OK!!! I've updated this one! It's 01.00 at night in my place, and I finished this fic in an hour. If you find anything strange, please bear with it because I wrote this one in a terrible emotion.
Why is it so fast, while I'm not that creative? IT'S BECAUSE THE MORE I READ THE MANGA, (especially that 'funbari no uta' thingie') THE MORE I HAVE THIS OMEN THAT HAO WILL DIE!!! (This is not a spoiler, don't flame me, this is just my… ugh.. worries ….rants)
DAMN HUMANITY!!!! GAAAHHH!!!!! WHY?????? Why I always have my OBSESSED character die in the anime I OBSESSED with!!??? NOT AGAIN!! NOT MANGA TOO!!! NOT IN MY LAST HOPE!! NOT AFTER THE ANIME!! I'LL DESTROY THE WORLD AND BUILD THE WORLD OF SHAMAAAAAAAAAAANNNN!!!!! *Hao-ish maniac laugh*
Hosh…hosh…. *panting*
Myself in front of My Eyes
chapter 2
*Hao's POV*
I steal a glimpse at the obnoxious shaman not so far away from the fire, who's treating his wounds now. I know I should've examined mine, but such insignificant wounds would cause no effect on me, so I just sit still, resting my back at a tree behind. The night sky is a bit darker than usual, and this cold air tells that it's going to rain soon.
I almost lost my prey.
Kuso. If only he failed to release himself, I would have merged with a stupid shell of skin afterwards, and all my efforts to boost his pitiful furyoku up would be in vain. What the hell I was thinking? How could I lose my calm because of the sound….
I'm trying to love you, Hao. Let me try to love you.
Damn. That voice's echoing in my mind and hardly disappears though I shake off my head to pursue it. I read it from his mind when we were sitting side by side on the cliff, and don't know it drove me mad. I… hate those eyes. I used to hate the eyes of those who scared of me, though now I enjoy it. Still I have never imagined that this kind of eyes could be much more disgusting. He looked at me as if I was…
Forget it.
Well, I should wait until he gets stronger, then I can make a worthy prey out of him.
…
Can I?
I land my sight reluctantly at him, and can see nothing but a loser rubbing his pity bruised skin.
But…why?
Humans always deliberate sweet hypocrisy while only trashes could be heard from their inside. I've spent such a long time to curse that custom before realizing that I've trapped in it ever since I remember. Then why the hell a weakling like my half could utter an exact same line with his mind? As a matter of fact he whispered them in my ear over and over. While it's my ability to read people's hearts, I can't read my own. If I could, I won't be bewildered… stray in my own feeling… like that time and now.
The fact that I enjoy the captivation by his silly words annoys me, and to remember that I was helpless instead of ripping his face off at the very moment make me want to burn this whole place out. The truth that I felt warm and save inside his arms, that I like the way he stroked my hair, that he could overcome the situation and drag me here easily, and how I felt so unwilling when he released me from his embrace…… damn it all.
Am I… just as desperate as human? That's what you think, Yoh? Is that the meaning of your eyes, your conscience that I failed to hear?
Then I'll show you that you're wrong. You're wrong, and I'm right. It'll always be like that.
"…me?"
He points a finger on his own face, asking an assuring question towards my direction and makes me realize that I've been observing him intently for quite some time.
I almost throw my face aside but remembering that I should uphold my once-lost dignity, I draw my sight against his.
"Hmm." I answer vaguely.
"Something's on my face?"
"Not really. Just wondering where your friends are right now. Bet they're dead."
For god shake, he stuns for a moment and goggle his eyes wide in disbelieve.
"You… worry about me, Hao? That I'll be lonely, right?" He dropped his compress cloth and move closer happily with no hesitation at all. What a stupid brother I have. I curse that raccoon masked guy and his wife for produced this brat with me instead of me alone.
"Listen stupid, I…"
"Don't worry, they're very strong! They must be somewhere near this place."
"Who cares? I just…"
"I'm not lonely now. Beside, I have you." He smiles sheepishly.
What?
What's this feeling?
I don't know how to respond his last words for a second, and he draws his face near, which makes me flinch backwards nervously for the face is less than two inches before mine. I could feel his warm breath tickling my nose.
Did I just say 'nervous'?
"Hao, are you alright? Your face is red."
I almost use my fire to send him away but a drop of water fall on his cheek, which makes him forget his previous astonishment and no longer annoys me.
"It's raining… I think we should search for something as a shelter…" He stands up and looks around our surroundings, leaving me in an awkward state.
