Chapter 11
Jesse always had flash backs during her sleep and it always bothered her that only bad memories and one good memory always showed up. They were longer and worst when she was in NWS induced sleep.
She was in the gate room with her parents near her. The Stargate activated to an unknown world that they were going to throw her now dead boyfriend into. It was for the best. No one knew what to do with a body of a person who might be alive in this reality even if they couldn't find him Harry Maybourne had his secrets.
His body went into the Stargate but then her vision changed she was no longer in the gate room but in a big room and she was no longer herself. She was looking though the eyes of a Jaffa but she could see herself, a little whimpering three year old, at a side of the room.
Her clothes were ripped and her short, choppy blonde hair was dirty and growing. She could hardly see this as herself. She had forgotten that her eyes had been blue at one time. This seemed to be the time they were changing because only looked a clear blue and the other was a dark almost brown not like her dark brown eyes that she had now, or the brown bottom and blonde steaks that at one point had been the other way around on her head.
A woman walked into the room and Jesse got the feeling of being sick. Her younger self seemed to think so to. Jesse knew who she was, Har'mon. In the host from her universe, it's not hard to forget the face that haunted her nightmare until-- well she still does.
The girl started shaking as Har'mon took out her ribbon device.
" Come with me girl or you will feel pain." She said and the littler girl followed quickly into the room where the machines were. They had changed that girl and given her things to think about that no adult should know.
But that scene changed again and she was screaming in her room. This time she was herself. She was no more than seven her hair was all blonde and her eyes all brown.
"What is it sweetheart?" asked Samantha Carter-O'Neill at the doorway.
"I had another: sniff: nightmare mommy." She said as she started crying again.
"Oh honey, its over no one going to hurt you know," Said Sam.
"I heard Jesse screaming mom is she okay?" asked a young boy by the door.
"She's fine Ben, go back to sleep and tell Jake and Danny to do the same thing you've got school tomorrow!" she order the retreating pre-teen.
"Alright, alright I just wanted to check," said Ben but anything else he might have said was lost as he entered a yawn and sleepy whisper.
"You should to, Jess its late and you don't want to miss you're first day in 5th grade." She told her daughter with a smile.
"But, I'm too young mommy. I wanna go to second grade with Bryan, everyone will tease me in 5th because I'm so little."
"But, Jess you can do so much more where you're going."
"Name one ting." Sounding so much like her father with her arms in a slight self-hug.
Sam smiled at her daughter small mistake and said, " Well, you won't get bored in class."
She frowned at her mother's point. "But, I still won't like it."
"You'll be will be with Cassie." Said Sam.
"Aunt Janet's new daughter, the one from Toronto?" she asked in a voice trying but failing to hide her pleasure.
Sam nodded her head and asked, "Is there another one? Go to sleep sweetie." She said as she kissed her daughter's head and turned off the lights to her room as she left.
"I love you mommy." Jesse called to Sam. She poked her head in and responded, " I love you too Jessica Samantha."
She smiled at the name. Her father always called her that and her mother only called her Jess. But, the moment was broken when two twin boys plus Ben and Charlie were seen running by her room and an angry Jack following them drenched in some kind of goop.
"Jacob Jonathan, Daniel Scott, and Benjamin Reese Carter-O'Neill this is the last straw!" he yelled almost falling down the stairs in pursuit. The only ones in trouble were the named but Charlie was just running because he was there.
At the bottom of the stairs Jesse could hear her mother say, " Can't wait until you have to yell Jesse's name." Sam said bringing her arms on to her husband's shoulders.
"Why?" asked a very tried Jack O'Neill
"Because by the time you get finished screaming Jessica Samantha Grace Elizabeth Catherine Carter-O'Neill. You'll forget what she's in trouble for!"
Her beautiful memory was changed into a small room type setting. Her father was next to her crying and so were her brothers and mother but one brother was missing. Her half-brother's casket was in the front of the room. He had changed fate by living the bullet's show but the second time fate sent him to his death it was in the form of a car.
