Maybe Tomorrow
~hotsleekeyz~
Chapter 5
It's Her
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//What am I thinking? Hermione, have you forgotten that Malfoy's drunk? Oh well. . . on second thoughts, he might be able to forget all about what I said anyways//
He's laughing. Laughing so hard my urge to continue what we've been doing started to subside. "God Granger! Are you serious? This must be some kind of a joke", said he as I gave him a death glare in return. I didn't stop from glaring and silence won over him as he tried to read the expressions on my face.
"Do I look like I'm kidding?"
He didn't reply at once. After a few seconds, he said "No"
"Then why did you laugh? You see Malfoy, this isn't funny because it's true. I wished it could have been a joke but it isn't. You're the guy I've been looking for all these years"
"I just didn't expect it"
I jumped off the desk and he stopped me with a grip on my wrist. "What are you doing?"
"Leaving"
I pulled my hand away and looked for the trace of clothing I left on the floor. He must have watched me as I picked every piece of cloth that I used to wear early that night. I stood then my back hit something from behind. . . someone.
Malfoy was behind me.
"Come on Granger. Don't tell me we're not going to finish what we started here!"
"It's over. Besides, nothing happened here Malfoy. You're drunk and tomorrow morning when you wake up, you've probably forgotten what really happened. . . I couldn't imagine how you were able to talk me into this!"
I was putting my shirt on without my brassiere first. I wanted to get out of that place before I could be pulled back to continue our delusion.
"Granger, I'm not drunk. I was just trying to piss you off when I acted like I wanted to waste myself. I know what I'm talking about and I mean my words well. . . I love you"
"Stop it! Go jack off alone after I leave"
"You love me don't you?"
"Honestly Malfoy, I don't know. Maybe I do have feelings for you but it's not love. I can't live by the legacy your girlfriend left with you. I am not her and I will never replace the space she left empty in your life. I love Justin and that's all you, and even I, have to know"
//Oh God is this right? Can I really leave him here and play numb to what he's saying? For one thing, I love him---a bit, but it isn't enough to make me stay. All I have to focus on right now is Justin. . . Yes, Justin though I know well he betrayed me//
"But he doesn't love you"
"Don't you put words into his mouth!" I started walking away after getting dressed.
"I'm just saying things that came out of his mouth. Granger, Fletchley doesn't love you. He just wanted to get laid with you---you know! Almost every single bloke here wants you in bed after they heard about you and Krum. Well, it's up to you if you won't believe me but what I said was true. He doesn't love you and I do. I'm not expecting you to replace my girlfriend. I loved you for who you are, all your differences from her and your--- come on Granger! Fletchley is playing with you! That's why I didn't let him continue his relationship with you because right from the start, he wasn't serious about you"
"Whatever. I'm leaving and don't you dare follow me unless you want the whole school to see you naked. I don't care if they say I came from your room since it's your fault why all the WHORE thing started. Oh I forgot, you're f*cking vain and wouldn't be a bit ashamed to show off your ASSETS. Well, come on", I said sarcastically though deep inside I'm hurting. The longer I stayed, the harder it became to get out of there, and more painful to bear that I'm denying myself from what my heart was beating for.
I pushed open the portrait and walked away.
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I entered the Gryffindor Common Room and saw Ron alone by the fireplace.
"So you're done with him?"
"Yes. . . I mean no. Nothing happened"
"What took you so long then? I bet you DID something"
"Technically, something happened, but no, nothing happened"
"Is he good"
"Come on Ron! Don't tell me that you're---"
Ron cut in. "---Jealous"
"And why would you be? Ron, you know I hate Malfoy and nothing can change that. . . whether or not we did it tonight, it meant nothing. He just lied to me through the night"
"Whoa girlfriend! He LIED to you? You wouldn't use such word if you aren't guilty of something"
//God! I forgot I'm his girlfriend!//
"Ron, I don't have time to fight over this"
"I mean nothing to you. Why would I anyway? I'm just a poor scum who's trying to fit in the crowd of filthy rich wizards"
"What are you trying to get at? Ronald Weasley, we're over. I'm officially ending our relationship! Besides, it's all your fault why this had to happen! If you didn't agree to have that bloody stupid chess game with Justin then I wouldn't be used as prize. At the least, you should have done something to win. . . or at least you could've dragged me away from Malfoy's pigs when they were helplessly holding me towards Malfoy's dormitory!"