I sigh in relieve. Save by the rain…
Wait.
Did I just say 'save'?
*End of POV*
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Meanwhile, unlike the twin who were trapped in seashore, three shamans were having their difficult time in a wild forest, quite a distance from the sea. Separated from their mochireis. One of them was throwing an empty gaze at the bright dance of campfire, one was quiet and the last was combing his hair.
"Dannnaaaaaaa….." A guy with a marvelous hairdo known as Bokuto no Ryu whined again for dunno how many times tonight.
"Shut up, will you!? You'll call the rain! Yoh isn't as weak as you!!" A quiet shaman started to speak, while the last guy looked at them and forced a smile.
"Daijoubu, Ren-kun. I think the rain is going to fall soon regardless Ryu-san keep silent or not. We should find a shelter now..." said a fatigued looking British boy.
"I know that, Lyserg. But could you please do something to educate his brain a bit? That voice freaks the hell out of me!"
"Well… that's…"
"LI-ZE-RU-GU….!!!!!" Cried Ryu again, wrapped Lyserg in a bear hug as if the smaller guy was a wise mother whom he'll asked a candy to. Ren looked at the scene peevishly and if only Bason were there, he might have prepared a golden chuuka zanmai to eradicate it.
"Ma-ma… It's okay, Ryu-san…Yoh is strong. For now let's fine a cave or such, okay?" To his annoyance, Lyserg patted Ryu's back gently and smile rather than kick him away and caused the older guy cried louder, rubbing his forehead against Lyserg's delicate shoulder.
"LI-ZE-RU-GU!! You're indeed so kind….. huhuhuhUHUHUHUUUU!!!~~~~~***"
They stopped sharing affection when the pointy hair of Ren lengthened, together with the trembling body as an indication of his increasing temper.
"WHY DON'T YOU JUST MOVE YOUR ASS AND MAKE YOURSELF USEFUL, KISAMAAAAA!!!????" He shouted in horror as if thunders could be seen in the background, and swung his Dao to and fro savagely which was very frightening to the poor Ryu, for he released the smaller guy and flinched inches away.
"O..okay, okay. I'll go right away!!!!" Blurted the weirdo-hairdo as he grabbed his Bokuto before the terrifying Chuuka Zanmai slice his precious hair, and escaped through the trees to find a shelter as the Chinese shaman ordered.
The culprit, Lyserg Diethel, could only sweatdropped.
"Errr… Ren-kun, I think you're too…"
"You're the one who spoiled him too much. Don't you feel something about him soiling your legendary X-laws coat?" Ren stabbed the conversation in a sensitive matter, for the British boy stiffened and bent his head down, could say nothing as a reply. He's indeed had betrayed his own allies to join X-Laws, despise all kindness Yoh cs had given to accept him willingly. And Ren still couldn't totally forgive him for what he had done. He knew that Ren was never being a sweet-talker, but he could feel that the air around them became heavier as none of the two started the conversation after Ryu's temporary departure.
The gloomy and uneasy circumstance decrease a bit when the rain started to fall on them. Thanks to the trees that water didn't disrupt them directly, but the cold air quite shivered both shamans. Worse when the campfire in front of them became totally off. Leaving a fatal darkness between them, with no choice but relying on the dim light of stars and moon.
"I.. I wonder where Ryu-san is…"
"How should I know? Maybe he met X-Laws rats along the way and joined them."
Lyserg pretended not to hear that one and almost continue talking when he felt so difficult to move his body or even his jaw, as a shivering sound could be heard from him. The air is cold indeed; he bet Ren was frozen also with his tiny shirt.
"Hey. Is that you or some rats passing by?"
He heard Ren snapped. No indication that he was frozen. Wow.
"It's me, Ren-kun." Answered Lyserg weakly, and he was surprised to realize how trembling his voice was. He felt something soft bumped his face afterwards and found that it was Ren's beige cloth.
"Cover yourself, I don't want to be troubled by a sick baby." said him.
"Gomen ne, Ren-kun."
He thought everything's gonna be alright when temperature seemed to drop drastically as the rain fell fiercely.
"Damn!!" Ren's curse could be heard, for he started to shudder as well. "Why the hell Ryu's stupid big thumb was used to summon the puny American frontier spirit Billy, rather than at a time like this!!??" grumbled him, thinking how better it would be if Ryu and Tokageroh were together at the very moment, brightened the place.
No answer from the other boy.
