Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of Inuyasha..........but i do own this plot so please don't steal!
Authors Note: Sorry for the long delay, the older you get the more obligations you have....I'm actually passing up memorizing a speech I have to deliver tomorrow to write this, even though I had two weeks to memorize…hehe
"Kesshite Doriimingu"
chapter two
Stages to Acceptance
Kagome's mind floated on a strange sense of utter peace. Everything was clam and purely white. Nothing could go wrong here. But as the thought materialized it was shattered in an instant.
Kagome blinked herself conscious to the world of her dreams as earthly materials appeared; tree's and homes, earth and sky, but the sky was red. Looking up she could see dark clouds begin to appear and saturate before they suddenly burst, sending forth thousands upon thousands of jewel like tears to pour down.
The world around her was engulfed in a torrent of pelting rain, and she just stood there letting it rap against her skin as she stood silently maintaining a blank stare. The rain was falling so heavily that it masked the sound of approaching footsteps, and by the time she noticed it she didn't bother to turn.
The footsteps stopped behind her and she tilted her head down. Her sopping hair dripped in little stream's down her face as she turned to face the figure behind her. "Inuyasha…?" The dark silhouetted figure of Inuyasha stood before her. His face covered by a strange shadow and his expression unknown.
Kagome reached up a hesitant hand to touch him but he recoiled. Kagome gasped and stared wide eyed as Inuyasha crumbled to the ground in obvious pain, and the pelting rain beat down harder as his cries enveloped into the night.
Kagome stared in horror as visions flashed before her eyes: The sopping shadow before her, and a clear day image of Inuyasha collapsing and falling still. Kagome stepped forward again. "Inuyasha?" She reached forward but he dissolved with the rain.
Kagome stared and trembled before hearing a foreboding voice call out her name. "Kagome. . ." it sing-songed. Kagome spun around. "Kagome . . . " A dark shiver ran up her spine as she turned to the newest source of the coming sound. "Kagome. . .come home,"
There was a sharp high intake of breath in her ear that made her freeze in terror. "Come, come," The snakelike, demonic voice hissed in a high female soprano. Kagome couldn't even tremble as an invisible snaking arm wrapped from behind around her neck. "Come, come, HOME!"
Her body lost control as she plummeted forward off the no longer present ground, falling and falling and coming in towards the grou-
"Huhh!"
Kagome wretched forward in bed with a terrified gasp, clutching her hand to her chest and dripping in a cold sweat. She took deep, heavy breaths while slumping wide-eyed over her knee's. 'It was a dream,' she thought gratefully. She coughed from the sudden change in breathing. 'But then why do I feel so terrified?'
She couldn't answer this, but just as she was recovering a light poured in the room and someone walked in. Kagome turned her head and saw Sango standing worriedly near the door. "Sango," she spoke quietly and Sango came down to kneel by her side. "Are you all right?" she asked.
Kagome nodded out of habit still a little unsure herself. Sango allowed herself a small smile, and then looked questionable again. "Do you remember what happened?" Kagome blinked. 'Remember what...happened?' Kagome thought.
They had been fighting Naraku, and destroyed him - But Inuyasha was injured…They'd taken him back to the here, to the village. And Kaede had said…
Kagome's eye's glazed in realization. "No…" Sango looked worried. "Kagome?" Kagome stood up. Nothing was true - until she saw it, there would be no assumptions. 'it can't be true…' But somewhere tugging at her heart she knew it was.
Kagome walked slowly to the door and Sango stood to follow her. "Are you alright..?" she didn't answer. As different people saw her pass down the hall they were all compelled to stop her, but on better judgement they decided to let her go - she needed to see for herself.
Kagome came to the door of the sick room and her eyes came back into focus. Slowly she opened the door and took a sharp breath. Inuyasha was lying on a futon unconscious, bandages covered various parts of his body but one standing out in particular was his arm.
Kagome stepped lightly toward him and kneeled by his side. This didn't wake him but shocking herself, Kagome began to silently sob. He looked so weak lying there, so helpless and sad. She watched him when suddenly his eyes began to blink open.
Kagome quickly held her breath and wiped her tears. She couldn't let him see her crying. Inuyasha tilted his head. "Kagome...?" Kagome nodded, not yet trusting her voice. He suddenly looked away but she didn't waver. "Inuyasha," she spoke quietly. He didn't look up but answered. "Yes," Kagome swallowed. "Did they, I mean, do you…know..?" She asked gently.
Inuyasha snorted lightly and smirked with a bitter sarcasm. "About my expected life span? Yes." Kagome didn't know what to say. He'd be mad if she said she was sorry - he hated being sympathized. But truthfully she was sorry, and didn't know what to do.
