Title: Born to Be My Baby
Author: ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Date: Began March, 2003
Chapter: 13/?
Rating: Chapter 1 - 8 : PG - 13
Chapter 9 : R
Chapter 10 - 12 : PG-13
Chapter 13 : PG-13
Category: Romance, Angst, Language, Blood and the like
Main Pairing: Gojyo x Hakkai
Disclaimer: I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki. All characters, names, etc. are copyrighted to Minekura Kazuya.
Warning: Shounen ai/yaoi (for you people who don't speak Japanese, that's male/male relationships.... isn't it cute? *smiles*)
I am so, so, so, so sorry that this chapter took so freaking long. I've started school again just recently and due to homework, the only real time I have for writing is on the weekends and on those few occasions that I'm absent from school. Weekends.... Well, Chro is online on weekends and she's my best online buddy. *waves* Yep, right now, I'm sick at home and typing this while watching that Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock music video... Come on, people, laugh!
Chapter #13
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After the constant whining and complaining from Goku, the monk finally decided to give in to his request, which was, unusually, one that had absolutely nothing to do with food. The youth was under the impression that Gojyo was doing something totally inappropriate (and quite frankly, he was, but that's what locks are for) and even though Hakkai explained that it was perfectly alright with him that Gojyo was laying there with him, Sanzo decided to get the two lovers separate rooms.
"Look, just put up with it until Goku shuts up, alright!?" Sanzo yelled, the vein protruding from his forehead like it did when he always became upset.
* * *
"Uhm... Sanzo! What's wrong?" Shi inquired as she saw the monk sitting at one of the tables of the bar one late afternoon by himself, his fingers on either side of his forehead, rubbing his temples to try his best to prevent the migraine that was sure to be creeping up on him. "Sanzo?"
"Shut up, already," he growled. "I just have a headache. Get away."
"Do you need anything?"
"Shut up...!"
"I'll get you some aspirin." The girl ran off with a bounce in her step, popping into the back room where only employees of the bar were allowed, and came back out with water and medicine. "Just take these."
"How many times do I have to tell you to leave me alone!?" Sanzo cried and slammed a fist over the top of the table, causing the glass and two pale pink pills to rattle somewhat.
"What's got you so pissed?"
"You just can't take a hint!"
"Never been able to. What's wrong?"
He sighed and finally decided that, maybe, if he told her, she would be able to be shooed away. "It's just that damned monkey and his constant whining."
"What happened?"
"He walked in on...," but he stopped there, realizing that, even with the seemingly cold heart that he had been given, the two lovers still back at the hotel may not want their relationship going public.
"I already know," Shi broke in.
"What?"
"I know that they're together," she said, making reference to the half-breed and former teacher.
"You leaving now?" Sanzo growled under his breath.
"Guess so," she answered with the same amount of irritation and annoyance in her voice.
Sanzo looked to the aspirin and water. His headache had worsened.
* * *
Hakkai walked silently into the room that was only his now. Sanzo had said that they were not to see each other for the entire day.
He heaved a huge, long sigh from his lungs and walked over to the bed, taking a seat over the edge of the stone cold sheets over the mattress. Again, they had been rejected. It didn't really matter that Goku was the one with the strange look on the healer and kappa's relationship but the worst scene that the teenager saw was that two of his best friends were in love, not that they were two men.
He looked out the window. Overcast. 'Come to think of it...,' Hakkai thought. 'It's been raining for the past few days straight!' So... if he and Gojyo were not to see each other until dawn tomorrow, what would he do now?
He looked out the window again to the passing dark ashen clouds, hurrying across the sky, similar to that of smoke eminating from some huge fire in the far distance. The movements resembled smoke, but they moved slower than that. The sun had made its attempt to peek through the clouds, trying its hardest to bring light to the earth, but after a futile struggle, the blanket of clouds enshrouding the ususally blue sky grew thicker, blocking out the sun's rays.
A faint sound of a voice came from what sounded like behind him all of a sudden. It wasn't anything such as mystical or requiring inquiry but someone else's voice being drowned out and muffled by something.
* * *
"Do you understand now!?" Sanzo exclaimed through gritted teeth as his hand clenched into a fist, preparing to direct the threat to the boy sitting in front of him, causing him the frustration.
"Uh... no," Goku answered somewhat hesitantly, seeing that his questions were going to get nothing but a beating with that fan of Sanzo's.
