Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters, only the plot to which this fan fiction follows and the poetry at the end of the chapters. .... And I do own Kami-Sama! [he's not in the story but I love him all the same ::sigh::] Kami-sama ga suki desu!
A/N: Harry is very OOC in this chapter.... I think at least.... ::Shrugs shoulders::... I bet Draco is too....
Whooo, I can't believe I already have six chapters out, it's quite thrilling! I feel really bad because I have received a few requests for the slash to occur already and I made this chapter already without it but I hope you all understand why I'm dragging this out and try to be patient with me. I promise some slash for the next chapter which I will try to get out as soon as possible. Anyway I would like to take a moment and thank ALL of my reviewers that have reviewed so far; Thanks so much! Now to thank the recent ones...
Malfoyrage: Sorry it took so long to respond to the emails... stuff happens... you know how that is. Im glad you like it, thanks for reviewing!
Voltor: Ahhh , Im sorry, no slash this chapter but the boys will have a little fun next chapter.
Daily_Prophetess: Oh thank you! Your so sweet.
Rose: Yes, very sweet. ::nods head::
Frito the Great: Here it is....
Lampshadesrgreat: Thank you, I try when it comes to updating.
Morphia1: I'm glad you like it, I'll do my best at updating.
ACDC4913: I'm trying, haha...
Raku-San: Glad you think so, Huzzah you did get it, all the titles of the chapter are titles of jrock songs, but the bottom poems are mine, hehe!
KC26: Oh Thank you!
Autumsun: Why didn't you think you were gonna like it? :sniffle:: Haha Im just kidding, Im glad you like and by the way I was really touched that you reviewed mine because I love yours! Thanks for making that guy, Snape's nephew or whatever evil because I love Draco, haha!
Chapter Six: "Uncontrol"
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Harry sat in the nearly desolated library staring at a yellow faded book, not really able to concentrate on the words on the antique like pages that were becoming a blur of lines and strange symbols. Harry sighed as he closed the book and glanced around the room his finding himself in a strange state indeed. It seemed, to him, ever since that day where Draco accepted his offer of friendship everything and yet at the same time nothing changed. In public that acted like the enemies that always were but when alone, everything was different. Harry hated to admit it but he felt so much safer when he was with Draco, and not so miserable. He even noticed that ever since that day with Draco, he had yet to cut himself.
"Harry, can I talk to you?" Hermione asked as she took a seat next to the boy who lived
"Sure 'Mione, what's the matter?"
"Well... I've noticed, the past couple of months, you've been more down than usual. Every time I ask if you are okay you say that your fine but... it just doesn't seem you really are."
"It's okay Hermione, really it's nothing. I can handle everything, it's all being taken care of."
"By Malfoy?"
Hermione raised an eyebrow playfully as she asked this while trying to hide a smile at the fact that Harry was slightly blushing. Before he could respond though, her lighthearted mood changed a bit as she looked at Harry seriously.
"Look Harry, I know you and Malfoy have become pretty good friends these last two weeks, for some reason Ron nor I can comprehend ... although I don't think that you and Draco understand it either. Nevertheless, I know you really value that friendship but don't forget that Ron and I are your friends as well and we are here for you."
"Oh Hermione, I know that you're here for me and I would never forget you or Ron. I just suppose that in some strange way Draco and I can relate to eachother more than either of us thought. 'Mione can I tell you something?"
The young girl nodded her head while Harry moved his chair around so he could face her.
"When you asked me if I way gay... well I don't know if I am, I'm not sure if I ever will but I do know that I can't help but find myself attracted to this one person, this one guy. I can't explain the way I feel around him, it's almost painful. But I still feel the need to be near him, constantly, I wanna always be there just to catch this little things he does and–
"Wait," Hermione interrupted, "This is Draco Malfoy we are talking about here?"
"I know it sounds crazy 'Mione but... he's not the person you think, or at least he's not always that person. There are times when he smiles sincerely, or when he drops his cold 'Don't get near me I'm a Malfoy act' and he has pure raw emotion in his eyes."
Hermione smiled kindly and started to get up from her chair.
"I can't believe you have a thing for Malfoy, I mean a thing that goes past physical, but you're my friend so you know I'm gonna be here for you."
"I know Hermione, thanks."