Inuyasha tilted his head toward the ceiling. "Quite a fitting end though, don't you think?" Kagome looked up. 'What?' "To die slowly by the hand of the one I hated most." His bitter smile returned. "That bastard."
Kagome blinked several times. Why was he acting so strangely? He never acted like this before. Kagome brought her hand forward. "Inuyasha," but to her great surprise Inuyasha smacked it away.
"No, I don't need your pity. Just do me a favor and leave." Kagome's eyes glistened as she tilted her head down, her bangs falling over her face. "I'm sorry, Inuyasha. I…I'll leave."
And with her head still down she stood up, letting a few tears blindly fall to the ground before the spot where Inuyasha lay. Kagome stumbled to close the door and then leaned against the wall as she sank slowly to floor and hugged her knee's.
She stared into her lap intent on preventing anyone from seeing her tears, but Kaede had been listening and was already standing by her side. Kaede smiled softly and laid a hand on Kagome's shoulder.
Kagome slowly looked up and Kaede gave her an encouraging smile, but Kagome only flashed a weak one in return. Kaede got down to Kagome's level to speak. "Don't worry yea self child, Inuyasha is just in a fragile state right now, as are yea." Kagome stopped crying but didn't wipe away her tears.
"Yea see, there are five stages to accepting death; Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and finally Acceptance. Inuyasha is now going through the second stage, but it shouldn't last long, so yea need not worry."
Kagome sniffled staring back into her lap and thinking. "He was so angry… he smacked me away...he's never yelled at me like that before...never." Kaede patted Kagome's shoulder.
"It's just the sickness. He is not really mad with yea, he is angry with the world." Kagome nodded but kept her eye's glued to her lap, her bangs shading her face. Inuyasha lay in the other room listening to what the old woman had to say.
It was true, he was mad with the world, but why had he lashed out at Kagome? The last thing he wanted to do was make her cry, and yet he had done just that.
'Damn Naraku. Damn him to hell for this!' he seethed, but crumbled again. Now he would really die…but with God as his witness he wouldn't hurt anyone along the way - especially Kagome.
With the last thought, Inuyasha went back to staring at the ceiling and contemplating. He would make the best of this last month and treat everyone the way he should have better in life - and above all of them, he would be nice to Kagome.
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*cough cough* ug, i've got a sore throat.........i blame the weather...Anyway! lots of sappy sadness… let me know what you think! and REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! ^.^
~tl snow
Authors Note: Sorry for the long delay, the older you get the more obligations you have....I'm actually passing up memorizing a speech I have to deliver tomorrow to write this, even though I had two weeks to memorize…hehe
"Kesshite Doriimingu"
chapter two
Stages to Acceptance
Kagome's mind floated on a strange sense of utter peace. Everything was clam and purely white. Nothing could go wrong here. But as the thought materialized it was shattered in an instant.
Kagome blinked herself conscious to the world of her dreams as earthly materials appeared; tree's and homes, earth and sky, but the sky was red. Looking up she could see dark clouds begin to appear and saturate before they suddenly burst, sending forth thousands upon thousands of jewel like tears to pour down.
The world around her was engulfed in a torrent of pelting rain, and she just stood there letting it rap against her skin as she stood silently maintaining a blank stare. The rain was falling so heavily that it masked the sound of approaching footsteps, and by the time she noticed it she didn't bother to turn.
The footsteps stopped behind her and she tilted her head down. Her sopping hair dripped in little stream's down her face as she turned to face the figure behind her. "Inuyasha…?" The dark silhouetted figure of Inuyasha stood before her. His face covered by a strange shadow and his expression unknown.
Kagome reached up a hesitant hand to touch him but he recoiled. Kagome gasped and stared wide eyed as Inuyasha crumbled to the ground in obvious pain, and the pelting rain beat down harder as his cries enveloped into the night.
Kagome stared in horror as visions flashed before her eyes: The sopping shadow before her, and a clear day image of Inuyasha collapsing and falling still. Kagome stepped forward again. "Inuyasha?" She reached forward but he dissolved with the rain.
Kagome stared and trembled before hearing a foreboding voice call out her name. "Kagome. . ." it sing-songed. Kagome spun around. "Kagome . . . " A dark shiver ran up her spine as she turned to the newest source of the coming sound. "Kagome. . .come home,"
There was a sharp high intake of breath in her ear that made her freeze in terror. "Come, come," The snakelike, demonic voice hissed in a high female soprano. Kagome couldn't even tremble as an invisible snaking arm wrapped from behind around her neck. "Come, come, HOME!"
Her body lost control as she plummeted forward off the no longer present ground, falling and falling and coming in towards the grou-
"Huhh!"
