Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters, Im just having some fun with them. Don't worry, I don't bite......... hard. ^_~
I'm so sorry this chapter took so long. I just got back from the hospital, well actually the emergency room. Have you ever had an IV stuck in your arm? Wow, that hurts so much. But anyway...Well I got some reviews... Oh and by the way the titles of the chapters may seem a bit strange but they all actually have something of a pattern. So please do enjoy! And also there may be many mistakes in this due to the fact that I wanted to get this out already because my beta is taking so long. Once she sends me back the corrected version I will replace...
"A Fan": Thank you so much for reviewing. Im glad that you enjoyed it and don't worry I shall update as soon as I can. And I'm sure I'll find a way to contact you to tell you when it's updated. _
Karen: My name is Sae... Im sure with enough sunsets you will understand that. Hm? And thanks for the review I am well aware that they are not acting like they would in the books. I did that on purpose...
Cassidy: Heh, yeah something did sound wrong about that. Well thank you I made sure to correct it and thanks for the support I shall make sure to continue.
Jazel: Yeah I do know it sucks, I'm really not much of a fan fiction writer. I've always enjoyed poetry and original stories but I thought I would try to do a fan fiction. I appreciate your honesty and though the characters seem flat [that's a word you will learn in highschool. Are you in that grade yet? I assume you are a bit younger...] I hope to give them more depth as the story goes on. I know it seems cliche but I have my reasons for adding in the self mutilation. Also I do believe I have read some stories where they even fall in love in the first chapter so I don't think mine is too early in development. I just don't want to stretch it out for such an unbearable time. And I did just receive a wonderful beta reader so that is covered.
Miss. Charlet: Thank you for reviewing and I shall update as soon as I can
Harry Pothead: Thanks for reviewing, I shall continue.
Momo: Your such a doll! Thanks for reviewing and I suddenly thought of something strange and Gackt related but forgot. Heh oh well, we shall speak soon!
Hedwig: Im glad you liked the beginning. Thanks for reviewing
MalfoyRage: Thank you so much for reviewing. You are my favourite fan fiction writer and it mean so much to me that you read the chapter and took time to review. Even if we do speak in emails this still means a lot to me. I'm glad there is someone who understands and can 'read through the lines' as we have discussed many times. ^__^
Midnightblues: Thanks so much for reviewing, Im so glad you liked it. I'm so happy you liked poem as well. As for the cutting part.... well I try... haha anyway I shall do my best to update soon.
*Special thanks to La Chica who encouraged me to go on with this story despite my doubts and my lovely beta reader who without this story would be crap*
Chapter 2: "Color Me Blood Red"
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Harry stormed out of the bathroom heated with anger and thoroughly frustrated at having Malfoy unexpectedly walk in. He glanced at his wrist which had already stopped bleeding for it was never much of a deep cut anyway. To be honest with himself they always were a bit shallow, whether Harry made it so because he didn't want anyone to figure out what he was doing or perhaps he just didn't want to go too deep and die accidentally even Harry didn't know himself. All he knew at this point was that he was exhausted and needed more than anything sleep... escape. He entered his room and found that Ron had already returned and was fast asleep. He walked past Ron and headed to his own bed and fell upon it drained not wishing to even undress. He fell asleep immediately.
Harry found himself in an empty room, alone, the only company he entertained was the dark shadows that fell across the cold floor. Harry stared at the shadows as they seemed to dance and mock him as he lay silent and bleeding on the floor. The boy who lived was filled with a bitter animosity to these shadows and the night sky, those horrid taunting stars. He lifted his head and stared at the lonely moon and felt a sudden pity for it.. It stands prisoner in the sky held against it's will with the beautiful stars all taunting it for one day they will die. One day the lovely stars will be released from the tiring night sky and fade and leave this unbearable life. Not the moon, no the moon was cursed to watch over the horrors of all that passed, is passing and all that is yet to pass beneath its single, unwavering eye. It saddened Harry but he wasn't able to think on it for too long for suddenly he, too, felt an unbearable pain. It was coming from his arms and hands. He couldn't quite remember cutting them but now they were pouring out scarlet misery like a bodily River Styx. Harry was ready to scream but he suddenly felt a hand over his mouth. Taking his jade eyes down to the hand he saw it was extremely pale and somewhat delicate though it didn't seem to belong to a woman. Harry, then felt a presence behind him and a soft low voice was now speaking into his ear.
"Don't cry... Silence now please. I will take away the pain, you won't need to bleed anymore. Let me make it better. I'll hold you in my arms until the sadness goes away, and we'll wither away together until the sky can learn to love your laughter. I'll make it go away."