"Good thing you do. I did that when you agreed to come over the ferret's dormitory. Well go on! Go to your bedroom and sulk on the NOTHING that happened between you and Malfoy"
"I thought you loved me! Why are you doing this?"
"The operative word is LOVED, Hermione. I know you just forced yourself into this relationship"
I was so furious I didn't know where it's all heading us. Maybe now I can stand on my own and voice my claim. "Was there? Fine. I'll leave. Just so you know, I hope you burn in hell!"
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I walked up steps to my room.
//Whose fault is it anyways? If he won that goddamn wizards' chess game then this wouldn't have happened//
I heard footsteps from behind. The scent was familiar and I knew at once who it was. I pointed a firm finger at the person without looking back. I stopped from walking as well.
"Mione, I---"
"Not a word. Don't give me a word now Harry. I don't need it"
"But---"
"No. Shut it otherwise you could forget that we've ever been friends"
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Next day came and I wanted to be alone all the more. I didn't even think that Harry would talk to me after what I did the night before. I was so rude.
I was walking to Transfiguration when the vibes suddenly awakened me from my thoughts/ someone was trying to overtake me at the hallway. He passed by and didn't look at me at first.
When the person was a few meters away, he stopped and looked at me nonchalantly. "I see you're alone." I replied blankly, "And so are you"
"Is it about last night?"
"Why would you care Malfoy? Are you trying to piss me off again?"
"No, I can't take it seeing you alone and sad. I for one see you alone in the library until 11pm almost every night if you aren't off having sex with someone, but you don't look a bit like that"
"And how did you know I stay until that time inside the library?"
"Because I follow you around." He paused for a while and then continued on with something that gave me a lot of questions to think about. "If you're glad that you took your decision firmly last night, I reckon you should wear a smile on your face. You're free again"
//Does he know about Ron?. . . or was it about me and HIM?//
"What are you talking about?
"You know what I'm talking about." Silence, then he carried on. "Honestly Granger, I don't want to look at you"
"Then don't! No one's forcing you to!" I snapped angrily. How dare he say that!
I looked at him in the eye. On one part, I felt that I was melting by his stare. He seemed to have been reading my mind.
"It's because when I look at you, I remember how it feels to lose my girlfriend again. . . And now---I'm losing you. . ."
"You're not losing me 'coz you never had me"
"I had you last night"
Malfoy turned away and hurried off.
Though he was right, I'm not telling.
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Dinner came in fast and I sat at the end of the table with Ginny. She was the only one I felt like talking to.
"Mione, look who's here", whispered Ginny at the same time that Zabbini, Goyle, and Crabbe walked up to Justin's table.
Ginny asked, "Where's Malfoy?" I just shrugged. I never tried to think about his whereabouts. When the three reached Justin, Zabbini leant into Justin's ear to whisper. . . then Justin smiled. An evil smile. . . I didn't like the feel of it so when he stood to leave with the other three, I stopped them even before they could reach the door.
"Hi Justin"
"Uhh. . . What do you want?"
"So, where are you going?"
That was a stupid question! Why did I ever think about asking that?
"I'm sorry Hermione, I'm not free tonight. I'm busy", said Justin as the others threw their smiles at me.
"No, I'm just asking where you're heading"
"Out for a walk. Some bitches need some fresh air. If you'll excuse us. . ."
They exited the Great Hall and I followed short. Crabbe saw me from behind and began snickering.
"Justin, where's Malfoy?"
He continued to walk. "Where's Malfoy?" I asked in a higher tone. Justin didn't even look back.
"I asked you, where's Malfoy?"
