Gettin' Past The Rain Chapter 9: Assassin Within, a g-gundam fanfic

G Gundam – Getting Past The Rain

Chapter Nine: Assassin Within

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"Women. Always pushing men to do stuff. I'll show you where you can stick your lunch . . . . wait a second . . . WHAT DID YOU SAY?!?!"

"I said, we'll be goin' to lunch with Domon and Rain, of course. Why? Is there a problem?" Allenby looked at me suspiciously. "Because if there is, then I'll just go with Chibodee or someone else."

I smiled. Something about her just reminded me of Rain when we were kids. It was something that I thought only existed in Rain. "Fine," I caved. "I'll go with you. But I don't enjoy doin' it . . ."

She returned my smile with a devilish smirk of her own. "Oh, I know you wont. But if you as much as throw a punch at Domon, I'll make sure you regret doing so." I flinched, knowing full well that she could back up her threats. The grin on her face practically screamed "EVIL!!"

I turned my attention to Jess. "You okay with me goin'? I know that you're madly in love with me and wish you could have me to hug, snuggle, kiss, and fu—" That earned me a punch to the head by both Allenby and Jess. "God, you're such a narcissistic bastard," Jess said as she turned her back towards me, probably trying to hide a blush. "I'd NEVER think of you like that, you pervert. Now go to lunch with your little friends already before I make you pay for what you said."

"Fine," I replied, throwing my hands up in exasperation. I was about to rip off the hospital gown I had on but remembered I had to pay for ruining the last one. "Ummm . . . a little privacy?" I asked, eyeing the two woman who were ogling at me.

"Oh, right."

"Yeah, I was gonna go and . . . uhh . . . find Mac. Yeah."

"Okay," I . . . then go already."

When I was finally alone by myself, I went to the bathroom to freshen up. Not that I really care, but the stubs of hair on my chin was getting to be a big bother so I decided to shave it off. It was also a good reason because Allenby would probably laugh when she sees it. Anyway, I was in the bathroom when I noticed the radio was on. But since I haven't kept up with the times, I didn't really know what R&B stood for. The DJ said something about a group named B2K or 2BK or something. At first I thought it was one of those new age fusion bands and decided to turn it off.

But: For some reason, the beat of the song made me stop in my tracks. Slowly, I retracted my hand and turned up the radio.

From day one you and I've been friends.
Hangin out, havin fun, chillin.
Now I know at times I got crazy, silly ways and actin shady.
You peep things in me that no one sees.
You hold it down fo shizzy.
Now I have friends I thought were true but no one more true than you.
So what am I gonna do.
It took a while for me to see how special you treated me.

"Hmmm . . . not bad," I said to myself as I brought the razor across my face.

Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
No one else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

"Why does this song sound so familiar? Is it something I saw on T.V. or something?" I thought about it for a moment before shrugging it off and continuing to fix myself up.

No other girl is quite like you.
And no one has my back like you do.
Girl you're one of a kind and you blow my mind.
And I'm glad to say you're mine.
Girl you're the one that changed me from a boy into a man.

I put down my razor and ran my fingers through my hair. There was just something about the song that seem to have struck a chord.

Then it clicked. "Rain," I whispered. Subconsciously, I felt as if I've been stabbed in the heart. But . . . why?? Although I loathe Domon Kasshu for doing what he did, still I could not stop thinking about Rain.

It took a while for me to see how special you treated me.
Maybe thats the reason why I love you.
You're my heart girl.
And wit all the crazy things that I do, you're still here girl.
No one else can make me feel like you do.
You've shared my world.
Baby thats the reason why I love you.

Love . . . That is a word that I've become familiar with. I still feel this emotion, but the recipient does not feel the same for me. So what am I to do when the girl I love the most doesn't love me back? Killing Domon Kasshu will not resolve the situation. Rather, it would probably drive Rain even farther away. Looking at the reflection of the mirror, I spot my trusty sword.

It is finally time. People say that life is the most precious thing in the entire world, but what is worth living for when no one loves you? As I held the sword, the point facing my throat, I thought of the good times I've had in my life. The day I moved to Ne0-Japan, and on the same day I met Rain, the day I finally confessed my love for her and she revealing that she felt the same . . . I smiled, knowing full well that I could never bear seeing these memories ever again.

I Love You, maybe thats the reason why I love you.

What hurt even more than all the freak accidents in my Gundam was the fact that Rain forgot about me. For all I knew, she probably moved on after attending college. She might've even had . . . a boyfriend. No. I shook my head to rid my mind of such foolishness. I was just delaying the inevitable. I extended my arm, both of my hands on the hilt of my sword. One blow to the chest was sufficient to end my life. But as I brought my sword in, Allenby's face popped up in my mind.

"Don't do it. You have so much to live for," whispered her voice.

I stopped dead in my tracks. I threw my sword on the ground, as if I would never pick it up again. And I never did, except for using it to smash the portable radio into dust. Whether having Allenby telling me not to kill myself was a sign or not, I knew that suicide was not the answer. I had enough potential to survive, even if I had to live my life without Rain.

Thanking Kame for His intervention, I started washing my razor. Picking up a nearby towel, I wiped my face, ridding it of the stubs of hair that might've remained. Right on the spot, I decided that, instead of running away, I would go to lunch with Allenby and bear the pain of seeing Rain with someone else to repent for my foolish actions.

But: What would happen if I snap? Would either Rain or Allenby ever like being around me?

"Again with the small details, eh?" asked my inner voice.

"Shut up," I said aloud, unaware that Allenby was standing my the doorframe.

"Talkin' to yourself again, I see. C'mon, let's go."

She grabbed me by the arm with a death grip. We walked out to the hospital garage, where Allenby had her cruiser parked. She drove out of the garage doing fifty-five on an automatic clutch. I was startled at first but looked out the window to assuage my fear of her driving. There I found the remnants of Assassin Gundam. Being a Gundam fighter, I had grown to master the art of sensing auras. And I felt Assassin Gundam nearby. It sort of felt like the spirit that engulfed me back at the hospital bathroom.

But I didn't worry that much about it. Besides, having to go to lunch with Allenby would be hell unto itself. I shuddered as I remembered the last time I took her out to dinner. Monster hangover, washing dishes, and a trashed restaurant. I prayed that it wouldn't happen again today . . .

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A/N: There. Sorry for the delay but I just couldn't seem to think of any brilliant antics that I can bring to this story. If you have any suggestions or advice, any at all, don't hesitate to include it in your review. It would be very helpful; most times, authors like me can create a crazy plot using someone else's advice.

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