Rejection of a Different Type: Uninvited
Kura Miakoda
Disclaimer: I do not own neither the song nor Inuyasha.
He had kissed me. A soul searing kiss with all his desire but it dawned on me that although he felt something and poured it into the kiss, I did not.
Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
My one true wish had finally come true and yet I no longer wanted it. Why? How is it that now when all is over I cannot desire. Yet, all that I wanted was he and now that I have him I do not want him.
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
I don't want this desire I don't want it anymore. He only sees me now when she is gone. I am his refuge away from what he has lost. I have always been his scapegoat.
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
To see his walls crumble was an amazing scene. I felt so bad but then knew it had to happen. It pained me although it did fascinate me to no end to see the relevant befall.
Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
It was hard to let go in the beginning but now it seems the tables have turned. What I desired and could not have I let go but when he let go he tried to hide it. We were similar him and I.
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch Shepard meet Shepard
I can't allow him to hide. It will only lead us both to heartache. Only God knows how much I have endured. He's not wanted here by me anymore. He's lost both chances and it seems it was his unfortunate fate.
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
I must seem to further blossom his curiosity. He has mine, he's grown so much but in so little ways. I cannot continue to strike his interest because of my similarities to another. It must stop here.
Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
I hate to admit the obvious but the once love that he contained still remains only for that one. It is not meant for others or at least not me. His heart is heavy and I know he speaks of love well in his heart but in mine he knows none of which I have endured. Our loves our similar but then so controversial.
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
He was never mine to love…so he remains uninvited…unwanted…for it would bring forth to many…memories.
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
I couldn't handle being second, knowing there was always another. It seems time was against yet always with those of heart…I apologize…my dear friend…for I love you…
I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate
…but not as you desire.
*Sorry for the mishap, computer kinda stupid. O and plz check out my other story "Epic of a Wish: Realizations"
