A/N:I write whenever I'm inspired, usually at strange times of the night, and if I post a crappy chapter, it's probably because I rushed it. And it's because of this that I don't expect to update at this speed anymore.
I put down my pen. For now.
I am telling this story of lovers, because in my heart, I know how it will end. I have seen too much to be sure of how I feel, anymore. But I know where this will lead.
The truth still stands, after all these... times.
Do not ask who I am, or why I choose to document this light in the darkness that is the world. Many of your kind have wondered what I am; why I am; and why I do nothing to help the world, if I am. I can only say that it is my greatest wish to do so, and yet is against my greatest wish to do so.
The Angels... My messengers. They were formed to bring equality. Bringers of Death to a world filled with Life. Alas, when the room of souls is finally emptied, Death will cease to visit the Earth... because Life will not, either.
Before all this is done, I will record all that I have seen, as a memory of the Truth. In the hopes that my successor will learn from my mistakes as I did.
Third Impact. Their name for the rebirth that must come after death. The time for my release from this prison that has held far too many good men. The same prison that houses one body, mind and soul, but countless memories. Truly, I hold infinity in the palm of my hand.
You ask again who I am. In truth, I do not know myself. I only know that I created this world, and that I am doomed to watch the world until it's end. When that end comes, another shall take my place.
What of Shinji and Rei, you ask? What role do they have in my story of billennia? Why do I pay special heed to them?
Shinji shall take my part. I am sad for him; but it must be so. I only wish for him to be as human as possible before he joins us; he must feel love, anger, warmth, fear, hope and death.
I cannot bear to talk about this. It hurts to think about them... because I was once like her.
Rei. The only daughter I have.
Even after all these years, I still feel happiness at becoming a father-in-law. Humanity is something that will never truly leave any of us.
Reunification will be very painful for both of them. After all, she cannot live without a soul, while he will not live without her; yet, he cannot die. I must know that.
The path of fate is theirs to walk, but some things are certain. The cycle of Life, Death and Rebirth. The human Mind, Body and Soul. The Watcher, the last soul after Reunification.
My final messenger was the first to be created. All my bringers of Death are designed for that, but Tabris brings Truth, which is more powerful than Death itself. He is, after all, human. I made him that way.
Maybe i should not have done so. Now, the Room has two less souls.
Still, he must bring Death. The greatest source of Death to Humanity is Humanity itself, as the greatest source of Death is Life itself.
There must be a purpose for them to continue living. It will be pointless for him to brood over the loss for as many years as I did.
The rebirth of humanity can only come with death...
Fiat Mors.
I put down my pen. For now.
I am telling this story of lovers, because in my heart, I know how it will end. I have seen too much to be sure of how I feel, anymore. But I know where this will lead.
The truth still stands, after all these... times.
Do not ask who I am, or why I choose to document this light in the darkness that is the world. Many of your kind have wondered what I am; why I am; and why I do nothing to help the world, if I am. I can only say that it is my greatest wish to do so, and yet is against my greatest wish to do so.
The Angels... My messengers. They were formed to bring equality. Bringers of Death to a world filled with Life. Alas, when the room of souls is finally emptied, Death will cease to visit the Earth... because Life will not, either.
Before all this is done, I will record all that I have seen, as a memory of the Truth. In the hopes that my successor will learn from my mistakes as I did.
Third Impact. Their name for the rebirth that must come after death. The time for my release from this prison that has held far too many good men. The same prison that houses one body, mind and soul, but countless memories. Truly, I hold infinity in the palm of my hand.
You ask again who I am. In truth, I do not know myself. I only know that I created this world, and that I am doomed to watch the world until it's end. When that end comes, another shall take my place.
What of Shinji and Rei, you ask? What role do they have in my story of billennia? Why do I pay special heed to them?
Shinji shall take my part. I am sad for him; but it must be so. I only wish for him to be as human as possible before he joins us; he must feel love, anger, warmth, fear, hope and death.
I cannot bear to talk about this. It hurts to think about them... because I was once like her.
Rei. The only daughter I have.
Even after all these years, I still feel happiness at becoming a father-in-law. Humanity is something that will never truly leave any of us.
Reunification will be very painful for both of them. After all, she cannot live without a soul, while he will not live without her; yet, he cannot die. I must know that.
The path of fate is theirs to walk, but some things are certain. The cycle of Life, Death and Rebirth. The human Mind, Body and Soul. The Watcher, the last soul after Reunification.
My final messenger was the first to be created. All my bringers of Death are designed for that, but Tabris brings Truth, which is more powerful than Death itself. He is, after all, human. I made him that way.
Maybe i should not have done so. Now, the Room has two less souls.
Still, he must bring Death. The greatest source of Death to Humanity is Humanity itself, as the greatest source of Death is Life itself.
There must be a purpose for them to continue living. It will be pointless for him to brood over the loss for as many years as I did.
The rebirth of humanity can only come with death...
Fiat Mors.