Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or anything to do with it at all. The song is Switchfoot called might have ben hur

Everything I know tells me she's everything that I could hope for

Everything I know tells me I can't let her walk away

I took my time to find the words

I hope she feels the same

Cause I want someone to share my smile

Share the pain

Be there when the sea turns grey

to share the joy for better or worse

And I thought that it mighta been her.

I wonder if she knows the way I saw her soul light up my life

I wonder if she knows of the pain I feel tonight.

I took my time to find the words

I hope she feels the same

Cause I want someone to share my smile

Share the pain

Be there when the sea turns grey

to share the joy for better or worse

And I thought that it mighta been her.

The very next day Ginny decided she would tell Draco about Simon. She'd tell him everything that had ever happened since he'd left. It would be nice to finally not feel guilty about this anymore. She was trying to convince herself she was excited about it and she was failing miserably.

She asked her boss, Howard Scott who was in his mid thirties and not too bad looking, if she could have a long lunch and luckily he'd agreed. She thanked him profusely while ignoring the way he looked at her body. It annoyed her that he felt like he could just stare as her lasciviously, and she was powerless to do anything about it. She needed this job. This job gave her lots of time with Simon and enough money to make it by.

Ginny walked into the offices that belonged to Draco's firm and was surprised but not totally shocked. He was extremely successful. He'd managed to open his own wizarding law firm with a partner, and they'd become one of the biggest firms in the country. She asked where she could find his office and when she got there she was dismayed to find out he had the same secretary he'd had years before. Ginny hoped she wouldn't remember her.

"Hello, I'd like to see Mr. Malfoy." Ginny said hesitantly. Here history was repeating itself yet again in the course of two days. She felt very odd about this. Maybe it was some cosmic plot for her and Draco's relationship.

"Who should I say is here?" She asked looking at Ginny. She was looking at her in that "I recognize you but I can't remember you" way.

"Virginia Weasley." She said and she could see the light bulb go on in the woman's eyes.

"Just a moment." She went back to Draco's office and a moment later she came right back out. Ginny held her breath, scared she'd hear the same thing she'd heard five years ago.

"He said he'll see you right away." The woman smiled and Ginny let out her breath as she entered his office. It was surprisingly simple in an elegant way. Draco was sitting at a huge wooden desk studying a folder. He looked up at her as she entered the room.

"Have a seat." He told her gesturing to the chair in front of his desk. Ginny sat down and began to fidget.

"Umm…" She was nervous and had no idea where to start. How did you tell someone something like this? It's not like you can say, "Oh and by the way, I've had your child". No biggie right?

"Are you alright?" He asked looking at her strangely.

"I came here to tell you something. It's not easy for me to tell you but I have to and I want to." Ginny said and then stopped.

Draco's expression was unreadable; she thought he looked maybe a little alarmed or something. Hesitantly, Ginny continued.

"That night when you came to my apartment and we…" she paused for a moment, "we argued. That was really traumatizing for me and then when I came to your office to talk to you, you were beyond horrible to me. I don't think there are words to describe how much that hurt me." She stopped overwhelmed by all the pent up pain she felt.

Draco thought she was done talking so he started talking. He looked incredibly sad, so sad that Ginny was almost taken aback by it.

"I know. I was cruel but I was hurt too." He laughed mirthlessly. "I don't think you can know what it feels like. I thought you were just using me for my money and maybe that's true but-

Ginny stood up and cut him off. She was outraged.

"I Have Never Wanted You For Your Money!" She enunciated every word. "I don't know why you think I am some whore who wants your money, but it's total crap."

"Then why did you tell your roommate that you wanted me to buy you new things and all that?" Draco's voice was accusing.

"What are you talking about?" Ginny was at a complete loss. She had no idea what he was talking about.

"I heard you two talking about how I'd be a better roommate than her because I had money." He was clearly hurt by this.

"Oh my god." Ginny sat down and started laughing. Now she remembered the conversation, five years too late.

