Dust from the Moon

Author: Tenshi Anrui

Chapter 3: Dreams Don't Come True

Rating: PG-13

Song: Sleep to Dream -- Fiona Apple

Couple: Fujitaka Kinomoto and Nadeshiko Kinomoto

I tell you how I feel but you don't care

I say tell me the truth but you don't dare

you say love is a hell you cannot bear

and I say gimme mine back and then go there for all I care

Needless to say, I left my family very early to be with Fujitaka. He never did give a good impression on my parents. Stuttering and trying to keep his head out of the clouds, I had to ground him, keep him stable. Teach him to cook, because if I didn't, he'd eat cereal for dinner every night. My husband is not what he seems to be, he and I both know that, but it was quite a conflict and scandal when we announced our engagement. Shock went through the little town of Tomeda.

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You've got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

And things went well for us. We had a little boy, Touya after two years of marriage, and when Touya was six, we had a baby girl, Sakura. I knew Touya and Sakura had magic from the beginning, I never once doubted. I think I mentioned it to Fujitaka once or twice, and he said I was insane, that I should be the one to get MY head out of the clouds. I'm the one carrying the house hold, and here he is constantly talking about how aliens built the pyramids, and he tells me I'm the insane one.

I have never been so insulted in all my life

I could swallow the seas to wash down all this pride

First you run like a fool just to be at my side

And now you run like a fool but you just run to hide and I can't abide

He knows I'm offended. He knows that I'm not going to take his comments anymore. He knows I still love him desperately and wouldn't leave unless I absolutely had to; so he still walks all over me. He's older, around thirty- four and here I am, twenty-five. With two kids. And I've never felt so alone.

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You've got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

I stopped. Listening to him, talking to him, cooking for him. I make dinner for my two babies and play with him, but Fujitaka is on his own. Ha-ha. That's when I asked to join the neighborhood tennis team with some of the ladies from down the street.

But I had modeling, modeling was my escape. For a couple of hours a day, I was on my own, not being watched like a hawk. A couple weeks later I brought up the whole idea of the tennis club with the women down the street. He then accused me of having an affair with the man from the fish market. He tried to make things better, he took to me to dinner, he begged, and pleaded for forgiveness. He even bought me a dozen red roses. But I don't like roses, I like cherry blossoms, or lilies. He doesn't even know my favorite flower.

Fujitaka wasn't the same anymore. He wasn't the man I fell in love with. So I ran away to New York City, to be a model where he couldn't find me. It was nice, the money was good, and I heard that he told the children I gone away for a very long business trip. I missed my little girl and son. So three years later I returned home.

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You've got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

I called him, just to let him know that I wanted to see my babies, he seemed happy, after all, I was his "one and only love" I just laughed, but silently dreaded this whole coming back home thing. I mean, it's scary, but it turns out. I never made it home. I never made it to Japan. I never even made it to the airport. I was hit by a car.

I got my feet on the ground and I don't go to sleep to dream

You've got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem

This mind, this body and this voice cannot be stifled by your deviant ways

So don't forget what I told you, don't come around, I got my own hell to raise

But now I get to watch my babies grow up from heaven. I'll always be there if they need me.

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