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Worlds Apart
Chapter 12
Do I Love Him?
I sat beside Branwen's bed as I read her a bed time story.
"Where is Ada, Mommy?" she asked.
I looked at her and opened my mouth to answer her but I realised I didn't know either.
"I... I don't know, my child." I stammered.
Haldir had not returned home for the past few nights. Normally, I wouldn't worry for him. He could take care of himself pretty well but lately, I wasn't sure he was in his right mind after I totally rejected him.
Did I love him?
In the corner of my heart, I always wondered if I would but I always shook the thought away because I asumed it was impossible.
But when he told me he loved me, I knew the time had come to face the truth.
There wasn't a doubt that I cared about him, but was it love?
I loved spending time with him and I loved his dry humor and sometimes, I forget about Legolas and my world and I think Haldir is my real husband.
But when I look at Branwen, I see the same blue eyes staring at me.
The same blue eyes that would love me no matter what.
I continued to read the book to Branwen and by the time I came to the last page, she had fallen asleep.
"And they lived happily..." I didn't continue anymore. Noone lives happily ever after.
They end up dying or leaving somehow.
In my world anyway.
"Ever after." I whispered to myself as I let a tear drop onto the page.
"Why do you hesitate, Kylie? "
Is this a dream? I can hear Legolas' voice in my head now.
But it sounds so real and he seems so close.
I didn't turn around.
I wanted it to be a dream.
"Kylie. Won't you look at me?"
"Who are you?" I asked, closing the book slowly.
The person didn't answer. But I could feel his presence moving nearer to me.
Then I could feel his lips caress my neck and it went up to my cheek.
My head turned slowly in anticipation of his movements and he slowly kissed my lips.
"Legolas. Please don't." I said, I did not open my eyes to look at him.
"Why don't you look at me?" he asked again.
"Because I'm afraid i would see you." I answered.
"Why?"
I felt his smooth palms gently cup my face as I opened my eyes.
"I... don't know."
He was standing in front of me. This was the boy who stole my heart for the first timein my life.
He didn't look like that boy anymore.
"You've grown up, Legolas." I said as I touched his hair which was no longer the short boyish one, instead, it was long and was braided on the sides.
And with his elvish get-up, he looked like a real grown-up, not like I've seen him when we were back him my world when the only kind of clothes I ever saw him wear were jeans and T-shirts.
And he looked alot thinner.
He grabbed my hand and kissed it.
"No, I've only aged. But you've become more matured."
"Legolas... how did you find me?" I asked him, not exactly sure what to say.
"Haldir, he took me here. He's waiting downstairs actually." He said.
"Haldir? He brought you to me?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"Yeah. He seemed rather down lately. " Legolas said, he accent suddenly changing and he started to slang.
Haldir loved my that much that he would risk bringing Legolas to me, knowing that I could very well still be in love with him.
Or did he already know if I had forsaken Legolas' love?
Did he know before I did?
"What's the matter? Aren't you glad to see me?"Legolas asked when he caught sight of my frown.
I shook my head.
"Of course, I am. I don't want to wake Branwen up." I whispered.
"Oh, right." He said.
I brought him out into the kitchen cum living room. Haldir still doesn't get the fact that alot of houses back in our world have such a thing. He says its unheard of.
"How is Branwen?" He asked.
"She's doing good. Sometimes she scares me because she's growing up so fast." I told him.
He smiled. "I would like to talk to her tomorrow, when she's awake."
I returned the smile. "I'm sure she would like that. She likes talking. Far too much sometimes."
He chuckled softly.
The familiar smile crept up on his handsome face. I missed him.
But I could feel my love for him slowly change into something that was different. It was more like on friendly terms.
I knew I had to tell him.
But he started first which made it alot harder for me.
"I have been thinking about you alot, Kylie. Everywhere I went, you were always on my mind. I couldn't forget about you. I love you. I want to hear you say that to me again."
I turned around slowly. I didn't want to see his face when I said this.
"i fell in love with Alexander, the boy. You've grown up now... "
Legolas grabbed onto my shoulder and pulled around me to look at him.
"No... I've grown up now. I'm not that little girl anymore." I said.
His eyes were shaking and I could feel my heart stop beating.
"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" he muttered under his breath.
I nodded and I could feel my eyes starting to moist.
"We were young... or at least I was. I was just fooling around. You know how I am." I said, forcing a laugh.
Legolas shook his head.
"No, Kylie. You know that's not true." He said disbelievingly.
"It is. And you know what... just to show you..."
I reached into my dresser and took out a very old piece of paper.
"You see this?"
It was the poem which he had given to me before we left.
I tore it into half.
And then into quarters.
And I through it in the air, together with my heart and soul.
Legolas was so shocked. He opened his mouth to say something but just didn't.
I love you.
I love you.
Oh God, how i love you, Legolas.
If only I hadn't met Haldir.
If only we didn't come to Middle-earth.
If only...
Gambit: Yeah yeah... waddaya know! I changed my nick. Wasn't feeling so crazy today so this one came out alittle more saner. Umm... I haven't got any comments on this chapter.
Thank you for all the reviews!
