Chapter four- And so the truth comes out
"You WHAT?!?!?" was Remus' initially reaction when Sirius told him what had happened between him and Lily exactly two nights ago now.
Lily and Sirius had been able to avoid any close contact as James was always there with her. Nothing had been said yet, and it was eating Sirius up inside. He had to tell someone and he had finally gotten up the courage to tell Remus (he had been growing more and more curious by the day, unlike James who remained clueless).
When Sirius decided to tell Remus he at least walked up with some confidence. But after what Remus just said, Sirius now felt like a deflated balloon. Sirius had pulled Remus into an empty classroom (professor Binn's classroom to be exact). The room air in the room was stale and dust had filled in every place possible. Sirius was now quite sure that cleaning wasn't an important thing to ghosts.
Remus was now standing up (after having jumped quickly out of his chair only moments ago) staring bug eyed down at Sirius with his mouth open in disbelief. If anything Sirius thought Remus would be somewhat rational even if he were a bit shocked. But this wasn't like the Remus he knew. Sirius realized just how bad of a thing he must've done for Remus to get all over dramatic about it ("or maybe he's at the right level of drama for this" Sirius wondered to himself).
"Uhhhh, I kissed-" Sirius started but got interrupted mid-sentence by Remus
"I KNOW what you said!!! And please don't repeat it again!!!" Remus said raising his voice on every note. Remus then sighed and hung his head while shaking it at the same time. Remus was acting as though he was talking to a two year old who had gotten into the spice rack. "Sirius." Remus said in a much more rational voice. It seemed he was trying to comprehend it all "Oh Sirius. how could you do that??"
"Look, it's not what it seems. really" Sirius said trying to think up a quick excuse. He could see that telling Remus had only made the problem worse. Now he was going to have to get Remus off his back too.
"Sirius-" Remus said bluntly "You kissed Lily, James' girlfriend, James you best pal remember?"
"Yes I remember. ok maybe it's exactly like it seems." Sirius said bitterly. He was getting quite tired of this. Remus wasn't helping at all. Sirius thought that he was just making him feel worse. "I already told you, I'm not sure what came over me. It's a one time thing, I swear"
"Yes, but Sirius you shouldn't have."
"Well I did!!!!" Sirius yelled, losing his temper "I don't need you treating me like a two year old! I asked for advice and you're not giving it to me!!! So stop making me feel worse and STOP NAGGING AT ME FOR WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST!!!!!"
All the vent up anger Sirius had bottled up from the past days came spilling out. It was not fully Remus' fault, and he knew that. But at the moment, Sirius was too confused to really care.
In rage, Sirius strode quickly over the classroom door and opened it. He slammed the door behind him without even a look back to Remus. The sound of the door hit the wall cut through the silence that followed Sirius' heated words like a serrated knife.
'Great, just great!!!!' Sirius scolded himself in his mind 'Now what are you going to do? The last thing you need is a fight with Remus, he could've helped you!!!'
"Oh shut-up!!!" Sirius bitterly muttered under his breath, fighting his own conscious.
"You WHAT?!?!?" was Remus' initially reaction when Sirius told him what had happened between him and Lily exactly two nights ago now.
Lily and Sirius had been able to avoid any close contact as James was always there with her. Nothing had been said yet, and it was eating Sirius up inside. He had to tell someone and he had finally gotten up the courage to tell Remus (he had been growing more and more curious by the day, unlike James who remained clueless).
When Sirius decided to tell Remus he at least walked up with some confidence. But after what Remus just said, Sirius now felt like a deflated balloon. Sirius had pulled Remus into an empty classroom (professor Binn's classroom to be exact). The room air in the room was stale and dust had filled in every place possible. Sirius was now quite sure that cleaning wasn't an important thing to ghosts.
Remus was now standing up (after having jumped quickly out of his chair only moments ago) staring bug eyed down at Sirius with his mouth open in disbelief. If anything Sirius thought Remus would be somewhat rational even if he were a bit shocked. But this wasn't like the Remus he knew. Sirius realized just how bad of a thing he must've done for Remus to get all over dramatic about it ("or maybe he's at the right level of drama for this" Sirius wondered to himself).
"Uhhhh, I kissed-" Sirius started but got interrupted mid-sentence by Remus
"I KNOW what you said!!! And please don't repeat it again!!!" Remus said raising his voice on every note. Remus then sighed and hung his head while shaking it at the same time. Remus was acting as though he was talking to a two year old who had gotten into the spice rack. "Sirius." Remus said in a much more rational voice. It seemed he was trying to comprehend it all "Oh Sirius. how could you do that??"
"Look, it's not what it seems. really" Sirius said trying to think up a quick excuse. He could see that telling Remus had only made the problem worse. Now he was going to have to get Remus off his back too.
"Sirius-" Remus said bluntly "You kissed Lily, James' girlfriend, James you best pal remember?"
"Yes I remember. ok maybe it's exactly like it seems." Sirius said bitterly. He was getting quite tired of this. Remus wasn't helping at all. Sirius thought that he was just making him feel worse. "I already told you, I'm not sure what came over me. It's a one time thing, I swear"
"Yes, but Sirius you shouldn't have."
"Well I did!!!!" Sirius yelled, losing his temper "I don't need you treating me like a two year old! I asked for advice and you're not giving it to me!!! So stop making me feel worse and STOP NAGGING AT ME FOR WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST!!!!!"
All the vent up anger Sirius had bottled up from the past days came spilling out. It was not fully Remus' fault, and he knew that. But at the moment, Sirius was too confused to really care.
In rage, Sirius strode quickly over the classroom door and opened it. He slammed the door behind him without even a look back to Remus. The sound of the door hit the wall cut through the silence that followed Sirius' heated words like a serrated knife.
'Great, just great!!!!' Sirius scolded himself in his mind 'Now what are you going to do? The last thing you need is a fight with Remus, he could've helped you!!!'
"Oh shut-up!!!" Sirius bitterly muttered under his breath, fighting his own conscious.