Disclaimer: I no own Inuyasha. Please don't sue. I'm poor anyway! ^_^ This is my first Inuyasha fic so please review and tell me my mistakes. Thanks!
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Troubled Thoughts
Chapter 1: Thoughts
Dark, gray clouds filled the sky, covering the once bright sun. They blocked the light, creating a dreary, depressing feeling to the city. The winds picked up and howled against the buildings and whistled whenever they came through.
Kagome folded her arms closer against her chest, determined to make it home through the dreadful weather and make it home before the storm hit. Her hair was whipping all around from the winds, and she clutched her arms closer then ever. At last, she reached her destination, and she sprinted up the steps of the shine.
"Oka-san? (A/n sp?) Souta? Anyone home?", she called. She walked into the kitchen and found a note sitting upon the table.
Dear Kagome,
Hope you had a nice day with your friends. Your brother and grandfather came along with me to go grocery shopping and to pick up some other stuff. We should arrive home in a couple of hours or so. There's more supplies in your room if you're home. I love you and please clean up your mess if you eat.
Love,
Mom xoxo
After reading the note she decided to have some hot coco and chicken noodle soup for lunch. (Mmmm I love hot coco in the winter! lol) After finishing her meal, she put the dishes in the sink. She went up to room and put her backpack down. Christmas was only a couple of days away. Her mother kept asking what she wanted, and all Kagome replied was to spend a nice Christmas with her family. Her mother kept bugging her, so made a lie and said some winter clothes would be nice. What she really wanted couldn't be wrapped. All she wanted was for him to like her.
She took off her shoes and sat down on her bed, her brown eyes gazing at the floor. 'Like that'll ever happen', she thought to herself. ' When he looks at me all he sees is her. Kikyo. He's still in love with her. So how could he possibly like me, if he can't get over her? Maybe it just wasn't meant to be.' She questioned herself. ' That's all he sees, not Kagome, but Kikyo. Will I ever be out of her shadow?', her mind screamed.
Tears were now openly slid down her face, landing in a pool on the floor. Just yesterday she left the feudal era to come back to spend Christmas with her family.
* Flashback *
Kagome walked up to the God tree where Inuyasha had been sitting for the past hour. She was determined to win this argument with him this time. She can remember all the times that he got so irritated every time she asked to go home. But she decided to make a promise to him so he would have to agree this time. * Evil Smirk *
"Inuyasha, can I talk to you for a minute?", Kagome asked coyly. Her heart was racing and she couldn't understand why. 'Maybe I'm just nervous that he'll say no. Yea, nervous heheh.'
"What did you want now wench?", he retorted.
"CanIpleasegobacktomytimeforChristmasjustforaweek?", she said in all but one breath.
"WHAT?!"
"Inuyasha, Can I please go back to my time for Christmas just for a week..."
"No!", he said cutting her off.
"But."
"No. We need to find jewel shards."
" Just listen. If you let me go, then when I get back, I promised I won't go home for 3 months!", she counter, hoping he would say yes.
Inuyasha had to think about this. He placed one claw under his chin and the other on his elbow going deep into thought. 'If I let her go just for one lousy week, then she has to stay 3 months here without returning home. But what if we have a fight and she breaks our deal. Aha! I have the answer.'
"Under a couple conditions that you agree, then I'll let you go."
"Okay. Anything."
"Promise me that when you come back, if we get into a fight you won't run back home like you always do."
"Sure Inuyasha..."
He jumped down from the tree and stared straight at her with a stern look. 'How come every time I look into those golden orbs, I feel so secure and safe with him?'
"And", he interrupted her again. "Don't go out with that Hodo kid. I don't trust him."
She giggled happily. "I promise Inuyasha."
She ran up to him and gave him a hug, unaware of what she was doing. Inuyasha turned 3 shades of red and returned the hug.
"Now, get going before I change my mind.", he said smugly pushing her away from him.
She then proceeded to give him innocent kiss on his left cheek and ran into the hut to get her belongings. Inuyasha stood there stunned. He placed his left claw where Kagome kissed him.
'Why do I have these feelings whenever I'm around her. I'm supposed to love Kikyo. But when she betrayed me, everything I ever felt for her left me. And then Kagome comes and instantly I feel like I have to protect her and keep her for myself. Why? Oh, I don't think I could ever speak the words out loud. Maybe I'm just afraid she's going to reject me like Kikyo. But the two of them are so different. I think I rather be with....'
"Inuyasha I'll see you in a week! Thanks so much again! You don't know how much this means to me!", she shouted from the bone eaters well to him. While inside the hut, she said farewell to Sango, Shippo, Keade, and the perverted monk. (A/N: Sorry I forgot how to spell his name and I don't wanna put it in and feel dumb cuz it's spelled wrong! lol)
She leaped into the well and immediately the area around her turned black and blue and she was floating in the air, and then the next minute she was falling. Finally she landed on soiled ground and was back home. She climbed out of the well and ran inside the house. She found her mom sitting at the kitchen table reading.
"Hey mom!", shouted Kagome. She ran up to her mom before she can say anything and gave her a hug. "I'll be staying for the ENTIRE week." Her mother smiled at her and returned her daughters hug. "Oh honey, I'm so happy. We can finally spend Christmas all together.
* End of flashback *
Kagome always missed the feudal era when she was home and when she was there it was vice versa. She then laid down on her bed to get into a better position. Sometimes she would lie awake at night and believe she was meant to live in Inuyasha's time. She felt so alone back in her own time. No one would ever believe her if she told them she could transport back so many years ago. She liked to keep to herself during the school hours and daydream about her and Inuyasha finally admitting their love to each other. But deep down in Kagome's heart she knew the truth. Her and Inuyasha were never meant to be.
Or were they?
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Well that's the first chapter. I'll try to update, depending if I get some reviews and everyone enjoyed it! Please take time to review and let me know my mistakes and what you would like to happen. Tell me if it sucks or add something or anything ya like! I'm thinking about making it Inuyasha and Kagome but if you prefer a different couple let me know! Thanks again! ^_^ P.S. I'm sorry if I'd made them OOC. I tried to make them as they are portrayed, but hey this is MY fic! lol