Author's Note
You don't have to read this, but I felt this needed to be said.
Adelaide, in this story..stands for everything I was..everything I am. She's very confused, because she lost the person she thought was the one for her. Now she's not ready to love. She does love Craig, but she's just not ready to lose him. I took a lot of myself and put it into Adelaide.
I had an experience a couple years ago, where I fell in love with my best friend. I ended up losing her, and it was devastating to me. I couldn't even think of loving again. I fell in love, again. I finally gave myself up to it, completely. But then I lost her too. My third time being in love, I didn't let myself love completely. Maybe it makes me hurt less now that I've lost her. But I lost her kind of on purpose. I broke up with her, because we had an online relationship..and those never work. Long distance really tears at the heart strings. Now the girl doesn't even want to speak to me.
Anyway, I kind of got off-track on what I was trying to say. Adelaide is everything that I am. So if you critize Adelaide, if you think she's stupid..what you're saying is that you think that about me too. There's one major difference between Adelaide and I, and its that she's bisexual and I'm completely gay. Also, her parents beat her(and she lived in New York). My father beat me only slightly, but I wouldn't necessarily call it beating. My mother usually stopped him. He had a bad temper. My parents split up, and it was the worst thing that ever happened to me. It made me terrified of fighting. Now whenever I get into a fight I burst out crying because to me, a fight typically ends in terminating of a relationship. Not just in romantic relationships either, with my friends as well. I hate fighting.
If Craig, Ellie, or Manny are in any way out of character, I'm sorry..I just tried to make them fit into my story a little more.
I am not done with this story yet, but I've got writers block..and I don't know what should happen next. If you have any suggestions email me at midnight_wolfen@hotmail.com . I was thinking about having Manny find out about Craig and Adelaide and her freaking out. I don't know yet.
I hope you've enjoyed the story so far, and I wish you a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy New Year, anything else that you celebrate.
Thank you, and God Bless.
- Jazz