AN: Hey folks! Chapter 4's already here. Hope you like it.
On Top of It All
"Sirius!" James called out. He saw him walking in the corridor towards the Gryffindor House.
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Breathe in, breathe out. I can do this. This is for Lily. This would make HER happy. This would make ME heart broken but hey, it's for Lily.
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"What's up?" Sirius asked happily.
"The sky?" James asked trying to lighten up his mood.
"Nah! Only the ceiling." Sirius replied and then suddenly they burst out laughing.
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It's so good to have Sirius as my best friend but I wonder what would it be like to have Lily as my girl. I think I would feel like in heaven but I wouldn't be able to know. I wouldn't be able to know because.
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"Jamsie! What're you thinking?" Sirus asked.
"Well, just want to ask you something."
"Fire away"
"Do you like someone?"
"Me?"
"Yes, you."
"Well, yeah."
"Could be our precious Lily flower?"
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Actually, she's more than precious. She's something I can't describe but it's definitely beyond precious.
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Sirius smiled. "You got it."
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My head dropped but I immediately held high once more. I grinned at him but deep inside I know that what I feel is the complete opposite. We feel the same about Lily but there is one little difference, he's the one that could make Lily happy. He's the one, the only one.
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"So. planning to ask her out some time?" James asked.
"Yup!" Sirius replied cheerfully.
"Well, go on. You'd better hurry or someone else might ask her out first." James said while pushing him towards the Common Room.
"Ok. Ok." Sirius said.
Both of them went to the common room. Luckily, only Lily was there at that time.
"Hi Lily! Well, I better be off now." He said while heading up the Boys' Dormitory.
When James arrived at their room, he locked the door and sat down on his bed. He was the only one the room present at that time.
He lied on his back while having a dazed expression.
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I lost her. She's Sirius' now. I can't take it.
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A tear threatened to fall in his face.
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This is too much for me. Why do I have to do that? Why did I have to be the one who made them be with each other?
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His tears continuously fell.
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Imagine, what would the others think if they see the Great James Potter, one of the Marauders and Head Boy crying?
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He laughed bitterly.
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Actually, I really don't care. What I want now is to be with Lily but I know it can't be.
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Again, he just cried and cried his heart out silently.
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I shouldn't be crying like this. I already made Lily happy so I should be happy too. but I can't stop myself from feeling this kind of feeling.
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His thoughts were interrupted when someone knocked at the door.
"James?" Remus asked worriedly. He knew how his bestfriend feels about Lily. No. James didn't tell anyone but Remus being his observant self, he noticed. Actually, James was doing a very good job of hiding it but unfortunately for him, Remus still noticed. He wanted to help James, to comfort him. At a time like this, James would need his help.
James got his wand and muttered something to open the door. He did not bother to stand anymore.
"James, are you all right?" Remus asked worriedly.
"I don't think so." James muffled reply came.
"Wanna tell me what's up?" Remus asked.
James smiled weakly but shook his head no. "Don't worry, I can manage."
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I can manage?! Ha! Yeah right! But I guess I'll do my best. Can't have them worrying about me, anyways..
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"You sure?" Remus asked again his worry for his bestfriend clearly evident in his face.
"Hey, I'm the great James Potter, am I not? I can do almost everything." James tried to joke just to change the topic.
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Yeah, almost everything. And the one thing I cannot do is to accept the fact that Lily can't love me. Why can't I get it through my head??? Why??? Another tear fell down my eye. I had to get Remus out or else I might spill everything.
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"Hey, you know I really appreciate your help but I really think that it'd be better if I deal with this alone." James said. "If I really can't take it anymore, I'll ask help."
With this, Remus raised an eyebrow. "Eh?"
"Really!" James tried to shove Remus out though not really very hard.
Remus just waved his hand in defeat. "Ok. Ok, I get it. I understand when I'm not wanted." He said trying to sound hurt.
James just gave a small chuckle before closing the door.
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I sighed. I wonder how long would I be able to keep up this charade. God knows how long. I just hope I'll be able to keep it up.
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Thereafter, James Potter was left to fell asleep while crying on his bed.
AN: I know you're all thinking, where have I been??? It seems like I've vanished in the air, don't you think so too?? I'm really really sorry but I know sorry doesn't cut it in. Seriously, I'll try to do my best to upload quicker next time. To those who have been patiently waiting, I'm sorry and I hope you enjoyed reading it.
