Several weeks have passed now since I met Estel, and over the course of these weeks together we have found much in common and a spark has been lit, reinforcing my belief that our lives would be forever entertwined. for I believe that he is in love with me and the feeling was mutual.
There is much about him that would make any maiden swoon with a passion. He is kind, has a wonderful sense of humor. Never have I laughed so freely since my mother passed over the sea as I have in his company. His eyes mesmerize me, I see in them all of the qualities that will make him a great and noble man in the future. I have no doubt in my mind that this man will make a wise ruler.
What am I to do? My heart aches with affection, with love for this young man. I do not wish to be parted from him, yet I know that the days of the Eldar are fading and we will sail to Valinor. I am torn, I have no desire to be parted from my father, yet already I can not fathom being parted from Estel.
I leave to return to Lorien today. My heart is heavy, I do not know if I shall ever laugh again. Yesterday Estel came to me to bid me farewell. He had spoken with his mother and my father and they told him that I was beyond his reach.
He came to find me to say farewell and to tell me what had transpired. My eyes teared up as Estel gently pulled me in his arms and kissed my lips, so tenderly it made my heart rejoice, but at the same time it saddened me for I feared I may never see him again. My tears were of no use, he was going to roam the wilds. I tearfully watched him walk away, my heart felt as if it had been rent asunder.
How could my father do this to me? I vowed then I would return to Lorien and so today I leave. I don't know if I will return to my home here in Imladris.