Harry felt a sudden strange comfort at the light and nearly seductive words that were being whispered to him. Making a quick move he turned his head back so to see the nameless face of his potential savior. Harry gaped as he saw the person standing behind him... Draco Malfoy. He tried to push away but found that he couldn't move, he couldn't speak either. All he could do was stare into the other boys eyes, the other boys face that seemed to be filled with nothing other than concern. And yet Harry didn't, coudln't really trust this ghostly boy that stood next to him. Turning away, once again Harry tried to scream...
"Harry, Harry! Wake up!", Ron said shaking his friend doing his best to awaken Harry.
Harry woke up with a start and took a few moments to realize where he was. Then memories faded back to him. There Harry was in his room sweating and breathing heavy and looking at the rays of sun that filtered through the window he could see it was past morning. Harry looked to Ron and saw that he was dressed and ready to go.
"Are you okay Harry? I didn't want to wake you up this morning because you were so deeply asleep. But when I came out of the shower you looked really bad. You were mumbling and you just started to scream."
Harry knew why he was screaming, he was in that room, that horrid room and he was bleeding, dying and the person there comforting him was Malfoy. It made him sick just thinking about it. Of course he couldn't tell Ron though. Ron wouldn't understand.
"Oh yeah... I just had a bad dream that's all. What time is it anyway?"
"Too late for you to take a shower. Actually you better hurry up or we're gonna be late for Potions Class. And I know you don't want that."
"Okay, Okay... Listen you go ahead I'll catch up."
"Are you sure Harry? You really don't look to good, I could always wait for you."
"No Ron, go ahead. Better have just one of us late."
Ron nodded his head at this and left the room. Harry took a few moments to catch his breath and recover from his odd dream. How could he have dreamt of that fiend Draco!? Although he had to admit he did feel a strange comfort from the boy in his dream. He couldn't quite explain it but he didn't want to. Suddenly disgusted by his thoughts, Harry stormed out the room and rushed to his potions class. He seemed to always be late and having Professor Snape so obviously hate him was no help. With these thoughts so crowded in his mind, Harry stumbled into the potion's class to see that everyone was seated and staring at his rather clumsy entrance.
"Late again Harry? That's 10 points from Gryfindor! I would also give you detention but I think you will be punished enough by the announcement I'm about to make," the potions master said smiling malevolently as he glared at the boy who lived.
Harry groaned slightly and took a seat next to Hermione who was giving him a sympathetic look. He knew that this bad news was going to have something to do with the fact that he had forgotten to pick a partner for the potions project. He glanced up at Snape with trepidation and waited for his announcement.
"Well after checking my list I see that only two of my students didn't choose a partner so this will be quite easy to pair the two up. Potter and... Malfoy."
The potions master skillfully hid a smirk as he headed back to the front of the class. Harry was speechless and the blonde slytherin looked stunned at this news. He could hear Pansy giggling next to him as she whispered something in his ear but he couldn't quite comprehend it. He was in pure shock after hearing that he would have to be paired up with the famous Harry Potter. He couldn't bear to be near the boy and his stupid friends, especially that know-it-all muggle girl. He had enough on his mind with his pushy, cruel father and all the pressure to be a death eater and follow the dark lord Voldemort. Not that he wanted to be this kind, helpful student that cared for everyone yet Draco still couldn't imagine entangling himself in so much darkness. But he feared his father Lucius, feared and respected, hated and yet still wished to please. But his thoughts and feelings on this matter didn't ever matter. He had to obey his father and Draco couldn't imagine any unearthly force which would convince him not to. As if these pained thoughts weren't enough cruelty on a suffocating spirit, at that moment, Draco realized he was staring at Harry. Dammit!
"Mr. Malfoy. Would you mind following instructions!?."
Snape's clear, empty voice broke Draco from his complex thoughts and he nearly turned red when he looked about to see that everyone had moved to sit next to their partner. Draco stopped himself from showing his acute discomfort when he realized that the emotions from the confusing thoughts that had circled through his mind just a moment ago may already be revealing themselves on his pale face. He saw Harry staring right back at him and became quickly angered that the boy who lived might have seen him actually show emotion; that simply wouldn't do. Draco quickly hardened his face and put back on the empty, cold countenance that was so usual for him.
"I suppose I could....," Draco drawled as he smirked and headed to sit next to Harry who quickly took his eyes away from Draco and placed them on the book he had in front of him.