"Hey!! Are you dead or what!?" He snarled at the boy who was unnaturally silent, and moved closer towards him only to find that the boy was in a hypothermic state.
Which is, unexpectedly, drove him panic.
"HEY!! KISAMA!! What's wrong with you!!??" He shook Lyserg's shoulder.
The boy didn't answer but holding his trembling body with his own arms and eyes were shut. Ren touched the British boy's cheek. It was terribly cold.
"Lyserg! Hey!! Answer me!!"
"It's…so cold…."
"I know you are, sissy! Now just keep talking or I'll cut your head off!!"
"But…it's cold, Re..n…"
Ren accidentally touched Lyserg's hand, and how the boy strongly gripped back surprised him.
Gosh… what should I do?
"OKAY!!… tell me about the… the……………. err… IRON MAIDEN JEANNE!! YES! Her! Tell me about her!!"
Man, I feel stupid.
"Tell you... what….??"
Just answer me and stop me from embarrassing myself, idiot.
"ANYTHING!!!"
"Oh… she's… so…. kind.."
"And then!!??"
"Always …serene…"
'AND THEN!!??"
"She's…"
The boy stopped and panting heavily.
"Ren…it's cold…"
"I KNOW!! Now it's still cold or not!!?" asked the Chinese shaman as he forsook his pride and sealed Lyserg's with his body, tried to share some desperate warmth through a tight embrace.
"It's cold…"
"KISAMAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! NOW SAY IT'S STILL COLD AND I'LL KILL YOU!!!!" Ren tightened his arms and stick his entire skin with Lyserg's in an intimate position he could never imagine, which a big humiliation is for a Ren-bocchama.
"…."
"NOW TELL ME ABOUT THAT JEANNE FREAK!!"
"But she's not a freak…."
"GAAHH!! WHATEVER, TELL ME!!"
"She's so…"
"WHAT!??"
"So pretty…"
"CONTINUE!!"
"So pretty….."
Ren felt that Lyserg's breaths were becoming steadier as his arms wrapped around him weakly.
"But… not as pretty as you… Ren…."
The boy gasped.
Good. Now it's my turn to be hypothermic and imagining things.
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"Hao? What are you laughing at since just now?"
Yoh asked his twin curiously when he saw him smirking and chuckling to the fire for quite some time, as if the onmyouji didn't need a concentration to make a barrier to protect them from the falling rain. Still in his smile, Hao turned his head to Yoh before flung him with a piece of firewood, caused an 'ouch' sound from the boy. "You're eager too curious."
"And you're eager too abusive, enjoy torturing your own sibling!"
"You asked for it."
"Eh?" The boy thought for a while. "Really? Well… I forgot! Hehehe…"
Idiot.
"Then let me remind you…" said Hao as he smiled and grabbed a big chump of burning firewood.
"Wa..wait!! Just kidding, okay?"
"Oh? Really? Well…I forgot!" The older one threw the fiery chump lightly at his otouto, and would have hit his forehead if only Yoh didn't counter.
The victim hyperventilated. "Hey, you were just so sweet a couple of minutes ago!"
"Beats me…"
"Well… you still, though. Otherwise you won't recruit me to this barrier of yours." Yoh said simply and smile a wide Yoh-ish grin.
"Sou ka?" It amazed himself how he canceled his own hand to throw Yoh another small piece of firewood again right after he heard that statement, and back to silent before Yoh's scream stabbed his ears.
"HAO!!! WHAT'S THAT WOUND!!??" he said, pointing at a big cut at Hao's right stomach that was unnoticed before.
"This? No big deal."
"But that's quite a cut! No big deal?"
"Unlike human, this mere problem is just like an insect to me."
'Wow…...… sugoi...!"
"I am, so be silence before I abuse you worse."
"But, Hao…"
"It seems you love to be abused…"
"I'm not a masochist! It's just that Manta once said that you'll get an infection leaving an open wound like that…"
"The dwarf? Ooo… I'm scared….."
Yoh sweatdropped.
"It's your fault to wear that kind of cape I can't see it earlier. Come on, let me cover it."
"Huh?"
Yoh tore his sleeve as he practically moved closer towards his twin, and bent down to treat the wound. "Raise your cape."
"Like I will follow an order." refused the stubborn guy.
Yoh pinched his brother's cheek impatiently and shouted near his ear, "you're a naughty brat!!!'