With that she gave him another smile and headed out the library while Harry watched and allowed what he just said sink in. There he had admitted his feelings for Draco that he hadn't even admitted to himself, at least not fully. In any case he couldn't dwell on such things, Draco would never feel that way about him nor did Harry, in his mind, deserve to have Draco feel anything towards him. Just thinking about Draco right then though brought a smile to Harry's face as he decided he would go surprise the Slytherin and waltz into Draco's room. One of his favourite pastimes.
The raven-haired Gryffindor was outside the door once again when he heard voices within and took a moment to hide behind the Slytherin's door. Though, in sudden remembrance, he remember that he had on the invisibility cloak and the door was slightly ajar allowing Harry to go in and watch unnoticed. As Harry entered silently he realized that the voices belonged to Draco, of course, and Blaise Zabini.
"Come on Blaise, Im tired... just leave my room already."
"Or what?" Blaise questioned nearly flirtatiously as he leaned towards Draco while smirking.
"Or I'll tell all of Hogwarts your little secret," the blonde Slytherin responded while pushing Blaise playfully returning the smirk with his own famous one.
"You mean tell them all that I'm bisexual?" the dark-haired slytherin asked while rasing an elegant brow, "Feel free to babe, then all the open-minded guys in Hogwarts will now that I'm available."
"Don't call me babe," Draco stated seriously yet still carried a smirk.
'Are they flirting' Harry asked to himself feeling inevitable jealousy pour through his veins. He didn't want this to last much longer nor see it much longer but couldn't bring himself to leave. Helpless, the boy who lived remained in the corner, unseen by the two Slytherins, as he suddenly felt himself get angry. Blaise suddenly turned as if he was going to leave but first wrapped his arms around Draco.
"Why not babe?"
"Just get out Blaise," Draco grunted as he gave the other boy a slight shove pushing him out of the room and then closing the door behind him.
Harry took this moment to remove the cloak and reveal him self from the shadowed corner in the Slytherin's room. Draco moved around and was slightly startled to see the boy who lived there with a dark scowl.
"Decided to pay me a visit?" Draco asked with something between a smirk and smile.
Harry ignored Draco's question and in turn asked one of his own.
"What was that all about?"
"Are you referring to my conversation with the lovely Blaise Zabini?"
"Lovely?" Harry hissed, "That stupid git's far from lovely! He's... He's..."
Draco couldn't help but smile at the sudden angry that Harry was showing along with his flushed face which caused him to look far too adorable that even the cold-hearted Slytherin couldn't ignore.
"Don't smile! I don't find this very funny!" Harry exclaimed and seeing that Draco was still smiling and seemed even on the brink of laughter nearly threw himself at the Slytherin pinning Draco against the door his arms pressing Draco's down. Of course, though, Draco was certainly a stronger boy and quickly turned the tables on Harry by escaping his grasp and in turn pinning the boy who lived against the door.
"Stop it Harry! You sound like a jealous school girl. You should hear yourself! Hah, now calm yourself."
"Fine, but will you let me go?" Harry asked wincing slightly. Draco had a pretty strong hold on Harry at the moment.
"No," Draco answered his steel eyes clouded with a fervent emotion that Harry couldn't quite decipher.
"Look Draco, I'm sorry for barging in here and acting like a school-girl or however you wish to put it but could you just let me go and I'll leave you alone, okay?"
Harry could feel a slight blush creep into his face as he realized how foolish he had been in his previous outburst. He waited but Draco didn't release his firm grasp on the raven-haired boy. Instead he just shook his head no slightly, a few wisps of his light hair, that was usually gelled back firmly, falling in front of his face. Harry sighed suddenly feeling very tired.
"Come on Draco, what do you want?"
Draco kept his killer grip on Harry and leaned closer to the boy who lived so that his face was a few inches away from Harry's. Harry could now clearly see that the emotion that filled the Slytherin's silvery eyes was pure, untainted desire. He answered Harry's question in one short word that filled the room with a sudden, sweet tension.
"You..."
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There's a bitterness inside
A silence that resides
Awaken by a painful fire that calls my name
These horrors are always the same
Lost in those eyes
I hated these crimson tears I cried
Fall unto broken arms
The last heartbreak served with angst charms
There was a resound peace in that moment
In which the fragrant world melted away
And I grasped onto it with childish fear
I needed the feeling to stay
I love you so very much
But that has nothing to do with it
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Ah, my first cliffhanger type situation. This chapter didn't come out quite as I hoped, for I had the whole idea in my head but for some reason had much trouble getting down. Anyway I can assure that this story has a bit more to go before any ending but I want to know now if you would prefer a happy or sad ending. Please do tell and I will take all suggestions into consideration. Thanks much! In any case I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and please please please review! They make my day!
