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Where it Began – Chapter 11 Confusion and Certainty by Bec Reynolds
Bec's POV
It took me 5 years to finally get over him. He hurt me (emotionally) too much. He never knew he hurt me, but he did. Watching Em and Sirius last year was torture. Pretending I was fine and alright about things was even more torture. But that torture and hurt got me over him. Lily always told me it wasn't healthy not talking to him about how I felt, but I couldn't talk to him. Not then, not now. I pretend to feel alright, but I'm not. I am supportive, but after I give advice I feel like crying. Like I am right now. And some people wonder why I've never been in love? That's why, stupid Sirius Black has scarred me for life. I could be happy with lots of people. I know a lot of people are happy with me. The Ravenclaws. They all say they love me. But I don't want a Ravenclaw! They don't even know the real me.
It hurts seeing him, seeing him so happy-with Em. But like we said, we've got other people. Remus and I aren't a couple, are we? We're a couple, but we're not. You know what I mean? It's just confusing. I don't know what we are right now. He hasn't even kissed me yet, but somehow I feel at rest with him. He's so sweet and I need him. He needs me too. But are we a couple?
Sirius doesn't love Em. What if he loves me? That's so Stupid! Stop being stupid Rebeccah Reynolds. Stop thinking that he's miraculously going to leave one of your best friends for something in the past. Something so long ago that it is better left forgotten. Left in the deepest part of my heart, a forbidden love. Stupid! Why are you being so stupid? Just forget about it. NOW! But he remembered I was afraid of the dark. STOP IT NOW! STOP THINKING ABOUT SIRIUS BLACK!
I entered my dormitory, wiped away my tears, put away my book then sat on my bed. I thought everyone was asleep, but I was wrong.
"Bec, I thought you'd be up a little longer" asked a tired and yawning Em.
"Oh, hey Em" I replied "Nah I got a bit tired. Why are you up?"
"I can't sleep" she explained "Because. . ."
"I know" I cut in "You told him you loved him"
"Yeah" she said slowly "How do you. . ."
"I have my sources" I replied softly.
"I can't believe you still know what I'm going to say before I even say it" she told me "It's like we're still best friends. I mean like we were. Um. You know the way we use to be"
"I know what you mean. We still are best friends, but not as. . ." I stopped; I didn't know what to say "So do you really love him?"
"Yes" she replied with confidence. I knew she meant it. "And I thought he loved me . . . . . but I don't think he does. I could see it in his eyes. He didn't even tell me he loved me back. He just hugged me, and then left me. Can we change the subject please?"
"Ok, so" I said. I was out of topics to talk about. Em started laughing.
"Remember that time in 2nd year when Sirius, James, Lily, and you got in trouble" she breathed as she stifled her laughter "Well, anyway. That time in Herbology when. . ." she couldn't continue, she was laughing hysterically. I just laughed at her.
"Shut up guys we're trying to sleep" moaned Bella from her bed.
"James" mumbled Lily absentmindedly, as she turned around in her sleep.
Even Bella joined in the laughter this time.
"I'm going back to bed" yelled Bella "G'night"
"Night" we replied.
"Remember those Mandrake things that wouldn't stop crying. Oh how I hated them" complained Em as she sat on the end of my bed "Remember the replanting"
"Yep" I replied "Why did they have to dirty the entire greenhouse and get Lily and I in trouble aswell? Stupid James and Sirius!"
"I agree. BOYS" commented Em "If only they could have controlled themselves more you wouldn't have gotten into trouble"
"Why did they start throwing the Mandrakes and dirt around? I've forgotten" I asked "Oh yeah, I remember. The little plant bit Sirius finger, then Sirius threw it to the rack of pots filled with dirt. The dirt spilt on Me, You and Lily. James started to laugh, but we couldn't hear it because of the ear muffs. After that the rest is a blurr"
"Sirius and James started levitating all the pots and Mandrakes and dropping them on the Slytherins heads. Somehow one ended on top of Lily's head and she was even dirtier" Em paused and grinned at me "Then you were covered in dirt, then I was covered in dirt. Instead of using your wands you and Lily used our hands to retaliate. You guys picked up the pots and threw it at them. While you and Lily threw, I hid underneath the table."
