Disclaimer: see chpt1
A/n: yay! Chapter 8! Don't worry, the next chapter will be rather action-
filled :) this one is pretty good too I reckon :) Ah well, I know it took
longer than normal, but I have a BIG workload.
Anyways, enjoy :)
Seattle, 2021 Logan's dining room 7:56 PM
I can't help staring at Max as she absent-mindedly picks at her food. She usually eats fast, grinning the whole time. I had hoped that our talk today would have made her happy, and I think it did, but I can't help wondering what's making her worry. I sigh, sifting through the events of the day, trying to work out why Max would be upset. And why Six was acting so strangely yesterday.
Oh well, my main aim today is to make Max happy, so that is what I will do. As soon as we finish dinner, I'll ask her what's wrong.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's living room 8:30 PM
'What's wrong' he asks me. Geez, how am I supposed to answer that. Yeah, I'd like to see his reaction to 'Gee, Logan, I don't wanna have sex with you k?' I sigh. I love Logan more than I've ever loved anything or anyone in my life. I would die for him. However, I'm not ready to have sex with him. Not right now anyway. I really do not want to screw this relationship up. But how do I tell Logan that?
Seattle 2021 Meech's garage 8:45 PM
"Meech, are you sure it's OK for me to stay here?" I ask my manager tentatively. Although I do have my own place, I really do not want to stay alone tonight.
"Sure hun." Meech grins at me. "Wouldn't want my star performer to be all lonely"
I gasp, pretending to be insulted. "You are so mean, Meech!"
"Sorry kiddo." She pauses "I'm glad to have you here, you're always welcome."
I sigh. "Thanks Meech. I'll go check on Max and Logan tomorrow. Hopefully the lovin' will be over."
Meech makes a face. "TMI Six. Anyway, go to sleep. You have an early gig tomorrow."
After Meech leaves the room, my mind starts to wander. What am I going to do about Max and Logan. I mean, I guess they deserve to know about me. I just don't want them to feel any obligation towards me. It's just not fair on them. But I guess I do have to tell them, it's only fair. The question is, how do I do it. And when? Ugh, I'm never gonna get to sleep at this rate!
Usually when I can't sleep, I sing softly to myself. So I start humming. I pause and wonder where this song came from.
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's guestroom 10:40 PM
OK, so he took that pretty well. I mean, he is very understanding, I just kind of expected him to be more. upset about it. Does that mean he's not physically attracted to me? Oh how I hate not being able to sleep. I sigh. I have this sudden urge to sing. Sometimes I try to sing myself to sleep, so I think I'll try that now. I start to hum, and I wonder how long it is since I've heard this song.
When your day is night alone,
If you feel like letting go,
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's bedroom 11:06 PM
You can sleep, just pretend Max isn't in the same room. Maybe if I keep telling myself this, it'll come true. I sigh. I totally understand where Max is coming from with the sex thing. I mean, I wouldn't have said no (Come on, I am a guy after all), but respect Max, I love her. We really shouldn't do something that either of us will regret. This is by far the best relationship I've ever had, and I refuse to screw it up.
Still, I did manage to fall in love with the best looking woman in Seattle. Possibly the best looking woman in the world. Ever sonce we met, I've found her physically attractive, but after my accident. My self-esteem didn't exactly come through that one intact. Then, after I got to know Max, I had too much respect for her to hit on her. I mean, I was attracted to her, but she's my best friend. At that stage, that's all we were, so I didn't try anything.
I guess Max was a little nervous when she told me about how she felt. She must think I'm sort of typical male or something, because she seemed afraid to tell me how she felt. I'm just wondering. I mean, Max said she didn't have a problem with the chair. I usually stand anyway, thanks to the exo. But obviously I wouldn't be able to use that in the bedroom. Maybe Max is now just realising that she's semi-committed herself to a cripple.
Seattle, 2017 South Market St. 10:31 PM
I'm closing in on her, I know I am. The thing is, Max was created different to the others. Sure, I can't catch any of the other kids, but I know deep down that I won't be able to catch Max. But I have to try. The boss is dead, but her son. Let's just say that I'm skating on thin ice. If I don't get Max soon, I'm as good as dead.
