AN: Umm, don't really like this chapter, but I guess I'll wait to see if I get any flames first before I try to fix it... ^-^; Ok, I got the most people asking for Snape, and I had already had him running through my mind after I finished Dumbledore so, here he is. Enjoy...
Ghetto Dumbly - by Tanaka: Peeves-- put dat shit down afore I hafta go curse on yo pale white ass
Posted: June 28, 2003
Severus Snape sat back in his chair, thoroughly exhausted. Ever since school let out for the summer, the Order had been extremely busy working on plans, outlining defenses, and overall struggling to keep their progress from being known to those who would use it against them. He wasn't sure how much more they could take before the stress got to them and someone made a mistake. He knew he for one wouldn't complain if they were given even just a day off, even with war a constant threat on the horizon; being stretched to the limits was just as fatal as being unprepared.
Snape leaned back, staring at the ceiling for a moment before bringing his hands up to massage his temples; he had gotten so little sleep in the past week he now had a headache almost constantly. He knew the others were handing him extra work to show that they blamed him for Sirius' death, but he had just about had enough of it; one could only take so much responsibility for their actions before it became absurd. Yes he had quit teaching Occlumency to Potter, but he had had his reasons, and he firmly believed that had Potter tried to clear his thoughts like he had been instructed to, he would have nearly mastered the skill by that time.
It wasn't that he didn't blame himself; in fact looking back on his actions he could grudgingly admit that he had acted in the moment and had had no right to cancel the Occlumency lessons. But he wasn't about to admit that to anyone else, because that would be showing that he may have cared about the situation. Oh he wasn't exactly upset at Sirius' death – he was at most indifferent towards it – it was just that he hadn't felt elated about it the way he had always imagined killing the man himself would make him feel.
He started slightly as a silver owl flew in the window, dropped a letter into his lap, and quickly disappeared back into the shadows of the night. Glancing down, he picked up the envelope and hesitantly opened it.
Severus,
I suppose you're wondering why you're getting this... Well, the answer is I've been guilt tripping, and you're as far as I got, considering you'd have to kill me to apologise to Lucius Malfoy or anyone else... but I guess I AM dead, now that you're reading this...
You know, I have to wonder if you had a hand in my demise... I can't really blame you for wanting to kill me either, after everything that happened. But I think it would be a sort of comforting twist of Fate to have been killed with the help of a self-proclaimed enemy.
Have I disturbed you yet? Good, that was my intention. Now, onto what I'm writing this for...
...I'm sure you still remember everything the Marauders ever did to you... I don't exactly want to say I'm sorry, because honestly I enjoyed every minute of it... But I would rather not have grudges held against me if I can help it.
So, on behalf of the Marauders, I, Sirius Black, apologise to you, Severus Snape, for all the injustices we committed against you during our years at Hogwarts' School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.
And now that I've completed the purpose of this letter, I must go wash my hands and keep myself from burning this.
Black
P.S.
Harry's just told me he saw one of your memories in the Pensieve... I don't know why I'm asking this, but Harry isn't James... so you have no right to take your anger out on him. No matter how much they resemble each other, their personalities are about as opposite as the two sides of a magnet... Seeing his father as he was all those years ago ruined the image he had of him, and I think, in the end, that's probably for the best; he needs to know that his father was a normal teenager, with all the flaws of one...
So, whether you take this to heart or not, I'm asking that you treat Harry as you would a normal student; God knows he has enough to deal with without teachers adding to it...
Snape tossed the letter onto his desk, looking at it with a wary expression as if he fully expected it to transform into a poisonous snake and bite him, happily injecting his blood with its venom. Not fully trusting this wasn't just some twisted nightmare, he got up and headed to bed, wondering if this latest event would cause him yet another sleepless night.
Wai, reviews! I love them, so keep them coming! Thanks everyone, I still can't believe so many people like this ^-^
sora-doragon: No idea, however many you guys think he should have ^-^
Mikomi: I really didn't want to know that... that sucks.... *sighs* She better not kill Moony that's all I have to say... which probably means she will... oh well...
Jaina Solo: Hmm, McGonagall? Hadn't thought of her... Po~ssibly, but I doubt it... ^-^;
Becca: Heh, honestly, I WAS planning to end it at Dumbledore, but then my friend was like 'Hey... you should do one 'bout Snape' and I was like '...yeah, but what would he write?' and then she gave me part of a beginning of a letter and I loved it... so now I don't know how many there will be, not that many more I know ^-^
Green Banana: Hehe, it's ok, I just wasn't expecting that many reviews... I've gotten like 50x more on this than all my other fics combined ^-^ I love reviews, they're what give me ideas and make me want to writer faster
Ecilla: Heh, wish I knew the answers to those questions. Guess we'll just have to wait until the 6th book; I'm hoping the hints that Harry will at least be able to see Siri again come true ^-^
Tonks aka an angels reflection: Heh, sure ^-^ Could you list my email address on there though?? Wai, I'm glad so many people are liking this... =^-^=
Ok that's all. Umm, not sure who's next again... Maybe Molly? =^-^=