She started crying. She could feel the tears coming down her cheek in many numbers as she walked up to say her final goodbye to her brother. Jesse was tall enough now to reach it without help as she looked at her brother's body. He looked as if he was sleeping.
Her heart went to her throat but all too quickly she was in a graveyard. She was older now. Jesse had longer hair and it was all brown with tiny whips of blonde mixed in. She remembered this like yesterday. It was two years ago, the air was chilly and small amounts of dew were falling. It was November, Charlie's birthday, she was standing there holding flowers this seemed pointless to her.
Sure, she missed Charlie but they all looked like coming here was going to bring him to life again. She'd lost hope at ten. She should be thinking about all the good times she had with Charlie and mourn his death, twice a year every year but she had been seven when he had died. Her special moments with Charlie had been limited to family events.
"Jesse," Jack said from behind her.
"Daddy," she said back at him.
"Something wrong?" he asked as if he didn't know the answer. The real question was did he know the right answer.
"Every year dad, twice a year we come on with Sara and put out flowers and cry. Do you think Charlie would want that we cry because of him?"
"Well,"
"Because he always tried to make me laugh, dad,"
Jack opened his mouth but no words came out.
"I don't mean to sound selfish but,"
"Jesse,"
"I mean I know Sara needs this because she has no more kids and you have us but," Jesse stopped and burst into silent tears. Sara had left a little bit ago and Jack had come to get Jesse so they could leave and this seemed like something that could take forever. "Jesse, don't cry," but she did and buried her face into his chest.
"It'll be alright they'll find him." A younger voice said to her. She lifted her head and found herself face to face with her youngest brother, Ben.
"I just miss him, Reese." She said.
"I know but Bryan only been gone three weeks. He can still be alive we have to have hope Jesse." This was when Bryan had gone MIA off world like six months before she came through the mirror. They had found him in rough shape two days after this conversation. But, at the time Jesse truly thought she would never she Bryan again.
"I love him, Reese." She said.
"I know Jesse, I know." He said.
She buried her head in his chest once more but when she opened her eyes she was in the commons area eating waffles with her brothers.
"You know Jake we all took a vote and we found out you get your smarts from dad." She found herself saying.
"Oh cold Jesse," said Danny from next to Jake. "At least I don't have a boyfriend that tags along everywhere I go." He said protecting his twin.
"At least," Bryan said as he entered. "You don't have a boy or girlfriend." They all started laughing.
"He's here this proves my point." said Danny.
"Maybe a little but," any remark Ben could have added to the conversation was stopped by the klaxons and the oh so familiar voice saying, "Unscheduled off world activation."
"Maybe we should go see what that's about." Said Ben.
"Maybe." Responded Jesse and Bryan.
"No, we're going back to dad's office its most likely an injured off-world team." Said Jake.
"Suit yourself," she said but no sooner where the words out of her mouth then they heard. "Enemy has penetrated the iris, this is NOT a drill, and I repeat this is NOT a drill!"
"You know where to go." Said Jake quickly as they went into the hall and separated paths heading to her mother's lab but the path the twins had taken was full of Jaffa and the sound of many people being shot could be heard from the other side.
Sam and Jack entered Sam's lab just as Bryan, Jesse, and Ben had. "You ready." Sam asked them. They nodded and simply picked their backpacks out of the small closet in Sam's lab that they had there just in case. They walked out of the lab but before Sam and Jack could get out a loud boom was heard in the lab.
Jesse ventured recklessly back into the room and saw her parents dead on the floor holding hands were their wedding bands were Bryan and Ben had saw but pushed Jesse out of the room. They were all holding back a sob as they walked down but the sound of Jaffa Armor made them run. A Jaffa shot Ben in the back but Jesse didn't notice she had to open that door to get to the mirror.
When she did light flooded to her eyes and she saw her mother next to her bed and her father pacing the floor. They were talking to each other. But, before she could hear any of their dialogue her father looked at her confirming that she was the topic of their conversation.
"You're awake," he said at Jesse and it caught Sam's attention. She looked at her daughter with a mix of relief and worries and gave her a smile.
