Hello, hello. I typed this up awhile ago....but 4 some rason, ff.net wouldn't upload it!! GRRR!! Well, i had 2 go back and resave it....and finally got it 2 work. Heh heh....I put last chappie that there would be a prologue.....I meant epilog. ^-^U heh heh heh.....
Disclaimer still applies, obviously.
Warning: more death blah blah blah....read the warning of the first chappie, I don't feel like repeating myself, and I don't think ne1 in there right mind would read ch. 2 b4 ch.1 newayz, so u've all read the warning that iz still implied. Umm....yeah.
Thankz 2 all the ppl who read/reviewed/commented (I have this posted at multiple placez) and yeah, YAOI RULEZ!! Hehe
umm....yeah....on w/ the fic!!
oh, and one more note.....just so you don't get confused.....Taichi has his own apt. in this. So when Hikari went to check up on him, she went to his apt. They committed suicide in the living room. ....just thought you'd wanna know now.....my sis read it and pointed out to me that it had confused her. ^-^U sry .
And in case ppl only know the dub names, and don't know the jap. names....like....*cough cough* Jin.....
Jou = Joe
Yamato = Matt
Taichi = Tai
Koushirou = Izzy
Myako = Yolei
Daisuke = Davis
Takeru = T.k.
Hikari= Kari
Iori = Cody.
Mimi, Sora, and Ken have the same namez in both the jap. & dub.
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CH. 2
~Koushirou's POV~
It wasn't suppose to happen like this!! I didn't tell!! I didn't ever tell!!
....Why didn't I tell??.....
Damned if you do, damned if you don't...
....It was never suppose to be like this....
I lay on my bed and stare up at my ceiling.
..Why does it have to end like this??....
......my fault.....
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~Daisuke's POV~
I trace the symbol if friendship.
.....He was my friend.
I was his protege too.....
....so how can I go on?
My head hurts. I hate thinking.
...Takeru's probably gone too....
I know if Jun ever did....
and we don't even get along.....
But....without Takeru...
....Hikari will die too....
Shit.
.....She would follow him anywhere...
Then again...maybe she's stronger than I am....
I can't take all of this.
I trace the symbol of friendship....
in my blood.
....only a matter of time....
Then I see him. K'so[1]. I never meant for anyone to find me....
Ken.
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~Ken's POV~
Daisuke....
There's blood everywhere....I figured as much....
I know I'm losing him....I'm glad I found him in time.....to say goodbye.
He's sitting on the roof of his apartment building. I kneel down beside him. I take the knife from him....
His eyes widen in horror as I slit my wrists.
He tries to stop me. He's too late.
He's crying. I smile at him sadly, taking his hands in mine.
He looks at me with confused eyes.
"Thank you...." I whisper. "..for making me human."
He looks so sad....
I wish I had more time..
Things could have been so different....
but I smile.
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~Daisuke's POV~
No.....not Ken!! Not Ken!! Please no!! I cry silently. He can't die!!
Beautiful things should never have to die....
He has such sad eyes....I feel responsible. This is my fault....then again....he was always sad.
....why does it have to end like this?....
I can't let it end like this....not without telling him.....
...nothing to lose.....now or never....
I kiss him.
he kisses back.
I feel my strength fleeing from me....
He leans against me, wrapping my arms around him.
....he feels so fragile......
I only have strength to say one thing....
"I love you, Ken...."
Some part of my brain with an extremely cruel sense of humor tells me that him and I will be together for the rest of our lives...
I vaguely hear him reply.
"I love you too, Dai-chan...."
His lips brush mine one last time.
"Good bye Dai.....I'll see you on the other side."
I smile.
Then I fall into darkness....and there's nothing.
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~Ken's POV~
He's gone....
I know it. A tear trickles down my cheek.
"Dai....why didn't you ever tell me?"
Then I slip into oblivion.....and there's nothing more.
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~Sora's POV~
Why won't he answer the door?
"Taichi!!" I'm worried. "Taichi!! Open up!! It's Sora!! Taichi??!!..."
Why won't he answer me?
I try the door. It's unlocked. I open it.