On Top of It All
"Sirius!" James called out. He saw him walking in the corridor towards the Gryffindor House.
*************************
Breathe in, breathe out. I can do this. This is for Lily. This would make HER happy. This would make ME heart broken but hey, it's for Lily.
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"What's up?" Sirius asked happily.
"The sky?" James asked trying to lighten up his mood.
"Nah! Only the ceiling." Sirius replied and then suddenly they burst out laughing.
*************************
It's so good to have Sirius as my best friend but I wonder what would it be like to have Lily as my girl. I think I would feel like in heaven but I wouldn't be able to know. I wouldn't be able to know because.
*************************
"Jamsie! What're you thinking?" Sirus asked.
"Well, just want to ask you something."
"Fire away"
"Do you like someone?"
"Me?"
"Yes, you."
"Well, yeah."
"Could be our precious Lily flower?"
*************************
Actually, she's more than precious. She's something I can't describe but it's definitely beyond precious.
*************************
Sirius smiled. "You got it."
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My head dropped but I immediately held high once more. I grinned at him but deep inside I know that what I feel is the complete opposite. We feel the same about Lily but there is one little difference, he's the one that could make Lily happy. He's the one, the only one.
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"So. planning to ask her out some time?" James asked.
"Yup!" Sirius replied cheerfully.
"Well, go on. You'd better hurry or someone else might ask her out first." James said while pushing him towards the Common Room.
"Ok. Ok." Sirius said.
Both of them went to the common room. Luckily, only Lily was there at that time.
"Hi Lily! Well, I better be off now." He said while heading up the Boys' Dormitory.
When James arrived at their room, he locked the door and sat down on his bed. He was the only one the room present at that time.
He lied on his back while having a dazed expression.
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I lost her. She's Sirius' now. I can't take it.
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A tear threatened to fall in his face.
*************************
This is too much for me. Why do I have to do that? Why did I have to be the one who made them be with each other?
*************************
His tears continuously fell.
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Imagine, what would the others think if they see the Great James Potter, one of the Marauders and Head Boy crying?
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He laughed bitterly.
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Actually, I really don't care. What I want now is to be with Lily but I know it can't be.
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Again, he just cried and cried his heart out silently.
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I shouldn't be crying like this. I already made Lily happy so I should be happy too. but I can't stop myself from feeling this kind of feeling.
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His thoughts were interrupted when someone knocked at the door.
"James?" Remus asked worriedly. He knew how his bestfriend feels about Lily. No. James didn't tell anyone but Remus being his observant self, he noticed. Actually, James was doing a very good job of hiding it but unfortunately for him, Remus still noticed. He wanted to help James, to comfort him. At a time like this, James would need his help.
James got his wand and muttered something to open the door. He did not bother to stand anymore.
"James, are you all right?" Remus asked worriedly.
"I don't think so." James muffled reply came.
"Wanna tell me what's up?" Remus asked.
James smiled weakly but shook his head no. "Don't worry, I can manage."
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I can manage?! Ha! Yeah right! But I guess I'll do my best. Can't have them worrying about me, anyways..
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"You sure?" Remus asked again his worry for his bestfriend clearly evident in his face.
"Hey, I'm the great James Potter, am I not? I can do almost everything." James tried to joke just to change the topic.
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Yeah, almost everything. And the one thing I cannot do is to accept the fact that Lily can't love me. Why can't I get it through my head??? Why??? Another tear fell down my eye. I had to get Remus out or else I might spill everything.
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"Hey, you know I really appreciate your help but I really think that it'd be better if I deal with this alone." James said. "If I really can't take it anymore, I'll ask help."
With this, Remus raised an eyebrow. "Eh?"
"Really!" James tried to shove Remus out though not really very hard.
Remus just waved his hand in defeat. "Ok. Ok, I get it. I understand when I'm not wanted." He said trying to sound hurt.
James just gave a small chuckle before closing the door.
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I sighed. I wonder how long would I be able to keep up this charade. God knows how long. I just hope I'll be able to keep it up.
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Thereafter, James Potter was left to fell asleep while crying on his bed.
AN: I know you're all thinking, where have I been??? It seems like I've vanished in the air, don't you think so too?? I'm really really sorry but I know sorry doesn't cut it in. Seriously, I'll try to do my best to upload quicker next time. To those who have been patiently waiting, I'm sorry and I hope you enjoyed reading it.