"I don't think it's funny at all." Draco said angry and so now he stood up.

"It is so funny." Ginny said. "That was my roommate telling me that you were rich and how lucky I was. She said that because at the time her boyfriend was a slacker of a wizard and going nowhere. I agreed so we wouldn't have to talk about it anymore. I mean, I'd just lost my virginity to the only guy I'd ever love and there she was thinking about money. I wanted to talk about the way you kissed and smelled and how it felt when you were making love to me and how I never thought I could ever actually feel another person so much or so close and there she was talking about money. I wanted to get past it, I was only half listening to her anyway so I automatically agreed."

"What?" Draco sat in his chair and looked like he might vomit.

"That's how Sarah was. She only thought about how her life was, she's different now but back then she was self-centered. So I had to get past her thinking about her to think about me. Apparently you didn't hear the other part of the conversation." Ginny said getting a little worried about Draco's paleness. "Are you ok?" She got up and walked over to stand beside him.

"No." He said looking up at her, still looking shocked.

"Do you need me to get help?" She asked, running her hand through his hair. It was second nature to touch him, she loved him so she couldn't help it.

"No." He said, savoring her touch.

"Then what?" She asked with a smile.

With the strength of someone who was fully ok and not someone who'd just been about to be sick, Draco wrapped his hand around Ginny's neck and pulled her down to kiss him. She resisted at first but only a little and shortly found herself in his lap. Luckily the door was closed.

This was better than Draco remembered. He felt like he was returning home after a long absence. He kissed her deeper, never wanting it to stop. Just then Mrs. Sparrow knocked on his door. Reluctantly he pulled away from Ginny but wouldn't let her off his lap. He clamped his arm across her thighs imprisoning her.

"What?" He snapped at the secretary who was standing outside the closed door.

"You're lunch appointment is in a half hour, sir." She reminded him.

"Cancel it." He said looking at Ginny. She was more beautiful than he remembered. She just got better with age. Her eyes were a bottomless pit of warmth and what he hoped was love.

"Sir?" Mrs. Sparrow questioned him.

"Cancel it. Reschedule for tomorrow." Ginny squirmed on Draco's lap and he clamped down even tighter.

"Do that anymore and I won't be eating food for lunch." Draco whispered at Ginny. She gave a startled laugh.

"Ok sir." Mrs. Sparrow went away obviously puzzled by her employers instructions.

"So are you going to have lunch with me or what?" Draco asked her staring at her mouth.

"Yes." Ginny was torn. She wanted desperately to have lunch with Draco but she also knew she needed to tell him about Simon.

"Great. I know this place. It's amazing." Draco said and finally let Ginny off his lap.

"The last time I came to this shop, I met a cute little boy." Draco said as he and Ginny were placing their order. They were at the shop where Draco had met Simon with Sarah earlier. Draco was standing very close to Ginny. She could smell his cologne and she took a deep breath loving the scent.

"Yeah." Ginny said only half listening. She was memorizing Draco's face in case he hated her when she told him about Simon.

"I'm ok with kids but oddly I felt comfortable with him. He started talking to me and it was completely natural. He told me about how he loved jello." Draco smiled at the memory and Ginny was jerked out of her dreamland.

"Excuse me?" She asked.

"Jello." Draco smiled and ordered them their food and they went to go stand and wait for it.

Simon, Ginny thought. He was talking about Simon. Oh God.

"Draco, do you want kids?" She asked quickly before she lost the nerve.

"Are you offering?" He joked.

"Uhm…just general conversation." She said stupidly.

"I don't know."

"Because you told me, you know back then, that you didn't want any."

"I know. I don't think about kids very often actually." He shrugged.

"Oh Ok." Ginny said taking her food from the person behind the counter. Draco took it from her and carried both her food and his food over to a table.

They ate silently. It was almost as if there was too much to say to each other, neither knew where to start. Draco finished eating but Ginny was still working on her food. He pushed his plate forward and looked at her.

