Yo! This is my first Shaman King fic, cause I've just betrayed tenipuri and turn to SK instead. XD Basically I love Hao-sama paired with anyone except girls, but my fave pairing is this weird twincest. For now it's up to you whether to call this shonen ai twincest or brotherly love, but for safety reason, don't read this fic if you can't stand this kind of relationship, because I might change the rating in the future……. OOOOOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!!  Oh also, spare me for some grammatical errors might appear, cause English is not my first language. Kay? Let the story begin!! *back to her previous activity molesting Hao-sama*

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Myself in front of My Eyes

Yoh's POV

I open my eyes,

The blurry vision before my eyes starts to turn clearer, and far above me I see the color of dawn tints the sky, make the clouds which I've always wanted to sleep on become prettier. I try to think and regain something more than just the memory of a big explosion I've just felt, and end up hurting myself for trying to move. Slowly, I try again, creeping with all my strength. The pain all over my body seemed to break my bone into pieces.

*flashback*

"Never! Shamans could never coexist with humans!!"

He roared desperately, till the voice seemed to rip the fire around him off. An insane homicidal was standing there, panting with both eyes that seemed to plunge out. The guy supposed to be the honored one in the family for his shamanism stuffs and the fact that he was the first Asakura, but neither that or the fact of his blood relation with Yoh could change a thing. That he needs to be destroyed. For the shake of human's races, that's what they said.

"WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID!!?" Ren lost his patience again for several times and approached him with his desperate oversoul, which expectedly swept away easily like fly. Indeed, he was a monster. A great onmyouji named Asakura Hao.

"Ren!!" Yoh and the others ran towards him in terrible worries and surrounded the hot-tempered shaman. In his burst out anger he stole a glimpse at Hao's direction and found out that he was staring at them in fury. His fist obviously clutched the sword tighter and he bit his lower lip.

"Tiny humans…always act good and sweet outside…" He blurt out suddenly, which is none of the boy's concern. They would definitely think that it was just one of his cursed ideologies.

"Cause we're tiny, that's why we need each other to become stronger!!" Yoh snapped him harshly, and only got a humiliating smile as a reply.

"Maa, ii ka." The onmyouji put his sword down, without losing his confidence and dignity though his comrades were nowhere to find and the little African boy Opacho had ran in fear.

He smiled, again. What's that for?

"You don't have to be afraid for being weaklings anymore, Yoh. You and your friends will die soon after all." After he said that a big light came from his Spirit of Fire, which was too bright to be observed.

"DANNAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!" Ryu's scream could be heard for the last time before Yoh's instinct told him to go against it with all he has, together with a big explosion before everything went blank…

*end of flashback*

 Sounds of wave break my thought. I look around and find that I'm in a beach. I'm sure that it's not far too much from the others, because I'm so lucky. The prove? Right about 10 meters in front of me is the sea, and I fall on the dry sand instead of there. Unlike that poor guy over there, his body is all wet because of the wave.

"…"

"EEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHH??????"  Dunno why I scream like an idiot.

He is unconscious, so I become a bit worried and approach the body.

"Ren?? Lyserg?? Is that you??"

The guy's long hair covers the half part of his face, but even Manta doesn't need to see the whole face to discover that the guy is my twin brother. yare yare… do you believe it's in destiny? (Nothern Lights, my version)

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Ano… to iu koto de, to kill him in this condition might solve every problem most shamans are facing. Come on, now that I've think about it, those peeved guys have grudges towards Hao, right? Etto… Lyserg's revenge; Silva's duty to banish his family's dirt; X-Laws' errr… obsession; My dad's tragedy that forced him to wear that funny raccoon mask for his entire life; Anna's grudge for heartlessly kick him in the forbidden place… wait, it's HAO's grudge; Ryu's anger to Billy cause he failed to come on time… wait. That's out of topic. By the way, …. ughh… what was I talking about just now? ?_?

(Author: BAKA!!!!)

 The point is, I don't think it is right to kill him in this condition. Don't ask me why, I don't know the answer. Instead, I ended up treating his wound, cleaned him from the sands, and drying his robe near the fire.. Where did I get the fire? No, I didn't steal Hao's mochirei! I used to be a boy scout so I know the general clue about survival methods. ^^

Then… I look at the sleeping face beside me, whom people claimed to be my twin. I approach it and wonder, "Do I look like that when I'm sleeping?"

