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Worlds Apart
Chapter 18
For Haldir
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Kylie's POV
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Sometimes I like to wonder, what if life was not the way it was now? Perhaps if I hadn't met Legolas, none of this would have happened. And I would not be seeking help from Lady Galadriel right this moment. It seems as if I was trying to change my life again. Bring it back to the beginning, if that was possible. Or maybe, just back to where my life did not cease to mean anything. And Branwen, would not exist.
But the thing was, I did want Branwen to exist. I wanted her to be in every part of my life. But I also wanted Legolas to be there to see her grow, just as much as I wanted Haldir there. But I also had different reasons for wanting them both around. Legolas was my one true love, no matter who I ended up with in the end, it will always be he and me. What we had was beyond friendship, beyond lovers. We were forever. Haldir was the part of me that was still sane. He kept me alive all these times I had wanted to just plunge a knife through my body. Whenever I saw him, he only had love to give. To me and our daughter and he gave me a purpose for my existence. I never got the chance to thank him.
The Lady of the woods handed me a box, in it were two pieces of jewellery. One was a necklace and the other was a bracelet.
"This bracelet is for you, for when you forget that love exists." She said as she gently took my hand and placed it around my wrist. It had no special rocks and was just a plain silver, with elven words carved all around its exterior. I could read little of it, not enough to decipher an actual sentence anyway.
She then held out the necklace and said, "This is for Branwen. It was given to me before I had come to Lothlorien to be a princess. But Branwen is a princess, for she is rightly the daughter of prince Legolas. She is worthy of such a gift. Tell the child... she will be missed much. It is not often we have children here in Lothlorien, her laughter... reminds me of how so many years have past. " Galadriel said sadly when she was reminded of her own people but she continued.
"But your decision to leave, it has to be done. You will need to go back to your world, for the passing of the elven race has already begun. Legolas will know of your departure when he has returned, whether his chooses to pursue you to your world, depends on his love for you. Although..." I could only stare at my feet when she said that. Will you come for me Legolas? Will you come and find me? Is your love for me beyond the boundaries of this world?
"I hardly doubt he will not. He loves you, Kylie. Far more than you can ever imagine."she said to me with an assuring smile.
"Lets hope he... lives through the war... and Haldir... I am thankful, I got to see him one last time before I..." I could not bear to finish the sentence. My voice started to break, just like my heart. I could not leave Lothlorien behind. But something told me, there was nothing I could stay here for. Everything, my real life, was back on earth. Everything that ever happened in Middle-earth was a dream. One which will leave my heart scarrred forever. I took another look at the necklace which was for Branwen and thought that maybe this dream gave me the love I longed for, that could last me the rest of my life.
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Legolas' POV
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I know there had to be the sound of swords clashing. Why wouldn't there be? This is a war afterall, not the kind of war you see on television when you have airplanes and whatever, a real war, where the king comes out to fight by the side of his people. But I couldn't hear anything except my heart thumping at an exponantial rate. Don't let me die... I would give anything to see Kylie again, just once. I wanted to live a normal life, it didn't matter if I ended up going back to earth or if I has to stay here. I didn't care, I needed her. And maybe Branwen will be able to live as a normal child and Haldir...
Where was Haldir? My eyes searched frantically around for him and to my horror, I saw an arrow plunge into his back.Time seemed to stop for me and I couldn't move. I wanted to but my legs were locked down at the knees. Another orc came charging at him and swung an axe down his spine. I could see the pain flash across his face. His mouth opened like he wanted to scream but it was just so immense that his voice refused to function. His pain did not just have effect on himself, I received it always. And the impact was quite possibly immeasurable. My whole body felt like it was on fire and I ran to his side and held him as he fell to the ground. He would not survive this.
I reached for the arrow that stuck out of his body, I had to get it out. Haldir had to live, he just had to. If only I had been there to save him. If only I had... it was a mistake... I was supposed to fight with him to the end of the war. Oh please, don't take him away from me! My fingers grasped numbly around the arrow and I gave a light tug, only to receive a loud cry from Haldir. He was gasping for air and he was crying. His tears kept flowing down his face. He pulled my hand away from the arrow and shook his head.
With my other hand, I supported his body and a wet, sticky substance ran down my fingers. Blood. This was the blood of an immortal. You're not supposed to die! The blood of an immortal runs through your damn veins! Damn it! Damn that blood! Why couldn't it help you? Why couldn't...it just fucking help you! So many memories of him flashed across my mind and as I thought about them, I felt as if my heart would just pop out of my mouth.