Worlds Apart
Chapter 12
Do I Love Him?
I sat beside Branwen's bed as I read her a bed time story.
"Where is Ada, Mommy?" she asked.
I looked at her and opened my mouth to answer her but I realised I didn't know either.
"I... I don't know, my child." I stammered.
Haldir had not returned home for the past few nights. Normally, I wouldn't worry for him. He could take care of himself pretty well but lately, I wasn't sure he was in his right mind after I totally rejected him.
Did I love him?
In the corner of my heart, I always wondered if I would but I always shook the thought away because I asumed it was impossible.
But when he told me he loved me, I knew the time had come to face the truth.
There wasn't a doubt that I cared about him, but was it love?
I loved spending time with him and I loved his dry humor and sometimes, I forget about Legolas and my world and I think Haldir is my real husband.
But when I look at Branwen, I see the same blue eyes staring at me.
The same blue eyes that would love me no matter what.
I continued to read the book to Branwen and by the time I came to the last page, she had fallen asleep.
"And they lived happily..." I didn't continue anymore. Noone lives happily ever after.
They end up dying or leaving somehow.
In my world anyway.
"Ever after." I whispered to myself as I let a tear drop onto the page.
"Why do you hesitate, Kylie? "
Is this a dream? I can hear Legolas' voice in my head now.
But it sounds so real and he seems so close.
I didn't turn around.
I wanted it to be a dream.
"Kylie. Won't you look at me?"
"Who are you?" I asked, closing the book slowly.
The person didn't answer. But I could feel his presence moving nearer to me.
Then I could feel his lips caress my neck and it went up to my cheek.
My head turned slowly in anticipation of his movements and he slowly kissed my lips.
"Legolas. Please don't." I said, I did not open my eyes to look at him.
"Why don't you look at me?" he asked again.
"Because I'm afraid i would see you." I answered.
"Why?"
I felt his smooth palms gently cup my face as I opened my eyes.
"I... don't know."
He was standing in front of me. This was the boy who stole my heart for the first timein my life.
He didn't look like that boy anymore.
"You've grown up, Legolas." I said as I touched his hair which was no longer the short boyish one, instead, it was long and was braided on the sides.
And with his elvish get-up, he looked like a real grown-up, not like I've seen him when we were back him my world when the only kind of clothes I ever saw him wear were jeans and T-shirts.
And he looked alot thinner.
He grabbed my hand and kissed it.
"No, I've only aged. But you've become more matured."
"Legolas... how did you find me?" I asked him, not exactly sure what to say.
"Haldir, he took me here. He's waiting downstairs actually." He said.
"Haldir? He brought you to me?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"Yeah. He seemed rather down lately. " Legolas said, he accent suddenly changing and he started to slang.
Haldir loved my that much that he would risk bringing Legolas to me, knowing that I could very well still be in love with him.
Or did he already know if I had forsaken Legolas' love?
Did he know before I did?
"What's the matter? Aren't you glad to see me?"Legolas asked when he caught sight of my frown.
I shook my head.
"Of course, I am. I don't want to wake Branwen up." I whispered.
"Oh, right." He said.
I brought him out into the kitchen cum living room. Haldir still doesn't get the fact that alot of houses back in our world have such a thing. He says its unheard of.
"How is Branwen?" He asked.
"She's doing good. Sometimes she scares me because she's growing up so fast." I told him.
He smiled. "I would like to talk to her tomorrow, when she's awake."
I returned the smile. "I'm sure she would like that. She likes talking. Far too much sometimes."
He chuckled softly.
The familiar smile crept up on his handsome face. I missed him.
But I could feel my love for him slowly change into something that was different. It was more like on friendly terms.
I knew I had to tell him.
But he started first which made it alot harder for me.
"I have been thinking about you alot, Kylie. Everywhere I went, you were always on my mind. I couldn't forget about you. I love you. I want to hear you say that to me again."
I turned around slowly. I didn't want to see his face when I said this.
"i fell in love with Alexander, the boy. You've grown up now... "
Legolas grabbed onto my shoulder and pulled around me to look at him.
"No... I've grown up now. I'm not that little girl anymore." I said.
His eyes were shaking and I could feel my heart stop beating.
"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" he muttered under his breath.
I nodded and I could feel my eyes starting to moist.
"We were young... or at least I was. I was just fooling around. You know how I am." I said, forcing a laugh.
Legolas shook his head.
"No, Kylie. You know that's not true." He said disbelievingly.
"It is. And you know what... just to show you..."
I reached into my dresser and took out a very old piece of paper.
"You see this?"
It was the poem which he had given to me before we left.
I tore it into half.
And then into quarters.
And I through it in the air, together with my heart and soul.
Legolas was so shocked. He opened his mouth to say something but just didn't.
I love you.
I love you.
Oh God, how i love you, Legolas.
If only I hadn't met Haldir.
If only we didn't come to Middle-earth.
If only...
Gambit: Yeah yeah... waddaya know! I changed my nick. Wasn't feeling so crazy today so this one came out alittle more saner. Umm... I haven't got any comments on this chapter.
Thank you for all the reviews!