People will think that Hao would devour Yoh right away in a horrid anger, but as a matter of fact he just snorted and do what Yoh said. He stared at the dark sky above them as Yoh do whatever he thought best for the wound. He stole a sight at his sibling when a nice scent fascinated his sense of smell, and realized that it came from Yoh's hair. The longer Yoh act in such distant, the more Hao shuddered by the sweet fragrance.
This feeling again…
"Finished! Yoh smiled widely and swept his forehead, returned to his previous position and stopped Hao from enjoying the scent.
"Hello…? Hao? I say I'm finished, you can rest your arm."
"Eh..? Oh yes… sure… arigatou."
"No prob….Hao?? what did you just say..?"
"Ariga....." Hao discontinued his line as soon as he realized the miscellaneous word. This made Yoh let a happy laugh out and abruptly threw himself at his brother, hug him like a Teddy Bear.
"Nii-chan, NANTE KAWAII DESU NE!!!"
The ever-so-elegant Hao almost fainted.
Again???
"Stop it Yoh!! Just sleep, it's late!!"
"Yada! If I sleep it will be morning already and you'll be our enemy again!!" he insisted and hugged Hao rather possessively. "I just wanted to be together with you just like this!"
The onmyouji paused by the line, yet he can't fully understand why his vision suddenly turned watery together with a slight ache somewhere inside him.
And his arms must be reacted beyond control to support the hug in a timid movement. Yoh smiled, and was just going to release the hug when Hao touched the back of his head with one hand and pushed his spine gently with another hand towards his chest, as if forbidding him to go away.
"…Hao..?"
"Yoh…do you know, what I was laughing at earlier?" whispered him near Yoh's ear.
"Eh…?"
"Quite far from this place… there are two stupid shamans."
"How could you know…?"
"Somehow I know. They're hopelessly sharing warmth in the middle of the cold forest…"
"And..?"
Hao tightened his arms and closed his eyes, overflowed with the comfort he could never ask for more. "What do you mean..?" he asked back.
"And what's so funny about them?"
"Can't you see? To see them in the obviously embarrassing situation kind of entertaining…. It's absolutely pathetic…" Hao's voice was almost like a whisper, as if both of them lost the strength to stay conscious and went astray.
"So you think it's pathetic and embarrassing…"
"Sure, who don't...?"
"Then… why do you do the same thing, Hao?"
The onmyouji didn't answer. He caressed Yoh's cheek and fondled the side of his face slowly and gently, then stopped to cupped Yoh's chin and let his fingers touched his lower lips. He observed the inviting blossom as a strange sensation seemed to run around his body.
"Your words are poison." he said.
As if ignoring, the younger shaman didn't respond. His eyes were half lidded to feel his twin's tempting skin which he once keenly admired before. Yoh grabbed the hand as if he was afraid that it would leave his cheek, and ascended his face to challenge his twin's eyes with wondering gaze.
"I don't understand you."
"Neither do I…"
The onmyouji slowly landed his lips on his half's, his hand that was grabbed by Yoh wandering between Yoh's hair. He felt the younger boy gasped before turned weak and heated inside his control as his lips dance towards his, with a tensed clutch on Hao's shoulder for the younger one started to lose himself. He didn't reject at all when Hao's tongue explore his mouth and battled his own, for the massage drunken him like hell. The lips that was exotically sweet as wine forced him to free a soft moan when Hao's face was rubbed against his neck, within several kisses and licks which strayed him in ecstasy.
Yoh open his eyes unwillingly, when his twin parted from him and panting, leaving him helpless on his chest.
"Go away Yoh, you're heavy."
…What have I done?
"That…was…" Yoh tried to regain his breath. "a bit surprising of you…"
"…"
The younger one laughed.
"Now what are you mocking at!??"
"Me? Mocking? I thought you're the one who should be. Therefore you said it's pathetic and embarrassing." Hao glared at his twin when the boy took a strand of his hair and kiss it, then freed a satisfied chuckle again.
"Whatever, let's just end this stupidity, or else…"
"Hao." Yoh cut his line.
"What again!?"
"You're so beautiful."
"Oh…sou…." Hey…hey… be steady, you heartbeat. "Well… that's… none of your concern."
"And you know, Hao?"
"OK, enough. I…"
"You're blushing."
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"LI-ZE-RU-GUUUUUUU!!!!"
A roaring whine was echoing through the entire cave, freaked out all living beings inside it. A squirrel that was happily gnawing a nut accidentally dropped its food and escaped hastily. He better do it than ended up being deaf inside the cave, though.