"Yeah" I replied softly "It was funny when Professor Asparagus was yelling at us"
"I remember it as if it were yesterday" she changed her voice to a very high pitched voice, Professor Asparagus' voice '"Stop right now Black. Stop, Stop, Stop! How dare you? This is not just a green house, it is a classroom! You 4 here, NOW!' You looked petrified. It was your first time in trouble. Oh yeah, how did you make Sirius stop throwing the pots? Not even Asparagus could make him stop"
"I don't know, he just listened to me" I replied as I fake yawned "I'm tired let's go to bed"
"No, no, no! You don't get away from me that easily Rebeccah Reynolds. Come on this is fun. It was your first time in trouble" exclaimed Em "OH yeah, and we all could tell you and Lily were horrified at the fact that you GOT INTO TROUBLE so you just stayed silent. Sirius and James on the other hand, were use to getting into trouble and tried to protect the both of you"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah! I remember. They stepped in front of us" I started, but Em cut in "To try and protect you guys from Asparagus' spit", I continued once we stopped laughing "They said it was all their fault and told Asparagus that they put the Imperius Curse on us, to make us do what they wanted us to do. James always said stupid things in front of Lil."
We laughed quietly to avoid waking our roommates up, but it felt really nice laughing and talking like this, like we use to.
"I really am tired Em" I told her "I really liked doing this, we should do it again some other time"
"Yeah, it was like the old days" she replied "Congrats with you and Remus, I know you haven't told any of us yet, but I can see how much he cares about you. Not like some other boy who I told I loved him" she added a bit annoyed.
"He does care 'bout you" I assured her.
"But not how I care about him" she mumbled "Anyway, night Bec"
"Night"
5 o'clock the next morning Lily's POV
Oh James, that was a great dream. What woke me up? Oh yeah the tapping on the window. But I don't want to get up.
"Lillllllllllllllllllllly" yelled someone from the window. I bounced out of bed and ran to the window. I knew that voice. It's James Potter, my boyfriend.
"Morning Ms. Evan's you look lovely today" he said as I opened the window. James Potter was on his broomstick hovering near my window "I would have taken the stairs, but they turned into a slide" I began to giggle.
"Morning to you Mr. Potter" I greeted "But may I ask why you are outside of my window when it is still dark, and why you were going to take the stairs"
"First of all it is 5 o'clock and the sun will rise soon" he paused and kissed my hand "and secondly I would like to take my girlfriend on a date. Is that alright with you Ms. Evans?"
"That sounds lovely Mr. Potter" I replied as I got onto the window sill. I think I've gone crazy, I'm afraid of heights. REMEMBER.
"Take my hand Mrs. Potter, um sorry Ms. Evan's and go onto my broom" said James. I was blushing and giggling. He just called me Mrs. Potter, that's thinking a little too far ahead.
I took his hand and amazingly in 5 seconds I was sitting in front of him on the broomstick. His arms felt so warm against me. He's absolutely amazing.
"I believe we have a sunrise reservation at the top of that hill there" he told me as he pointed to the hill near the lake "This is our first date Ms. Evans and I want it to be special"
"It already is" I told him, turning my head around a little and giving him a soft kiss on the lips. He wouldn't stop smiling, either could I. It's perfect. This moment right now. Perfect.
"We've arrived" he said nonchalantly. Once on the ground he steadied the broom and got off. He took my hand once again and got me off the broom.
"It's beautiful" I assured him, he looked so nervous. He set up a double seater couch and there was a blanket. For some reason I preferred the couch to the Winter Wonderland compartment and the Secret Tower. It was special. (Don't get any ideas; I'm just trying to tell you that Lily is a simple girl. Not a horny one! LOL)
"Are you serious?" he asked nervously.
"I am neither star nor human, but I am serious. It really is beautiful" I reassured him "I love it" I took his hand and we intertwined our fingers. We walked through the soft grass bare footed, cause I forgot to put on shoes, and we sat down on the couch. He put the blanket around us and we just sat there. Waiting for the sun to come up.
"Thanks" I said as I rested my head to his chest "You know tonnes of girls will try and assassinate me. I am James Potters girlfriend"
"Well, I guess I'll have to protect you" he replied, he rested his head on my head. It felt so right, I am certain I could spend the rest of my life with him. I know he will protect me, protect me from the other girls, and things beyond the walls of Hogwarts. "Look Lily, the sun is rising"
It seemed like it took days for the sun to come up. Wonderful Days! It was beautiful, every second spent with James felt so right. I had two beautiful things making me happy. The sun and James Potter. I don't think words can describe how beautiful the world looks right now. The world is always beautiful whenever James is around. Last night the night seemed wonderful, and now the day seems absolutely perfect. Can life get any better than this?
"Lily, you're beautiful" he told me "And like I said last night, I love your eyes" he smiled, but he blushed. I could have sworn that he told me he loved me last night, but I could have been hallucinating.
"I love your eyes too" I replied. I think I mean something else though. But it's too early, not yet. I'm too young. But I'm certain that he will protect me.
S/O/A – Long Chapter. Wow took pretty long aswell. Well anyway I hope you liked it, I thought you guys needed a little backround on Em, Sirius and Bec.
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