Tears tricked down Jem's cheeks as she rotated the sharp steel knife in her
hands, there had to be another way, it couldn't end like this.
But in her heart she knew it had to, there was no other real way to put her
mother out of her misery, the pain of losing Neo.
Her weapon of choice had been only too easy to get her hands on, she had no idea why they kept knives in the medical room, but they sure were easy to access. Taking another deep breath to clear her cloudy mind, Jem slowly slid the sharp blade under her mattress, ready for whenever she needed to use it.
A sheer feeling of uncontrollable hopelessness washed over her as she lay back down on the metal cot. It wasn't fair, it just so wasn't fair.this war, her fathers death, the painful mercy killing she was about to commit.It just wasn't fair, any of it.
The still silence in the room overwhelmed her, and she buried her face deep into the pillow to block it out. Although it was freezing cold, Jem couldn't feel any of it.she was just floating in a black oblivion of emotionless battle, and it was slowly killing her.
What Jem presumed to be the middle of the night came around, and with a small stifled sob, she pulled herself up and out of her cot. The knife was exactly where she had left it, and she pulled it out, accidentally slicing her finger slightly on the blade.
Her muscles were all frozen up, she could barley move them through the haze of adrenaline and fear rushing through her veins. Slowly but surely, Jem moved her way through the room, and pulled open the heavy steel door.
The corridor was empty, completely void of life. Her mother's door lay a few feet to the right, but it seemed like a few miles to Jem, who was shaking badly in fear. Slowly, she made her way forward, and before she knew it, her hand was on the door handle, ready and waiting for the task ahead.
Slowly she twisted the handle and pushed the door open, to reveal Trinity, sitting up, supporting herself against the sides of the metal cot. Quickly hiding the knife behind her back, Jem cautiously made her way forward, dark eyes wide in surprise. "Mum?" she whispered, halting her pace a few feet away from trinity. Jem didn't actually expect her mother to speak to her, but she wanted desperately to take this as a sign, that she was indeed getting better, that there would have to be no killing.
A sigh escaped Trinity's lips, and she looked up directly into Jem's chocolate brown eyes, without so much as flinching. A shock spilled through Jem's system, and she took another step forward, and then another, until she was able to sit down next to her mother on the bed.
"Jem" Whispered Trinity, causing her to jump. It was the first time her mother had spoken to her in over three weeks after all.
Slowly, Trinity reached out and pulled Jem into a tight hug, tears trickling down her pale cheeks. "I'm sorry Jem" she whispered, "I'm so sorry.I love you, you know that, you're my daughter, and I've b-been so selfish." Jem shook her head and hugged Trinity back, whole body trembling, unable to say anything to stop her mother's tears.
They stayed like that for what seemed like an eternity, until Trinity opened her eyes and spotted the glinting blade of the knife sitting next to her daughter on the bed. She pulled away from Jem, and reached around her, grasping the handle of the thick steel blade.
Jem's eyes widened "Mum.I'm so sorry.I thought it was the only way I was going to be able to put you out of you're misery.I-I was so stupid.I didn't know w-what I was doing." Trinity silently put the knife down onto the ground, "Jem" she interjected, "Jem.I don't think even death could put me out of the misery of losing you're father, he was my life.the very thing that kept me sane, he was a part of me, I loved him so much." She stifled a sob and lifted Jem's chin, looking deep within her eyes "When me and him had you, everything was perfect, and Jem.without you, I would probably be dead anyway.from heartbreak.you were the only thing that kept my heart from breaking Jem.I love you."
Jem burst into tears at that moment, sobbing hysterically into her mothers shoulder, she wasn't even sure why she was crying.but she was. She had never ever heard Trinity speak to anyone like that, not in such depth.it was almost scary.
Many tears were shed in the short space of time they hugged each other, and finally, Jem pulled away and looked at Trinity."Mum.she whispered.I know.that as long as we have each other.everything will be okay.not perfect like it was before.but okay.":
-Fin
A/N Not what you expected? Or was it? Well.Happy X-mas, and Happy New Year.now I need more inspiration, lolz
Thankyou to all the people who reviewed the other chapterz (don't know who they are yet!) And thankyou to Naz (Angel-Of-Lightness) For encouraging me to finish this fic, and being a great mate!