Justin turned his head towards me, as he didn't stop from walking. He simply glared at me and shifted his face away from me again. I stood there alone feeling there was something wrong going on.
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I asked Ginny to come along with me and we went out to the grounds. Though discreetly, we tried to look for Justin and the others. We walked around and we didn't see even a shadow of the ferret.
Then from afar, I heard a groan---a painful groan.
"Gin, let's go that way. Maybe it's them." I pulled Ginny's arm but she didn't let me.
"Hermione, that's the Dark Forest. We can't go in there!"
"Gin, please. It's only once that we'll enter it. No one would know!"
"But doesn't danger hunt you down in there?"
"Come on Gin. Do this for me. Until I know what they're up to, I won't stop looking for a clue. I could smell something fishy"
We walked deep into the forest and heard the painful groans even clearer. Not one of us dared to put on a light from our wands as anyone might see us. A few large trees more and we saw a number of figures from afar.
"I think that's them. Let's get nearer"
We hid behind a tree near enough so that we could hear what was going on.
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"I told you that no one is supposed to stay away from the group!" a voice said. Then another one, who seemed to be the one in pain answered, "but you were the on drawing away from me!"
"Look what you've done! Zabbini almost got finished by that Redhead and that filthy Potter! We promised to fight for one another here"
"I know! I was just busy!"
"Lame excuses!"
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"Mione, I'll peep a bit so that we'd know who they're talking to." Ginny peeped and I swear I heard her gasp. She hid behind the tree again, grasping for air. "He's beaten up. . . he's tied onto a tree and blood's all over his face!" The horror in Ginny's face was too much that I asked at once, "Who?"
I asked though I had a very strong feeling who it was. I asked Ginny despite the fact I didn't want to know who Justin's assaulting.
. . . then a punch came. . .
. . .a kick. . .
. . .a set of punches and blows was given to the victim. He was groaning and moaning in pain.
"It's Malfoy. . ."
"NO!" I stood from where I was half-sitting and tried to walk towards them. Ginny pulled me back.
"You can't go there, Mione! You'll be good as dead!"
So as hard as I tried to contain my emotions, I stayed.
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"Have you gone soft, huh? I thought you're tough! Show me now what you're bragging about!"
"What do you care if I've gone soft? I told you, I've always been faithful to our group!"
Justin kicked Malfoy straight at the stomach and he grunted painfully.
"So, I bet you're telling your father about this"
"No. He shouldn't know. He'll kill me!"
"Really? Then I could beat you up further"
I heard Justin slapping Malfoy. It was too much to bear hearing but I can't go in there!
"Malfoy, what's wrong with you? You don't join us in our mishaps. You won't attend drinking sessions with us. You don't gamble for sex anymore. Have you lost your touch?
"I just realized I couldn't go further doing things we used to do. I can't see the point of joining anymore. I've already found the meaning of life and living it"
Laughs. . .
Boisterous guffaws overpowered Malfoy's serious statement.
"What has caused all this? You aren't like this! You're tough, ruthless, and heartless! Now tell me the reason for this foolishness!"
A whip. . .
They were whipping Malfoy mad. I wasn't able to stop myself and so I ran to them at once and showed myself to them. I yelled, "Stop it!"
I stared at Malfoy's pitiful form tied by the tree. I immediately ran to him and held him in my arms. How Justin reacted, I don't know. Actually, I didn't care.
"Please Justin. . . Stop this"
Malfoy looked up and he let out a painful smile at me. Before he lost consciousness, he voiced, "I'm not heartless because I know how to love. . .
It's her. . ."
~Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling owns characters, setting, etc. Except: the plot is mine.~
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Wow! 5th chapter and on to the 6th chappie! Oh guys, the sixth chapter is, actually the last. I hope you like this story as much as I had fun writing this one. I'll try to post the last chapter very soon! Please, please hold on! The last line "Maybe Tomorrow" [the title of this fic and the title of the last chappie is actually said by one of the characters. Give a guess who!]
PLEASE review! THANKS to those who keep on dropping anything. I appreciate it. I'll answer ALL your reviews on the last chapter! Ciao!