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"Hey, last one to Nimrodel has to kiss an orc!!" a younger Haldir screamed excitedly as he charged in front of the other elflings as they raced towards the river. A younger Legolas caught up with him and grabbed his wrist and he flung him into the water before they could stop at the edge. Haldir managed to catch the younger elf's wrist and pull him along with him.
"See what a good friend I am! I pulled you in before Arwen and the twins beat you to it! Now Arwen has to kiss an orc!" Legolas laughed as he sprinkled water at his friend.
"I'd rather die!" Arwen exclaimed at the thought of having to kiss an orc.
"Then you'll have to..."Haldir started and Legolas continued by tackling her down and tickling her. "DIE!!"
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"I am telling you, Haldir, she's wonderful! You must meet her." legolas told his friend as he dragged him to the annual high ball.
"Really Legolas, I thank you for taking the time out of your busy...body schedule to try and fix me up with you cousin and I am very sure she is a lovely person. But honestly, I am not interested in being bound as of yet..."
Legolas refused to listen and he brought his hand to the girl's. "Now dance!"
And that was how Haldir had met his first love.
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"What is wrong? Why are you crying?" Haldir asked. Hardly did he ever see the prince of Mirkwood cry, whatever the problem was, it must have been serious.
"Mother is leaving... for the undying lands." Legolas had not expected to see Haldir, he quickly brushed away his tears and tried to seem as if it was not a big deal. But Haldir had known of the emptiness he was feeling, for his sister has left for Valinor not too long ago. She was so close to him, his confidant.
There was a silence between the two friends for a while and the Haldir spoke.
"I don't know what to say to you, Legolas. Because what I say might bring you more hurt. But here's what I'm going to do... I am going to give you a hug and when you feel better, you can tell me to let go."
Haldir embraced his friend and Legolas felt like he was no longer alone. He knew that it was hard for Haldir to give him a hug because it was not in his nature to do so but he did anyway and he also knew somebody cared and that was all that mattered.
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"Legolas...don't mourn for me when I am dead...for it is better for me to be dead... jealousy is as good as death for me. I could not live another day...knowing I could not have Kylie..." He cried softly, blood was spilling from his lips. He kept blinking. He was on the verge of drifting away. I kept shaking my head. "Don't say that...don't...Lle naa belegohtar ar' naa curucuar. Mankoi? Mani marte.." [You are a mighty warrior and a skillful bowman. Why? What happened...] I asked him quietly. It was almost a rhetorical question because I was asking myself the same thing. How could he die?
"Uuma dela...[Don't worry] Namárië...[Farewell]...Mellonim...[my friend].."Haldir choked.
"No.. no, no.. Haldir, don't stop talking, don't close your eyes... don't fall asleep!" I heard myself cry. His eyes slowly shut and he mumbled under his breath, "Amin hiraetha. [I'm sorry]."
I grabbed his cloak and brought it to my face as my tears fell. "Why are you sorry? Why should you be sorry?" I whispered angrily. I lay him down gently and kissed his forehead.
"Tenna' ento lye omenta [Until we meet again]." I stood up slowly and took a final glance at him. He lay motionless on the ground and not a single breath escaped his lips. Yet, Valar had made him look at peace during his death. He had a slight smile on his face and his eyes closed like he was resting. The rain pattered lightly on his cheeks and his cloak wrapped around him like a warm blanket. The tiny rocks beneath him seemed to glow slightly, like the stars of the most beautiful night as he slowly slipped away into the silence of death.
As I fought on I could only think of what Haldir was to me. Was he just my friend? He gave up the person he held most dearly to his heart to me. It was as good as suicide for him. I could not have been there to save him, it was not a mistake that he died. I did not regret having him by my side during the war. But he was taken away from me and he died feeling guilty for what wrong he had not done, thinking that our friendship was irreparable because he thought he had done something to hurt me. He had not hurt me but he had made me a stronger person.
Haldir taught me what life and friendship was really about. It wasn't just something you could just say but something you had to experience and see for yourself. He taught me that love had its pains when you don't know what to do but when you break through from the darkness, you will see something beautiful and it can be yours forever.
Haldir, he wasn't just my friend.
He was my brother.
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End of chapter 18
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Plasmolysed cell membrane: Sorry this took so long, was thinking of how I should write Haldir's death..err.. as you can see, the chapter is written in a different style. Due to much practice from writing so many essays during the examination period, better this way? Was his death too drama? Sad? err.. well, just tell me what you think in the reviews..afterall, that's what reviews are for! Anyways, Love y'all and the reviews you've given me. I could just kiss you guys!! Heheh.
Allrighty! Toodles!