Jesse always had flash backs during her sleep and it always bothered her that only bad memories and one good memory always showed up. They were longer and worst when she was in NWS induced sleep.
She was in the gate room with her parents near her. The Stargate activated to an unknown world that they were going to throw her now dead boyfriend into. It was for the best. No one knew what to do with a body of a person who might be alive in this reality even if they couldn't find him Harry Maybourne had his secrets.
His body went into the Stargate but then her vision changed she was no longer in the gate room but in a big room and she was no longer herself. She was looking though the eyes of a Jaffa but she could see herself, a little whimpering three year old, at a side of the room.
Her clothes were ripped and her short, choppy blonde hair was dirty and growing. She could hardly see this as herself. She had forgotten that her eyes had been blue at one time. This seemed to be the time they were changing because only looked a clear blue and the other was a dark almost brown not like her dark brown eyes that she had now, or the brown bottom and blonde steaks that at one point had been the other way around on her head.
A woman walked into the room and Jesse got the feeling of being sick. Her younger self seemed to think so to. Jesse knew who she was, Har'mon. In the host from her universe, it's not hard to forget the face that haunted her nightmare until-- well she still does.
The girl started shaking as Har'mon took out her ribbon device.
" Come with me girl or you will feel pain." She said and the littler girl followed quickly into the room where the machines were. They had changed that girl and given her things to think about that no adult should know.
But that scene changed again and she was screaming in her room. This time she was herself. She was no more than seven her hair was all blonde and her eyes all brown.
"What is it sweetheart?" asked Samantha Carter-O'Neill at the doorway.
"I had another: sniff: nightmare mommy." She said as she started crying again.
"Oh honey, its over no one going to hurt you know," Said Sam.
"I heard Jesse screaming mom is she okay?" asked a young boy by the door.
"She's fine Ben, go back to sleep and tell Jake and Danny to do the same thing you've got school tomorrow!" she order the retreating pre-teen.
"Alright, alright I just wanted to check," said Ben but anything else he might have said was lost as he entered a yawn and sleepy whisper.
"You should to, Jess its late and you don't want to miss you're first day in 5th grade." She told her daughter with a smile.
"But, I'm too young mommy. I wanna go to second grade with Bryan, everyone will tease me in 5th because I'm so little."
"But, Jess you can do so much more where you're going."
"Name one ting." Sounding so much like her father with her arms in a slight self-hug.
Sam smiled at her daughter small mistake and said, " Well, you won't get bored in class."
She frowned at her mother's point. "But, I still won't like it."
"You'll be will be with Cassie." Said Sam.
"Aunt Janet's new daughter, the one from Toronto?" she asked in a voice trying but failing to hide her pleasure.
Sam nodded her head and asked, "Is there another one? Go to sleep sweetie." She said as she kissed her daughter's head and turned off the lights to her room as she left.
"I love you mommy." Jesse called to Sam. She poked her head in and responded, " I love you too Jessica Samantha."
She smiled at the name. Her father always called her that and her mother only called her Jess. But, the moment was broken when two twin boys plus Ben and Charlie were seen running by her room and an angry Jack following them drenched in some kind of goop.
"Jacob Jonathan, Daniel Scott, and Benjamin Reese Carter-O'Neill this is the last straw!" he yelled almost falling down the stairs in pursuit. The only ones in trouble were the named but Charlie was just running because he was there.
At the bottom of the stairs Jesse could hear her mother say, " Can't wait until you have to yell Jesse's name." Sam said bringing her arms on to her husband's shoulders.
"Why?" asked a very tried Jack O'Neill
"Because by the time you get finished screaming Jessica Samantha Grace Elizabeth Catherine Carter-O'Neill. You'll forget what she's in trouble for!"
Her beautiful memory was changed into a small room type setting. Her father was next to her crying and so were her brothers and mother but one brother was missing. Her half-brother's casket was in the front of the room. He had changed fate by living the bullet's show but the second time fate sent him to his death it was in the form of a car.