Chapter 5
It's Her
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//What am I thinking? Hermione, have you forgotten that Malfoy's drunk? Oh well. . . on second thoughts, he might be able to forget all about what I said anyways//
He's laughing. Laughing so hard my urge to continue what we've been doing started to subside. "God Granger! Are you serious? This must be some kind of a joke", said he as I gave him a death glare in return. I didn't stop from glaring and silence won over him as he tried to read the expressions on my face.
"Do I look like I'm kidding?"
He didn't reply at once. After a few seconds, he said "No"
"Then why did you laugh? You see Malfoy, this isn't funny because it's true. I wished it could have been a joke but it isn't. You're the guy I've been looking for all these years"
"I just didn't expect it"
I jumped off the desk and he stopped me with a grip on my wrist. "What are you doing?"
"Leaving"
I pulled my hand away and looked for the trace of clothing I left on the floor. He must have watched me as I picked every piece of cloth that I used to wear early that night. I stood then my back hit something from behind. . . someone.
Malfoy was behind me.
"Come on Granger. Don't tell me we're not going to finish what we started here!"
"It's over. Besides, nothing happened here Malfoy. You're drunk and tomorrow morning when you wake up, you've probably forgotten what really happened. . . I couldn't imagine how you were able to talk me into this!"
I was putting my shirt on without my brassiere first. I wanted to get out of that place before I could be pulled back to continue our delusion.
"Granger, I'm not drunk. I was just trying to piss you off when I acted like I wanted to waste myself. I know what I'm talking about and I mean my words well. . . I love you"
"Stop it! Go jack off alone after I leave"
"You love me don't you?"
"Honestly Malfoy, I don't know. Maybe I do have feelings for you but it's not love. I can't live by the legacy your girlfriend left with you. I am not her and I will never replace the space she left empty in your life. I love Justin and that's all you, and even I, have to know"
//Oh God is this right? Can I really leave him here and play numb to what he's saying? For one thing, I love him---a bit, but it isn't enough to make me stay. All I have to focus on right now is Justin. . . Yes, Justin though I know well he betrayed me//
"But he doesn't love you"
"Don't you put words into his mouth!" I started walking away after getting dressed.
"I'm just saying things that came out of his mouth. Granger, Fletchley doesn't love you. He just wanted to get laid with you---you know! Almost every single bloke here wants you in bed after they heard about you and Krum. Well, it's up to you if you won't believe me but what I said was true. He doesn't love you and I do. I'm not expecting you to replace my girlfriend. I loved you for who you are, all your differences from her and your--- come on Granger! Fletchley is playing with you! That's why I didn't let him continue his relationship with you because right from the start, he wasn't serious about you"
"Whatever. I'm leaving and don't you dare follow me unless you want the whole school to see you naked. I don't care if they say I came from your room since it's your fault why all the WHORE thing started. Oh I forgot, you're f*cking vain and wouldn't be a bit ashamed to show off your ASSETS. Well, come on", I said sarcastically though deep inside I'm hurting. The longer I stayed, the harder it became to get out of there, and more painful to bear that I'm denying myself from what my heart was beating for.
I pushed open the portrait and walked away.
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I entered the Gryffindor Common Room and saw Ron alone by the fireplace.
"So you're done with him?"
"Yes. . . I mean no. Nothing happened"
"What took you so long then? I bet you DID something"
"Technically, something happened, but no, nothing happened"
"Is he good"
"Come on Ron! Don't tell me that you're---"
Ron cut in. "---Jealous"
"And why would you be? Ron, you know I hate Malfoy and nothing can change that. . . whether or not we did it tonight, it meant nothing. He just lied to me through the night"
"Whoa girlfriend! He LIED to you? You wouldn't use such word if you aren't guilty of something"
//God! I forgot I'm his girlfriend!//
"Ron, I don't have time to fight over this"
"I mean nothing to you. Why would I anyway? I'm just a poor scum who's trying to fit in the crowd of filthy rich wizards"
"What are you trying to get at? Ronald Weasley, we're over. I'm officially ending our relationship! Besides, it's all your fault why this had to happen! If you didn't agree to have that bloody stupid chess game with Justin then I wouldn't be used as prize. At the least, you should have done something to win. . . or at least you could've dragged me away from Malfoy's pigs when they were helplessly holding me towards Malfoy's dormitory!"