Sanzo growled, partially at the teenager across from him, and partially at himself for trying to explain what one feels in the difference between friendship and love.
"Grr... alright," the monk began. "You've been walking down the street before and you see some girl or something," he waved it off," and you think, 'Maybe I should talk to her? She looks nice.'" He paused. "Get it? It's an 'attraction.'"
"I don't get it," Goku butted in. "And you sounded like Gojyo when you said that 'Maybe I should talk to her?' stuff."
"You know what!?" Sanzo exclaimed and rose from his seat at the table and drew his fan from his sleeve, letting it to decend upon Goku's cranium over and over again. Of course, our favorite murdering priest never found the sound of a paper fan against our favorite saru or kappa's heads to become redundant. "Go talk to Gojyo about this!" He stopped suddenly and thought about the words that he had just let escape from his lips. When he considered the fact that Gojyo would probably just go into detail about how he wanted to have sex with Hakkai, the blond reconsidered sending the boy to the red - haired half - breed and simply stomped upstairs, heading toward his room.
"Sanzo!" Goku called after him, following up the steps that led from the kitchen and dining room to the inn rooms on the top floor. "I still don't understand!"
"Then buy yourself a fucking dictionary! I'm through playing teacher!" Sanzo yelled back from behind the closed door to his room.
The teenager sulked and headed downstairs to the nearly empty eating room near the kitchen, the only other people in it besides him being a few middle - aged men looking to play cards for bottlecaps or some other cheap items.
Sanzo had suggested going to ask Gojyo. Goku rejected the suggestion immediately. Even he knew that Gojyo would say or do something wrong like let something false or secret slip out or just haul off and hit him! And he had already tried going to Hakkai for answers. Basically, he was out of options.
He sat down at the table in the kitchen.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Shi asked from behind the teenager. "Jeez, everyone is so down today!" She smiled.
* * *
"Ah, man!" Gojyo exclaimed, running a hand through his hair in frustration as he went over to the bed and nearly collapsed onto the sheets. 'Crap, it's hot!' He kicked off his boots and let them land in some miscellaneous spot next to the bed. Removing his headband and azure denim vest and setting them over the headboard of the bed, he let a long sigh escape his lungs.
He stare up at the ceiling now, caught in deep thought about a shallow subject. He laughed to himself and got back up off of the bed, seeing as the sheets were not as cool as when he first lay down, and made his way to the other side of the room to retrieve a book of "Under The Glass Moon" from his travel bag, which was sitting atop a rather high night stand, but suddenly found himself immersed in thought once again. [1]
If he and Hakkai were not really bothering anyone else unless they walked in on them, then what was the point of punishing them by puting them in separate rooms?
He shrugged, but once he did, the distraction provided by thought had separated him from the physical world and his bag fell over onto his bare foot, the spare can of beer that he had hidden in one of the smaller pockets slamming, edge first, into his toes.
"Ah! Dammit!" he cursed, quite loudly, grabbing at the bag frustratedly and fell back over onto his bed on the other side of the room, forgetting his book and deciding just to try his best to fall asleep early. "Shit."
"Gojyo?" an all too familiar voice inquired from, what seemed like, nowhere in the room.
"What?"
"Gojyo, is that you?" it asked again.
"What in the...?" Gojyo got up from his bed and walked over to the part of the room where he thought the voice to be coming from: a bare spot in the corner of the room, behind his bed. He settled himself down between the wall and the mattress with a little moving space to spare, and knocked on the wall once, and was responded to by another knock. "Hakkai?"
"Gojyo?" Gojyo could hear the smile in Hakkai's voice. "This part of the wall is so thin, we can hear each other easily." [2]
"Tch!" Gojyo laughed. "Luck would have it, huh?"
"Yes." Hakkai nodded to himself. He put his fingertips to the thin part in the wall without a sound and paused, wondering if he should let his thoughts slip through his lips in words. He bit his bottom lip. He wanted to ask Gojyo. He wanted to ask him if what someone had said was true. "Gojyo?"
"Eh?"
"Do you remember... that woman at the bar? The one with the group that... didn't accept what we were?"
"Baby, I don't ever want you to listen to that kind of shit. Don't take crap from anyone if you don't want to. They can't make you do anything."
"Yes, but I just... want to ask you something."
"Hakkai, you sound nervous. You can talk to me about anything anytime anywhere."
