Authors Note – Hey I'm back! Did you miss me? Well anyway this chapter is just a sort of thoughts chapter. See what's going on in the minds of the boys. (Well James and Sirius.) That must be scary! Do enjoy!

Disclaimer – yeah yeah yeah I know I don't own Harry Potter.

Minds Running Wild

Sirius POV

Never in my life have I just wanted to sleep as much as I do right now. Today has been full of, well, a lot of shit. Andy's gone! I miss her so much, but I have other things (people) on my mind also. Like….Bec!

FLASHBACK

I took a step closer to her "Bec" I paused and tilted up her chin "Andy always told me that you should always follow your heart"

"What does your heart tell you?" she asked staring into my eyes.

"That I'm with the person I should be with, you" I replied, not breaking our eye contact. I saw a tear roll down her cheek, then two, then three. She's crying.

I wipe away her tears with the tip of my finger; she raises her hand and places it on my cheek. I lower my face, close my eyes, and lean towards her. Our lips touch and we share a moment of happiness. A moment of happiness which was broken just as quickly as it happened.

She stepped back and stared at me. Her tears were replaced by disgust and shame. "Sirius" she blurted out "I…We…Not right…Em, Remus…How…Wha-"

"Sorry" I said quickly, I didn't know what else to say "Let's just go back alright"

We walked silently, but briskly to Gryffindor Tower. Nothing remotely interesting happened until we reached the portrait of the Fatlady.

"Password" asked the sleepy looking Fatlady.

Bec looked at me, I looked back at her, the password hadn't changed. It was still 'Sirius and Emmeline, forever'. Oh, how could this night get any more better?

"Sirius and Emmeline, forever!" said Bec quietly, she looked down at the ground as she said it. We didn't look at each other; we just walked into the common room.

END FLASHBACK

We need to talk, and we both know it. But first thing I have to do tomorrow morning is break up with Em and change the password. I don't want to be a total jerk, but the feelings aren't there for Em and I. She loves me though. DAMN this makes things even harder. But I have to follow my heart, and my heart is telling me Bec.

Oh no! I just remembered something. I have to speak to Regulus. Andy wasn't just my cousin, she was his too. Tomorrow is going to be an action packed day!

James POV

I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love with Lily Evans! WOW this is like WOW. My head is a circus. It's just so awake and lively. I just want to jump up and down on my bed yelling my thoughts. But I think everyone just wants to rest so I'll let them be. But I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love with Lily Evans!

But how do I tell her? I was so close to telling her down in the common room, and up in the tower, but why every time I get the chance something holds me back? If she only knew how much I care about her, if she only knew how I feel when I hold her, when we kiss, when I'm with her.

She's my life, my first and only love, she's my beautiful Levans.

And now I drift off to dreamland, thinking of one person. The girl of my dreams…..Lily Evans…..one day she'll be …..Lily Evans Potter! Oh I've got a brilliant mind, don't I.

Remus POV

I don't think I could ever be happy! Sure I'll always have my friends. James, Sirius, Peter, Bec, Lily, Em and Bella. But there's something missing in my life. And I know it. But what I'm missing is a mystery to me.

Today was really hectic. Sirius went missing, Mr. Filch confiscated the Marauders Map, and I think I have realised something. I think I should stop this thing between Bec and I. I don't even think we're dating, but I know she feels an obligation to me. An obligation which she shouldn't have.

I'm a werewolf, she's not.

It's not fair on her. What if we continued this thing between us? Will this thing evolve into something more? Will we start dating, and then continue our relationship after Hogwarts? Will we one day get married? Will we have children? I know I'm thinking too far ahead, but I can't stop thinking about what ifs.

Will she have wasted her love and life for me, a werewolf? It's not fair on her. I don't want to be the one she stays with. I don't want to be together out of pity or obligation. I honestly believe that we're not meant to be or that we shouldn't be together. And I honestly believe that I am cursed to never fall in love. I don't mean it in a feel sorry for me kind of way, I mean it in a matter-of-fact kind of way. This is the way it will be forever. But I've still got my friends, don't I?

Life isn't always fair, it doesn't always go to plan, but I hope life doesn't come to an end for any of my friends and me.

That part of me that is missing will forever remain a mystery. I feel it in my heart and soul. Life would be very different if I wasn't a werewolf, but I am a werewolf, so I guess life isn't different and I will never have the missing part of me, which I'm sure I would have had if I wasn't bitten. Oh well. Life goes one and so will I!

So sorry it took so long to get this chappie up. I know it was an uneventful chapter, but I promise promise promise that the next chapter is going to be very very very eventful. Regulus makes his first appearance and things between Bec and Remus get cleared up, but things between Sirius and Em……………well let's just say it NASTY! Oh well till next time.

            *MWaH*