Harry couldn't believe what he has just seen. It seemed, to him, that Draco actually was expressing some type of emotion, some sort of pain. Draco was staring at Harry but obviously didn't see him. To Harry, it appeared, that Draco wasn't even aware of where he was. His silver-like eyes were lost, drowning in fear, memories, and fierce melancholy. But then, just as suddenly as these fervent emotions came, they unexpectedly disappeared and were replaced with his usual coldness. Harry couldn't understand the boy... nor did he want to! Why was he even thinking about this right now. Harry felt frustrated once again and decided not to give another thought to the arrogant Slytherin. All Harry had to worry about now was getting through this project with his worst enemy next to Voldemort.
"Look, you and I are going to have to be civil if we ever want to complete this project."
Harry lifted his eyes so to see if Draco would agree with his proposal but found that Draco was looking at something else. Harry felt a flush creep over his face as he followed Draco's eyes and discovered they were staring at Harry's wrist and the light scratch that was on it from when he cut himself last night. The boy who lived quickly took his hand and placed in under the table as Draco lifted his silver eyes of ice and stared into emerald eyes of fire.
"Fine Potter, I'll be 'civil'... for the projects sake at least."
TBC
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Crimson tears left here to melt with misery
Sadness cant understand
Die under these forgetful stars
don't look back to the past
I tried my best falling all the time
Still I reached for the sky
Take this hurt, I wont feel the same
Given far too much pain
I'll disappear again
Look into these eyes I tried to hide
Take it all away from here
Away from it all
Searching for the right
Tainted dreams awaken
The ocean tried to sweep it away
The blood tried to run
I couldn't wake that night
The rope wasn't strong enough
The bones broken instead
Taking the wrong away
never granted eternal rest
Take this hurt, I wont feel the same
Given far too much pain
I'll disappear again
Look into these eyes I tried to hide
Take it all away from here
Away from it all
Take this hurt, I wont feel the same
Given far too much pain
I'll disappear again
Look into these eyes I tried to hide
Take it all away from here
Away from it all
Close your eyes now...
I wont listen....
Let the cruel sun take it with him...
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Okay so that is the end of the next chapter. I hope you all enjoyed it. I found the poem above from when I wrote it about a week ago and I thought that if you used your imagination it kinda worked with the chapter. Anyway I hope to improve the chapters and story as it goes along. Please Please Please review! I'm gonna start something I have seen a fellow fan fic writer do for more reviews. So I shall not post the next chapter until I get five new reviews. Okay.... hehe thanks!
I'm so sorry this chapter took so long. I just got back from the hospital, well actually the emergency room. Have you ever had an IV stuck in your arm? Wow, that hurts so much. But anyway...Well I got some reviews... Oh and by the way the titles of the chapters may seem a bit strange but they all actually have something of a pattern. So please do enjoy! And also there may be many mistakes in this due to the fact that I wanted to get this out already because my beta is taking so long. Once she sends me back the corrected version I will replace...
"A Fan": Thank you so much for reviewing. Im glad that you enjoyed it and don't worry I shall update as soon as I can. And I'm sure I'll find a way to contact you to tell you when it's updated. _
Karen: My name is Sae... Im sure with enough sunsets you will understand that. Hm? And thanks for the review I am well aware that they are not acting like they would in the books. I did that on purpose...
Cassidy: Heh, yeah something did sound wrong about that. Well thank you I made sure to correct it and thanks for the support I shall make sure to continue.
Jazel: Yeah I do know it sucks, I'm really not much of a fan fiction writer. I've always enjoyed poetry and original stories but I thought I would try to do a fan fiction. I appreciate your honesty and though the characters seem flat [that's a word you will learn in highschool. Are you in that grade yet? I assume you are a bit younger...] I hope to give them more depth as the story goes on. I know it seems cliche but I have my reasons for adding in the self mutilation. Also I do believe I have read some stories where they even fall in love in the first chapter so I don't think mine is too early in development. I just don't want to stretch it out for such an unbearable time. And I did just receive a wonderful beta reader so that is covered.
Miss. Charlet: Thank you for reviewing and I shall update as soon as I can
Harry Pothead: Thanks for reviewing, I shall continue.
Momo: Your such a doll! Thanks for reviewing and I suddenly thought of something strange and Gackt related but forgot. Heh oh well, we shall speak soon!
Hedwig: Im glad you liked the beginning. Thanks for reviewing
MalfoyRage: Thank you so much for reviewing. You are my favourite fan fiction writer and it mean so much to me that you read the chapter and took time to review. Even if we do speak in emails this still means a lot to me. I'm glad there is someone who understands and can 'read through the lines' as we have discussed many times. ^__^
Midnightblues: Thanks so much for reviewing, Im so glad you liked it. I'm so happy you liked poem as well. As for the cutting part.... well I try... haha anyway I shall do my best to update soon.