The smell hits me first.....the smell of blood.
....Then I see it.
"OH KAMI-SAMA[2]!!" I hurl.
This can't be real!! It isn't real!! It isn't!! It's not real!!
It is.
First Yama-chan.....now Tai-chan....Hikari-chan..... Tears well in my eyes.
My heart breaks. Oh Kami-sama, it hurts!!
I can't take it. It hurts too much....
I stumble to the kitchen.
I know where they keep their knives.....
The pain's to much to bear.
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~Jou's POV~
I feel responsible......
I knew something was bothering him...
Why didn't I ask him?
Yama.....why didn't you tell me?
I'm suppose to be reliable....
Why wasn't I there for him??!!
I sob into my blankets.
It's funny....I'm suppose to become a doctor....save lives....but all I want to do is die.
die with him.....
I look around for something....
anything....
All I can think of is my allergy medication....but that'll work....
Funny.....I always thought my allergies would kill me....not the medication....
But it works...
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~Mimi's POV~
Why?? Why did he do it?? What reason did he have to want to die?? His life was great!!
.....wasn't it??
friends, family, fans....what more could he have wanted?
Tears stream down my face as I run...I'm on my way to Jou's....he always was my comforter....
Jou....this must be hard on him....of course nothing can compare to the way Takeru must be feeling...
more tears.
Why would the bearer of friendship leave his friends to hurt like this?? I'd be mad at him for leaving....
if I didn't miss him so much.
I'm here, at Jou's.
I open his door.
I find him on his bed, his arm flung over his head. He looks almost peaceful....so sweet...
As I come closer, I can see tears still on his cheeks....he must have cried himself to sleep....
but why can't I hear him breathing??...
Then I see it.
In his hand is an empty proscription bottle. "Oh, please....let him have just fallen asleep like that!!" I plead as I reach out to him, to feel his pulse.
He's still warm....but he's gone....
I cry harder.
"Jou!!"
I was too late.
I cling to his limp body, my heart being wrenched from me at the knowledge.
I was too late....It's my fault.
"No!! You can't be dead!! You can't be!!"
......we were worlds apart....
You were the typical geek, I the typical prep....
But I knew you most of my life....
and I never had the courage to tell you....
I love you.
I know you can't hear me, but I have to tell you anyways....
"I love you, Jou....I have always loved you...." I whisper in your unhearing ear.
I can't take this pain....Kami-sama, how it hurts....
Why does it have to be like this?
....why does it end this way?
....my fault....
Things could have been so different......
....Why didn't I ever tell you?
I can't just let you go....
I can't let it end this way....
...he has a zillion medications for a zillion ailments....
I find a bottle....I don't even know what this stuff is, or what it's for....but I take it....all of it.
Then I curl up next to Jou and cry myself to sleep....
a sleep I'll never wake up from....
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~Iori's POV~
.....I wasn't that close to him....but it still hurts. I don't know if I hurt more for the fact that he's gone, or the knowledge of how Takeru must be feeling.....
I know how it hurts to lose a loved one...
I have to see him....comfort him. he's my jogress partner....he has to know I'm here for him....he just has to.....
I cry for him.
I knock on his front door. His mom answers. She's been crying. I wish there was something I could do....
We're both crying.
"Is Takeru here?" I manage to say.
"No....I don't know where he is. I'm starting to get worried."
Yeah, so am I.
"Thank you." I don't know what else to say. I just leave. Maybe he's with Hikari.....they always were close.
I go to her apartment next.
I find out she's gone to Taichi's, so I go there.
The door's open a crack. There's the metallic smell of blood in the air. I go inside.
....blood.
I don't know what I had expected to see...but not this....
Taichi, Hikari, and Sora....all dead.
My stomach lurches.
I can't handle this.
...is Tak-chan dead too?
Was I too late?
Is it my fault??
....my fault....
I feel sick. I run from that place of death. I go home. No one's there. I find the gun.
.....it use to be Otou-sama's[3].....
.....too much death. too much death to handle......
I hide it in my coat.
The elevator's slow. I take the stairs.