"I still can't believe that heavenly scenery…" added a blue haired Ainu, pressing his head with both hands. On his snowboard, a Manta-ish creature was sobbing desperately, uttered a "Kukuuuuuruu….." sound.
"MATTAKU!! HOW MANY TIMES SHOULD I SAY, IT WASN'T A KISS!!!" Another roar, which was known as Ren's, battled the first one.
"NOOOO!! NoooooooOOOO!! Now you can't marry, your future can't be seen, poor you, LIZERUGU!!!! Say that it was a dream… IT WAS A DREAM, RIGHT!!??"
"Bocchama… you've become a man…Bason is touched." The Chinese mochirei sobbed.
"Even you are accusing me, Bason!? "Lyserg!! Explain it to them!!"
"Well.. I forget what happened… gomen, minna." said the villain of the duel weakly with a face that was red as tomato.
"I've told you what had happened!" continued the hysterical Ryu. His mochirei, Tokageroh, still in shock state and could say nothing. "I was lost… confused… despaired… I run nowhere to find a shelter for both of you, I was worried about you since I'm a nice guy! It was between my life and death when I bumped Tokageroh, and to my surprise he was together with HoroHoro, Kororo and Bason! Thank the Great Spirit I found this cave with their help. (HoroHoro & Kororo: *nods*nods*) We run back to your place…just to find that THIS JERK STOLE A CHANCE TO KISS YOU IN YOUR UNCONSCIOUSNESS!!!" Tokageroh sweatdropped (as well as the others) and just hope they hadn't seen the theatrical revelation.
"Say again that Bocchama is a jerk and sayonara for your life!!!" defended the loyal mochirei.
"Haven't you heard about CPR, FOR GOD SHAKE!!!??? IT'S EMERGENCY! I HAVE NO CHOICE!!" The Chinese Shaman burst out in anger and humiliation. His face was totally crimson.
"C…CPR..??" Lyserg's timidly spoke.
"YEAH!! And thanks to me you're still here to see those idiot's faces, SO STOP WRINKLING AS IF YOU'RE A SEXUAL HARASSED WOMAN!!"
"Sexually harassed by Ren… I can't think of anything worse…" added HoroHoro, followed by a "Kukuuuu" from his little companion.
"I WASN'T!!" snapped Ren. "I thought he was getting better when the breath became steadier, who would have guessed that it suddenly stopped!?"
"Don't believe him Lyserg!! Can't you see that he was trying to steal your virginity, regardless my pity knowledge about whether he succeed to do it or not!? POOR BOY, USE MY SHOULDER TO CRY ON!!!!
"Ryu…Ryu-san!!"
"I feel pity for you, Lyserg. Don't worry, there must be someone who'll accept you as you are someday, even with your current condition." added HoroHoro bitterly. "Ren, on the other hand…"
"No, Bason will always accept Bocchama as he is…"
"Kukuuuu!!!"
"LI-ZE-RU-GUUUUU!!!!!!~~***
The pointy hair of Ren ascended, together with a glowing, furious Chuuka Zanmai that was ready to be unremorsefully released…
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"Dakara, what are you laughing at again this time, Hao?" asked Yoh, even more curious then before. The onmyouji didn't answer directly but smiled a wide grin.
"Yoh."
"Hmm?"
'What is a CPR?"
"Eh? Well… some kind of mouth to mouth artificial breath, to help someone that stops breathing?"
Hao's eyes were widened for a second, followed by a giggle.
"Not fair!! Tell me what's so interesting, you cheater!" Yoh faked a pouted face.
"How desperate…that CPR thingie."
"Maybe. But…"
"What?"
"I wonder if you'll do it if I stop breathing out of the blue."
Hao smirked. "Don't be silly. Besides, you're no use for me if you dead."
For some seconds, Yoh stared at his twin's face. Then he smiled in a serene, loving smile.
"No, I know you would."
The night was getting late, while the rain didn't seem to stop. In different places, some people actually having their good times in different ways.
TBC!!!
HAH!!!!! *pants*pants*pants*pants* hosh…hosh…. FINISHED!!! HA…HA….HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! HAO-SAMA!!! I'LL GO TO HELL TOGETHER WITH YOU!!!!!! *freaky laugh*
Note: Lovely readers, please don't scold me for what I've done, screaming in big letters and such. Instead, please say to me words like "Sakura, be strong" or "We still have a chance!" or "The future still undecided!" or "Let's not give up!" and the other shoujo anime-ish lines……………… T_T