This is a one shot fic on when Julia was told by Shin (spelling) to move on because of Vicious. This fic is- in my mind- why she decided to not move on but instead stay and wait for Spike to come and get her. This is mainly what is going on in Julia's head. She's one of the characters that I love the most.

As I stared out the window I stared blindly at the falling rain. Shin's words echoed in my head as I watched the hypnotizing rain. Leave- again. Couldn't Vicious just leave me alone? I had not seen Spike in so long. Except for phone tag with Shin and a short visit the mysterious Faye Valentine I haven't been able to stay in one area long enough to meet someone. Everyone that I meet is intertwined with you. Spike, Annie, Faye, and Gren- they are just a few that I have meet that you have ruined. Why do you haunt me still?

You were always jealous of Spike. He got me and he was everyone's favorite. You were never better then him. You even tried to turn me on with your 'charm.' All that Spike had to do was look over at my way just for a second.

I left Spike so that he wouldn't have to die and so that you would leave the both of us alone. Well if you're not going to leave me alone then I'll go and find him. I won't run alone anymore. Where ever Spike goes I will go. Vicious you cannot keep me from Spike any longer. I'm sorry Shin but this time I will not run alone but instead I will run and die beside my beloved Spike.