It seems so peaceful on the roof....
Peaceful....peaceful, ....except...I can't get those images out of my mind. blood....so much blood.....
Kami-sama, how I wish I could erase what I saw!!
....yes....there's one way.
I raise the gun to my head.
I faintly hear the door open and someone join me on the roof.
"Iori!!"
....Myako....she's too late....I've pulled the trigger....
and there's nothing.
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~Myako's POV~
I came up here to clear my mind....
This is all so much to deal with...
I opened the door and walked out.
It seemed so peaceful....
Then I saw him.
"Iori!!" oh, Kami-sama!! No!!
Then the gun went off, and he fell limp.
I run to him, cradle him in my arms.
....he was like an otatochan[4] to me.....
Okay, yeah, I'll admit, there were times when I'd lusted....but right now, all I can think about is how much I want him to be alright....
.....my heart aches....
I can't bear to see him like this....I can't even recognize his face....in shock, I leave him there. I walk to the edge of the roof. I feel the wind whip around me. I'm sickened by the knowledge that I'm covered in his blood.
It hurts so much!!
...things could have been so different.....
I let myself fall.
.....fall into silence....
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Koushirou's POV~
I feel the night air whip around my body. The park is deserted. Good.
I have a sheet in my hand. I've tied one end of it into a noose.
I stare up at the sky. This will be the last time I see it.
Why does it have to end like this?
....my fault....
Isn't this how people use to get punished?
by hanging?
My fault.....
I deserve this.
Why didn't I tell?
....because no one can know.
No one can ever know.
In the middle of the park is a large tree. That's why I chose this place. I walk over to it. Children are always climbing on this tree. If they can climb it, I can too.
Shesh, I feel awkward. I've never climbed a tree before. I guess I can cross it off my to-do list....
I have it written right between 'never tell a secret' and 'commit suicide.'
I snicker to myself. what a lame joke.....
I never was very funny.
....I'd considered leaving a will. Then I remembered that no one would be left but my parents anyways....
and Tentomon. But how do I give him anything? How would he retrieve it?
....Tentomon....I sent an e-mail to Jenni to give to him. actually, it's for all the digimon. Jenni e-mailed me and told me that Gabumon went missing after Yama-chan committed suicide......all the younger digidestined sent their digimon to the digiworld to help look for him. The rest of us would have gone too, but I doubt we would have been much help.
I hope they find him.
I try not to think of what will happen to them now.....of what will happen to the digital world.
I've tied the free end of the sheet around the highest tree branch that would support me. It would be kind of useless if the branch just broke and I got nothing more than a broken leg. I make sure my make-shift gallows is tightly secured. I put the noose around my neck.
My thoughts drift back to Takeru.
......Takeru......how wrong you were. It wouldn't have mattered if I'd told or not. The only difference it would have made is how people view you.....
You will always be innocent in their eyes.
Innocent...he had seemed so innocent....so very.....very....
So why does it end like this?
my fault.
It was never suppose to be like this.....
Things could have been so different....
....Takeru....
Why couldn't you love me?
Then I jump. The sheet tightens, and I know nothing more.
....ignorance is bliss.....
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[1] K'so = damn it.
[2] Kami-sama = God
[3] Otou-sama = Father (very respectful)
[4] otatochan = little brother (i think....correct me if I'm wrong.)
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Yay!! *wavez little flagz* i finally was able to type this up!! ....wow.....10 pgz in WP....heh heh....umm yeah.
I know this looks like the end......boo hoo, how sad....but it's not!! THERE'Z AN EPILOG!! Yeah....and a surprise ending. Oh, and thank me for waiting to post even the first chappie til I'd finished writing this....other wize, u would have had 2 wait an eternity 4 this chappie. That'z mainly cause i got writers block on this chappie....didn't know how 2 kill Kou-chan..... then we were reading 'Antigone' in eng. Class.....and BOOM!! It was like MAJOR DUH!! heh heh....sry.....it'z early. I'm tired. Well, i gotzta go.....i have a school bus 2 catch.....
And as alwayz, R&R!! thx!! ^_^