Am giving up this game, And leaving you with all the blame, Cause' I don't care..)
But I wonder... is he happy? What he does to me, does it please him? Does he take pride in seeing me suffer? No, I think not. The last patient he was working with died, (or so I've gathered) I think he feels guilty. He says nothing to any nurses, but I can tell, he feel guilty. He feels many things, I know, but says nothing. Like me, the only emotion I've been able to release is anger, and afterwords I feel guilty.
"Are you happy? Why aren't you answering me? Is it because you aren't happy?"
(Could you, Look me in the eyes, And tell me that you're happy now? Could you tell it to my face, Or have I been erased , Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Do you really have everything worked? You can only say something you'll regret,
But you cant run away from yourself..
"Why wont you answer me?"
(Could you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you're happy now?
Come on, Tell it to my face, Or have I been replaced, Are you happy now?)
(Would you look me in the eye? Could you look me in the eye? I've had all that I cant take, But I'm not about to brake, Are you happy now?)
Then, he finally answered me.
"No, Alice, I'm not happy."
(Are you happy now?)
Thanks again. Alice belongs to American Mcgee, And the song "Are you Happy Now?" belongs to Michelle Branch.
Are You Happy Now?
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Another day. Yes, another day, of staring out my window, watching the seasons change, watching the doctors and nurses pass by my window, trying not to look at me. They get to go home, I don't. Its not fair. The door on the other side of the room creaks open, and my doctor walks in. I'm not sure of his real name, but I don't really care. I never really talk to him. He's mean, I hate him, always asking the nurses to inject me with that, and hide this in my food, his medicine makes me ever so sleepy. But I wonder, what does he really think of me? Whats he really like? Does he have a family?
(Now, Don't just walk away, Pretending everythings okay, And you don't care about me.)
If he does, he sure doesn't act like it. I change my gaze from the window to him, and stare. I stare a lot these days, its fun. I like how it unsettles people so. Its unsettling him, I know. He takes out his notebook and starts scribbling away, about nothing in particular, I guess. I wonder whats in that notebook.
(And I, Know its just no use, When all your lies become your truths And I don't care...)
He's so quiet. I watch him wander around the halls, and watch him through the "mirror" on the side of the room by the door. He never really talks to any of the nurses, when all the other doctors gabble all day about insignificant things. He's very solitary, but in a way, Im sure he's very smart. None of his elixirs (which he makes himself, that's a feat) has killed me yet. Now now! Stop it Alice! I try to tell myself this, I really shouldn't be praising the one that continuously makes me sleep. Sleep is the enemy. But I wonder still..
"Doctor, Are you happy?"
(Could you look me in eyes, And tell me that you're happy now? (Could you tell it to my face, Or have I been erased, Are you happy now?..
Are you happy now?)
"Excuse me?" He asks.
I guess I must have startled him, judging from his expression. I never really talk, this is the first time in awhile. My, it feels strange, to talk after such a long time! But still, my curiosity is eating my inside, among other things, and I must satisfy it.
"Are you happy, doctor?" I ask again.
(Look, To call it was to take, And left me with an empty place, And you don't care about it..)
Oh well, he's not answering. I suppose that means he's not happy. Well, I don't care. He's done so many nasty things to me, I'm sure he deserves what unhappiness he has. The bastard, now, I'm angry.
(And I, Am giving up this game, And leaving you with all the blame, Cause' I don't care..)
But I wonder... is he happy? What he does to me, does it please him? Does he take pride in seeing me suffer? No, I think not. The last patient he was working with died, (or so I've gathered) I think he feels guilty. He says nothing to any nurses, but I can tell, he feel guilty. He feels many things, I know, but says nothing. Like me, the only emotion I've been able to release is anger, and afterwords I feel guilty.
"Are you happy? Why aren't you answering me? Is it because you aren't happy?"
(Could you, Look me in the eyes, And tell me that you're happy now? Could you tell it to my face, Or have I been erased , Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
Do you really have everything worked? You can only say something you'll regret,
But you cant run away from yourself..
"Why wont you answer me?"
(Could you look me in the eyes, And tell me that you're happy now?
Come on, Tell it to my face, Or have I been replaced, Are you happy now?)
(Would you look me in the eye? Could you look me in the eye? I've had all that I cant take, But I'm not about to brake, Are you happy now?)
Then, he finally answered me.
"No, Alice, I'm not happy."
(Are you happy now?)
Thanks again. Alice belongs to American Mcgee, And the song "Are you Happy Now?" belongs to Michelle Branch.