"Good thing you do. I did that when you agreed to come over the ferret's dormitory. Well go on! Go to your bedroom and sulk on the NOTHING that happened between you and Malfoy"
"I thought you loved me! Why are you doing this?"
"The operative word is LOVED, Hermione. I know you just forced yourself into this relationship"
I was so furious I didn't know where it's all heading us. Maybe now I can stand on my own and voice my claim. "Was there? Fine. I'll leave. Just so you know, I hope you burn in hell!"
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I walked up steps to my room.
//Whose fault is it anyways? If he won that goddamn wizards' chess game then this wouldn't have happened//
I heard footsteps from behind. The scent was familiar and I knew at once who it was. I pointed a firm finger at the person without looking back. I stopped from walking as well.
"Mione, I---"
"Not a word. Don't give me a word now Harry. I don't need it"
"But---"
"No. Shut it otherwise you could forget that we've ever been friends"
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Next day came and I wanted to be alone all the more. I didn't even think that Harry would talk to me after what I did the night before. I was so rude.
I was walking to Transfiguration when the vibes suddenly awakened me from my thoughts/ someone was trying to overtake me at the hallway. He passed by and didn't look at me at first.
When the person was a few meters away, he stopped and looked at me nonchalantly. "I see you're alone." I replied blankly, "And so are you"
"Is it about last night?"
"Why would you care Malfoy? Are you trying to piss me off again?"
"No, I can't take it seeing you alone and sad. I for one see you alone in the library until 11pm almost every night if you aren't off having sex with someone, but you don't look a bit like that"
"And how did you know I stay until that time inside the library?"
"Because I follow you around." He paused for a while and then continued on with something that gave me a lot of questions to think about. "If you're glad that you took your decision firmly last night, I reckon you should wear a smile on your face. You're free again"
//Does he know about Ron?. . . or was it about me and HIM?//
"What are you talking about?
"You know what I'm talking about." Silence, then he carried on. "Honestly Granger, I don't want to look at you"
"Then don't! No one's forcing you to!" I snapped angrily. How dare he say that!
I looked at him in the eye. On one part, I felt that I was melting by his stare. He seemed to have been reading my mind.
"It's because when I look at you, I remember how it feels to lose my girlfriend again. . . And now---I'm losing you. . ."
"You're not losing me 'coz you never had me"
"I had you last night"
Malfoy turned away and hurried off.
Though he was right, I'm not telling.
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Dinner came in fast and I sat at the end of the table with Ginny. She was the only one I felt like talking to.
"Mione, look who's here", whispered Ginny at the same time that Zabbini, Goyle, and Crabbe walked up to Justin's table.
Ginny asked, "Where's Malfoy?" I just shrugged. I never tried to think about his whereabouts. When the three reached Justin, Zabbini leant into Justin's ear to whisper. . . then Justin smiled. An evil smile. . . I didn't like the feel of it so when he stood to leave with the other three, I stopped them even before they could reach the door.
"Hi Justin"
"Uhh. . . What do you want?"
"So, where are you going?"
That was a stupid question! Why did I ever think about asking that?
"I'm sorry Hermione, I'm not free tonight. I'm busy", said Justin as the others threw their smiles at me.
"No, I'm just asking where you're heading"
"Out for a walk. Some bitches need some fresh air. If you'll excuse us. . ."
They exited the Great Hall and I followed short. Crabbe saw me from behind and began snickering.
"Justin, where's Malfoy?"
He continued to walk. "Where's Malfoy?" I asked in a higher tone. Justin didn't even look back.
"I asked you, where's Malfoy?"
Justin turned his head towards me, as he didn't stop from walking. He simply glared at me and shifted his face away from me again. I stood there alone feeling there was something wrong going on.
