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He shifted his weight to the other side of his body as his left side had started to go asleep for staying in that position for so long. Kai Hiwatari had been precariously perched in the roof for going on about 4 ½ hours now. It was only days after the World Tournament had finished and Kai had adopted this place as a point of thinking because he felt as if he would slowly become insane if he didn't deal with some of these issues soon. He had decided on this particular location mainly because of the view, from his seat on the roof of their hotel, The Moskva, he could see The Kremlin on one side a variety of shops and markets on the other, in case you didn't realize the hotel they were staying at was an amazing one and it continually surprised Kai at the expenses Mr. D and the BBA spent on making them comfortable.
He looked out further and could make a small park in the distance, he had been slowly memorizing the area around them from here for a reason that he was not yet aware of but was simply an instinct that he could not turn off. Normally while up here he would contemplate his training schedule for the next day, but tonight his mind was on more depressing thoughts, more specifically comments that a certain ignorant blue haired blader had made that day concerning him, once again he allowed his mind to shift to the incident.
*Flashback*
"Where is Mr. Ice Capitan?" asked Tyson wearily " I had to get up an hour earlier then usual to get to this 'special' training session"
"Don't worry Tyson I'm sure he'll be here soon, you know how he is he's proberly sitting around here somewhere seeing if we'll start training by ourselves" Max replied cheerily.
"Yeah, I don't know why they bothered to make him our team captain, it's not like he's that good, I mean I've beaten him heaps of times." Said Tyson
"Tyson back off, that's enough. Kai is Kai and I thought that you excepted that long ago, who cares if he's cold sometimes, he does what he thinks is best for the team," snapped Rei, being the voice of reason on the team.
"Oh come off it Rei, you know we would be better off with out him, we could do things our way, It's not like he hasn't abandoned us before" replied Tyson. "I know this conversation will come back and bite us in the arse, so I'm leaving, I don't want anything to do with this" with that Rei got up and left the training arena disappearing for the rest of the day.
"I wonder why Rei's so up tight today, dude needs to loosen up and live a little," said Tyson grumpily "Wake me up if Kai decides to show up."
Unfortunately Kai had been only a few meters away when this exchange took place, with his head now hung he took of into the city, where after walking aimlessly for many hours, he had found himself in his spot on the roof.
*End Flashback*
Contrary to popular belief Kai was not an inhuman robot incapable of showing emotions, he had simply learned at a very young age that when living in a community that punishes you for things like showing love, friendship even sadness that, if you didn't shut yourself off you would be preyed upon, a lesson he had learned in his first week of being at the Abbey were Boris had been kind enough to torture him to the brink of sanity and then placing these damn tattoos on his face as a reminder to never care about anyone or anything. Tyson may call him their 'Ice Captain' on an almost permanent basis but who is he to talk, living his perfect life, with a family that cares, had he lived through half of the hell Kai his spirit and mind would have broken long ago.
Tyson had said that they would be better off without him, was he right? Would they have gotten this far without him? Or would they achieve more with a new Capitan, someone who cared? He was wondering why he was taking Tyson words so seriously, He knew Tyson talked a lot of shit, but was he right in this matter? He didn't really care because what Tyson thought only mirrored his own confused thoughts, that and the fact that he realized that what Tyson had said had hurt, It had hurt him to the core of his being, he had thought that they had become friends, he had put his trust in them, even allowing them see what they had of his personality had been a huge accomplishment in 'the world of Kai', he felt betrayed because of what they said, he had been trying to let them in and they didn't even acknowledge it. His identity had always confused him, the place where he belonged. He didn't belong in his grandfather's mansion living under the rules of that abusive barsted, he didn't belong with the Demolition Boys in the Abbey, he had thought that he had finally found a home with the Bladebreakers, a sort of dysfunctional family, but apparently he hadn't done that either, it was then that he decided that there was only one solution to this, he didn't want to do it, but it would be better for everyone if he did, he would leave, go somewhere where he could start again, show people the true him, maybe this is what he needed to survive anyway.
With that he got up and stretched, hearing several satisfying cracks as his back moved into new positions and climbed through the small crawl-space that lead inside the building and proceeded down to the 12th floor where their suite was located. He slowly opened the door and using all the stealth he possessed he crept into the room that he and Rei shared, gathered his belongings and picked up a piece of paper and wrote his farewell, after he had completed this task he walked out of the suite and into the elevator and pressed the ground button, "This is it," he asked himself "are you sure this is what you want?" "Even if it's not what I want it's the only solution". The doors pinged open and he stepped out into the lobby and crossed to the revolving doors. When outside he inhaled deeply and turned, looking to where his team mates would be sleeping, "Good bye, I hope you will find a better captain to replace me with, one that will help you achieve all your dreams," with that he left and made his way to the train station where he brought his ticket and disappeared.
*Several Hours Later* All the Bladebreakers were seated around the table, Tyson on his 5th helping of Breakfast, all the others yet to eat as they had become very nauseous the moment Tyson had started on his meal.
