Disclaimer: I don't own ER, i swear, i mean if i did, wich i don't, i've
already told you people i'd be swimming in a pool filled with plastic balls
with Noah Wyle by my side...but i don't...k...,neither do i own the song
'It's Been Awhile' by Staind.
It's Been Awhile
Exam room 3, 12:32 p.m
All that went through Carter's mind, as Edson tied him to a new chair in Exam Room 3, was about how much that Staind song lyrics fitted his situation perfectly.
And it's been awhile Since i can say that i wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since i can say i love myself aswell And it's been awhile Since i've gone and f%cked things up just like i always do And it's been a while but all that shit seams to dissapeir when i'm with you
He didn't know why but that last line remided him so much about Deb.
And everything i can't remember
As f%cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that i've rendered
I've gone and f%cked things up again
Why must i feel this way
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
He wished for that last line to come true so badly, he wished for this to not happen, he wished for it all to go away, the shooting, Edson being their captor, them being hostage and the needle going in.
''Why are you doing this?'' He somehow managed to say in a rusty voice, as the whole room spinned beneath his feet.
''I think you know...'' Answered Dale, calmly, as he stared down at him.
''Why?'' Repeated Carter, all he could think of now, was that if Dale had just done a thing like this, he atleast deserved an explanation.
''Because...'' Started Edson. ''It was the time for me to finally take my revenge, you see it's like these...ever since i've got here, you've taken what should have been mine'' He paused.
''...Harper, the respect of almost every surgeon in this hopsital and.......Lucy'' He whispered.
''I didn't take anyone or anything from you, you did that all on your own'' He fought to say.
''NO!!, you took Lucy, and now she's lifeless six feet under and it's all your fault!!'' Yelled Edson, as his eyes got watery.
''I didn't kill Lucy, Dale...you know that'' Answered Carter, his eyes now teary also.
''You may not have been the stabber, but she died beacause you didn't supervise....'' He paused. ''She died because...she died because of you'' He whispered.
Carter couldn't say anything, specially because he thought so himself, he did believe that if he'd supervised her, that wouldn't have happened at all, if he was more responsable and less childish they would both be alive and kicking right now.
''That's why you are going to suffer...'' He threatend, as he took another needle and filled it with the same kind of fluid he had done before.
As John passed out, the lyrics where still ringing in his head.
And everything i can't remember
As f%cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that i've rendered
I've gone and f%cked things up again
Why must i feel this way?
Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhile Since i could hold my head up high
And it's been a while Since i said i'm sorry
As the darkness took over, a few silent words escaped his mouth.
''I'm sorry Lucy...''
hi, i know i haven't posted it's just that my computer is not working well and i had to find another one, i actually have 3 more chapters written (the ending is not among those...yet) well please review i love it when you do...it gets me up....anywho...it's right about there (ala cartman, i don't own him)
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It's Been Awhile
Exam room 3, 12:32 p.m
All that went through Carter's mind, as Edson tied him to a new chair in Exam Room 3, was about how much that Staind song lyrics fitted his situation perfectly.
And it's been awhile Since i can say that i wasn't addicted And it's been awhile Since i can say i love myself aswell And it's been awhile Since i've gone and f%cked things up just like i always do And it's been a while but all that shit seams to dissapeir when i'm with you
He didn't know why but that last line remided him so much about Deb.
And everything i can't remember
As f%cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that i've rendered
I've gone and f%cked things up again
Why must i feel this way
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
He wished for that last line to come true so badly, he wished for this to not happen, he wished for it all to go away, the shooting, Edson being their captor, them being hostage and the needle going in.
''Why are you doing this?'' He somehow managed to say in a rusty voice, as the whole room spinned beneath his feet.
''I think you know...'' Answered Dale, calmly, as he stared down at him.
''Why?'' Repeated Carter, all he could think of now, was that if Dale had just done a thing like this, he atleast deserved an explanation.
''Because...'' Started Edson. ''It was the time for me to finally take my revenge, you see it's like these...ever since i've got here, you've taken what should have been mine'' He paused.
''...Harper, the respect of almost every surgeon in this hopsital and.......Lucy'' He whispered.
''I didn't take anyone or anything from you, you did that all on your own'' He fought to say.
''NO!!, you took Lucy, and now she's lifeless six feet under and it's all your fault!!'' Yelled Edson, as his eyes got watery.
''I didn't kill Lucy, Dale...you know that'' Answered Carter, his eyes now teary also.
''You may not have been the stabber, but she died beacause you didn't supervise....'' He paused. ''She died because...she died because of you'' He whispered.
Carter couldn't say anything, specially because he thought so himself, he did believe that if he'd supervised her, that wouldn't have happened at all, if he was more responsable and less childish they would both be alive and kicking right now.
''That's why you are going to suffer...'' He threatend, as he took another needle and filled it with the same kind of fluid he had done before.
As John passed out, the lyrics where still ringing in his head.
And everything i can't remember
As f%cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that i've rendered
I've gone and f%cked things up again
Why must i feel this way?
Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhile Since i could hold my head up high
And it's been a while Since i said i'm sorry
As the darkness took over, a few silent words escaped his mouth.
''I'm sorry Lucy...''
hi, i know i haven't posted it's just that my computer is not working well and i had to find another one, i actually have 3 more chapters written (the ending is not among those...yet) well please review i love it when you do...it gets me up....anywho...it's right about there (ala cartman, i don't own him)
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v i like...u like?...u review...