Peace out =)
Worlds Apart
Chapter 18
For Haldir
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Kylie's POV
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Sometimes I like to wonder, what if life was not the way it was now? Perhaps if I hadn't met Legolas, none of this would have happened. And I would not be seeking help from Lady Galadriel right this moment. It seems as if I was trying to change my life again. Bring it back to the beginning, if that was possible. Or maybe, just back to where my life did not cease to mean anything. And Branwen, would not exist.
But the thing was, I did want Branwen to exist. I wanted her to be in every part of my life. But I also wanted Legolas to be there to see her grow, just as much as I wanted Haldir there. But I also had different reasons for wanting them both around. Legolas was my one true love, no matter who I ended up with in the end, it will always be he and me. What we had was beyond friendship, beyond lovers. We were forever. Haldir was the part of me that was still sane. He kept me alive all these times I had wanted to just plunge a knife through my body. Whenever I saw him, he only had love to give. To me and our daughter and he gave me a purpose for my existence. I never got the chance to thank him.
The Lady of the woods handed me a box, in it were two pieces of jewellery. One was a necklace and the other was a bracelet.
"This bracelet is for you, for when you forget that love exists." She said as she gently took my hand and placed it around my wrist. It had no special rocks and was just a plain silver, with elven words carved all around its exterior. I could read little of it, not enough to decipher an actual sentence anyway.
She then held out the necklace and said, "This is for Branwen. It was given to me before I had come to Lothlorien to be a princess. But Branwen is a princess, for she is rightly the daughter of prince Legolas. She is worthy of such a gift. Tell the child... she will be missed much. It is not often we have children here in Lothlorien, her laughter... reminds me of how so many years have past. " Galadriel said sadly when she was reminded of her own people but she continued.
"But your decision to leave, it has to be done. You will need to go back to your world, for the passing of the elven race has already begun. Legolas will know of your departure when he has returned, whether his chooses to pursue you to your world, depends on his love for you. Although..." I could only stare at my feet when she said that. Will you come for me Legolas? Will you come and find me? Is your love for me beyond the boundaries of this world?
"I hardly doubt he will not. He loves you, Kylie. Far more than you can ever imagine."she said to me with an assuring smile.
"Lets hope he... lives through the war... and Haldir... I am thankful, I got to see him one last time before I..." I could not bear to finish the sentence. My voice started to break, just like my heart. I could not leave Lothlorien behind. But something told me, there was nothing I could stay here for. Everything, my real life, was back on earth. Everything that ever happened in Middle-earth was a dream. One which will leave my heart scarrred forever. I took another look at the necklace which was for Branwen and thought that maybe this dream gave me the love I longed for, that could last me the rest of my life.
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Legolas' POV
---------------------------------
I know there had to be the sound of swords clashing. Why wouldn't there be? This is a war afterall, not the kind of war you see on television when you have airplanes and whatever, a real war, where the king comes out to fight by the side of his people. But I couldn't hear anything except my heart thumping at an exponantial rate. Don't let me die... I would give anything to see Kylie again, just once. I wanted to live a normal life, it didn't matter if I ended up going back to earth or if I has to stay here. I didn't care, I needed her. And maybe Branwen will be able to live as a normal child and Haldir...
Where was Haldir? My eyes searched frantically around for him and to my horror, I saw an arrow plunge into his back.Time seemed to stop for me and I couldn't move. I wanted to but my legs were locked down at the knees. Another orc came charging at him and swung an axe down his spine. I could see the pain flash across his face. His mouth opened like he wanted to scream but it was just so immense that his voice refused to function. His pain did not just have effect on himself, I received it always. And the impact was quite possibly immeasurable. My whole body felt like it was on fire and I ran to his side and held him as he fell to the ground. He would not survive this.
I reached for the arrow that stuck out of his body, I had to get it out. Haldir had to live, he just had to. If only I had been there to save him. If only I had... it was a mistake... I was supposed to fight with him to the end of the war. Oh please, don't take him away from me! My fingers grasped numbly around the arrow and I gave a light tug, only to receive a loud cry from Haldir. He was gasping for air and he was crying. His tears kept flowing down his face. He pulled my hand away from the arrow and shook his head.
With my other hand, I supported his body and a wet, sticky substance ran down my fingers. Blood. This was the blood of an immortal. You're not supposed to die! The blood of an immortal runs through your damn veins! Damn it! Damn that blood! Why couldn't it help you? Why couldn't...it just fucking help you! So many memories of him flashed across my mind and as I thought about them, I felt as if my heart would just pop out of my mouth.
