A/N: Hey guys, I know Dean is acting like a jerk and that he isn't really
like this. But I am doing this with the song. But Dean is a good
boyfriend, but not for Rory. But that's just how I feel. But I do hope
you enjoy this story even though it is quite odd lol. But just a warning,
this chapter has some twist in it so please just hang in there because I
have to get by some stuff. Thanks.
*~Oddmoonbi
My Love Is All I Have
Rory was sitting at the bridge thinking about her and Dean. Trying to determine if she really was in love with him. She sighed and stretched out, lying back on her hands and looking at the water behind her sneaker covered feet.
"When did my life become so complicated? And why didn't I see it happening?" She asked herself out loud; completely oblivious that someone was standing at the end of the bridge watching her. She returned her thoughts to the day before when Dean had completely walked out on her for his friends. A frown covered her beautiful face.
Jess watched Rory, he could tell that she was upset and he didn't blame her. He knew Dean could be crude but what he did yesterday was just a new low for him. Jess looked down at his feet, then slowly back up at Rory as he started towards her. He knew she wasn't crying, he had been watching her for a while and she never gave any type of sign to prove that she was crying.
Jess finally reached Rory and she never looked up. She just kept staring out at the water. But he knew that she knew he was there, so he sat down beside her.
"That was a nice little scene yesterday wasn't it?" Rory asked still not looking at him, a part of her wishing that he wouldn't have found her.
"Yea, I guess." Jess responded cautiously not really knowing how to respond to her question.
"Hmmp..." Rory sat back up and folded her legs then wrapped her arms around her knees. She just stared at her feet, trying to connect the puzzle that had so quickly fallen apart in her life. She finally looked up at Jess with tears fighting to fall. "And I don't have a clue what to do."
Jess looked up at her and into her eyes. Her eyes always gave away what she was feeling. Jess sighed; in her eyes he saw fear, confusion, and doubt. And he knew that, that doubt was of herself. Since about three months into Dean and Rory's relationship Dean started to slowly break her down. But everyone was oblivious to it, everyone but Jess and he wasn't sure if Lorelai just ignored it or truly was oblivious to it.
The whole time all these thoughts were flying through Jess's mind he had let his wall down without knowing it. The wall that he had, had up for so long. Rory just stared at him. She wasn't sure if it was on purpose or by accident, but she knew Jess's block was down again. Just like when he had given her the necklace, but then Jess caught it and didn't let her see, didn't let her see into his eyes and what he was feeling. But now he wasn't even trying to stop it. "Jess." Rory said in an almost whisper.
Jess blinked and knew that he had let his wall down; he silently cursed himself for it. "It's ok, I know what you mean." Jess tried to reassure her, but not really knowing how.
Rory just looked back down at her feet again. "It all just fell apart so quickly." The tears started to fall. "I don't even know or remember what happened."
Jess just watched her talk. He really didn't know what to say to her, but maybe just being able to let some of it off her chest would make things a bit better for her.
Rory looked back at Jess, her face red from crying. "What happened? Why didn't anyone stop it, stop me? Dean was so sweet at first, but now it's like I'm a..a..."
"A trophy?" Jess asked watching more tears fall from her beautiful blue eyes.
Rory looked down again. "Yea."
Jess reached over and pulled Rory to him. She turned and put her head on his shoulder and wrapped her arms around his neck. Rory cried into his shoulder. When she had finally stopped crying Jess released her from his arms. Rory leaned back, her arms still around his neck and her face only inches from his. She looked into his eyes, then at his lips. Then she leaned in, Jess followed her movements. Then at the last possible second Rory jumped up. She put her hands on her forehead. "Oh crud, crud. Jess I'm sorry." Then she took off down the bridge and out of Jess's sight.
Rory didn't stop running until she reached the road, she would have kept running to her house but someone stopped her. And that someone being the last person she wanted to see, Dean.
"Hey Rory." He grabbed her by her arm; she hadn't seen him when she ran by. She stopped and turned to face him hoping her eyes weren't still red from crying.
"Hey Dean." Rory said forcing a smile.
Dean let Rory's arm go. "Rory are you ok? Have you been crying?" Dean asked concerned.
"Yea Dean, I'm fine." Rory looked away, but not in the direction of the bridge. Because she knew Jess would be standing there at the opening.
"Well um...Rory, I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry about yesterday. All of it. I was a jerk yesterday morning and a jerk last night for walking out on you like that. I'm sorry." Dean smiled, hoping that when Rory looked up at him that his smile would sell the package.
Rory looked up at him. This is how he always done it, go out and do what he wants and when he wants too then comes back and tries to get her to forgive him. 'Jess was right, trophy.' She thought to herself as she stared at his disgustingly fake smile. She looked away again, but this time towards the bridge and saw him leaning up against a tree. His usual unreadable expression. She frowned, hoping he would understand, and wouldn't be mad at her. But he never moved, his expression stayed the same.
Rory felt Dean's finger under her chin, he gently pulled her head to face him. Rory tried to keep her eyes on Jess but she couldn't, Dean had her head turned to face him. He put his hands on her cheeks and looked into her eyes. "Rory please forgive me." He sounded so sincere, but she knew it was just a cover.