*Special thanks to La Chica who encouraged me to go on with this story despite my doubts and my lovely beta reader who without this story would be crap*
Chapter 2: "Color Me Blood Red"
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Harry stormed out of the bathroom heated with anger and thoroughly frustrated at having Malfoy unexpectedly walk in. He glanced at his wrist which had already stopped bleeding for it was never much of a deep cut anyway. To be honest with himself they always were a bit shallow, whether Harry made it so because he didn't want anyone to figure out what he was doing or perhaps he just didn't want to go too deep and die accidentally even Harry didn't know himself. All he knew at this point was that he was exhausted and needed more than anything sleep... escape. He entered his room and found that Ron had already returned and was fast asleep. He walked past Ron and headed to his own bed and fell upon it drained not wishing to even undress. He fell asleep immediately.
Harry found himself in an empty room, alone, the only company he entertained was the dark shadows that fell across the cold floor. Harry stared at the shadows as they seemed to dance and mock him as he lay silent and bleeding on the floor. The boy who lived was filled with a bitter animosity to these shadows and the night sky, those horrid taunting stars. He lifted his head and stared at the lonely moon and felt a sudden pity for it.. It stands prisoner in the sky held against it's will with the beautiful stars all taunting it for one day they will die. One day the lovely stars will be released from the tiring night sky and fade and leave this unbearable life. Not the moon, no the moon was cursed to watch over the horrors of all that passed, is passing and all that is yet to pass beneath its single, unwavering eye. It saddened Harry but he wasn't able to think on it for too long for suddenly he, too, felt an unbearable pain. It was coming from his arms and hands. He couldn't quite remember cutting them but now they were pouring out scarlet misery like a bodily River Styx. Harry was ready to scream but he suddenly felt a hand over his mouth. Taking his jade eyes down to the hand he saw it was extremely pale and somewhat delicate though it didn't seem to belong to a woman. Harry, then felt a presence behind him and a soft low voice was now speaking into his ear.
"Don't cry... Silence now please. I will take away the pain, you won't need to bleed anymore. Let me make it better. I'll hold you in my arms until the sadness goes away, and we'll wither away together until the sky can learn to love your laughter. I'll make it go away."
Harry felt a sudden strange comfort at the light and nearly seductive words that were being whispered to him. Making a quick move he turned his head back so to see the nameless face of his potential savior. Harry gaped as he saw the person standing behind him... Draco Malfoy. He tried to push away but found that he couldn't move, he couldn't speak either. All he could do was stare into the other boys eyes, the other boys face that seemed to be filled with nothing other than concern. And yet Harry didn't, coudln't really trust this ghostly boy that stood next to him. Turning away, once again Harry tried to scream...
"Harry, Harry! Wake up!", Ron said shaking his friend doing his best to awaken Harry.
Harry woke up with a start and took a few moments to realize where he was. Then memories faded back to him. There Harry was in his room sweating and breathing heavy and looking at the rays of sun that filtered through the window he could see it was past morning. Harry looked to Ron and saw that he was dressed and ready to go.
"Are you okay Harry? I didn't want to wake you up this morning because you were so deeply asleep. But when I came out of the shower you looked really bad. You were mumbling and you just started to scream."
Harry knew why he was screaming, he was in that room, that horrid room and he was bleeding, dying and the person there comforting him was Malfoy. It made him sick just thinking about it. Of course he couldn't tell Ron though. Ron wouldn't understand.
"Oh yeah... I just had a bad dream that's all. What time is it anyway?"
"Too late for you to take a shower. Actually you better hurry up or we're gonna be late for Potions Class. And I know you don't want that."
"Okay, Okay... Listen you go ahead I'll catch up."
"Are you sure Harry? You really don't look to good, I could always wait for you."
"No Ron, go ahead. Better have just one of us late."
Ron nodded his head at this and left the room. Harry took a few moments to catch his breath and recover from his odd dream. How could he have dreamt of that fiend Draco!? Although he had to admit he did feel a strange comfort from the boy in his dream. He couldn't quite explain it but he didn't want to. Suddenly disgusted by his thoughts, Harry stormed out the room and rushed to his potions class. He seemed to always be late and having Professor Snape so obviously hate him was no help. With these thoughts so crowded in his mind, Harry stumbled into the potion's class to see that everyone was seated and staring at his rather clumsy entrance.
"Late again Harry? That's 10 points from Gryfindor! I would also give you detention but I think you will be punished enough by the announcement I'm about to make," the potions master said smiling malevolently as he glared at the boy who lived.