"You look the same. Beautiful as I remember."

"Right, thanks." Ginny said blushing slightly.

"No really. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my entire life." He said and Ginny obviously disbelieved him.

"We both know that you've met many women who are much more beautiful than I am."

"Physically maybe. But when you're counted as a whole package you are the most beautiful." Draco said causing Ginny to smile. "What about me? How do I look to you?"

"Old and you are definitely losing that sexy body you used to have." Ginny lied with a smile. His body was as perfect as it had ever been. He looked just at muscular and lean as he was years ago.

"Thanks. I try. So why lie to me about Potter?" Draco leaned in close to Ginny, switching from flirty to serious in a matter of seconds. "Everything you said in that store was a lie. You and Potter haven't ever slept together and you and he aren't in a relationship now, so why did you lie to me?"

"Obviously to protect myself. Last time you and I had a relationship you utterly destroyed me. I didn't want to let you have that kind of power over me."

Draco looked at her intently. "But you're willing to now?"

"No. I'm willing to think about it." Ginny looked away from his steady gaze and pushed her plate away also.

"What secret are you hiding from me? You were always transparent to me and I couldn't escape you. I could see you, even when I didn't want to I saw you." Draco sounded annoyed about this.

"What does that mean, that you've always secretly harbored this love for me? Like I believe that." Ginny laughed at the idea.

"That is exactly what it means. Except I wouldn't really say it was love, not at first anyway. You were like this virus inside me, I couldn't get rid of you no matter how hard I tried. And then I had you. In a rare moment of weakness I gave in to the one thing I wanted more than anything but knew I shouldn't have or deserve for that matter." Draco looked at Ginny imploring her to understand. But Ginny just sat there speechless.

"You were a virgin. That was so unexpected and so utterly divine. I knew then that I would never be able to forget you and that knowing what it was like to be with you would be a memory that I would have forever." Draco said then stopped abruptly almost as if the words had just spilled out of him on accident.

"I…me too." Ginny said weakly and Draco smiled relieved.

"Then why all this dodgy business, why not be straight with me?" Draco leaned over the table and grabbed her hand.

"Hello Virginia." A voice cut into their conversation and Draco looked up at the intruder. It was her boss.

"Hello, Mr. Scott." Ginny said and tugged lightly on her hand. Draco tightened his grip.

"Are you having a good lunch? I didn't know you came here often. If I had, I'd have invited you myself." He said with a flirty smile.

"I've only been here once, this is my first time." Ginny smiled a little back. Draco had a tight grip on her hand and wasn't going to relinquish it without making a scene.

"I hope you're enjoying yourself with your…." He left the sentence as a question and it was Draco that answered.

"A very old and dear friend." He said with a bit of menace in his voice. Howard Scott looked down at Draco with obvious dislike.

"You look vaguely familiar to me. We've probably met but I just have a hard time remembering insignificant people." Howard said.

"In that case, Draco Malfoy." Draco introduced himself and was satisfied to see the Howard to cringe.

"Howard Scott." He offered.

"So you're Virginia's boss?" Ginny just sat there watching this scene with a stunned expression on her face.

"I am. Actually it's a good thing I've run into you. Hermione Granger called for you, she said it was an emergency of some sort."

"What? What else did she say?" Ginny sat up in her chair and felt panic begin to rise in her. Had something happened with Simon?

"Just that it was an emergency and you should see her as soon as possible. If you need I could take you to her office."

"That's not necessary, I'll take Ms. Weasley wherever she needs to go." Draco said coldly and stood up still holding Ginny's hand possessively.

a/n: Hello you guys! This is a long chappie so you better enjoy it! Thanks for all the reviews and stuff I love love love them. The next chappie isn't finished yet but it will be out in a few days like wed at the latest. It's been a hard one for me to write! So anyway I hope you liked this. Please review and thanks for reading!