Rory shook her head yes and then felt Dean's lips against hers. But felt nothing. She wondered what it would have felt like to kiss Jess, and regretted pulling away. Dean released her lips from their prison and then took Rory's hand. Rory glanced towards the spot where Jess was. She saw him stand up and walk off. Guilt flooded her body as she let Dean walk her home.
*~Oddmoonbi
My Love Is All I Have
Rory was sitting at the bridge thinking about her and Dean. Trying to determine if she really was in love with him. She sighed and stretched out, lying back on her hands and looking at the water behind her sneaker covered feet.
"When did my life become so complicated? And why didn't I see it happening?" She asked herself out loud; completely oblivious that someone was standing at the end of the bridge watching her. She returned her thoughts to the day before when Dean had completely walked out on her for his friends. A frown covered her beautiful face.
Jess watched Rory, he could tell that she was upset and he didn't blame her. He knew Dean could be crude but what he did yesterday was just a new low for him. Jess looked down at his feet, then slowly back up at Rory as he started towards her. He knew she wasn't crying, he had been watching her for a while and she never gave any type of sign to prove that she was crying.
Jess finally reached Rory and she never looked up. She just kept staring out at the water. But he knew that she knew he was there, so he sat down beside her.
"That was a nice little scene yesterday wasn't it?" Rory asked still not looking at him, a part of her wishing that he wouldn't have found her.
"Yea, I guess." Jess responded cautiously not really knowing how to respond to her question.
"Hmmp..." Rory sat back up and folded her legs then wrapped her arms around her knees. She just stared at her feet, trying to connect the puzzle that had so quickly fallen apart in her life. She finally looked up at Jess with tears fighting to fall. "And I don't have a clue what to do."
Jess looked up at her and into her eyes. Her eyes always gave away what she was feeling. Jess sighed; in her eyes he saw fear, confusion, and doubt. And he knew that, that doubt was of herself. Since about three months into Dean and Rory's relationship Dean started to slowly break her down. But everyone was oblivious to it, everyone but Jess and he wasn't sure if Lorelai just ignored it or truly was oblivious to it.
The whole time all these thoughts were flying through Jess's mind he had let his wall down without knowing it. The wall that he had, had up for so long. Rory just stared at him. She wasn't sure if it was on purpose or by accident, but she knew Jess's block was down again. Just like when he had given her the necklace, but then Jess caught it and didn't let her see, didn't let her see into his eyes and what he was feeling. But now he wasn't even trying to stop it. "Jess." Rory said in an almost whisper.
Jess blinked and knew that he had let his wall down; he silently cursed himself for it. "It's ok, I know what you mean." Jess tried to reassure her, but not really knowing how.
Rory just looked back down at her feet again. "It all just fell apart so quickly." The tears started to fall. "I don't even know or remember what happened."
Jess just watched her talk. He really didn't know what to say to her, but maybe just being able to let some of it off her chest would make things a bit better for her.
Rory looked back at Jess, her face red from crying. "What happened? Why didn't anyone stop it, stop me? Dean was so sweet at first, but now it's like I'm a..a..."
"A trophy?" Jess asked watching more tears fall from her beautiful blue eyes.
Rory looked down again. "Yea."
Jess reached over and pulled Rory to him. She turned and put her head on his shoulder and wrapped her arms around his neck. Rory cried into his shoulder. When she had finally stopped crying Jess released her from his arms. Rory leaned back, her arms still around his neck and her face only inches from his. She looked into his eyes, then at his lips. Then she leaned in, Jess followed her movements. Then at the last possible second Rory jumped up. She put her hands on her forehead. "Oh crud, crud. Jess I'm sorry." Then she took off down the bridge and out of Jess's sight.
Rory didn't stop running until she reached the road, she would have kept running to her house but someone stopped her. And that someone being the last person she wanted to see, Dean.
"Hey Rory." He grabbed her by her arm; she hadn't seen him when she ran by. She stopped and turned to face him hoping her eyes weren't still red from crying.
"Hey Dean." Rory said forcing a smile.
Dean let Rory's arm go. "Rory are you ok? Have you been crying?" Dean asked concerned.
"Yea Dean, I'm fine." Rory looked away, but not in the direction of the bridge. Because she knew Jess would be standing there at the opening.
"Well um...Rory, I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry about yesterday. All of it. I was a jerk yesterday morning and a jerk last night for walking out on you like that. I'm sorry." Dean smiled, hoping that when Rory looked up at him that his smile would sell the package.
Rory looked up at him. This is how he always done it, go out and do what he wants and when he wants too then comes back and tries to get her to forgive him. 'Jess was right, trophy.' She thought to herself as she stared at his disgustingly fake smile. She looked away again, but this time towards the bridge and saw him leaning up against a tree. His usual unreadable expression. She frowned, hoping he would understand, and wouldn't be mad at her. But he never moved, his expression stayed the same.
Rory felt Dean's finger under her chin, he gently pulled her head to face him. Rory tried to keep her eyes on Jess but she couldn't, Dean had her head turned to face him. He put his hands on her cheeks and looked into her eyes. "Rory please forgive me." He sounded so sincere, but she knew it was just a cover.
Rory shook her head yes and then felt Dean's lips against hers. But felt nothing. She wondered what it would have felt like to kiss Jess, and regretted pulling away. Dean released her lips from their prison and then took Rory's hand. Rory glanced towards the spot where Jess was. She saw him stand up and walk off. Guilt flooded her body as she let Dean walk her home.