So I guess I'll continue this little charade, and just hope that Max slips up. I know she was created to be perfect, but I think that applies in a different way with her. I mean, the question has always been, what is perfect? My theory is that Max was designed from another person's idea of perfect. I guess I'll never know what Max has in her. Unless of course I catch her.
Seattle, 2021 JamPony 1:04 PM
I walk slowly into JamPony. I don't really know if approaching Max at work is such a good idea, but I don't want to go to Logan's, just in case. well, you know. Max might not be here anyway, but I just want to talk to her.
When I walk in, I see Max's boss, Normal. I know who he is straight away - mega anger problems there. I also see some other people. There's a Jamaican guy (Excessive happiness - "It's all good"), a tall weedy guy (Total dumbass, I'll leave it at that) and a young dark lady.
I walk over to this lady, I figure she's gotta be Max's best friend, Original Cindy.
"Hi." I approach her tentatively, but I'm not getting any hostile vibes.
"Hey sugah" She smiles at me. "You must be Six. Max told me about you."
"Oh." I pause, a little surprised. "Um, well, is Max around?"
"Nah, she's back at our place."
"I thought she'd still be at Logan's" I'm a little surprised about this.
"I don't know" Cindy shrugs "Somethin went down, but I ain't had any luck getting it outta the girl"
"OK." I pause. "Well, I'll go see her later."
"OK, bye sugah"
I return Cindy's goodbyes absent-mindedly. I wonder what happened with Max and Logan. If they don't get together. I'm hit suddenly by a wave of sadness. I guess that, since I've found out about my parents I kinda hoped that we could be a family one day. I sigh. I guess I'll just have to let them figure it out for themselves,
Seattle, 2021 Max's bedroom 3:43 PM
I can't believe it hurts so much. I mean, Logan and I haven't even had a fight, but I know that I hurt his feelings. I didn't mean to, but it happened. I think I'd better go over there and talk to him. After all, this relationship won't work if we're not honest with each other. I guess I'll go over tonight for dinner. I wonder what he'll cook.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's dining room 7:56 PM
I can't help staring at Max as she absent-mindedly picks at her food. She usually eats fast, grinning the whole time. I had hoped that our talk today would have made her happy, and I think it did, but I can't help wondering what's making her worry. I sigh, sifting through the events of the day, trying to work out why Max would be upset. And why Six was acting so strangely yesterday.
Oh well, my main aim today is to make Max happy, so that is what I will do. As soon as we finish dinner, I'll ask her what's wrong.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's living room 8:30 PM
'What's wrong' he asks me. Geez, how am I supposed to answer that. Yeah, I'd like to see his reaction to 'Gee, Logan, I don't wanna have sex with you k?' I sigh. I love Logan more than I've ever loved anything or anyone in my life. I would die for him. However, I'm not ready to have sex with him. Not right now anyway. I really do not want to screw this relationship up. But how do I tell Logan that?
Seattle 2021 Meech's garage 8:45 PM
"Meech, are you sure it's OK for me to stay here?" I ask my manager tentatively. Although I do have my own place, I really do not want to stay alone tonight.
"Sure hun." Meech grins at me. "Wouldn't want my star performer to be all lonely"
I gasp, pretending to be insulted. "You are so mean, Meech!"
"Sorry kiddo." She pauses "I'm glad to have you here, you're always welcome."
I sigh. "Thanks Meech. I'll go check on Max and Logan tomorrow. Hopefully the lovin' will be over."
Meech makes a face. "TMI Six. Anyway, go to sleep. You have an early gig tomorrow."
After Meech leaves the room, my mind starts to wander. What am I going to do about Max and Logan. I mean, I guess they deserve to know about me. I just don't want them to feel any obligation towards me. It's just not fair on them. But I guess I do have to tell them, it's only fair. The question is, how do I do it. And when? Ugh, I'm never gonna get to sleep at this rate!