A/N: Harry is very OOC in this chapter.... I think at least.... ::Shrugs shoulders::... I bet Draco is too....
Whooo, I can't believe I already have six chapters out, it's quite thrilling! I feel really bad because I have received a few requests for the slash to occur already and I made this chapter already without it but I hope you all understand why I'm dragging this out and try to be patient with me. I promise some slash for the next chapter which I will try to get out as soon as possible. Anyway I would like to take a moment and thank ALL of my reviewers that have reviewed so far; Thanks so much! Now to thank the recent ones...
Malfoyrage: Sorry it took so long to respond to the emails... stuff happens... you know how that is. Im glad you like it, thanks for reviewing!
Voltor: Ahhh , Im sorry, no slash this chapter but the boys will have a little fun next chapter.
Daily_Prophetess: Oh thank you! Your so sweet.
Rose: Yes, very sweet. ::nods head::
Frito the Great: Here it is....
Lampshadesrgreat: Thank you, I try when it comes to updating.
Morphia1: I'm glad you like it, I'll do my best at updating.
ACDC4913: I'm trying, haha...
Raku-San: Glad you think so, Huzzah you did get it, all the titles of the chapter are titles of jrock songs, but the bottom poems are mine, hehe!
KC26: Oh Thank you!
Autumsun: Why didn't you think you were gonna like it? :sniffle:: Haha Im just kidding, Im glad you like and by the way I was really touched that you reviewed mine because I love yours! Thanks for making that guy, Snape's nephew or whatever evil because I love Draco, haha!
Chapter Six: "Uncontrol"
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Harry sat in the nearly desolated library staring at a yellow faded book, not really able to concentrate on the words on the antique like pages that were becoming a blur of lines and strange symbols. Harry sighed as he closed the book and glanced around the room his finding himself in a strange state indeed. It seemed, to him, ever since that day where Draco accepted his offer of friendship everything and yet at the same time nothing changed. In public that acted like the enemies that always were but when alone, everything was different. Harry hated to admit it but he felt so much safer when he was with Draco, and not so miserable. He even noticed that ever since that day with Draco, he had yet to cut himself.
"Harry, can I talk to you?" Hermione asked as she took a seat next to the boy who lived
"Sure 'Mione, what's the matter?"
"Well... I've noticed, the past couple of months, you've been more down than usual. Every time I ask if you are okay you say that your fine but... it just doesn't seem you really are."
"It's okay Hermione, really it's nothing. I can handle everything, it's all being taken care of."
"By Malfoy?"
Hermione raised an eyebrow playfully as she asked this while trying to hide a smile at the fact that Harry was slightly blushing. Before he could respond though, her lighthearted mood changed a bit as she looked at Harry seriously.
"Look Harry, I know you and Malfoy have become pretty good friends these last two weeks, for some reason Ron nor I can comprehend ... although I don't think that you and Draco understand it either. Nevertheless, I know you really value that friendship but don't forget that Ron and I are your friends as well and we are here for you."
"Oh Hermione, I know that you're here for me and I would never forget you or Ron. I just suppose that in some strange way Draco and I can relate to eachother more than either of us thought. 'Mione can I tell you something?"
The young girl nodded her head while Harry moved his chair around so he could face her.
"When you asked me if I way gay... well I don't know if I am, I'm not sure if I ever will but I do know that I can't help but find myself attracted to this one person, this one guy. I can't explain the way I feel around him, it's almost painful. But I still feel the need to be near him, constantly, I wanna always be there just to catch this little things he does and–
"Wait," Hermione interrupted, "This is Draco Malfoy we are talking about here?"
"I know it sounds crazy 'Mione but... he's not the person you think, or at least he's not always that person. There are times when he smiles sincerely, or when he drops his cold 'Don't get near me I'm a Malfoy act' and he has pure raw emotion in his eyes."
Hermione smiled kindly and started to get up from her chair.
"I can't believe you have a thing for Malfoy, I mean a thing that goes past physical, but you're my friend so you know I'm gonna be here for you."
"I know Hermione, thanks."
With that she gave him another smile and headed out the library while Harry watched and allowed what he just said sink in. There he had admitted his feelings for Draco that he hadn't even admitted to himself, at least not fully. In any case he couldn't dwell on such things, Draco would never feel that way about him nor did Harry, in his mind, deserve to have Draco feel anything towards him. Just thinking about Draco right then though brought a smile to Harry's face as he decided he would go surprise the Slytherin and waltz into Draco's room. One of his favourite pastimes.