Kagome wretched forward in bed with a terrified gasp, clutching her hand to her chest and dripping in a cold sweat. She took deep, heavy breaths while slumping wide-eyed over her knee's. 'It was a dream,' she thought gratefully. She coughed from the sudden change in breathing. 'But then why do I feel so terrified?'
She couldn't answer this, but just as she was recovering a light poured in the room and someone walked in. Kagome turned her head and saw Sango standing worriedly near the door. "Sango," she spoke quietly and Sango came down to kneel by her side. "Are you all right?" she asked.
Kagome nodded out of habit still a little unsure herself. Sango allowed herself a small smile, and then looked questionable again. "Do you remember what happened?" Kagome blinked. 'Remember what...happened?' Kagome thought.
They had been fighting Naraku, and destroyed him - But Inuyasha was injured…They'd taken him back to the here, to the village. And Kaede had said…
Kagome's eye's glazed in realization. "No…" Sango looked worried. "Kagome?" Kagome stood up. Nothing was true - until she saw it, there would be no assumptions. 'it can't be true…' But somewhere tugging at her heart she knew it was.
Kagome walked slowly to the door and Sango stood to follow her. "Are you alright..?" she didn't answer. As different people saw her pass down the hall they were all compelled to stop her, but on better judgement they decided to let her go - she needed to see for herself.
Kagome came to the door of the sick room and her eyes came back into focus. Slowly she opened the door and took a sharp breath. Inuyasha was lying on a futon unconscious, bandages covered various parts of his body but one standing out in particular was his arm.
Kagome stepped lightly toward him and kneeled by his side. This didn't wake him but shocking herself, Kagome began to silently sob. He looked so weak lying there, so helpless and sad. She watched him when suddenly his eyes began to blink open.
Kagome quickly held her breath and wiped her tears. She couldn't let him see her crying. Inuyasha tilted his head. "Kagome...?" Kagome nodded, not yet trusting her voice. He suddenly looked away but she didn't waver. "Inuyasha," she spoke quietly. He didn't look up but answered. "Yes," Kagome swallowed. "Did they, I mean, do you…know..?" She asked gently.
Inuyasha snorted lightly and smirked with a bitter sarcasm. "About my expected life span? Yes." Kagome didn't know what to say. He'd be mad if she said she was sorry - he hated being sympathized. But truthfully she was sorry, and didn't know what to do.
Inuyasha tilted his head toward the ceiling. "Quite a fitting end though, don't you think?" Kagome looked up. 'What?' "To die slowly by the hand of the one I hated most." His bitter smile returned. "That bastard."
Kagome blinked several times. Why was he acting so strangely? He never acted like this before. Kagome brought her hand forward. "Inuyasha," but to her great surprise Inuyasha smacked it away.
"No, I don't need your pity. Just do me a favor and leave." Kagome's eyes glistened as she tilted her head down, her bangs falling over her face. "I'm sorry, Inuyasha. I…I'll leave."
And with her head still down she stood up, letting a few tears blindly fall to the ground before the spot where Inuyasha lay. Kagome stumbled to close the door and then leaned against the wall as she sank slowly to floor and hugged her knee's.
She stared into her lap intent on preventing anyone from seeing her tears, but Kaede had been listening and was already standing by her side. Kaede smiled softly and laid a hand on Kagome's shoulder.
Kagome slowly looked up and Kaede gave her an encouraging smile, but Kagome only flashed a weak one in return. Kaede got down to Kagome's level to speak. "Don't worry yea self child, Inuyasha is just in a fragile state right now, as are yea." Kagome stopped crying but didn't wipe away her tears.
"Yea see, there are five stages to accepting death; Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and finally Acceptance. Inuyasha is now going through the second stage, but it shouldn't last long, so yea need not worry."
Kagome sniffled staring back into her lap and thinking. "He was so angry… he smacked me away...he's never yelled at me like that before...never." Kaede patted Kagome's shoulder.
"It's just the sickness. He is not really mad with yea, he is angry with the world." Kagome nodded but kept her eye's glued to her lap, her bangs shading her face. Inuyasha lay in the other room listening to what the old woman had to say.
It was true, he was mad with the world, but why had he lashed out at Kagome? The last thing he wanted to do was make her cry, and yet he had done just that.
'Damn Naraku. Damn him to hell for this!' he seethed, but crumbled again. Now he would really die…but with God as his witness he wouldn't hurt anyone along the way - especially Kagome.
With the last thought, Inuyasha went back to staring at the ceiling and contemplating. He would make the best of this last month and treat everyone the way he should have better in life - and above all of them, he would be nice to Kagome.
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*cough cough* ug, i've got a sore throat.........i blame the weather...Anyway! lots of sappy sadness… let me know what you think! and REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW! ^.^
~tl snow