A/N::: Just thought I'd let you know, I had some spare time and I forgot
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few most chapters on hold that I have ready for this story. If you want me
to keep going, just review and give me the word- *Nat!
Chapter two- 'keeping his cool'
Sirius woke up the next morning feeling like he was on no sleep. It felt like he had been stay up all night worrying about something, his head was so confused. 'Wow, so different from usual though?' he mocked himself. It was too early in the morning to fight himself. It was too early in the morning to get up.
"Oi! Padfoot, get your lazy arse up!" Yelled a voice that probably woke up the whole common room.
Right when Sirius turned around to tell Remus (as that was the voice) to shut-up and let him sleep, he was greeted a good morning by a glass of water being thrown in his face.
Sirius jumped straight out of his bed as the chilling water hit his face. He squinted through his watery eyes to glare at Remus who was looking satisfied on his own bed (on the right side of Sirius' bed).
"Moony! What in Merlin's name did you do that for?!?!"
Sirius took to notice that he and Remus were the only ones up. 'Peter and James could sleep through the next apocalypse' Sirius thought shaking his head. Remus was already fully clothed and had his brown leather book bag over on shoulder. Apparently, Remus had been the first one up, as always. 'He won't be up so early next full moon' Sirius thought bitterly.
"You were sleep talking mate. It was quite annoying"
"Liar" Sirius cursed as he went to change out of his wet pajamas.
"I don't lie" Remus said with a smirk
"Of course you do, you are right now"
"Ok, well I've had enough of these 'brain wars for the insane', I'm going to get some breakfast, I'll see you there"
"Why are you leaving now?!?" Sirius yelled down to the stair well that Remus had just left through "It's not like their going to run out of kippers of anything" Sirius shook his head as he pulled a black cashmere jumper over his head.
Sirius looked over to the beds of his two other best friends who were sound asleep (except for Peter whose snores, which would usually be pretty loud if the boys hadn't put a silencing charm around his bed curtains. James had a smile plastered to his face, it looked like he was having a good dream. 'Probably about Lily' Sirius joked to himself.
But that's when it hit him like a speeding bullet. Now he knew why he had such a headache. It was because he had tried to.. no wait! He 'did' kiss Lily. 'Maybe now people will take your seriously' Sirius thought 'Yeah, seriously mental' he argued with himself.
'Ok, well the best thing to do is. to just ignore it, forget it ever happened, that's all. Lily won't say anything' Sirius rationed with himself.
Sirius was able to convince himself that this was true. This allowed him to be able to remain clam enough so that he could be his usual joking self. At least James and Peter didn't suspect anything. ************************************************************************
"Hey Padfoot, what's wrong?" Remus asked with a raised eyebrow at the breakfast table the morning.
Sirius didn't really want to stay and wait for James and Peter. He knew that James didn't suspect anything, but knowing himself, Sirius probably would give it away with his eyes.
Sirius had kept his head down on the table the whole time since he sat down next to Remus. He was hoping Remus would just believe he was tired. But he could tell by the hint of worry in Remus' voice that he knew something was up. 'That's what I get for having a best friend who reads too much' Sirius thought resentfully to himself.
"Ah, nothing just er- trouble with mum, that's all" Sirius tried to quickly lie. He thought he had done a pretty good job to cover it up.
There was a couple second of pause in which Remus gave Sirius the most peculiar look before Remus spoke again.
"You know Padfoot. you really are the worst liar I know"
"I'm not lying I swear! My mum was uh- seeming like she was depressed and I started to get worried about her now because. Nestor (Mrs. Black's owl) came late last night and said- and wrote, I mean, that mum was going mad now. And yeah."
Remus' eyebrows rose so high that Sirius didn't even know it was humanly possible. 'Maybe I really am that bad of a liar' Sirius contemplated with himself.
".But Sirius" Remus started with his face consorted in confusion "I mean. you mum is ALWAYS bloody mad. you only said so a week ago"
"Yeah well, I." Sirius started but got interrupted as someone slipped in the seat across from him and Remus and cleared their throat loudly.
It was James, and he was looking his usual lively self. He motioned for Peter to take a seat on his left side before pouring himself some pumpkin juice.
