Title: Born to Be My Baby
Author: ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Date: Began March, 2003
Chapter: 6/?
Rating: R for later chapters; PG - 13 for now.
Category: Romance, Angst, Language, Blood and the like
Main Pairing: Gojyo x Hakkai
Disclaimer: I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki. All characters, names, etc. are copyrighted to Minekura Kazuya.
Warning: Shounen ai/yaoi (for you people who don't speak Japanese, that's male/male relationships.... isn't it cute? *smiles*)
Further Apology: I am still very, very, very sorry for delaying the chapters! *bows repeatedly* I've been making corrections, proofreading like mad, and I had to take the Gateway to get into eighth grade! I'm sorry!
NEWS: Some of you out there are going to be very excited! The first DVD of Gensomaden Saiyuki, as of April 29, 2003 is now on sale at your local Mediaplay, Suncoast, Best Buy, etc. I heard it from B - chan on the radio and there is no telling as to how many episodes there are but I will buy it and give you a little info in the notes in chapter #7.
BE ADVISED: Hello, hello. There are a few things that I would like to point out: As if you had not already noticed, this fanfic is going to take a few turns in the storyline until I get my hands on episodes #23 - #26. SPOILERS AHEAD: Gojyo and Hakkai's relationship is going to move a little quicker than expected. As people might have already known, Hakkai is a very modest person but he is not a virgin. (I feel bad speaking of him in that way.) Yes, he made love to Kanan. (Aw! *smiles*) It isn't said in the anime, that I have heard, but it is in the manga and I guess I am... doing a mix of stuff from the anime and stuff from the manga...? And of course, we all know that Gojyo left his virginity in the dust years ago. Yeah.... Okay, then. Here we go!
Oh, and PLEASE review.
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Part Sixth (6/?)
"Ne, Hakkai," Goku began one late, cloudy evening as the clouds settled into overcast. "How much did we get through today?"
"Oh, I'd say, as a total of today," Hakkai took a moment to think about it. "Maybe about thiry - five miles?"
"Ah! Then can we stop for some food now?"
"Shut up!" Sanzo screeched as his paper fan smacked against Goku's head with a loud cracking noise. "I swear, everytime I hear that 'I'm hungry' shit, I'll hit you until you bruise!"
"Nah! Sanzo! Stop it!" Goku hollered.
"Maybe we should stop at the next town early for shelter and supply shopping." Hakkai looked to the sky for a moment. "It's only about two in the afternoon but the weather is looking pretty bad. I'm amazed that it's raining in such a dry place as this!"
Gojyo commented, "Yeah, and it looks serious, too."
"Alright, then, everyone!" Hakkai chimed. "We'll stop at the next town until the storm clears up."
The scarlet - eyed man was still amazed at how Hakkai could hide what he did and make it look so easy. Of course, it wasn't easy for Hakkai, but then again, Gojyo was really the only one that knew Hakkai as well as he did. Living with the guy for three years had to have given him some information on him. And about the rain, how cheery he could be and wear that same, fake smile even when it was about to rain. How did he do it?
"Hakkai!" Goku yelped as Sanzo layed one more blow to the teenager's cranium.
"Okay, Sanzo," Hakkai laughed. "Perhaps you should stop or Goku could get used to it. Would it be any fun to hit him if he liked it, Sanzo?"
"Tch." The monk put on his usual "give - me - one - look - and - I'll - slap - you - to - Pluto - and - back - again" look and deposited the fan into his sleeve, returning to his previous seat in the passenger's side.
The sudden thought graced Gojyo's mind that maybe he should suggest sitting in the passenger seat once. But not now. Right now, Sanzo didn't even want to be looked at, yet alone have a request asked of him.
Gojyo: 'Today's gonna be a long day.'
