Disclaimer: I don't own anything Harry Potter at all in any way shape or form. The song is Michelle Branch "Breathe"

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade,
and wondering what's real,

"Ginny, I'm sorry. I had no idea he'd be here. I swear I wouldn't have asked you to come if I'd known." Sarah told Ginny sadly. They were at a company party at Sarah's work to celebrate an award she'd received. She'd quit working for the ministry after she gained enough work experience to get a job that paid much better. Ginny was having the hugest sense of déjà vu and she hated it. She'd come here to support a friend not to be confronted with Draco.

Draco was standing with an older couple and a single man. He stood there looking devastatingly handsome. Ginny's heart automatically started beating faster when she saw him. He hadn't noticed her presence yet but he was standing close to the exit so he'd see her if she tried to leave. Ginny gave up all hope of leaving without having to talk to him.

"It's ok, Sarah. It was bound to happen eventually now that he lives here." Ginny told her, trying to lessen her guilt.

"I know but it's really soon. He met Simon only a week ago, isn't that a little weird for you? It's not like they are strangers anymore."

"I know." Ginny's voice was strained. Annoyingly she was beginning to feel guilty about not telling Draco about Simon and she hated the feeling.

"Ok." Sarah looked over at her boss who was gesturing her to come over to him. "I've gotta go. Sorry." She said again.

"I might just go soon so don't worry about me if you don't see me later." Ginny told her and Sarah nodded.

Sarah had made an amazing speech that made you laugh one moment and then become serious the next. By the end of it all Ginny needed to be alone. Meeting all the people and constantly colliding with Draco's unreadable gaze was getting to be an enormous strain on her. She decided to duck out onto a balcony for some fresh air.

She breathed in and thought about her life. She loved Simon more than anything in the world and she was terrified to think of anything happening to him. She was also beginning to feel the love for Draco, that without his presence she'd managed to ignore come to life now that he'd reappeared in her life.

"Isn't it a bit chilly out here for you?" Draco asked quietly as he came up and stood behind her. He stood feet from her but it felt like only inches to Ginny. She squeezed her eyes shut to keep her melancholy tears from falling.

"Yeah, but it was crowded in there." She turned around to face him and thought about how gorgeous he was. Any woman would be lucky to have him in their life. Too bad she'd already had her chance.

Draco nodded. "It was. I was surprised to see you here. I hadn't realized you were affiliated with the Brockman Company."

"I'm not. I'm just here with a friend." She explained lamely. "What about you? I thought you were a lawyer."

Draco smiled a little. At least she cared enough to find out what he was up to. Tonight he felt the depression settle over him. He'd watched the couples smiling at each other adoringly inside the party and automatically thought of Ginny but she was too far for him to reach. "I am. My firm represents the company when necessary."

Ginny sighed. She knew that was a contract worth millions, if not more. It always came back to money.

"You've been very successful." Ginny complemented and meant it. She always knew Draco was highly intelligent.

"I have."

"So I suppose that makes you happy. All your money and all the things you can afford to have." Ginny said trying not to think about the son that she was struggling to support.

"The cars are nice." He said with a smile, obviously referring to the last time they'd ridden in a car together.

Ginny half smiled at the memory. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't hate Draco or even dislike him. He was part of her, her soul mate and that wasn't something easily forgotten.

"I'm sure that's true. You probably get some nice women to ride in them with you too."

"Actually, I've only let a woman in my car once." He said and Ginny looked at him trying to see if he was lying. "It's true. It was a long time ago. Too long, I think. That was the best ride of my life."

"Draco, don't. You aren't serious." Ginny said, hoping what he said was true but also hoping that it wasn't.

"Believe what you want." Draco said sadly. "I'm cold. I'm going to go inside. Goodnight, Virginia."

"Night." She said and just like that he was gone, leaving Ginny feeling sad and confused.

"Hey, Harry. Thanks for watching him. I hope he wasn't too mischievous for you." Ginny said as she arrived at her apartment.

"No, he was great. He's sleeping now." Harry said gesturing toward the bedroom.

"I really appreciate it. Sarah stole the show with her award speech, everyone loved it."

"I'm sure she did. Simon kept asking me about Quidditch, I think he's obsessed with it. Must be hanging around Ron too much or something. He's getting so big. It seems like forever since I've spent any time with him. He hardly remembered me." Harry said sadly.

"Yes he does! And thanks for getting him some new paints. He loves them."

"I brought some crayons and markers too."

"Yeah, I saw that. I think Simon is set for about five years with all the art supplies you brought him." Ginny teased and then honestly added, "I really appreciate it."

"No problem. He's a terrific kid. You're doing a great job with him. I know it must be hard for you being alone."

"It is and speaking of kids…when are you going to have some of your own?"

"Hey! I'm not even married yet!" Harry choked on his laughter.

"I know but someday you'll have some and you're going to be a great dad. Not that I know really. Simon hasn't had a dad." Ginny pulled at the hem of her shirt lost in thought before she asked the question that was tugging on her mind. "Harry, would you want to know? I mean now, even after all this time."

"Yeah, Ginny. Yeah I think I would." Harry answered after a while.

Ginny nodded her head as tears formed in her eyes. "I'm just so scared he'll try and take Simon from me or that he'll hate me. When he left me he definitely didn't want a child."

"It's been five years though. I've heard from friends, friends that know about these things, that he's different than he was." Harry was talking gently, like he didn't want to hurt Ginny.

"I know. He was there tonight. I wanted to tell him so badly. It was hard for me not too." Ginny wiped a tear from her cheek. "He asked me to go to dinner with him. I said no but god help me I wanted to so much."

"Ginny." Harry was looking at her intently and completely truthfully. "Gin, you can't help who you love. It just happens, you can't control it. When you try it just messes it all up and gets confusing."

"Thanks." Ginny hugged him tightly. "Thanks for just being you and not judging me."

"No problem. Of all people, I know about being judged so I wouldn't dream of it." Harry joked.

"Yeah, alright Mr. Potter. So have you read your newest biography?" Ginny teased him.

"No. Must've missed that one." Harry replied and Ginny managed a watery smile.

"It's late, you should go cause I am exhausted. But thanks again."

"Anytime but Gin, if you need me, you know where to find me." Harry told her and Ginny nodded.

"No, I mean it. You can come to me anytime for anything. I know how hard this is for you because I know what kind of person you are." Harry told her and then kissed her forehead before departing.

a/n: hey guys! Thanks for the reviews and the get well wishes and stuff. I'm feeling a lot better. Hope you all like this. I appreciate the song recommends you guys give me. They're great because I need all the help I can get! So anyhow. I know you guys totally want Simon to meet Draco but they will. (and I love the name simon too! It sounds so…I dunno cool and hot and not dorky or geeky in the least) I'm trying to decide if I want to finish this story soon or sorta drag it out longer. It'll be more angsty and stuff if I stretch it out. What do you think? Opinions anyone? Ok so I gotta go. Thanks thanks thanks!