The raven-haired Gryffindor was outside the door once again when he heard voices within and took a moment to hide behind the Slytherin's door. Though, in sudden remembrance, he remember that he had on the invisibility cloak and the door was slightly ajar allowing Harry to go in and watch unnoticed. As Harry entered silently he realized that the voices belonged to Draco, of course, and Blaise Zabini.
"Come on Blaise, Im tired... just leave my room already."
"Or what?" Blaise questioned nearly flirtatiously as he leaned towards Draco while smirking.
"Or I'll tell all of Hogwarts your little secret," the blonde Slytherin responded while pushing Blaise playfully returning the smirk with his own famous one.
"You mean tell them all that I'm bisexual?" the dark-haired slytherin asked while rasing an elegant brow, "Feel free to babe, then all the open-minded guys in Hogwarts will now that I'm available."
"Don't call me babe," Draco stated seriously yet still carried a smirk.
'Are they flirting' Harry asked to himself feeling inevitable jealousy pour through his veins. He didn't want this to last much longer nor see it much longer but couldn't bring himself to leave. Helpless, the boy who lived remained in the corner, unseen by the two Slytherins, as he suddenly felt himself get angry. Blaise suddenly turned as if he was going to leave but first wrapped his arms around Draco.
"Why not babe?"
"Just get out Blaise," Draco grunted as he gave the other boy a slight shove pushing him out of the room and then closing the door behind him.
Harry took this moment to remove the cloak and reveal him self from the shadowed corner in the Slytherin's room. Draco moved around and was slightly startled to see the boy who lived there with a dark scowl.
"Decided to pay me a visit?" Draco asked with something between a smirk and smile.
Harry ignored Draco's question and in turn asked one of his own.
"What was that all about?"
"Are you referring to my conversation with the lovely Blaise Zabini?"
"Lovely?" Harry hissed, "That stupid git's far from lovely! He's... He's..."
Draco couldn't help but smile at the sudden angry that Harry was showing along with his flushed face which caused him to look far too adorable that even the cold-hearted Slytherin couldn't ignore.
"Don't smile! I don't find this very funny!" Harry exclaimed and seeing that Draco was still smiling and seemed even on the brink of laughter nearly threw himself at the Slytherin pinning Draco against the door his arms pressing Draco's down. Of course, though, Draco was certainly a stronger boy and quickly turned the tables on Harry by escaping his grasp and in turn pinning the boy who lived against the door.
"Stop it Harry! You sound like a jealous school girl. You should hear yourself! Hah, now calm yourself."
"Fine, but will you let me go?" Harry asked wincing slightly. Draco had a pretty strong hold on Harry at the moment.
"No," Draco answered his steel eyes clouded with a fervent emotion that Harry couldn't quite decipher.
"Look Draco, I'm sorry for barging in here and acting like a school-girl or however you wish to put it but could you just let me go and I'll leave you alone, okay?"
Harry could feel a slight blush creep into his face as he realized how foolish he had been in his previous outburst. He waited but Draco didn't release his firm grasp on the raven-haired boy. Instead he just shook his head no slightly, a few wisps of his light hair, that was usually gelled back firmly, falling in front of his face. Harry sighed suddenly feeling very tired.
"Come on Draco, what do you want?"
Draco kept his killer grip on Harry and leaned closer to the boy who lived so that his face was a few inches away from Harry's. Harry could now clearly see that the emotion that filled the Slytherin's silvery eyes was pure, untainted desire. He answered Harry's question in one short word that filled the room with a sudden, sweet tension.
"You..."
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There's a bitterness inside
A silence that resides
Awaken by a painful fire that calls my name
These horrors are always the same
Lost in those eyes
I hated these crimson tears I cried
Fall unto broken arms
The last heartbreak served with angst charms
There was a resound peace in that moment
In which the fragrant world melted away
And I grasped onto it with childish fear
I needed the feeling to stay
I love you so very much
But that has nothing to do with it
*****************************************
Ah, my first cliffhanger type situation. This chapter didn't come out quite as I hoped, for I had the whole idea in my head but for some reason had much trouble getting down. Anyway I can assure that this story has a bit more to go before any ending but I want to know now if you would prefer a happy or sad ending. Please do tell and I will take all suggestions into consideration. Thanks much! In any case I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and please please please review! They make my day!