It was near three o'clock in the morning when Hakkai woke abruptly with a startled scream, sitting straight up in bed, sweating like mad and his eyes widened. His hand ran its way through his thick brown hair as he slowly lay back down and tried to calm himself down as he felt the cool night air settle over his heated skin. He pushed the covers back almost frustratedly in an attempt to rid himself of the terrible heat that had collected about his body and caused him the discomfort. Trembling lips were parted in heavy breathing as fear took over his mentality and kept him awake, afraid that if he were to fall back to sleep, another nightmare would be there to beat his dream to a bloody pulp like mere moments before.
Gojyo's eyes fluttered open, seeing as he had awoken but waited to see what Hakkai was up to before slowly letting his eyelides drag open lazily.
Hakkai looked extremely upset and frightened, which both expressions on his face were clearly visible when a flash of lightning pierced the sky into two and illuminated both men and various items in the room with a metallic white gleam. The thunder that sounded identical to the tempany rolled over the horizon and seemed to stop, banging harshly on the windows of the hotel room, causing them to rattle and creak unsturdily.
The brunette buried his face in his hands and tried to calm himself down. His breathing was broken and hurried and his hands trembled with a hint of uncertainty as he slowly let his fingers run through his hair a few more times before finally turning to the other man in the bed across from his. "Gojyo?" Hakkai muttered, seeing as he was able to see the glint of red from the half - breed's eyes when the lightning flashed once more. A clap of thunder shook the building once more and Gojyo murmured back to the other man,
"What happened? You seem upset, Hakkai."
"It was just a nightmare," Hakkai concluded abruptly, folding his hands over his lap and staring at them for a few minutes before repeating his sentence. "That's all."
Gojyo: "I've had plenty of people say to me that they've had dreams that become reality."
"You mean a premoniton?"
"I guess, if that's what you wanna call it."
Both windows on the wall were open, both the brunette and the red - haired man forgetting that they opened them, and the rain pattered against the glass at the top of the window listlessly as a roar pierced through the heavens and startled Gojyo so terribly that he fell from his bedside, taking the covers with him as he tumbled down over the wooden floor with a cry of surprise and Hakkai only stared.
The room became absolutely freezing with all of the wind blowing, carrying the rain and the stench of it into where the two youkai were. Hakkai took a deep breath and looked as if he might do something dispicable, something senseless and completely futile. He bit his bottom lip... and all he did was sigh. His hands clenched the blanket as they formed fists, gripping it and seeming as if they may tear it apart at any moment and the brunette stared into nothing. His eyes were fixed in one spot but Gojyo could not pinpoint it for certain; there was nothing of any interest whatsoever where the older of the men layed his eyes, somewhere in a bare corner of the room with not a piece of furniture, not even a cobweb in sight. He seemed hypnotized. He was not moving and did not look like he was planning on moving, making any gesture, as his wrists became numb and the blue vein on the inside of them becoming visible now more than ever. What was he thinking about? And, yet, how beautiful he looked! The half - breed examined every one of his facial features twice over; thrice before coming to the conclusion that his love was thinking of her again. He always did that when it rained. Those two beautiful green eyes were filled with some undescribable contemplating passion and his lips were sealed shut; he would not even open them to breath if he needed and his jaw was set in a nervous manner, unmoving and stealth. Even his breathing went unnoticed as it was so slow. He did not even blink when another lightning bolt (which must have hit dangerously close to their location) cried silently through the sky and not even a moment later, emitted a screaming howl which must have lasted for fifteen seconds. Still, Hakkai did not move.
"You're thinking about her again... aren't you?" Gojyo let somewhat of a smile creep silently onto his face in the dark as Hakkai finally moved to answer truthfully,
"You know that I can never forget her."
"Yes, I know. I understand. Remember that I have someone that I can never forget also," Gojyo stated as more lighting lit up the room as if it were day time all over again. "But...."
"'But'?"
"Because I had someone in the past, that does not mean that I cannot have someone in the present. You remember how I said that I thought your sister would want you happy? Well, I can't say that for what happened to me. I really wish I could but I know the truth and the truth is that that woman would not want me happy. Hell no."
"Well, Gojyo," Hakkai said, "we should both live for the one we love."
"I love you." "And I love you."
