ME: This is to that one reviewer who asked my so nicely to continue it.
CS: Since it was such a nice request…
ME: So onwards we go!!
Itsumademo dare your mo
(Kai's POV)
I couldn't do it.
It was hard enough, seeing your object of affections right in front of you and not do anything.
But he figured it out on his own. I should give credit for that. I never realized how transparent I was.
But that doesn't matter. None of that matters anymore.
I left him.
I remember Ray talking to Tyson one day. He said, 'He isn't worth it.'
Tyson never gave way, 'I won't give up.'
Before I didn't know whom they were talking about. But when Tyson approached me later on, I knew.
I knew.
I used to think my grandfather's punishments were harsh. But when I turned him down, I realized how much more powerful pain could be.
I turned him down the only person I loved. The only one I will ever love.
I could hear Voltaire's voice in my head, 'Never show the people you're different. They will hate you and throw you away. Even the ones who are closest to you will shy away'
I hated that lesson. But, don't we all hate truth?
But it was harder than it looked. I remember seeing Tyson cry in the night. The silence was unbearable. He never cursed me nor did he hate me. He just lay there, hollow and empty. I watched him every night. I feared for him.
But I feared for him more should he be shunned along with me.
He had friends. He had a life. He had family. I wasn't there in the equation.
But he included me all the same.
Night after night, he lay there. And I prayed that his love for me would fade, so that he might be happy.
Even though I wouldn't be.
Yet, he didn't give up. He found out why I rejected him and he offered me love.
Love conquers all, he said. That as long as we had each other, we can get through.
Tyson was a dreamer. I was a realist.
But Tyson's dreams usually came true.
Would that be the same for me?
I left. I couldn't face the consequences of my answer. And I refuse to drag Tyson's happiness away so that I could have mine.
I did that before. I won't make the same mistake again.
Mistake?
Is that how I saw it? A mistake?
I bent low, burying my head in my knees. The stars twinkle above.
I always got the feeling that they watch over me. Like the way I used to watch over Tyson.
Don't get me wrong Tyson. One day….
One Day….
Itsumademo dare your mo. [1]
I've always wanted to be closer.
I've always wanted to be something more.
And I will be.
One Day…
ME: Nice and angsty.
CS: And quick.
ME: Yeah, well….
CS: See you guys later!
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[1] Itsumademo dare your mo: I always want to be closer