The brunette heaved a huge sigh and managed a smile. "Do you remember when that woman said that all gay men wanted was gay sex with... other gay men?" It was obvious that Hakkai did not appreciate the language that he had to quote upon, but his tone trembled as he continued, "I know that we are in love. Deeply. But..."
"But what, baby?"
"Do you... want to have sex with me?" Hakkai's voice nearly cracked at the end of the inquiry, but the rest of his body froze as a silence settled over the other man on the other side of the wall. "Gojyo?"
"I love you, so I'll tell you the truth." He could hear the brunette inhale. "I do. I love you so much, Hakkai, but sex is not the only thing that love can be about... right? You tell me."
The former teacher's lips curved into a warm smile. "No. Love is not just a sexual relationship."
"Exactly. Before I met you, I never really was in a romantic relationship. Sure... There was a woman that I loved... But she hated me. All of the other women were just for sex. But that was all before I found you on that horribly rainy night. Because of you, I finally know what it's like to love and be loved. And if you aren't ready yet, I can wait until you are... for when we make love."
"Make love...," Hakkai whispered to himself as a memory of the first night he had made love to his beloved sister came back to him.
"You do know...," Gojyo laughed,"just that sooner or later, it'll come."
"Yes..." Hakkai could feel his curiosity grow as he imagined exactly what one of the things that Gojyo wanted was: To have the most intimate moment of your life and share it with another person, to be united in an orgasm, to be united in love, give extreme pleasure to one another. Gojyo wanted to push himself inside of Hakkai. He wanted Hakkai.
Of course, neither of them had had sex with another man before. Gojyo had thought about going up to his room with another man just to explore a curious field never before breached, but he always denied the fact that his sexuality may be a little more complex than he had first expected. But living together with Hakkai for three entire years and then travelling with him and his companions on top of that, Gojyo found himself admitting that he had changed and that the brunette had changed him. Over those years, when Gojyo would secretly watch Hakkai sleep, his affection would grow. Sex may have been something casual for the gambler, but with Hakkai, it would be unforgettable, even if it didn't end in ecstacy but in a failure.
It would be different. Hakkai gave a small chuckle that only he could hear. 'It would be different.' Something about the way he put it to words in his mind hit his humorous side for some reason.
The brunette wondered what exactly it would be like to be joined in love with Sha Gojyo. He guessed that Gojyo would be initiating everything, pretty much like always. And, as we may have all already assumed, Hakkai had never had anal sex before.
"Well...," Gojyo concluded suddenly as a rustle was heard as he stood up and patted the dust from the floor off of his pants. "I'm gonna take a shower. I have to go out tonight."
"Don't come home drunk, Gojyo," Hakkai advised, the false smile easily heard in his voice.
"Yeah, yeah, I know." The red-haired youkai smiled and rummaged through his bag for an extra pair of clothes as he placed his fingertips to the doorknob. "I'll see you later, Hakkai."
"Good-bye."
* * *
"Well, well, well!" A young voice began as Gojyo travelled his way down the steps, a damp towel over his red silken locks, drying them from his shower. "Going out, Gojyo?" Shi asked. Gojyo stopped suddenly and stared at the girl with her bandana and closed eyes in smile. Gojyo stopped to stare at her for a moment, pausing in thought yet he was forced to shake himself out of it due to the fact that he was in public.
"Oh! Looks like the zaru has gotten himself a girlfriend!" Gojyo teased once he saw Shi and Goku sitting at the table together.
"Girlfriend? What?" Goku exclaimed, flailing his arms this way and that. "What what what?"
"Whatever. I gotta hurry," Gojyo explained as he finished drying his hair and placed the somewhat wet cotton towel in the basket next to the stairway. "I have an errand to run and I want to get it done quick." "Sure," Shi began in somewhat of a sarcastic tone. "I'm surprised Hakkai is not with you."
"Wah...!?"
"O-o-oh!" Goku cried out and shot his chair back, standing up straight and pointing at Gojyo.
"Try keeping that hole you call a mouth closed, bakazaru!"
* * *
The blonde sat at the windowsil, one leg resting on the windowsil, itself, and the other thrown to the inside of the building, bestowing the monk with a nearly perfect view of the moon, its light falling upon his part of the planet and granting an ominous glow to all that ventured into the night. An eerie silence was present among the land as Sanzo let a sigh escape his lungs, mixing with the heavily humidified air of the late evening sky.