A million stars light
This beautiful night
This is not a night to die
Let me sing and dance
Beneath the sky
I have such love to give
To give! I want a chance to live
Live
For the one I love
Love
As no one has loved
Give
Asking nothing in return
Free
Free to find my way
Free to have my say
Free to see the day
Be
Like I used to be
Like a wild bird free
With all of life in me
Live
For the one I love
Love
As no one has loved
Give
Asking nothing in return
Though this world tears us apart
We're still together in my heart
I want the world to hear my cry
And even if I have to die
Love will not die
Love will change the world
Live
For the one I love
Love
As no one has loved
Give
Asking nothing in return
I'll love until love wears me away
I'll die and I know my love will stay
And I know my love will stay
"LIVE FOR THE ONE I LOVE"
-Celine Dion
Trimmed were the hedges of doubt and gone was all modesty that held the half - breed back as he threw himself upward and wrapped his arms around the other man tightly, tenderly.
"Gojyo?"
"I'm sorry," Gojyo murmured. "I'm so, so sorry."
"What? But why?"
"For what happened back then and what is happening now," Gojyo explained. "I know that accepting the fact that we're in love has not been the easiest task for either of us but it is the truth, isn't it? I love you with all of my heart and you me, right? Then why am I feeling this guilt build up in me like it will break out and leave me to die carelessly? And the worst part is that I feel that you have that passion deep inside of you, too! But why is it there!? I don't understand!" Gojyo exclaimed and threw his hands over his face, burying his face in them and taking them in use of shelter to hide his tears. "But I know that this is true! It's so true, damn it! I love you! I love you, Hakkai!"
Hakkai's face altered to shock as his memories of that nonchalant and uncaring attitude were wiped clean from his mind and the tray in which they were set on was now overflowing with Gojyo's current passion overtaking him and causing him to cry into Hakkai's chest, his hands over his face. The brunette's arms wrapped themselves around the other's bare back and pulled Gojyo to him, turning his head and setting a cheek in the soft strands of long scarlet hair. "I love you, Gojyo. I swear that I do," Hakkai stated seriously. "And I'll be damned if anyone tells me otherwise. I will be damned over again."
This time, Hakkai took the roll of consoling his lover, lifting his head and kissing Gojyo's tears from his cheeks as the scarlet - eyed man let the liquid flow freely from his eyes.
More lighting and thunder threatened to interupt the couple drowning in their feelings, but neither of them payed any attention to the clashing rage that took place outside.
And it was then that Gojyo truly knew that he was in love with Hakkai. He recalled asking him before if this was what it truly felt like to be in love but that was only because the one woman that he had actually fallen in love with hated him, tried to kill him. God, the devastation, the torment, the torture.
And Hakkai had lost the only one he loved due to a desgusting demon who stole his lover away and impregnated her, causing her to commit an unspeakable act... with his own dagger. She took his own dagger and did it. It seemed then that the world had ended, nothing was worth anything anymore.
And everyone seemed to hate them for it.
And everyone seemed to want them to relive the end of their tragities.
And everyone seemed to be in disbelief when they survived.
Devastation, torment, and torture.
Nothing was worth it anymore.
They both met at the lips.
*End chapter #6*
To be continued...
Author Notes:
None! Whoo hah! Damn it all, that was a short chapter but there are many, many more to come. I thought that that would be an appropriate time to leave a little cliffhanger. Hm... Now, that makes chapters three, four, five, and six all added up TOGETHER! Booya! I hope this is enough to say that I am sorry for delaying the updates on mediaminer.org. Actually, that is only because I cannot/could not get on the site. So, www.fanfiction.net is getting all six chapters at once! My friends loved this fic and let me say that this whole story is for Faye, Kira, and Minion, the people who have stuck by me when writing this. Damn, I make it sound like I'm at the end of the fic. Don't worry. I'm nowhere near the end yet. *smiles*
I can't say that I feed off of reviews because I would probably starve to death. Ha ha.
Look forward to chapter #7!
- ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Author: ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Date: Began March, 2003
Chapter: 6/?
Rating: R for later chapters; PG - 13 for now.
Category: Romance, Angst, Language, Blood and the like
Main Pairing: Gojyo x Hakkai
Disclaimer: I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki. All characters, names, etc. are copyrighted to Minekura Kazuya.
Warning: Shounen ai/yaoi (for you people who don't speak Japanese, that's male/male relationships.... isn't it cute? *smiles*)
Further Apology: I am still very, very, very sorry for delaying the chapters! *bows repeatedly* I've been making corrections, proofreading like mad, and I had to take the Gateway to get into eighth grade! I'm sorry!
NEWS: Some of you out there are going to be very excited! The first DVD of Gensomaden Saiyuki, as of April 29, 2003 is now on sale at your local Mediaplay, Suncoast, Best Buy, etc. I heard it from B - chan on the radio and there is no telling as to how many episodes there are but I will buy it and give you a little info in the notes in chapter #7.
BE ADVISED: Hello, hello. There are a few things that I would like to point out: As if you had not already noticed, this fanfic is going to take a few turns in the storyline until I get my hands on episodes #23 - #26. SPOILERS AHEAD: Gojyo and Hakkai's relationship is going to move a little quicker than expected. As people might have already known, Hakkai is a very modest person but he is not a virgin. (I feel bad speaking of him in that way.) Yes, he made love to Kanan. (Aw! *smiles*) It isn't said in the anime, that I have heard, but it is in the manga and I guess I am... doing a mix of stuff from the anime and stuff from the manga...? And of course, we all know that Gojyo left his virginity in the dust years ago. Yeah.... Okay, then. Here we go!
Oh, and PLEASE review.
__________________
Part Sixth (6/?)
"Ne, Hakkai," Goku began one late, cloudy evening as the clouds settled into overcast. "How much did we get through today?"
"Oh, I'd say, as a total of today," Hakkai took a moment to think about it. "Maybe about thiry - five miles?"
"Ah! Then can we stop for some food now?"
"Shut up!" Sanzo screeched as his paper fan smacked against Goku's head with a loud cracking noise. "I swear, everytime I hear that 'I'm hungry' shit, I'll hit you until you bruise!"
"Nah! Sanzo! Stop it!" Goku hollered.
"Maybe we should stop at the next town early for shelter and supply shopping." Hakkai looked to the sky for a moment. "It's only about two in the afternoon but the weather is looking pretty bad. I'm amazed that it's raining in such a dry place as this!"
Gojyo commented, "Yeah, and it looks serious, too."
"Alright, then, everyone!" Hakkai chimed. "We'll stop at the next town until the storm clears up."
The scarlet - eyed man was still amazed at how Hakkai could hide what he did and make it look so easy. Of course, it wasn't easy for Hakkai, but then again, Gojyo was really the only one that knew Hakkai as well as he did. Living with the guy for three years had to have given him some information on him. And about the rain, how cheery he could be and wear that same, fake smile even when it was about to rain. How did he do it?
"Hakkai!" Goku yelped as Sanzo layed one more blow to the teenager's cranium.
"Okay, Sanzo," Hakkai laughed. "Perhaps you should stop or Goku could get used to it. Would it be any fun to hit him if he liked it, Sanzo?"
"Tch." The monk put on his usual "give - me - one - look - and - I'll - slap - you - to - Pluto - and - back - again" look and deposited the fan into his sleeve, returning to his previous seat in the passenger's side.
The sudden thought graced Gojyo's mind that maybe he should suggest sitting in the passenger seat once. But not now. Right now, Sanzo didn't even want to be looked at, yet alone have a request asked of him.
Gojyo: 'Today's gonna be a long day.'
