Chapter 23: Helpless
- Helpless, helpless, helpless
Baby can you hear me now?
The chains are locked
and tied across the door,
Baby, sing with me somehow.
Blue, blue windows behind the stars,
Yellow moon on the rise,
Big birds flying across the sky,
Throwing shadows on our eyes.
Leave us
Helpless, helpless, helpless.-
*Rai's POV*
I spun the straw that was in my drink around and around, watching ice float up and back down. The noise around me was almost overwhelming, so I tried not to pay to much attention.
"I think it's really odd that you guys all pushed Heidi out of your minds..."
I look at Blair, who was taking ice from my cup and melting it with a lighter.
"Stop that."
He looks up, and smiles. "Oh...sorry..."
"Well... It's pretty much we either forget or go mad thinking about it."
He nods, shifting his gaze to the floor beside us. We had found a small restaurant near the hotel, and had decided that we would go out and have lunch. Well, as close to lunch as it got, with Blair. He never seemed to eat much. Or drink..
Oh well.
Who knows why.
"You look like shit."
I look up at Blair, who was laughing.
"Lovely to know..."
"No, just...sick, or tired looking."
"Still not the greatest comment I've ever received."
He sighs and stands up. "So..."
"We're leaving now..." He nods, and takes hold of my hand, pulling me up from my seat. I pushed all my money into my back pocket and follow him outside.
We really were in a beautiful place. Never had time to acknowledge it though... So we had found a park in the middle of the city and decided to just sit and waste time, because really, we had nothing better to do.
Blair had been throwing change at a couple who had been making out on a bench for ten minutes, while I sat reading letters from the folks. The base of a tree was where I had planted my rear end and, from what I thought, was going to be like hell to get back up.
' So...I guess nothing has really happened lately...
Yukina has been so frustrated lately, what with her wedding and all. It's kind of funny, because neither her or Kuwabara seem prepared. EVER. I've been trying to help them out though, with mailing-'
I scan through the rest of Mirha's letter quickly, and fold it up. Shoving it into my pocket, I sigh quite loudly. It distracted the two others from their make out session, which I was glad for, because Blair could finally stopped throwing rocks and other things.
I shouldn't have done that though.
It was kind of rude.
I just hated to see things like that go on for ever. In public to boot.
I didn't exactly have a boy friend though. Usually my love life was me hating some one who liked me, or trying to get in contact with some one, who just made them my friend and I screwed up...
So I really had nothing to say about it.
I sigh again loudly. AGAIN. For what seemed to be like an eternity.
I couldn't wait to go home. To see all my stuff again. Even if Yuske, Keiko, Kuwabara, Mirha, and Yukina would be leaving. I would still have the rest of them to rely on.
Damn... I needed to get a job when I go back...
I sat there wondering if I would ever have a chance to go to college. Or to get a good job. Or a house of my own. I could take those night courses on the internet....
Slowly but surely, I drifted off into sleep laying on the grass beside Blair, who was now trying to get his money back.
It seemed like that was all I ever did... Sleep.
I woke back up quick. Nap.
Maybe I had wasted my life. But I did accept that. But I would eventually get money for putting so much time into the military. Hopefully...
Authors Notes: YES. After a whole MONTH I added. BOO. YAH.
OK. I'll go now.
- Helpless, helpless, helpless
Baby can you hear me now?
The chains are locked
and tied across the door,
Baby, sing with me somehow.
Blue, blue windows behind the stars,
Yellow moon on the rise,
Big birds flying across the sky,
Throwing shadows on our eyes.
Leave us
Helpless, helpless, helpless.-
*Rai's POV*
I spun the straw that was in my drink around and around, watching ice float up and back down. The noise around me was almost overwhelming, so I tried not to pay to much attention.
"I think it's really odd that you guys all pushed Heidi out of your minds..."
I look at Blair, who was taking ice from my cup and melting it with a lighter.
"Stop that."
He looks up, and smiles. "Oh...sorry..."
"Well... It's pretty much we either forget or go mad thinking about it."
He nods, shifting his gaze to the floor beside us. We had found a small restaurant near the hotel, and had decided that we would go out and have lunch. Well, as close to lunch as it got, with Blair. He never seemed to eat much. Or drink..
Oh well.
Who knows why.
"You look like shit."
I look up at Blair, who was laughing.
"Lovely to know..."
"No, just...sick, or tired looking."
"Still not the greatest comment I've ever received."
He sighs and stands up. "So..."
"We're leaving now..." He nods, and takes hold of my hand, pulling me up from my seat. I pushed all my money into my back pocket and follow him outside.
We really were in a beautiful place. Never had time to acknowledge it though... So we had found a park in the middle of the city and decided to just sit and waste time, because really, we had nothing better to do.
Blair had been throwing change at a couple who had been making out on a bench for ten minutes, while I sat reading letters from the folks. The base of a tree was where I had planted my rear end and, from what I thought, was going to be like hell to get back up.
' So...I guess nothing has really happened lately...
Yukina has been so frustrated lately, what with her wedding and all. It's kind of funny, because neither her or Kuwabara seem prepared. EVER. I've been trying to help them out though, with mailing-'
I scan through the rest of Mirha's letter quickly, and fold it up. Shoving it into my pocket, I sigh quite loudly. It distracted the two others from their make out session, which I was glad for, because Blair could finally stopped throwing rocks and other things.
I shouldn't have done that though.
It was kind of rude.
I just hated to see things like that go on for ever. In public to boot.
I didn't exactly have a boy friend though. Usually my love life was me hating some one who liked me, or trying to get in contact with some one, who just made them my friend and I screwed up...
So I really had nothing to say about it.
I sigh again loudly. AGAIN. For what seemed to be like an eternity.
I couldn't wait to go home. To see all my stuff again. Even if Yuske, Keiko, Kuwabara, Mirha, and Yukina would be leaving. I would still have the rest of them to rely on.
Damn... I needed to get a job when I go back...
I sat there wondering if I would ever have a chance to go to college. Or to get a good job. Or a house of my own. I could take those night courses on the internet....
Slowly but surely, I drifted off into sleep laying on the grass beside Blair, who was now trying to get his money back.
It seemed like that was all I ever did... Sleep.
I woke back up quick. Nap.
Maybe I had wasted my life. But I did accept that. But I would eventually get money for putting so much time into the military. Hopefully...
Authors Notes: YES. After a whole MONTH I added. BOO. YAH.
OK. I'll go now.