An extremely light breeze blew across the horizon, just lightly breathing against Sanzo's skin as he sat in his black body suit. Despite how soft the feather light wind was, the monk still shivered.
He looked to the moon that hung almost loosely and unsurely in the air as a fit of dizziness suddenly claimed his mind. His head felt heavy and he rose one hand up to his forehead.
"Ugh... What the...?"
A painful nausia cascaded over his insides as he clutched his stomach and doubled over, falling inward purposly so as not to tumble out of the window. The attack seemed to cease as his breathing could be heard in light gasps. 'What in the world...?'
* * *
Hakkai returned back to his room with large bag in hand of which he set on his bed and began to unpack the contents of. Previously, he had dropped off a few bags at Sanzo and Goku's room that contained a few pairs of extra clothes, seeing as they had only had a few ever since the bag with many of their garments had been left in the other town. Sanzo didn't seem himself for one reason or another, but investigating further into Sanzo's thoughts usually ended up with several slaps to the head with the fan and countless insults...to everyone.
It was late at night by now, most likely around eleven or eleven-thirty into the evening and the sun had set long before he had returned.
He felt exhausted now, seeing as he had been walking around the town all day, picking up the needed necessities and other miscellaneous commodities. Of course, he had gotten used to it and, unfortunately, had also gotten used to pushing himself just to please others.
He finally felt the soreness of his feet become the slightest bit too much for him and he decided to, instead of finishing unpacking his bag, have a sit onto the end of the bed and let out a rather long sigh as he removed his shoes and began to feel sleep consume his consciousness. He reached back, put the bag on the floor next to the bed and moved up to the pillow to lay his head down.
'Come to think of it...,' Hakkai thought, 'even though I walked all around town, I did not see Gojyo anywhere...!' But despite his concern for his sensual lover, he felt that speeding around the town all day left his body completely spent and his muscles sore. 'I do hope he's alright...'
It seems as though a few hours had already passed and Hakkai felt his eyes slowly open to a still dark scenery, just as blue and black as when he had fallen asleep first. Then he discovered just what had woken him up: the window had been opened and the wind blowing and billowing inside was absolutely freezing. Still, there was no sign of Gojyo.
It was at this point that Hakkai's concern escalated.
*End Chapter #13*
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Bah, I don't blame you wonderful readers if you're still angry with me. *cry* Sorry. School's been murder so far.
Read next chaper, please! Oh, yes, and I finally have my scanner up and working so if you want to see any of my fanart, you can either go to my gallery or e-mail me. (Fanart page: http://www.deviantart.com/tokitoh)
[1] "Under The Glass Moon" is a Korean manga series by Ku Ya-Seong. I just thought that I could see Gojyo reading something of this genre for some reason, so I figured, hey what the hell?
[2] This idea... I dunno. I'm such a sucker for Gojyo x Hakkai romance that even when they get in trouble by Sanzo, they still get to be with each other. Anyway, I was playing The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask (N64) and there was this part in it where you need to earn this certain mask and to do that, you need to find out certain information on people, make certain events happen, and yadda yadda. This one was hard though. Any of you out there that have played it know what I am talking about: The Couple's Mask. *cringe* It drove me insane. But you get to spy on people! *evil grin* Actually, you hear voices coming from a thin part in a hotel wall and you can listen in on the other people in the room next to your's, so that's where that came from.
You...guys...must...HATE ME NOW! Goddammit, I feel HORRIBLE for delaying these updates so FUCKING long! SHIT!!!
Hakkai: Note~Toki may say "Goddammit" but she is an aethiest. o_^
Yeah.... The whole "God" thing is reflex 'cause I've always been fooling myself in thinking that there was one. Oh, come on, guys, if you're offended by my not having religion, why are you reading something that involves that whole homosexuality sweetness bit? *pokes religious freaks* Isn't it a sin? I don't get that. *now begins to poke a bible* Heh... I don't get anything. Hey!! *reads her reviews* That's a great idea! *pokes bible with a stail breadstick* Heheh. Freedom of religion, er, whatever. Screw the world!! ^_^
-Toki (a.k.a. YOUR AUTHOR) P.S. I died! That's why it took so long! I'm a freaking zombie now! And I'm falling apart!!! I can't type when I'm falling apart, can I?! *ebil cackle*
Author: ¤Sha¤GojyoxCho¤Hakkai¤
Date: Began March, 2003
Chapter: 13/?