It was near three o'clock in the morning when Hakkai woke abruptly with a startled scream, sitting straight up in bed, sweating like mad and his eyes widened. His hand ran its way through his thick brown hair as he slowly lay back down and tried to calm himself down as he felt the cool night air settle over his heated skin. He pushed the covers back almost frustratedly in an attempt to rid himself of the terrible heat that had collected about his body and caused him the discomfort. Trembling lips were parted in heavy breathing as fear took over his mentality and kept him awake, afraid that if he were to fall back to sleep, another nightmare would be there to beat his dream to a bloody pulp like mere moments before.
Gojyo's eyes fluttered open, seeing as he had awoken but waited to see what Hakkai was up to before slowly letting his eyelides drag open lazily.
Hakkai looked extremely upset and frightened, which both expressions on his face were clearly visible when a flash of lightning pierced the sky into two and illuminated both men and various items in the room with a metallic white gleam. The thunder that sounded identical to the tempany rolled over the horizon and seemed to stop, banging harshly on the windows of the hotel room, causing them to rattle and creak unsturdily.
The brunette buried his face in his hands and tried to calm himself down. His breathing was broken and hurried and his hands trembled with a hint of uncertainty as he slowly let his fingers run through his hair a few more times before finally turning to the other man in the bed across from his. "Gojyo?" Hakkai muttered, seeing as he was able to see the glint of red from the half - breed's eyes when the lightning flashed once more. A clap of thunder shook the building once more and Gojyo murmured back to the other man,
"What happened? You seem upset, Hakkai."
"It was just a nightmare," Hakkai concluded abruptly, folding his hands over his lap and staring at them for a few minutes before repeating his sentence. "That's all."
Gojyo: "I've had plenty of people say to me that they've had dreams that become reality."
"You mean a premoniton?"
"I guess, if that's what you wanna call it."
Both windows on the wall were open, both the brunette and the red - haired man forgetting that they opened them, and the rain pattered against the glass at the top of the window listlessly as a roar pierced through the heavens and startled Gojyo so terribly that he fell from his bedside, taking the covers with him as he tumbled down over the wooden floor with a cry of surprise and Hakkai only stared.
The room became absolutely freezing with all of the wind blowing, carrying the rain and the stench of it into where the two youkai were. Hakkai took a deep breath and looked as if he might do something dispicable, something senseless and completely futile. He bit his bottom lip... and all he did was sigh. His hands clenched the blanket as they formed fists, gripping it and seeming as if they may tear it apart at any moment and the brunette stared into nothing. His eyes were fixed in one spot but Gojyo could not pinpoint it for certain; there was nothing of any interest whatsoever where the older of the men layed his eyes, somewhere in a bare corner of the room with not a piece of furniture, not even a cobweb in sight. He seemed hypnotized. He was not moving and did not look like he was planning on moving, making any gesture, as his wrists became numb and the blue vein on the inside of them becoming visible now more than ever. What was he thinking about? And, yet, how beautiful he looked! The half - breed examined every one of his facial features twice over; thrice before coming to the conclusion that his love was thinking of her again. He always did that when it rained. Those two beautiful green eyes were filled with some undescribable contemplating passion and his lips were sealed shut; he would not even open them to breath if he needed and his jaw was set in a nervous manner, unmoving and stealth. Even his breathing went unnoticed as it was so slow. He did not even blink when another lightning bolt (which must have hit dangerously close to their location) cried silently through the sky and not even a moment later, emitted a screaming howl which must have lasted for fifteen seconds. Still, Hakkai did not move.
"You're thinking about her again... aren't you?" Gojyo let somewhat of a smile creep silently onto his face in the dark as Hakkai finally moved to answer truthfully,
"You know that I can never forget her."
"Yes, I know. I understand. Remember that I have someone that I can never forget also," Gojyo stated as more lighting lit up the room as if it were day time all over again. "But...."
"'But'?"
"Because I had someone in the past, that does not mean that I cannot have someone in the present. You remember how I said that I thought your sister would want you happy? Well, I can't say that for what happened to me. I really wish I could but I know the truth and the truth is that that woman would not want me happy. Hell no."
"Well, Gojyo," Hakkai said, "we should both live for the one we love."
"I love you." "And I love you."