She started crying. She could feel the tears coming down her cheek in many numbers as she walked up to say her final goodbye to her brother. Jesse was tall enough now to reach it without help as she looked at her brother's body. He looked as if he was sleeping.
Her heart went to her throat but all too quickly she was in a graveyard. She was older now. Jesse had longer hair and it was all brown with tiny whips of blonde mixed in. She remembered this like yesterday. It was two years ago, the air was chilly and small amounts of dew were falling. It was November, Charlie's birthday, she was standing there holding flowers this seemed pointless to her.
Sure, she missed Charlie but they all looked like coming here was going to bring him to life again. She'd lost hope at ten. She should be thinking about all the good times she had with Charlie and mourn his death, twice a year every year but she had been seven when he had died. Her special moments with Charlie had been limited to family events.
"Jesse," Jack said from behind her.
"Daddy," she said back at him.
"Something wrong?" he asked as if he didn't know the answer. The real question was did he know the right answer.
"Every year dad, twice a year we come on with Sara and put out flowers and cry. Do you think Charlie would want that we cry because of him?"
"Well,"
"Because he always tried to make me laugh, dad,"
Jack opened his mouth but no words came out.
"I don't mean to sound selfish but,"
"Jesse,"
"I mean I know Sara needs this because she has no more kids and you have us but," Jesse stopped and burst into silent tears. Sara had left a little bit ago and Jack had come to get Jesse so they could leave and this seemed like something that could take forever. "Jesse, don't cry," but she did and buried her face into his chest.
"It'll be alright they'll find him." A younger voice said to her. She lifted her head and found herself face to face with her youngest brother, Ben.
"I just miss him, Reese." She said.
"I know but Bryan only been gone three weeks. He can still be alive we have to have hope Jesse." This was when Bryan had gone MIA off world like six months before she came through the mirror. They had found him in rough shape two days after this conversation. But, at the time Jesse truly thought she would never she Bryan again.
"I love him, Reese." She said.
"I know Jesse, I know." He said.
She buried her head in his chest once more but when she opened her eyes she was in the commons area eating waffles with her brothers.
"You know Jake we all took a vote and we found out you get your smarts from dad." She found herself saying.
"Oh cold Jesse," said Danny from next to Jake. "At least I don't have a boyfriend that tags along everywhere I go." He said protecting his twin.
"At least," Bryan said as he entered. "You don't have a boy or girlfriend." They all started laughing.
"He's here this proves my point." said Danny.
"Maybe a little but," any remark Ben could have added to the conversation was stopped by the klaxons and the oh so familiar voice saying, "Unscheduled off world activation."
"Maybe we should go see what that's about." Said Ben.
"Maybe." Responded Jesse and Bryan.
"No, we're going back to dad's office its most likely an injured off-world team." Said Jake.
"Suit yourself," she said but no sooner where the words out of her mouth then they heard. "Enemy has penetrated the iris, this is NOT a drill, and I repeat this is NOT a drill!"
"You know where to go." Said Jake quickly as they went into the hall and separated paths heading to her mother's lab but the path the twins had taken was full of Jaffa and the sound of many people being shot could be heard from the other side.
Sam and Jack entered Sam's lab just as Bryan, Jesse, and Ben had. "You ready." Sam asked them. They nodded and simply picked their backpacks out of the small closet in Sam's lab that they had there just in case. They walked out of the lab but before Sam and Jack could get out a loud boom was heard in the lab.
Jesse ventured recklessly back into the room and saw her parents dead on the floor holding hands were their wedding bands were Bryan and Ben had saw but pushed Jesse out of the room. They were all holding back a sob as they walked down but the sound of Jaffa Armor made them run. A Jaffa shot Ben in the back but Jesse didn't notice she had to open that door to get to the mirror.
When she did light flooded to her eyes and she saw her mother next to her bed and her father pacing the floor. They were talking to each other. But, before she could hear any of their dialogue her father looked at her confirming that she was the topic of their conversation.
"You're awake," he said at Jesse and it caught Sam's attention. She looked at her daughter with a mix of relief and worries and gave her a smile.