Rating: Chapter 1 - 8 : PG - 13
Chapter 9 : R
Chapter 10 - 12 : PG-13
Chapter 13 : PG-13
Category: Romance, Angst, Language, Blood and the like
Main Pairing: Gojyo x Hakkai
Disclaimer: I do not own Gensomaden Saiyuki. All characters, names, etc. are copyrighted to Minekura Kazuya.
Warning: Shounen ai/yaoi (for you people who don't speak Japanese, that's male/male relationships.... isn't it cute? *smiles*)
I am so, so, so, so sorry that this chapter took so freaking long. I've started school again just recently and due to homework, the only real time I have for writing is on the weekends and on those few occasions that I'm absent from school. Weekends.... Well, Chro is online on weekends and she's my best online buddy. *waves* Yep, right now, I'm sick at home and typing this while watching that Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock music video... Come on, people, laugh!
Chapter #13
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After the constant whining and complaining from Goku, the monk finally decided to give in to his request, which was, unusually, one that had absolutely nothing to do with food. The youth was under the impression that Gojyo was doing something totally inappropriate (and quite frankly, he was, but that's what locks are for) and even though Hakkai explained that it was perfectly alright with him that Gojyo was laying there with him, Sanzo decided to get the two lovers separate rooms.
"Look, just put up with it until Goku shuts up, alright!?" Sanzo yelled, the vein protruding from his forehead like it did when he always became upset.
* * *
"Uhm... Sanzo! What's wrong?" Shi inquired as she saw the monk sitting at one of the tables of the bar one late afternoon by himself, his fingers on either side of his forehead, rubbing his temples to try his best to prevent the migraine that was sure to be creeping up on him. "Sanzo?"
"Shut up, already," he growled. "I just have a headache. Get away."
"Do you need anything?"
"Shut up...!"
"I'll get you some aspirin." The girl ran off with a bounce in her step, popping into the back room where only employees of the bar were allowed, and came back out with water and medicine. "Just take these."
"How many times do I have to tell you to leave me alone!?" Sanzo cried and slammed a fist over the top of the table, causing the glass and two pale pink pills to rattle somewhat.
"What's got you so pissed?"
"You just can't take a hint!"
"Never been able to. What's wrong?"
He sighed and finally decided that, maybe, if he told her, she would be able to be shooed away. "It's just that damned monkey and his constant whining."
"What happened?"
"He walked in on...," but he stopped there, realizing that, even with the seemingly cold heart that he had been given, the two lovers still back at the hotel may not want their relationship going public.
"I already know," Shi broke in.
"What?"
"I know that they're together," she said, making reference to the half-breed and former teacher.
"You leaving now?" Sanzo growled under his breath.
"Guess so," she answered with the same amount of irritation and annoyance in her voice.
Sanzo looked to the aspirin and water. His headache had worsened.
* * *
Hakkai walked silently into the room that was only his now. Sanzo had said that they were not to see each other for the entire day.
He heaved a huge, long sigh from his lungs and walked over to the bed, taking a seat over the edge of the stone cold sheets over the mattress. Again, they had been rejected. It didn't really matter that Goku was the one with the strange look on the healer and kappa's relationship but the worst scene that the teenager saw was that two of his best friends were in love, not that they were two men.
He looked out the window. Overcast. 'Come to think of it...,' Hakkai thought. 'It's been raining for the past few days straight!' So... if he and Gojyo were not to see each other until dawn tomorrow, what would he do now?
He looked out the window again to the passing dark ashen clouds, hurrying across the sky, similar to that of smoke eminating from some huge fire in the far distance. The movements resembled smoke, but they moved slower than that. The sun had made its attempt to peek through the clouds, trying its hardest to bring light to the earth, but after a futile struggle, the blanket of clouds enshrouding the ususally blue sky grew thicker, blocking out the sun's rays.
A faint sound of a voice came from what sounded like behind him all of a sudden. It wasn't anything such as mystical or requiring inquiry but someone else's voice being drowned out and muffled by something.
* * *
"Do you understand now!?" Sanzo exclaimed through gritted teeth as his hand clenched into a fist, preparing to direct the threat to the boy sitting in front of him, causing him the frustration.
"Uh... no," Goku answered somewhat hesitantly, seeing that his questions were going to get nothing but a beating with that fan of Sanzo's.
