To Love You More Chapter 10: one step closer, an a walk to remember fanfic

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Jamie just continued to run. Tears poured down her face. She stopped at the cemetery and fell to her knees in front of her mother's grave.

" I need… your help!" Jamie said to her mothers tombstone, in between sobs. " He said he loves me. How could he do this?" Jamie asked as the tears continued to fall down her face. Her heart felt like popping, it was filled with pain and anger. Every time she closed her eyes, she saw it.

" Damn you Landon Carter!" Jamie screamed. " Why did you have to come in to my life? Why did you tell me you loved me… if you never meant it?" Jamie whispered to herself as she sat in front of her mother's grave with her knees to her chest.

" Because I did mean it." A voice said behind Jamie. She turned to see Landon standing behind her. She looked at him through the tears in her eyes, the sight of him felt like a knife slowly going through her chest.

" Go away." Jamie said through clenched teeth as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

" We need to talk." Landon said, he hated seeing her like this and knowing he caused it.

"Talk? I don't want to talk to you. I'm tired of you hurting me. How did you find me?" Jamie asked.

~ I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before… ~

" I heard you scream. By the time I made my way outside I saw you running down the street." Landon explained.

" By the time you made your way outside? Yeah that might of taken awhile… you know… with the whole needing to get dressed." Jamie said as she stood from the ground.

" I never meant to hurt you, it just…. It just happened." Landon explained, the truth was it did just happen, he didn't know what else to say.

~ Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break~

" You never meant to hurt me? Wow, that's sounds so familiar. You should just save it. If you want Belinda, fine. It's not like you and me are together. Just don't lie to me. You weren't even thinking of me.

Your probably just making this ' I never meant to hurt you' lie! Because you need me. Don't worry, I said I would help anyway I can and I meant that. After the sugary, I never want to see you ever again." Jamie said as she finally stopped crying and looked Landon square in the eye.

" That's not true and you know it." Landon said, he does love her, he needs her to see it.

" Landon, I'm tried of listening to what you think is right. I'm tired of you hurting me. Since the moment we meet till right now, has been a lie and for what?!" Jamie yelled as she threw her hands in the sir.

" You don't really believe that?" Landon asked in a shaky voice.

" Yes. Landon, lets stop fooling your self's. It wasn't meant to be." Jamie said as she began to cry again.

~I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
Just like before... ~

"No." Landon said as he shook his head. " No, I don't believe that. I never meant to sleep with Belinda, she came over….

" No! I don't… I don't want to hear how it happened. I saw enough!" Jamie yelled as she began to pace the ground.

" You saw?" Landon asked.

" I went to tell you… I want to talk to you and something caught my eye, I froze." Jamie explained with a cringed face, the last thing she wanted to see was Landon and Belinda having sex on the sofa.

~Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Break ~

" I'm sorry." Landon said, he didn't know what else to say.

" Don't say that. M.." Jamie said

" Jamie…"

~shut up when I'm talking to you
shut up shut up shut up
shut up when I'm talking to you
shut up shut up shut up shut up
I'm about to break~

" Wait. I need to get this out." Jamie said. " my life has been turned up side down since I bumped into you in the hall. I have felt so many different emotions since that day. I was so happy because I thought you were my friend. Then I felt hate because you hurt me. Then I put it all to the side because I wanted to be there for you and you hurt me AGAIN. Now I'm back to hate and anger." Jamie explained. She never really forgave Landon for that bet but she understood what he was going through, she cares about him, she wanted to be by his side.

" So what now?" Landon asked.

" Now. I go home, you go where ever you feel like and we don't see each other any more till the surgery then after that, never again." Jamie said as her eyes began to gloss from the tears she held back.

" Jamie, are you sure this is what you want?" Landon asked in disbelief. He knew Jamie was in pain but he couldn't stand the thought of not seeing her or being around her.

" Yes." Jamie said, then turned and walked away, leaving Landon standing in the middle of the cemetery.

Song:// Linkin park= one step closer

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