I can't believe I'm doing this, I've lost it all, I've lost everything. I
have nothing left. No money, no food, nothing at all. I'm just a poor broke
young man, with nothing. Not even someone to love. Who needs love anyway,
it's the stuff of fools, anyone who thinks love is something you need is
wrong. Love is foolish, love is something that people think they can turn
to, but then it turns around and stabs you in the back.
I have a love, but it doesn't want me. I love to fly, that's my one great love. But no one wants a pilot. I'm a mail pilot with no mail. I'm trapped in this godforsaken rat hole, with nowhere to go. I couldn't get out of here if I tried. I'm trapped in a land of poverty, with these people who are no better than common barn animals. I could be so much more if I could get out of here, but I can't. There's no chance of me getting out of this place. Which is why I have to do this.
The rope is coarse and heavy in my hands. It's already tied so well. I need to do this, it's my only way out of here. It's my one-way ticket to something, anything better than being trapped here. There's that pitiful water seller, Wong. I'm surprised he hasn't done what I'm about to do yet. He's just like me, he'd have a job if it wasn't that no one wants him. I'm the best pilot in all of Setzuan, no make that all of China, but no one wants me.
All the pilots are those men who bribed their way in, who wouldn't know a rudder from a hole in the wall. A plane is not a machine; it's a living, breathing creature. But they couldn't care less. I have one passion in life, and that's to fly. To take to the air and soar. But that one passion is the one thing that I cant have. So I'm stuck in this godforsaken town. Where everyone knows me as nothing more than that poor, pitiful Yang Sun, the unemployed pilot from Yellow Street.
Look, even those two whores are talking about me, saying just that. I'm a failure; I'm a lost cause. So I have to do this, to save even some of my dignity. It's better to take my own life than to die of starvation, die of humiliation. I don't care what this does, but it's the only way I can get out of this godforsaken rat hole that is Setzuan. It's the only thing I have left to do. Those whores mustn't see me do this though; I want to do this alone, without anyone watching. I want some privacy.
I have a love, but it doesn't want me. I love to fly, that's my one great love. But no one wants a pilot. I'm a mail pilot with no mail. I'm trapped in this godforsaken rat hole, with nowhere to go. I couldn't get out of here if I tried. I'm trapped in a land of poverty, with these people who are no better than common barn animals. I could be so much more if I could get out of here, but I can't. There's no chance of me getting out of this place. Which is why I have to do this.
The rope is coarse and heavy in my hands. It's already tied so well. I need to do this, it's my only way out of here. It's my one-way ticket to something, anything better than being trapped here. There's that pitiful water seller, Wong. I'm surprised he hasn't done what I'm about to do yet. He's just like me, he'd have a job if it wasn't that no one wants him. I'm the best pilot in all of Setzuan, no make that all of China, but no one wants me.
All the pilots are those men who bribed their way in, who wouldn't know a rudder from a hole in the wall. A plane is not a machine; it's a living, breathing creature. But they couldn't care less. I have one passion in life, and that's to fly. To take to the air and soar. But that one passion is the one thing that I cant have. So I'm stuck in this godforsaken town. Where everyone knows me as nothing more than that poor, pitiful Yang Sun, the unemployed pilot from Yellow Street.
Look, even those two whores are talking about me, saying just that. I'm a failure; I'm a lost cause. So I have to do this, to save even some of my dignity. It's better to take my own life than to die of starvation, die of humiliation. I don't care what this does, but it's the only way I can get out of this godforsaken rat hole that is Setzuan. It's the only thing I have left to do. Those whores mustn't see me do this though; I want to do this alone, without anyone watching. I want some privacy.