Sanzo growled, partially at the teenager across from him, and partially at himself for trying to explain what one feels in the difference between friendship and love.
"Grr... alright," the monk began. "You've been walking down the street before and you see some girl or something," he waved it off," and you think, 'Maybe I should talk to her? She looks nice.'" He paused. "Get it? It's an 'attraction.'"
"I don't get it," Goku butted in. "And you sounded like Gojyo when you said that 'Maybe I should talk to her?' stuff."
"You know what!?" Sanzo exclaimed and rose from his seat at the table and drew his fan from his sleeve, letting it to decend upon Goku's cranium over and over again. Of course, our favorite murdering priest never found the sound of a paper fan against our favorite saru or kappa's heads to become redundant. "Go talk to Gojyo about this!" He stopped suddenly and thought about the words that he had just let escape from his lips. When he considered the fact that Gojyo would probably just go into detail about how he wanted to have sex with Hakkai, the blond reconsidered sending the boy to the red - haired half - breed and simply stomped upstairs, heading toward his room.
"Sanzo!" Goku called after him, following up the steps that led from the kitchen and dining room to the inn rooms on the top floor. "I still don't understand!"
"Then buy yourself a fucking dictionary! I'm through playing teacher!" Sanzo yelled back from behind the closed door to his room.
The teenager sulked and headed downstairs to the nearly empty eating room near the kitchen, the only other people in it besides him being a few middle - aged men looking to play cards for bottlecaps or some other cheap items.
Sanzo had suggested going to ask Gojyo. Goku rejected the suggestion immediately. Even he knew that Gojyo would say or do something wrong like let something false or secret slip out or just haul off and hit him! And he had already tried going to Hakkai for answers. Basically, he was out of options.
He sat down at the table in the kitchen.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Shi asked from behind the teenager. "Jeez, everyone is so down today!" She smiled.
* * *
"Ah, man!" Gojyo exclaimed, running a hand through his hair in frustration as he went over to the bed and nearly collapsed onto the sheets. 'Crap, it's hot!' He kicked off his boots and let them land in some miscellaneous spot next to the bed. Removing his headband and azure denim vest and setting them over the headboard of the bed, he let a long sigh escape his lungs.
He stare up at the ceiling now, caught in deep thought about a shallow subject. He laughed to himself and got back up off of the bed, seeing as the sheets were not as cool as when he first lay down, and made his way to the other side of the room to retrieve a book of "Under The Glass Moon" from his travel bag, which was sitting atop a rather high night stand, but suddenly found himself immersed in thought once again. [1]
If he and Hakkai were not really bothering anyone else unless they walked in on them, then what was the point of punishing them by puting them in separate rooms?
He shrugged, but once he did, the distraction provided by thought had separated him from the physical world and his bag fell over onto his bare foot, the spare can of beer that he had hidden in one of the smaller pockets slamming, edge first, into his toes.
"Ah! Dammit!" he cursed, quite loudly, grabbing at the bag frustratedly and fell back over onto his bed on the other side of the room, forgetting his book and deciding just to try his best to fall asleep early. "Shit."
"Gojyo?" an all too familiar voice inquired from, what seemed like, nowhere in the room.
"What?"
"Gojyo, is that you?" it asked again.
"What in the...?" Gojyo got up from his bed and walked over to the part of the room where he thought the voice to be coming from: a bare spot in the corner of the room, behind his bed. He settled himself down between the wall and the mattress with a little moving space to spare, and knocked on the wall once, and was responded to by another knock. "Hakkai?"
"Gojyo?" Gojyo could hear the smile in Hakkai's voice. "This part of the wall is so thin, we can hear each other easily." [2]
"Tch!" Gojyo laughed. "Luck would have it, huh?"
"Yes." Hakkai nodded to himself. He put his fingertips to the thin part in the wall without a sound and paused, wondering if he should let his thoughts slip through his lips in words. He bit his bottom lip. He wanted to ask Gojyo. He wanted to ask him if what someone had said was true. "Gojyo?"
"Eh?"
"Do you remember... that woman at the bar? The one with the group that... didn't accept what we were?"
"Baby, I don't ever want you to listen to that kind of shit. Don't take crap from anyone if you don't want to. They can't make you do anything."
"Yes, but I just... want to ask you something."