"So what are we all chatting about then? Come on, spill it" James said half- laughing.
"Nothing I." But again- Sirius got interrupted. This time by James calling over to someone who (by the looks of where James head was turned to) was just a bit farther behind Remus (for Remus was closest to the beginning of the table).
Sirius cocked his head in the same direction James was looking. To his horror he saw Lily Evans standing quite still with her back to them all. By the looks of it and the expression on her face, Sirius was quite sure Lily had been trying to make a run for it before anyone had seen her. Her plan seemed to have been squashed though.
"Oi Lil! What are you doing, come sit with us!" James called over to her and patted the empty seat next to him.
A year ago, that seat would not have only been already filled, but would've had a few dozen girls surrounding it. James and Sirius had always been the "popular dreamy guys" and most women called them. But once James got with Lily, they knew that seat would always be taken. Of course. that didn't stop them from surrounding Sirius part of the table. And if Sirius had been more himself today, he would've noticed the many girls around him who were trying to get his attention any time he looked their direction.
"Uh." Lily said turning around. She had a nervous expression on her face. 'She's too easy to read' Sirius thought biting his lower lip "You know James. I just remember, I have to. to go to the library, yeah! I told uh- McGonagall I'd meet with her"
"Nonsense Lil, come here!" James said once more. He was pretty oblivious to the peculiar way Lily was acting.
Lily gulped, but finally made her way over to the other side of the table. Just before she sat down, Sirius caught Remus shooting him a baffled look between them both. 'Why do we BOTH have to be such bad liars?' Sirius wondered, kicking himself mentally.
Sirius just tried to ignore all the looks Remus was giving him. He tried to ignore Peter who kept on asking why he was so tired. He tried to ignore the arm that fell over Lily's graceful shoulder; the arm that belonged to his best friend. And most of all he tried to ignore the pleading looks Lily was sending him; the look the suggested "Please meet me so we can talk by ourselves"; the look that ripped at his heart because he knew it was wrong and hated himself for betraying his best friend. He needed help, and fast. He needed someone who would keep his trust, be rational, be understanding, and be able to guide him. And Sirius knew just which fellow Marauder to ask.
Chapter two- 'keeping his cool'
Sirius woke up the next morning feeling like he was on no sleep. It felt like he had been stay up all night worrying about something, his head was so confused. 'Wow, so different from usual though?' he mocked himself. It was too early in the morning to fight himself. It was too early in the morning to get up.
"Oi! Padfoot, get your lazy arse up!" Yelled a voice that probably woke up the whole common room.
Right when Sirius turned around to tell Remus (as that was the voice) to shut-up and let him sleep, he was greeted a good morning by a glass of water being thrown in his face.
Sirius jumped straight out of his bed as the chilling water hit his face. He squinted through his watery eyes to glare at Remus who was looking satisfied on his own bed (on the right side of Sirius' bed).
"Moony! What in Merlin's name did you do that for?!?!"
Sirius took to notice that he and Remus were the only ones up. 'Peter and James could sleep through the next apocalypse' Sirius thought shaking his head. Remus was already fully clothed and had his brown leather book bag over on shoulder. Apparently, Remus had been the first one up, as always. 'He won't be up so early next full moon' Sirius thought bitterly.
"You were sleep talking mate. It was quite annoying"
"Liar" Sirius cursed as he went to change out of his wet pajamas.
"I don't lie" Remus said with a smirk
"Of course you do, you are right now"
"Ok, well I've had enough of these 'brain wars for the insane', I'm going to get some breakfast, I'll see you there"
"Why are you leaving now?!?" Sirius yelled down to the stair well that Remus had just left through "It's not like their going to run out of kippers of anything" Sirius shook his head as he pulled a black cashmere jumper over his head.
Sirius looked over to the beds of his two other best friends who were sound asleep (except for Peter whose snores, which would usually be pretty loud if the boys hadn't put a silencing charm around his bed curtains. James had a smile plastered to his face, it looked like he was having a good dream. 'Probably about Lily' Sirius joked to himself.
