Chapter Four
It had been three weeks since Voldemort's attack. Lily and James had been moved back into their house. Sirius, Lilac, and all the Potter's other friends had made it their job to keep Lily company at all times. This was James's idea. It was to protect Lily. He was afraid she might do something; the loss of their unborn child was a major blow to her sanity. James made sure that she was never alone in the house.
One day, Lily was in such a depressed state that she came to a conclusion, something must be done. She still blamed herself for the loss of her child. She didn't know how James could stand to see her. She felt horrible that she had survived when her child had died. She decided the world would be a better place if she wasn't in a part of it. That day it was Peter who was staying with her. She easily convinced Peter that she was okay, and that he could go home.
Once he had left, Lily took out a sheet of parchment and wrote James the following letter: Dear James,
By the time you read this the world will be rid of me. I cannot live, and look at myself in the mirror in the morning, without feeling guilty. I lived while our unborn child died. I don't wasn't you to have to see my face, and think of what could have been. I don't want to cause you more pain by seeing me. I don't want to make you suffer, by seeing me.
I will always love you
Lily
Lily left that note on James's pillow.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Meanwhile.. James was at the Auror Office, when Genevieve ran up to him, frantic. "James, you have to go home! Lily's going to do something terrible. You must go if you want any chance to save her." Genevieve said "What?!?! What's wrong?" James asked. "She's going to-to slit her wrists. You have to go now! Otherwise it might be too late. Go!" James didn't need to be told again. He took disapparated.
When James got home he couldn't find Lily or Peter for that matter. When he went into Lily and his bedroom, he saw the parchment on his pillow. After reading that letter, he had tears in his eyes. He hoped, he silently prayed that he would find Lily before it was too late. The last place he looked was the nursery. There Lily was. She had a knife in her trembling hand, her other arm stretched out in front of her. She didn't hear the door open. She raised the hand that was holding the knife. When James realized what she was about to do, he snapped out of the trance he was in. He took out his wand and said "Accio knife!" The knife flew in the air to James. He caught it and threw it on the floor, and ran to Lily and held her in his strong arms. She was crying into his chest. James let her cry. He then said "Lily-why? If you had gone through with that that would have caused me more pain then the loss of the child. I need you. As long as I have you, I know I can make it through anything. And it doesn't cause me pain to see you. It causes me to feel, that there is hope. And that anything is possible."
Lily just cried. She realized just how ridiculous her letter seemed. She couldn't believe she was actually willing to take her own life.
It had been three weeks since Voldemort's attack. Lily and James had been moved back into their house. Sirius, Lilac, and all the Potter's other friends had made it their job to keep Lily company at all times. This was James's idea. It was to protect Lily. He was afraid she might do something; the loss of their unborn child was a major blow to her sanity. James made sure that she was never alone in the house.
One day, Lily was in such a depressed state that she came to a conclusion, something must be done. She still blamed herself for the loss of her child. She didn't know how James could stand to see her. She felt horrible that she had survived when her child had died. She decided the world would be a better place if she wasn't in a part of it. That day it was Peter who was staying with her. She easily convinced Peter that she was okay, and that he could go home.
Once he had left, Lily took out a sheet of parchment and wrote James the following letter: Dear James,
By the time you read this the world will be rid of me. I cannot live, and look at myself in the mirror in the morning, without feeling guilty. I lived while our unborn child died. I don't wasn't you to have to see my face, and think of what could have been. I don't want to cause you more pain by seeing me. I don't want to make you suffer, by seeing me.
I will always love you
Lily
Lily left that note on James's pillow.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Meanwhile.. James was at the Auror Office, when Genevieve ran up to him, frantic. "James, you have to go home! Lily's going to do something terrible. You must go if you want any chance to save her." Genevieve said "What?!?! What's wrong?" James asked. "She's going to-to slit her wrists. You have to go now! Otherwise it might be too late. Go!" James didn't need to be told again. He took disapparated.
When James got home he couldn't find Lily or Peter for that matter. When he went into Lily and his bedroom, he saw the parchment on his pillow. After reading that letter, he had tears in his eyes. He hoped, he silently prayed that he would find Lily before it was too late. The last place he looked was the nursery. There Lily was. She had a knife in her trembling hand, her other arm stretched out in front of her. She didn't hear the door open. She raised the hand that was holding the knife. When James realized what she was about to do, he snapped out of the trance he was in. He took out his wand and said "Accio knife!" The knife flew in the air to James. He caught it and threw it on the floor, and ran to Lily and held her in his strong arms. She was crying into his chest. James let her cry. He then said "Lily-why? If you had gone through with that that would have caused me more pain then the loss of the child. I need you. As long as I have you, I know I can make it through anything. And it doesn't cause me pain to see you. It causes me to feel, that there is hope. And that anything is possible."
Lily just cried. She realized just how ridiculous her letter seemed. She couldn't believe she was actually willing to take her own life.