A million stars light
This beautiful night
This is not a night to die
Let me sing and dance
Beneath the sky
I have such love to give
To give! I want a chance to live
Live
For the one I love
Love
As no one has loved
Give
Asking nothing in return
Free
Free to find my way
Free to have my say
Free to see the day
Be
Like I used to be
Like a wild bird free
With all of life in me
Live
For the one I love
Love
As no one has loved
Give
Asking nothing in return
Though this world tears us apart
We're still together in my heart
I want the world to hear my cry
And even if I have to die
Love will not die
Love will change the world
Live
For the one I love
Love
As no one has loved
Give
Asking nothing in return
I'll love until love wears me away
I'll die and I know my love will stay
And I know my love will stay
"LIVE FOR THE ONE I LOVE"
-Celine Dion
Trimmed were the hedges of doubt and gone was all modesty that held the half - breed back as he threw himself upward and wrapped his arms around the other man tightly, tenderly.
"Gojyo?"
"I'm sorry," Gojyo murmured. "I'm so, so sorry."
"What? But why?"
"For what happened back then and what is happening now," Gojyo explained. "I know that accepting the fact that we're in love has not been the easiest task for either of us but it is the truth, isn't it? I love you with all of my heart and you me, right? Then why am I feeling this guilt build up in me like it will break out and leave me to die carelessly? And the worst part is that I feel that you have that passion deep inside of you, too! But why is it there!? I don't understand!" Gojyo exclaimed and threw his hands over his face, burying his face in them and taking them in use of shelter to hide his tears. "But I know that this is true! It's so true, damn it! I love you! I love you, Hakkai!"
Hakkai's face altered to shock as his memories of that nonchalant and uncaring attitude were wiped clean from his mind and the tray in which they were set on was now overflowing with Gojyo's current passion overtaking him and causing him to cry into Hakkai's chest, his hands over his face. The brunette's arms wrapped themselves around the other's bare back and pulled Gojyo to him, turning his head and setting a cheek in the soft strands of long scarlet hair. "I love you, Gojyo. I swear that I do," Hakkai stated seriously. "And I'll be damned if anyone tells me otherwise. I will be damned over again."
This time, Hakkai took the roll of consoling his lover, lifting his head and kissing Gojyo's tears from his cheeks as the scarlet - eyed man let the liquid flow freely from his eyes.
More lighting and thunder threatened to interupt the couple drowning in their feelings, but neither of them payed any attention to the clashing rage that took place outside.
And it was then that Gojyo truly knew that he was in love with Hakkai. He recalled asking him before if this was what it truly felt like to be in love but that was only because the one woman that he had actually fallen in love with hated him, tried to kill him. God, the devastation, the torment, the torture.
And Hakkai had lost the only one he loved due to a desgusting demon who stole his lover away and impregnated her, causing her to commit an unspeakable act... with his own dagger. She took his own dagger and did it. It seemed then that the world had ended, nothing was worth anything anymore.
And everyone seemed to hate them for it.
And everyone seemed to want them to relive the end of their tragities.
And everyone seemed to be in disbelief when they survived.
Devastation, torment, and torture.
Nothing was worth it anymore.
They both met at the lips.
*End chapter #6*
To be continued...
Author Notes:
None! Whoo hah! Damn it all, that was a short chapter but there are many, many more to come. I thought that that would be an appropriate time to leave a little cliffhanger. Hm... Now, that makes chapters three, four, five, and six all added up TOGETHER! Booya! I hope this is enough to say that I am sorry for delaying the updates on mediaminer.org. Actually, that is only because I cannot/could not get on the site. So, www.fanfiction.net is getting all six chapters at once! My friends loved this fic and let me say that this whole story is for Faye, Kira, and Minion, the people who have stuck by me when writing this. Damn, I make it sound like I'm at the end of the fic. Don't worry. I'm nowhere near the end yet. *smiles*
I can't say that I feed off of reviews because I would probably starve to death. Ha ha.
Look forward to chapter #7!
- ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