But that's when it hit him like a speeding bullet. Now he knew why he had such a headache. It was because he had tried to.. no wait! He 'did' kiss Lily. 'Maybe now people will take your seriously' Sirius thought 'Yeah, seriously mental' he argued with himself.
'Ok, well the best thing to do is. to just ignore it, forget it ever happened, that's all. Lily won't say anything' Sirius rationed with himself.
Sirius was able to convince himself that this was true. This allowed him to be able to remain clam enough so that he could be his usual joking self. At least James and Peter didn't suspect anything. ************************************************************************
"Hey Padfoot, what's wrong?" Remus asked with a raised eyebrow at the breakfast table the morning.
Sirius didn't really want to stay and wait for James and Peter. He knew that James didn't suspect anything, but knowing himself, Sirius probably would give it away with his eyes.
Sirius had kept his head down on the table the whole time since he sat down next to Remus. He was hoping Remus would just believe he was tired. But he could tell by the hint of worry in Remus' voice that he knew something was up. 'That's what I get for having a best friend who reads too much' Sirius thought resentfully to himself.
"Ah, nothing just er- trouble with mum, that's all" Sirius tried to quickly lie. He thought he had done a pretty good job to cover it up.
There was a couple second of pause in which Remus gave Sirius the most peculiar look before Remus spoke again.
"You know Padfoot. you really are the worst liar I know"
"I'm not lying I swear! My mum was uh- seeming like she was depressed and I started to get worried about her now because. Nestor (Mrs. Black's owl) came late last night and said- and wrote, I mean, that mum was going mad now. And yeah."
Remus' eyebrows rose so high that Sirius didn't even know it was humanly possible. 'Maybe I really am that bad of a liar' Sirius contemplated with himself.
".But Sirius" Remus started with his face consorted in confusion "I mean. you mum is ALWAYS bloody mad. you only said so a week ago"
"Yeah well, I." Sirius started but got interrupted as someone slipped in the seat across from him and Remus and cleared their throat loudly.
It was James, and he was looking his usual lively self. He motioned for Peter to take a seat on his left side before pouring himself some pumpkin juice.
"So what are we all chatting about then? Come on, spill it" James said half- laughing.
"Nothing I." But again- Sirius got interrupted. This time by James calling over to someone who (by the looks of where James head was turned to) was just a bit farther behind Remus (for Remus was closest to the beginning of the table).
Sirius cocked his head in the same direction James was looking. To his horror he saw Lily Evans standing quite still with her back to them all. By the looks of it and the expression on her face, Sirius was quite sure Lily had been trying to make a run for it before anyone had seen her. Her plan seemed to have been squashed though.
"Oi Lil! What are you doing, come sit with us!" James called over to her and patted the empty seat next to him.
A year ago, that seat would not have only been already filled, but would've had a few dozen girls surrounding it. James and Sirius had always been the "popular dreamy guys" and most women called them. But once James got with Lily, they knew that seat would always be taken. Of course. that didn't stop them from surrounding Sirius part of the table. And if Sirius had been more himself today, he would've noticed the many girls around him who were trying to get his attention any time he looked their direction.
"Uh." Lily said turning around. She had a nervous expression on her face. 'She's too easy to read' Sirius thought biting his lower lip "You know James. I just remember, I have to. to go to the library, yeah! I told uh- McGonagall I'd meet with her"
"Nonsense Lil, come here!" James said once more. He was pretty oblivious to the peculiar way Lily was acting.
Lily gulped, but finally made her way over to the other side of the table. Just before she sat down, Sirius caught Remus shooting him a baffled look between them both. 'Why do we BOTH have to be such bad liars?' Sirius wondered, kicking himself mentally.
Sirius just tried to ignore all the looks Remus was giving him. He tried to ignore Peter who kept on asking why he was so tired. He tried to ignore the arm that fell over Lily's graceful shoulder; the arm that belonged to his best friend. And most of all he tried to ignore the pleading looks Lily was sending him; the look the suggested "Please meet me so we can talk by ourselves"; the look that ripped at his heart because he knew it was wrong and hated himself for betraying his best friend. He needed help, and fast. He needed someone who would keep his trust, be rational, be understanding, and be able to guide him. And Sirius knew just which fellow Marauder to ask.