Chapter 8: Unwanted

Seifer's POV

It had been a week since my encounter with Fujin, and her examination test had been and gone. I heard both her and her friend had passed. I sighed as I shook my head, telling myself to stop thinking about her.

'She's forgotten you Seifer…There is no hope of saving her from the hole that she's dug for herself.'

I didn't want to come to terms with reality at all…I wanted to shut myself away and forget everything about Fujin. Why did she haunt me, walking in my dreams never saying a word? All I wanted was for her to see me the way I wanted her to. But ever since I had last seen her, she hadn't spoken to me at all. Whenever we passed in the hall ways her eye would stay fixed in front of her, never glancing my way at all…

I was so wound up in my thoughts that I didn't see the person walking towards me, and I walked directly into them. I muttered a sorry and continued on my way, but I was stopped by a hand on my shoulder. I looked up into the dark eyes of Fujin's friend.

"You're Seifer right?" he said deeply.

"Yes…Rajin?" he nodded as I eyed him suspiciously. He hadn't spoken to me either all week; he had just kept away from the crowd with Fujin.

"Look," he rubbed the back of his neck looking slightly nervous, "I'm sorry about the other day, I didn't mean to…"

"No problem," I said cutting him off, "It's ok." I held out my hand as a sign of truce. He took it and we shook hands.

"Friends?"

"Friends." He agreed.

"See ya around." I turned and left him. I was glad that he didn't have anything against me, and besides, with someone as tall and big as him around, life could get better…

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Fujin's POV

I had watched those two shake hands feeling my heart glow inside my chest. I was happy that Rajin had apologised because I hadn't wanted them to stay mad at each other…

I was currently walking towards the cafeteria for my lunch break when I saw Seifer walk in my direction. There was so much that I wanted to say to him, to explain and to ask…but whenever I saw him by himself, which was most of the time, the strange faceless boy always flashed before my eyes. There was something about his aloof nature that reminded me of my unknown spectre. I couldn't quite figure out what it was but, whatever it was always made me think of him.

This was partly the reason why I was holding back, never speaking a word to him, and always walking on past him. But every time it happened, I was sure I could feel a small piece of my heartbreak in two.

There he was striding towards me with his usual step and I saw him look in my direction. He waved and began to divert his path to meet my own. But I looked into his eyes and felt slightly sick, the image of the dead, faceless boy entered my mind once again, causing me to quicken my pace to avoid him. I looked to the tiled floor and kept my eyes glued to the spotted patterns, wanting to run away from my fears. I heard his sweet, gentle voice enter my ears telling me to stop, calling my name and grabbing my hand. I flinched away from his touch and gasped as I glanced back out of the corner of my eye. I saw his mouth drop and teeth clench as his eyes grew cold. I saw him stalk off and I felt a void open up in my soul.

Something about him really stirred me up, making me feel all these unnecessary emotions that I didn't like. But the right answer was still buried deep inside me, if there was anything there. But I knew now that he was someone in my life. He had been there somewhere…somewhere that I couldn't remember…

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Seifer's POV

Again…again she had brushed me off! I was so tired of this, how she treated me and how she just ignored me completely as if I didn't exist! I had made an effort to get her back by grabbing her hand, making her face me. But she just threw my hand away like it was trash. I was sick of her acting like this!

Why couldn't she just talk to me like any other civilised person? Why did she have to blank me as if I wasn't even visible to the human eye? I was fuming with rage wanted to run after her and turn her around and confront her face to face. But I turned on my heels and walked as fast as I could to my room.

When I reached my dorm I flung myself on my bed and turned and tossed with anger. I tried to lie still thinking things over, but I couldn't stay still. I jumped off of my bed and grabbed my blade that lay against the wall. I turned again and walked briskly out of my room, gripping my gun handle as tightly as I could.

I headed towards the training centre and took out my built up fury on some helpless beasts. Swing after swing after swing, and fall after fall after fall. There lay a trail of dead, bleeding carcasses where ever I went. With every dead beast that fell to my feet I felt a little better. I shot my gunblade to attract more beasts to come to their death, and sure enough they came creeping through the bushes.

Roars and screeches sounded all through the huge synthetic jungle-like area as more beasts advanced their way towards me. I shouted and charged at them letting my gunblade do the work. It flowed in my hands as if I had owned it all my life, which I had. By now I had mastered the technique and knew it like the back of my hand. I twisted and turned like a gymnast in mid flight spinning my blade along with me, slicing through each rough hide of every beast.

Yet another pack of beasts put out of their misery. I let out a breath and wiped my forehead feeling a lot better with most of the anger out of my system. I turned to leave to replenish my energy and I trod over the lying bodies, hearing the crunch of bones beneath my feet. As I neared the exit I saw a classmate of mine near the gate.

She had her normal blue and black attire and was just going in as I was going out. Her long black hair flowed down her back like a waterfall, and her forever-smiling face greeted me as I went out.

"Hi Seifer." She said cheerfully.

"Hi." I held up my hand in a wave.

"How are you?" she said advancing closer.

"Not great. I don't think there's isn't much left in there." I said looking down to the floor.

"Aww…Really? What's up?" she said placing a hand on my shoulder. From her face I could tell she wanted to help me, but I didn't like her close proximity, so I tried to ignore it.

"Nothing really. Anyway," I said brushing her hand off, "I'm going to the cafeteria. See you later." I walked away from her, with a weird feeling inside me. She cared about how I felt…Mind you she loves every single person in the world…I guess that's Rinoa for you…