There are little sands on his cheek, and my fingers move by reflex to sweep them. I stop my fingers on the surface of his skin and giggle, can't imagine about Ren and the other's expression if they find out that Hao's skin can be this soft. I scan his face again and enjoy this nice feeling I don't even understand. Seeing him sleeping with such peaceful face like that, no one would believe that he has a terrible plan on his mind.

"Mom…"

He murmured in his sleep and move his head to the other side, which is surprised me quite well. Not the move only, but the word that just slipped from his mouth. Well… of course everybody have mothers, but to hear Hao Asakura mumbling about a mother seems strange. I feel funny when my hands move as if they're beyond my control, stroking his hair. I like the feeling of my fingers between his hair. So comfort. I don't feel like this guy beside me is a danger to the world.

"Hao?"

I try to call him. I don't know whether it's to wake him up or to assure myself that he really is Hao.  He didn't answer, (well of course) and it raises this strange feeling inside me. A bit curious, bit sympathy…

"Nii….san..?"

I chuckle a bit, though I don't feel like I really want to. And while it seems so awkward, the slow moves of his eyelids kinda surprise me.

I know that there's also a moment of surprise ness in his eyes to see what had happened, but he really fast in composing himself.

"Oh, so nice. It's just like you saving the enemy, Yoh."

He greets plainly, despise what has happened. He needs not such a long time to get up on his feet and take back his robe that was hanging near the fire, and wears it elegantly.

"I think to call you 'Nii-san' is not really a bad thing."

I don't even know why the hell I said such foolish sentence, yet I know that this sheepish grin is on my face, but it's a habit and don't expect me to erase it that easy. Still I expect he's at least a bit surprise or angry or any possible reaction can give.

"I thought you prefer to call me Hao-sama, otouto-chan."  He answers me simply without turning his face at my direction and let a satisfied laughter fills the air. People would call it 'mockingly'. Fuuhhh… can't be helped, though.  Now that I've thought about it…. like I can't understand the reason for him to laugh, maybe Hao can't understand my joke as well. Would he understand chocolove's??

end of POV

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"Hey, Hao."

"Hmmm?"

"Your last act, it's too risky even for yourself."

"So?"

"Why did you do it?"

"Thanks to it I end up being here with you, right? Isn't it nice to spend a night here just the two of us, otouto-chan?" He smiled, as humiliating as ever. Instead of felt being mocked, Yoh smiled and claimed, "You really think so? That's right! We can't search for a way back when it's dark like this. Let's wait until tomorrow!"

Hao stopped smiling.

"You can't since you're weak. But I've no problem with it." replied him.

"Really? That's cool. But aren't you tired?"

"Yoh."

"Huh?O..Ouch….. ha… HAO!!!"

Suddenly fire just crawled over Yoh's hands, as sudden as it disappeared, but fatal enough to leave smokes and burns in Yoh's hands. The boy groaned in pain and rubbed the dark tint over and over. "You…"

"Be careful with your mouth, otouto-chan." He smiled again, and turned his back. Didn't feel any regret for nearly turned his twin into a roasted human.

"Ha…Hao… where are you going?"

"None of your business."

Being too easy going, Yoh just let the dreadful guy roamed around free without any worry. That kind of feeling slightly appeared later, when Hao had been gone for a little too long. So, he got on his feet and left the spot, searching for the enemy.

He moved step by step along the seashore, willingly freshened his tired feet through the gentle stroke of waves. Scanning the situation around and found out that it was indeed a lovely night.  He'd been walking for quite some time when he heard a faint sound of someone's song. A really old and mysterious song, hummed quietly. When he looked around, he found that his brother was sitting on a big rock, gazing far away. The onmyouji soon realized that Yoh was spying at him and stopped himself.

Yoh clapped his hands. "Nice, Hao."

"You're here?"

"Ah, you've been gone out for too long."

"Worry about me that much?"

"If I say 'yes' wouldn't you burn me like before?"

"Sou ka? By the way, why don't you just come up here? The breeze is nice." He offered, referring the spot beside him.

"But promise not to burn me like before!"

"Ah, no problem."

Yoh climbed the rock happily, and Hao smiled with nobody understands what that was for. "It's good for you that you could enjoy the stars together with me at least once." said him.

"Why?"

"Cause you'll die as soon as you get stronger."