Harry groaned slightly and took a seat next to Hermione who was giving him a sympathetic look. He knew that this bad news was going to have something to do with the fact that he had forgotten to pick a partner for the potions project. He glanced up at Snape with trepidation and waited for his announcement.
"Well after checking my list I see that only two of my students didn't choose a partner so this will be quite easy to pair the two up. Potter and... Malfoy."
The potions master skillfully hid a smirk as he headed back to the front of the class. Harry was speechless and the blonde slytherin looked stunned at this news. He could hear Pansy giggling next to him as she whispered something in his ear but he couldn't quite comprehend it. He was in pure shock after hearing that he would have to be paired up with the famous Harry Potter. He couldn't bear to be near the boy and his stupid friends, especially that know-it-all muggle girl. He had enough on his mind with his pushy, cruel father and all the pressure to be a death eater and follow the dark lord Voldemort. Not that he wanted to be this kind, helpful student that cared for everyone yet Draco still couldn't imagine entangling himself in so much darkness. But he feared his father Lucius, feared and respected, hated and yet still wished to please. But his thoughts and feelings on this matter didn't ever matter. He had to obey his father and Draco couldn't imagine any unearthly force which would convince him not to. As if these pained thoughts weren't enough cruelty on a suffocating spirit, at that moment, Draco realized he was staring at Harry. Dammit!
"Mr. Malfoy. Would you mind following instructions!?."
Snape's clear, empty voice broke Draco from his complex thoughts and he nearly turned red when he looked about to see that everyone had moved to sit next to their partner. Draco stopped himself from showing his acute discomfort when he realized that the emotions from the confusing thoughts that had circled through his mind just a moment ago may already be revealing themselves on his pale face. He saw Harry staring right back at him and became quickly angered that the boy who lived might have seen him actually show emotion; that simply wouldn't do. Draco quickly hardened his face and put back on the empty, cold countenance that was so usual for him.
"I suppose I could....," Draco drawled as he smirked and headed to sit next to Harry who quickly took his eyes away from Draco and placed them on the book he had in front of him.
Harry couldn't believe what he has just seen. It seemed, to him, that Draco actually was expressing some type of emotion, some sort of pain. Draco was staring at Harry but obviously didn't see him. To Harry, it appeared, that Draco wasn't even aware of where he was. His silver-like eyes were lost, drowning in fear, memories, and fierce melancholy. But then, just as suddenly as these fervent emotions came, they unexpectedly disappeared and were replaced with his usual coldness. Harry couldn't understand the boy... nor did he want to! Why was he even thinking about this right now. Harry felt frustrated once again and decided not to give another thought to the arrogant Slytherin. All Harry had to worry about now was getting through this project with his worst enemy next to Voldemort.
"Look, you and I are going to have to be civil if we ever want to complete this project."
Harry lifted his eyes so to see if Draco would agree with his proposal but found that Draco was looking at something else. Harry felt a flush creep over his face as he followed Draco's eyes and discovered they were staring at Harry's wrist and the light scratch that was on it from when he cut himself last night. The boy who lived quickly took his hand and placed in under the table as Draco lifted his silver eyes of ice and stared into emerald eyes of fire.
"Fine Potter, I'll be 'civil'... for the projects sake at least."
TBC
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Crimson tears left here to melt with misery
Sadness cant understand
Die under these forgetful stars
don't look back to the past
I tried my best falling all the time
Still I reached for the sky
Take this hurt, I wont feel the same
Given far too much pain
I'll disappear again
Look into these eyes I tried to hide
Take it all away from here
Away from it all
Searching for the right
Tainted dreams awaken
The ocean tried to sweep it away
The blood tried to run
I couldn't wake that night
The rope wasn't strong enough
The bones broken instead
Taking the wrong away
never granted eternal rest
Take this hurt, I wont feel the same
Given far too much pain
I'll disappear again
Look into these eyes I tried to hide
Take it all away from here
Away from it all
Take this hurt, I wont feel the same
Given far too much pain
I'll disappear again
Look into these eyes I tried to hide
Take it all away from here
Away from it all
Close your eyes now...
I wont listen....
Let the cruel sun take it with him...
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Okay so that is the end of the next chapter. I hope you all enjoyed it. I found the poem above from when I wrote it about a week ago and I thought that if you used your imagination it kinda worked with the chapter. Anyway I hope to improve the chapters and story as it goes along. Please Please Please review! I'm gonna start something I have seen a fellow fan fic writer do for more reviews. So I shall not post the next chapter until I get five new reviews. Okay.... hehe thanks!