-------------------------------flashbacks-----------------------------
"Hey, last one to Nimrodel has to kiss an orc!!" a younger Haldir screamed excitedly as he charged in front of the other elflings as they raced towards the river. A younger Legolas caught up with him and grabbed his wrist and he flung him into the water before they could stop at the edge. Haldir managed to catch the younger elf's wrist and pull him along with him.
"See what a good friend I am! I pulled you in before Arwen and the twins beat you to it! Now Arwen has to kiss an orc!" Legolas laughed as he sprinkled water at his friend.
"I'd rather die!" Arwen exclaimed at the thought of having to kiss an orc.
"Then you'll have to..."Haldir started and Legolas continued by tackling her down and tickling her. "DIE!!"
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"I am telling you, Haldir, she's wonderful! You must meet her." legolas told his friend as he dragged him to the annual high ball.
"Really Legolas, I thank you for taking the time out of your busy...body schedule to try and fix me up with you cousin and I am very sure she is a lovely person. But honestly, I am not interested in being bound as of yet..."
Legolas refused to listen and he brought his hand to the girl's. "Now dance!"
And that was how Haldir had met his first love.
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"What is wrong? Why are you crying?" Haldir asked. Hardly did he ever see the prince of Mirkwood cry, whatever the problem was, it must have been serious.
"Mother is leaving... for the undying lands." Legolas had not expected to see Haldir, he quickly brushed away his tears and tried to seem as if it was not a big deal. But Haldir had known of the emptiness he was feeling, for his sister has left for Valinor not too long ago. She was so close to him, his confidant.
There was a silence between the two friends for a while and the Haldir spoke.
"I don't know what to say to you, Legolas. Because what I say might bring you more hurt. But here's what I'm going to do... I am going to give you a hug and when you feel better, you can tell me to let go."
Haldir embraced his friend and Legolas felt like he was no longer alone. He knew that it was hard for Haldir to give him a hug because it was not in his nature to do so but he did anyway and he also knew somebody cared and that was all that mattered.
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"Legolas...don't mourn for me when I am dead...for it is better for me to be dead... jealousy is as good as death for me. I could not live another day...knowing I could not have Kylie..." He cried softly, blood was spilling from his lips. He kept blinking. He was on the verge of drifting away. I kept shaking my head. "Don't say that...don't...Lle naa belegohtar ar' naa curucuar. Mankoi? Mani marte.." [You are a mighty warrior and a skillful bowman. Why? What happened...] I asked him quietly. It was almost a rhetorical question because I was asking myself the same thing. How could he die?
"Uuma dela...[Don't worry] Namárië...[Farewell]...Mellonim...[my friend].."Haldir choked.
"No.. no, no.. Haldir, don't stop talking, don't close your eyes... don't fall asleep!" I heard myself cry. His eyes slowly shut and he mumbled under his breath, "Amin hiraetha. [I'm sorry]."
I grabbed his cloak and brought it to my face as my tears fell. "Why are you sorry? Why should you be sorry?" I whispered angrily. I lay him down gently and kissed his forehead.
"Tenna' ento lye omenta [Until we meet again]." I stood up slowly and took a final glance at him. He lay motionless on the ground and not a single breath escaped his lips. Yet, Valar had made him look at peace during his death. He had a slight smile on his face and his eyes closed like he was resting. The rain pattered lightly on his cheeks and his cloak wrapped around him like a warm blanket. The tiny rocks beneath him seemed to glow slightly, like the stars of the most beautiful night as he slowly slipped away into the silence of death.
As I fought on I could only think of what Haldir was to me. Was he just my friend? He gave up the person he held most dearly to his heart to me. It was as good as suicide for him. I could not have been there to save him, it was not a mistake that he died. I did not regret having him by my side during the war. But he was taken away from me and he died feeling guilty for what wrong he had not done, thinking that our friendship was irreparable because he thought he had done something to hurt me. He had not hurt me but he had made me a stronger person.
Haldir taught me what life and friendship was really about. It wasn't just something you could just say but something you had to experience and see for yourself. He taught me that love had its pains when you don't know what to do but when you break through from the darkness, you will see something beautiful and it can be yours forever.
Haldir, he wasn't just my friend.
He was my brother.
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End of chapter 18
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Plasmolysed cell membrane: Sorry this took so long, was thinking of how I should write Haldir's death..err.. as you can see, the chapter is written in a different style. Due to much practice from writing so many essays during the examination period, better this way? Was his death too drama? Sad? err.. well, just tell me what you think in the reviews..afterall, that's what reviews are for! Anyways, Love y'all and the reviews you've given me. I could just kiss you guys!! Heheh.
Allrighty! Toodles!
Peace out =)