Usually when I can't sleep, I sing softly to myself. So I start humming. I pause and wonder where this song came from.
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's guestroom 10:40 PM
OK, so he took that pretty well. I mean, he is very understanding, I just kind of expected him to be more. upset about it. Does that mean he's not physically attracted to me? Oh how I hate not being able to sleep. I sigh. I have this sudden urge to sing. Sometimes I try to sing myself to sleep, so I think I'll try that now. I start to hum, and I wonder how long it is since I've heard this song.
When your day is night alone,
If you feel like letting go,
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on.
Seattle, 2021 Logan's bedroom 11:06 PM
You can sleep, just pretend Max isn't in the same room. Maybe if I keep telling myself this, it'll come true. I sigh. I totally understand where Max is coming from with the sex thing. I mean, I wouldn't have said no (Come on, I am a guy after all), but respect Max, I love her. We really shouldn't do something that either of us will regret. This is by far the best relationship I've ever had, and I refuse to screw it up.
Still, I did manage to fall in love with the best looking woman in Seattle. Possibly the best looking woman in the world. Ever sonce we met, I've found her physically attractive, but after my accident. My self-esteem didn't exactly come through that one intact. Then, after I got to know Max, I had too much respect for her to hit on her. I mean, I was attracted to her, but she's my best friend. At that stage, that's all we were, so I didn't try anything.
I guess Max was a little nervous when she told me about how she felt. She must think I'm sort of typical male or something, because she seemed afraid to tell me how she felt. I'm just wondering. I mean, Max said she didn't have a problem with the chair. I usually stand anyway, thanks to the exo. But obviously I wouldn't be able to use that in the bedroom. Maybe Max is now just realising that she's semi-committed herself to a cripple.
Seattle, 2017 South Market St. 10:31 PM
I'm closing in on her, I know I am. The thing is, Max was created different to the others. Sure, I can't catch any of the other kids, but I know deep down that I won't be able to catch Max. But I have to try. The boss is dead, but her son. Let's just say that I'm skating on thin ice. If I don't get Max soon, I'm as good as dead.
So I guess I'll continue this little charade, and just hope that Max slips up. I know she was created to be perfect, but I think that applies in a different way with her. I mean, the question has always been, what is perfect? My theory is that Max was designed from another person's idea of perfect. I guess I'll never know what Max has in her. Unless of course I catch her.
Seattle, 2021 JamPony 1:04 PM
I walk slowly into JamPony. I don't really know if approaching Max at work is such a good idea, but I don't want to go to Logan's, just in case. well, you know. Max might not be here anyway, but I just want to talk to her.
When I walk in, I see Max's boss, Normal. I know who he is straight away - mega anger problems there. I also see some other people. There's a Jamaican guy (Excessive happiness - "It's all good"), a tall weedy guy (Total dumbass, I'll leave it at that) and a young dark lady.
I walk over to this lady, I figure she's gotta be Max's best friend, Original Cindy.
"Hi." I approach her tentatively, but I'm not getting any hostile vibes.
"Hey sugah" She smiles at me. "You must be Six. Max told me about you."
"Oh." I pause, a little surprised. "Um, well, is Max around?"
"Nah, she's back at our place."
"I thought she'd still be at Logan's" I'm a little surprised about this.
"I don't know" Cindy shrugs "Somethin went down, but I ain't had any luck getting it outta the girl"
"OK." I pause. "Well, I'll go see her later."
"OK, bye sugah"
I return Cindy's goodbyes absent-mindedly. I wonder what happened with Max and Logan. If they don't get together. I'm hit suddenly by a wave of sadness. I guess that, since I've found out about my parents I kinda hoped that we could be a family one day. I sigh. I guess I'll just have to let them figure it out for themselves,
Seattle, 2021 Max's bedroom 3:43 PM
I can't believe it hurts so much. I mean, Logan and I haven't even had a fight, but I know that I hurt his feelings. I didn't mean to, but it happened. I think I'd better go over there and talk to him. After all, this relationship won't work if we're not honest with each other. I guess I'll go over tonight for dinner. I wonder what he'll cook.