"Hakkai, you sound nervous. You can talk to me about anything anytime anywhere."
The brunette heaved a huge sigh and managed a smile. "Do you remember when that woman said that all gay men wanted was gay sex with... other gay men?" It was obvious that Hakkai did not appreciate the language that he had to quote upon, but his tone trembled as he continued, "I know that we are in love. Deeply. But..."
"But what, baby?"
"Do you... want to have sex with me?" Hakkai's voice nearly cracked at the end of the inquiry, but the rest of his body froze as a silence settled over the other man on the other side of the wall. "Gojyo?"
"I love you, so I'll tell you the truth." He could hear the brunette inhale. "I do. I love you so much, Hakkai, but sex is not the only thing that love can be about... right? You tell me."
The former teacher's lips curved into a warm smile. "No. Love is not just a sexual relationship."
"Exactly. Before I met you, I never really was in a romantic relationship. Sure... There was a woman that I loved... But she hated me. All of the other women were just for sex. But that was all before I found you on that horribly rainy night. Because of you, I finally know what it's like to love and be loved. And if you aren't ready yet, I can wait until you are... for when we make love."
"Make love...," Hakkai whispered to himself as a memory of the first night he had made love to his beloved sister came back to him.
"You do know...," Gojyo laughed,"just that sooner or later, it'll come."
"Yes..." Hakkai could feel his curiosity grow as he imagined exactly what one of the things that Gojyo wanted was: To have the most intimate moment of your life and share it with another person, to be united in an orgasm, to be united in love, give extreme pleasure to one another. Gojyo wanted to push himself inside of Hakkai. He wanted Hakkai.
Of course, neither of them had had sex with another man before. Gojyo had thought about going up to his room with another man just to explore a curious field never before breached, but he always denied the fact that his sexuality may be a little more complex than he had first expected. But living together with Hakkai for three entire years and then travelling with him and his companions on top of that, Gojyo found himself admitting that he had changed and that the brunette had changed him. Over those years, when Gojyo would secretly watch Hakkai sleep, his affection would grow. Sex may have been something casual for the gambler, but with Hakkai, it would be unforgettable, even if it didn't end in ecstacy but in a failure.
It would be different. Hakkai gave a small chuckle that only he could hear. 'It would be different.' Something about the way he put it to words in his mind hit his humorous side for some reason.
The brunette wondered what exactly it would be like to be joined in love with Sha Gojyo. He guessed that Gojyo would be initiating everything, pretty much like always. And, as we may have all already assumed, Hakkai had never had anal sex before.
"Well...," Gojyo concluded suddenly as a rustle was heard as he stood up and patted the dust from the floor off of his pants. "I'm gonna take a shower. I have to go out tonight."
"Don't come home drunk, Gojyo," Hakkai advised, the false smile easily heard in his voice.
"Yeah, yeah, I know." The red-haired youkai smiled and rummaged through his bag for an extra pair of clothes as he placed his fingertips to the doorknob. "I'll see you later, Hakkai."
"Good-bye."
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"Well, well, well!" A young voice began as Gojyo travelled his way down the steps, a damp towel over his red silken locks, drying them from his shower. "Going out, Gojyo?" Shi asked. Gojyo stopped suddenly and stared at the girl with her bandana and closed eyes in smile. Gojyo stopped to stare at her for a moment, pausing in thought yet he was forced to shake himself out of it due to the fact that he was in public.
"Oh! Looks like the zaru has gotten himself a girlfriend!" Gojyo teased once he saw Shi and Goku sitting at the table together.
"Girlfriend? What?" Goku exclaimed, flailing his arms this way and that. "What what what?"
"Whatever. I gotta hurry," Gojyo explained as he finished drying his hair and placed the somewhat wet cotton towel in the basket next to the stairway. "I have an errand to run and I want to get it done quick." "Sure," Shi began in somewhat of a sarcastic tone. "I'm surprised Hakkai is not with you."
"Wah...!?"
"O-o-oh!" Goku cried out and shot his chair back, standing up straight and pointing at Gojyo.
"Try keeping that hole you call a mouth closed, bakazaru!"
* * *
The blonde sat at the windowsil, one leg resting on the windowsil, itself, and the other thrown to the inside of the building, bestowing the monk with a nearly perfect view of the moon, its light falling upon his part of the planet and granting an ominous glow to all that ventured into the night. An eerie silence was present among the land as Sanzo let a sigh escape his lungs, mixing with the heavily humidified air of the late evening sky.