"Eh?? How?"

"I'll make that soul return to me. It's mine anyway."

"Sou ka."

"Are you afraid?"

"I don't know… maybe I will. By the way, Hao. Why do you like stars so much?"

"Why do you ask that?"

"Even chocolove could tell that you love stars."

"And even a foolish human knows that star is the symbol of onmyouji, Yoh. So your question is unexpected."

Yoh looked at his brother's gentle face, and let a laugh out. "Well… gomen…."

Yoh continued his line."And why do you hate humans?"

"Isn't it clear? They're tiny and stupid."

"Sou ka." Yoh closed his eyes, felt the cool sea breeze. "You like to sing?" He asked.

"Why?"

"I really like to hear you sing."

"………..you silly."

The onmyouji stopped for a moment. Yoh used this chance to stare at his brother face, as if it could bring him somewhere. Suddenly he remembered something.

"Hao… is this…. used to be yours?" Yoh's carefully asked, showing the weird black necklace he always wears. Hao slightly looked at the thing and threw his gaze at the sea.

"I gave that useless thing to my stupid cat."

"Matamune, right?"

"Sou. And I bet he was going to share some stupidity by giving you that."

Yoh sighed.

"He loved you so much, Hao."

"And your point is…..?"

"I know that you used to be a good person."

"Until now I am, the evil ones are human."

"Also a loveable person…"

"Yoh…."

"I…. until now, I'm trying to…."

Unpredictable, Hao pushed Yoh's back before he could finished his last line and caused him fell to the ground. It's not really hurt for him, but enough to freak him out for the little brother could only stared him with his shock eyes, shouted, "HEEEYYY!!! What's that for!!??"

Hao stood up on the rock.

"Tonikaku, I've changed my mind. Why don't you just die here and now?"

"WHAT!!??" Before Yoh could say anything, the onmyouji had already jumped to his front, caused a splash of wave water slapped Yoh's face. In one second, his hand landed firmly in the boy's neck.

"Now give me your soul, Yoh."

"Hao… you…" Yoh was about to resist when his twin kick his stomach unremorsefully and made him fall to the water. Both the superior power of his older twin and the lacks of air that inhibit his strength left him defenseless. He could only see with a vision that started to blurry, that Hao was indeed too dreadful for a human.

"You're an eyesore, Yoh." Hao strengthened his grip, one of his hand pulled Yoh's hair harshly.

Why?

"You better disappear…"

That eyes….

Yoh felt something inside him was going to explode; something crawled along his throat, when his hand quickly grabbed a wood stick and use it to strike his brother's head as hard as he could, and break free.

"Stop it, Hao!!!" he snapped, panting. "Why are you suddenly….?"

"The fact that you're my half make me sick, that's all."

"I know but… please…. let me try to…."

"Die, Yoh!!" Hao cut his line again and approached him with a fire sword of his. He aimed it at Yoh angrily. This time Yoh has just realized something.

Not gonna fooled again for the second time, Yoh countered the attack. But his next act was unexpected.

Rather than to finished the onmyouji with a satisfying punch, he circled his arms around Hao and let his body locked with his own.

And it's surprising how a tight and warm hug could stop a blood thirsty sword.

Even just for a flash moment, before Hao struggled and tried to push his twin's body.

"What the…. go away!!"

But Yoh only tightened his arms and gently run his fingers through Hao's long hair.

"Just stop it, will you…?" Yoh said. His voice was gentle, there's a small affectionate beg in his tone.

"You….!! I'll kill you for sure!!" answered the onmyouji, still struggling inside the hug.

"You don't want to hear… that I'm trying to love you, right?"

"Shut up!!"

"It's okay… everything's gonna be alright…." Yoh kept stroking Hao's hair calming and affectionately as he could feel that Hao slowly decrease his struggle.

"I hate you…." was the last word he said before completely surrendered his self to the warmth of Yoh's embrace. Let his high pride and arrogance be defeated, with only stars flickering as the witnesses of the once in centuries moment.

"It's okay…."

It's okay… cause you've always wanted to be hold just like this, don't you?

TBC!!

Shaky: Hmmm…. Not enough touching for this chapter. I'm preparing something to burn the reader in the next chap, Hao-honey. *horny mode on*

Hao the future king: Shaky will molest me again if she gets upset, so please review!!!" *beg with teary eyes*