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I asked Ginny to come along with me and we went out to the grounds. Though discreetly, we tried to look for Justin and the others. We walked around and we didn't see even a shadow of the ferret.
Then from afar, I heard a groan---a painful groan.
"Gin, let's go that way. Maybe it's them." I pulled Ginny's arm but she didn't let me.
"Hermione, that's the Dark Forest. We can't go in there!"
"Gin, please. It's only once that we'll enter it. No one would know!"
"But doesn't danger hunt you down in there?"
"Come on Gin. Do this for me. Until I know what they're up to, I won't stop looking for a clue. I could smell something fishy"
We walked deep into the forest and heard the painful groans even clearer. Not one of us dared to put on a light from our wands as anyone might see us. A few large trees more and we saw a number of figures from afar.
"I think that's them. Let's get nearer"
We hid behind a tree near enough so that we could hear what was going on.
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"I told you that no one is supposed to stay away from the group!" a voice said. Then another one, who seemed to be the one in pain answered, "but you were the on drawing away from me!"
"Look what you've done! Zabbini almost got finished by that Redhead and that filthy Potter! We promised to fight for one another here"
"I know! I was just busy!"
"Lame excuses!"
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"Mione, I'll peep a bit so that we'd know who they're talking to." Ginny peeped and I swear I heard her gasp. She hid behind the tree again, grasping for air. "He's beaten up. . . he's tied onto a tree and blood's all over his face!" The horror in Ginny's face was too much that I asked at once, "Who?"
I asked though I had a very strong feeling who it was. I asked Ginny despite the fact I didn't want to know who Justin's assaulting.
. . . then a punch came. . .
. . .a kick. . .
. . .a set of punches and blows was given to the victim. He was groaning and moaning in pain.
"It's Malfoy. . ."
"NO!" I stood from where I was half-sitting and tried to walk towards them. Ginny pulled me back.
"You can't go there, Mione! You'll be good as dead!"
So as hard as I tried to contain my emotions, I stayed.
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"Have you gone soft, huh? I thought you're tough! Show me now what you're bragging about!"
"What do you care if I've gone soft? I told you, I've always been faithful to our group!"
Justin kicked Malfoy straight at the stomach and he grunted painfully.
"So, I bet you're telling your father about this"
"No. He shouldn't know. He'll kill me!"
"Really? Then I could beat you up further"
I heard Justin slapping Malfoy. It was too much to bear hearing but I can't go in there!
"Malfoy, what's wrong with you? You don't join us in our mishaps. You won't attend drinking sessions with us. You don't gamble for sex anymore. Have you lost your touch?
"I just realized I couldn't go further doing things we used to do. I can't see the point of joining anymore. I've already found the meaning of life and living it"
Laughs. . .
Boisterous guffaws overpowered Malfoy's serious statement.
"What has caused all this? You aren't like this! You're tough, ruthless, and heartless! Now tell me the reason for this foolishness!"
A whip. . .
They were whipping Malfoy mad. I wasn't able to stop myself and so I ran to them at once and showed myself to them. I yelled, "Stop it!"
I stared at Malfoy's pitiful form tied by the tree. I immediately ran to him and held him in my arms. How Justin reacted, I don't know. Actually, I didn't care.
"Please Justin. . . Stop this"
Malfoy looked up and he let out a painful smile at me. Before he lost consciousness, he voiced, "I'm not heartless because I know how to love. . .
It's her. . ."
~Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling owns characters, setting, etc. Except: the plot is mine.~
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Wow! 5th chapter and on to the 6th chappie! Oh guys, the sixth chapter is, actually the last. I hope you like this story as much as I had fun writing this one. I'll try to post the last chapter very soon! Please, please hold on! The last line "Maybe Tomorrow" [the title of this fic and the title of the last chappie is actually said by one of the characters. Give a guess who!]
PLEASE review! THANKS to those who keep on dropping anything. I appreciate it. I'll answer ALL your reviews on the last chapter! Ciao!