Where it Began!
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Chapter 10 – The Past is the Past. . . . . Or is it!
By Bec Reynolds (outlined by Elle)
Sirius POV
It's dark, the only light coming into the dorms is the moonlight. I can see the outlines of the four poster beds and the figures rolling in their bed, fast asleep. How I envy them, they can sleep. Damnit!
She's still awake.
Well she said she'd be awake for 20 minutes. It's been 30. Should I go down? If she's their what do I say? If she's not, will I feel disappointment or relief? You never know unless you did it, right. Well here it goes.
I see her. She's sitting on the couch, covered in her blanket and reading a book. I know why Remus and she get along so well. They love books.
"Remus, I told you, you need your rest. Go back to. . ." she scolded then looked up "Oh, hi Bl-Sirius"
"Still having trouble calling me Sirius, seriously" I asked taking my seat across from her. We were sitting in the same seats we were sitting in earlier in the night.
"Yeah, sort of. Old habits are hard to stop" she explained "We're just as bad as James and Lily were" She did look exhausted.
"Do you know about Remus?" I asked "You said that he needed his rest. Emphasising the HE part"
"I figured it out" she replied slowly and pensively "We've been spending so much time in the library to try and find a cure or something. We're trying to find something that will help him stay sane throughout the transformation or to reverse the whole thing. It's been exhausting"
"You don't mind" I asked her. What's with me with questioning her tonight? "That's good, he really appreciates it that people don't flinch whenever they seem him"
"I care about him" she replied staring up at me.
"And he cares about you" I mumbled back not willing to look at her "So do I"
"I know" she told me.
"Em loves me" I blurted out. Sometimes I couldn't control my mouth, why am I telling her? "She told me the other night"
"What did you say?" she asked nervously.
"I just embraced her" I answered "I don't think I can lie to her"
"You don't love her?" she asked quickly.
"I don't think I do. Maybe I'm holding onto something from the past. Something. . ." I began.
"Something you need to get over" she finished for me "We need to talk"
"I know. We've put it off for way to long" I said. For a while there was just silence. Finally she broke the silence.
"Sirius, it was 7 years ago. It's not worth holding on to. You've got Em now and I. . . . I've got Remus. He's sweet and. . ." (Bec)
"He needs you" (Sirius)
"Em's liked you ever since forever. Before you attended Hogwarts. Before you met me. Before I met you. She was the first friend I made. She was my best friend in 1st year. She still is one of my best friends" (Bec)
"I'm sorry" (Sirius)
"I'm not blaming you. It's just that ever since that moment" (Bec)
Flashback
"Reynolds I've been looking for you everywhere" smirked an 11 year old Sirius Black.
"Well you've found me what do you want?" asked an 11 year old Rebeccah Reynolds "Oh no! What's happened?"
The once lit up compartment where Sirius and Bec were talking in had turned pitched black.
"Black where are you?" Bec asked eagerly as she waved her hands around. Sirius found her first. He embraced her and brought her close to his chest. "Thanks"
"No problem Reynolds, I never knew you were afraid of the dark?" said Sirius.
"Look the lights are back on" commented Bec "You can let go of me"
"Oh yeah I forgot. You know you can let go of me too" replied a mischievous Sirius "But you know, you can always hang onto me"
"Oh shut up Black" said Bec as she pulled away "So why did you look for me everywhere? Are you going to do some prank on me?"
"Because me and the guys have a surprise for you girls. It's this" explained Sirius as he levitated his mistletoe "We even got to choose who we could give the present to"
"Wh-what, is that mistletoe?" asked a confused looking Bec.
"Yes" he replied.
Bec looked horrified, Sirius looked amused. Sirius stepped closer to Bec and kissed her, she kissed back. It was short and sweet, but if left a permanent indent on both childrens hearts.
(S/O/A/ well you didn't see that coming did ya. Either did I, but Elle has her ways. LOL)
"Revisiting the past again?" I asked. I didn't wait for a reply "Twice in a night, that's one more than I usually think about it" I mumbled afterwards. It's true, even though I'm with Em I still think about it every night. Just once though, never twice.
"I couldn't be Em's best friend after that. I just couldn't. You kissed me, and I kissed you back. I couldn't live with myself. I drifted further away from her and closer to Lily. And 7 years down the road and I'm bestest friends with Lily and best friends with Em. I told Lily about it, but never Em or Bella until last year. We need to get over it, it was 7 years ago. We were babies back then." she explained looking desperate to explain the whole thing "Lily said something about James knowing about it. Does he know about it, did you tell him?"
"Yes and yes" I replied "It was my first kiss so I had to tell my best friend. I couldn't keep it away from him and I had a crush on you back then"
We both laughed at me.
"Well I had a crush on you too. But. . . ." (Bec)
"I know. It's just complicated, don't worry" (Sirius)
"Did you guys really plan that?" (Bec)
"Yep. I got first choice. I chose you" (Sirius)
"I know you chose me. Duh! Sirius Black you like pointing out the obvious don't you?" (Bec)
"So are thing good between us?" (Sirius)
"Yeah, we've got other people. Other people who need us and other people who we need. Some things aren't meant to be. And that's you and me." (Bec)
"I'll walk you to the stairs, you need your rest too" (Sirius)
"Sure" (Bec)
We reached the point of the stairs were we had to separate. Bec going to the girls dorms and me going to the boys.
"Well, Goodnight" Bec said and turned around.
"Wait" I grabbed her arms and spun her around. There was a tear sliding down her face, it sparkled in the moonlight "Goodnight Ms. Reynolds"
I embraced her and gave her a goodnight kiss on the cheek.
"And Goodnight to you Mr Black" she whispered back as she went on her tip toes and kissed my forehead.
"You still afraid of the dark?" I asked as we separated.
"Sometimes" she smiled then disappeared to her dorm.
S/O/A – Are things going to steam up between Sirius and Bec? Will they rekindle what they felt in the past? I don't know, either do you guys. The twisted mind of my best friend better have a nice way not to make Bec, Em, Remus or Sirius get hurt. I'm not writing it if it turns nasty. But I don't know what matching I want right now. I like Bec and Sirius but I like Bec and Remus. Oh the torture. Give me your thoughts in the review. Thanks! Mwah
How bad would you feel if you were Bec? Watching Sirius and Em fall in love again. Ow nasty, what is my best friend think?
Oh yeah I'm not uploading the next chapter until I get at least 10 review for this chapter. I really do like reviews and I just want to beat how many review Elle has! LOL. We're very competitive, always have always will.