An extremely light breeze blew across the horizon, just lightly breathing against Sanzo's skin as he sat in his black body suit. Despite how soft the feather light wind was, the monk still shivered.
He looked to the moon that hung almost loosely and unsurely in the air as a fit of dizziness suddenly claimed his mind. His head felt heavy and he rose one hand up to his forehead.
"Ugh... What the...?"
A painful nausia cascaded over his insides as he clutched his stomach and doubled over, falling inward purposly so as not to tumble out of the window. The attack seemed to cease as his breathing could be heard in light gasps. 'What in the world...?'
* * *
Hakkai returned back to his room with large bag in hand of which he set on his bed and began to unpack the contents of. Previously, he had dropped off a few bags at Sanzo and Goku's room that contained a few pairs of extra clothes, seeing as they had only had a few ever since the bag with many of their garments had been left in the other town. Sanzo didn't seem himself for one reason or another, but investigating further into Sanzo's thoughts usually ended up with several slaps to the head with the fan and countless insults...to everyone.
It was late at night by now, most likely around eleven or eleven-thirty into the evening and the sun had set long before he had returned.
He felt exhausted now, seeing as he had been walking around the town all day, picking up the needed necessities and other miscellaneous commodities. Of course, he had gotten used to it and, unfortunately, had also gotten used to pushing himself just to please others.
He finally felt the soreness of his feet become the slightest bit too much for him and he decided to, instead of finishing unpacking his bag, have a sit onto the end of the bed and let out a rather long sigh as he removed his shoes and began to feel sleep consume his consciousness. He reached back, put the bag on the floor next to the bed and moved up to the pillow to lay his head down.
'Come to think of it...,' Hakkai thought, 'even though I walked all around town, I did not see Gojyo anywhere...!' But despite his concern for his sensual lover, he felt that speeding around the town all day left his body completely spent and his muscles sore. 'I do hope he's alright...'
It seems as though a few hours had already passed and Hakkai felt his eyes slowly open to a still dark scenery, just as blue and black as when he had fallen asleep first. Then he discovered just what had woken him up: the window had been opened and the wind blowing and billowing inside was absolutely freezing. Still, there was no sign of Gojyo.
It was at this point that Hakkai's concern escalated.
*End Chapter #13*
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Bah, I don't blame you wonderful readers if you're still angry with me. *cry* Sorry. School's been murder so far.
Read next chaper, please! Oh, yes, and I finally have my scanner up and working so if you want to see any of my fanart, you can either go to my gallery or e-mail me. (Fanart page: http://www.deviantart.com/tokitoh)
[1] "Under The Glass Moon" is a Korean manga series by Ku Ya-Seong. I just thought that I could see Gojyo reading something of this genre for some reason, so I figured, hey what the hell?
[2] This idea... I dunno. I'm such a sucker for Gojyo x Hakkai romance that even when they get in trouble by Sanzo, they still get to be with each other. Anyway, I was playing The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask (N64) and there was this part in it where you need to earn this certain mask and to do that, you need to find out certain information on people, make certain events happen, and yadda yadda. This one was hard though. Any of you out there that have played it know what I am talking about: The Couple's Mask. *cringe* It drove me insane. But you get to spy on people! *evil grin* Actually, you hear voices coming from a thin part in a hotel wall and you can listen in on the other people in the room next to your's, so that's where that came from.
You...guys...must...HATE ME NOW! Goddammit, I feel HORRIBLE for delaying these updates so FUCKING long! SHIT!!!
Hakkai: Note~Toki may say "Goddammit" but she is an aethiest. o_^
Yeah.... The whole "God" thing is reflex 'cause I've always been fooling myself in thinking that there was one. Oh, come on, guys, if you're offended by my not having religion, why are you reading something that involves that whole homosexuality sweetness bit? *pokes religious freaks* Isn't it a sin? I don't get that. *now begins to poke a bible* Heh... I don't get anything. Hey!! *reads her reviews* That's a great idea! *pokes bible with a stail breadstick* Heheh. Freedom of religion, er, whatever. Screw the world!! ^_^
-Toki (a.k.a. YOUR AUTHOR) P.S. I died! That's why it took so long! I'm a freaking zombie now! And I'm falling apart!!! I can't type when I'm falling apart, can I?! *ebil cackle*