-Nyx-Alia-
Her weapon of choice had been only too easy to get her hands on, she had no idea why they kept knives in the medical room, but they sure were easy to access. Taking another deep breath to clear her cloudy mind, Jem slowly slid the sharp blade under her mattress, ready for whenever she needed to use it.
A sheer feeling of uncontrollable hopelessness washed over her as she lay back down on the metal cot. It wasn't fair, it just so wasn't fair.this war, her fathers death, the painful mercy killing she was about to commit.It just wasn't fair, any of it.
The still silence in the room overwhelmed her, and she buried her face deep into the pillow to block it out. Although it was freezing cold, Jem couldn't feel any of it.she was just floating in a black oblivion of emotionless battle, and it was slowly killing her.
What Jem presumed to be the middle of the night came around, and with a small stifled sob, she pulled herself up and out of her cot. The knife was exactly where she had left it, and she pulled it out, accidentally slicing her finger slightly on the blade.
Her muscles were all frozen up, she could barley move them through the haze of adrenaline and fear rushing through her veins. Slowly but surely, Jem moved her way through the room, and pulled open the heavy steel door.
The corridor was empty, completely void of life. Her mother's door lay a few feet to the right, but it seemed like a few miles to Jem, who was shaking badly in fear. Slowly, she made her way forward, and before she knew it, her hand was on the door handle, ready and waiting for the task ahead.
Slowly she twisted the handle and pushed the door open, to reveal Trinity, sitting up, supporting herself against the sides of the metal cot. Quickly hiding the knife behind her back, Jem cautiously made her way forward, dark eyes wide in surprise. "Mum?" she whispered, halting her pace a few feet away from trinity. Jem didn't actually expect her mother to speak to her, but she wanted desperately to take this as a sign, that she was indeed getting better, that there would have to be no killing.
A sigh escaped Trinity's lips, and she looked up directly into Jem's chocolate brown eyes, without so much as flinching. A shock spilled through Jem's system, and she took another step forward, and then another, until she was able to sit down next to her mother on the bed.
"Jem" Whispered Trinity, causing her to jump. It was the first time her mother had spoken to her in over three weeks after all.
Slowly, Trinity reached out and pulled Jem into a tight hug, tears trickling down her pale cheeks. "I'm sorry Jem" she whispered, "I'm so sorry.I love you, you know that, you're my daughter, and I've b-been so selfish." Jem shook her head and hugged Trinity back, whole body trembling, unable to say anything to stop her mother's tears.
They stayed like that for what seemed like an eternity, until Trinity opened her eyes and spotted the glinting blade of the knife sitting next to her daughter on the bed. She pulled away from Jem, and reached around her, grasping the handle of the thick steel blade.
Jem's eyes widened "Mum.I'm so sorry.I thought it was the only way I was going to be able to put you out of you're misery.I-I was so stupid.I didn't know w-what I was doing." Trinity silently put the knife down onto the ground, "Jem" she interjected, "Jem.I don't think even death could put me out of the misery of losing you're father, he was my life.the very thing that kept me sane, he was a part of me, I loved him so much." She stifled a sob and lifted Jem's chin, looking deep within her eyes "When me and him had you, everything was perfect, and Jem.without you, I would probably be dead anyway.from heartbreak.you were the only thing that kept my heart from breaking Jem.I love you."
Jem burst into tears at that moment, sobbing hysterically into her mothers shoulder, she wasn't even sure why she was crying.but she was. She had never ever heard Trinity speak to anyone like that, not in such depth.it was almost scary.
Many tears were shed in the short space of time they hugged each other, and finally, Jem pulled away and looked at Trinity."Mum.she whispered.I know.that as long as we have each other.everything will be okay.not perfect like it was before.but okay.":
-Fin
A/N Not what you expected? Or was it? Well.Happy X-mas, and Happy New Year.now I need more inspiration, lolz
Thankyou to all the people who reviewed the other chapterz (don't know who they are yet!) And thankyou to Naz (Angel-Of-Lightness) For encouraging me to finish this fic, and being a great mate!
-Nyx-Alia-