"Hey you guys, has anyone seen Kai today, or even yesterday for that matter" asked Rei
"No cant say I've seen the Sour Puss anywhere," said Tyson spraying a mouthful of food all over Rei as he spoke.
"Thanks for that Tyson, I'm just going to go clean up now" with that Rei got up and proceeded into the bedroom, but now that he was seeing the room through fully awake eyes his mind focused on several important facts that he had missed while stumbling out earlier. The first and proberly most important was that all of Kai's belonging which were usually stored under his bed had been removed, and secondly the existence of a small white piece of paper folded neatly in the middle of the mattress. Rei carefully picked up the piece of paper opened it and read the short letter inside.
"Oh shit," Rei said as his eyes scanned the paper, "GUYS YOU BETTER COME HERE AND HAVE A LOOK AT THIS"
"What is it Rei?" said Max even more happy then usual as he had somehow manage to stomach a bowl of sugary 'sugar O's'. Rei said nothing but simply held out the note that Kenny retrieved from his outstretched hand and read aloud so everyone could hear.
"Rei, Max, Tyson and Kenny, By the time you read this I'll be long gone from here After hearing what Tyson said I have realized some sad truths, The team would be better of without me, You need someone with a kinder heart, someone who will be there for you in your direst time of need, someone who can offer you friendship, which is more then I am capable of. I have left to find a place were I can start over, as the person I want to be. I wish you the best of luck with your life, and never give up on your feelings or emotions which I'm ashamed to say I did long ago. I need to find a place were I belong, in all aspects of my soul. Goodbye forever Kai Hiwatari."
"So Kai's gone?" said Max dejectedly
"It sounds like it doesn't it, I told you this would come back to get us," Said Rei, sitting down as the full shock of the situation hit him.
"I can't believe that he took what I said so seriously, I never meant for things to end like this," said a shocked Tyson, "What are we meant to do?"
"I guess there's not much we can do but hope he finds a place were he feels he belongs, if only he knew that that place is here, with us, the Bladebreakers".
Disclaimer: I wish I owned it but unless I come up with a get-rich quick scheme all is lost, get-rich quick there's an idea ^_~
He shifted his weight to the other side of his body as his left side had started to go asleep for staying in that position for so long. Kai Hiwatari had been precariously perched in the roof for going on about 4 ½ hours now. It was only days after the World Tournament had finished and Kai had adopted this place as a point of thinking because he felt as if he would slowly become insane if he didn't deal with some of these issues soon. He had decided on this particular location mainly because of the view, from his seat on the roof of their hotel, The Moskva, he could see The Kremlin on one side a variety of shops and markets on the other, in case you didn't realize the hotel they were staying at was an amazing one and it continually surprised Kai at the expenses Mr. D and the BBA spent on making them comfortable.
He looked out further and could make a small park in the distance, he had been slowly memorizing the area around them from here for a reason that he was not yet aware of but was simply an instinct that he could not turn off. Normally while up here he would contemplate his training schedule for the next day, but tonight his mind was on more depressing thoughts, more specifically comments that a certain ignorant blue haired blader had made that day concerning him, once again he allowed his mind to shift to the incident.
*Flashback*
"Where is Mr. Ice Capitan?" asked Tyson wearily " I had to get up an hour earlier then usual to get to this 'special' training session"
"Don't worry Tyson I'm sure he'll be here soon, you know how he is he's proberly sitting around here somewhere seeing if we'll start training by ourselves" Max replied cheerily.
"Yeah, I don't know why they bothered to make him our team captain, it's not like he's that good, I mean I've beaten him heaps of times." Said Tyson
"Tyson back off, that's enough. Kai is Kai and I thought that you excepted that long ago, who cares if he's cold sometimes, he does what he thinks is best for the team," snapped Rei, being the voice of reason on the team.
"Oh come off it Rei, you know we would be better off with out him, we could do things our way, It's not like he hasn't abandoned us before" replied Tyson. "I know this conversation will come back and bite us in the arse, so I'm leaving, I don't want anything to do with this" with that Rei got up and left the training arena disappearing for the rest of the day.
"I wonder why Rei's so up tight today, dude needs to loosen up and live a little," said Tyson grumpily "Wake me up if Kai decides to show up."
Unfortunately Kai had been only a few meters away when this exchange took place, with his head now hung he took of into the city, where after walking aimlessly for many hours, he had found himself in his spot on the roof.
*End Flashback*
Contrary to popular belief Kai was not an inhuman robot incapable of showing emotions, he had simply learned at a very young age that when living in a community that punishes you for things like showing love, friendship even sadness that, if you didn't shut yourself off you would be preyed upon, a lesson he had learned in his first week of being at the Abbey were Boris had been kind enough to torture him to the brink of sanity and then placing these damn tattoos on his face as a reminder to never care about anyone or anything. Tyson may call him their 'Ice Captain' on an almost permanent basis but who is he to talk, living his perfect life, with a family that cares, had he lived through half of the hell Kai his spirit and mind would have broken long ago.
Tyson had said that they would be better off without him, was he right? Would they have gotten this far without him? Or would they achieve more with a new Capitan, someone who cared? He was wondering why he was taking Tyson words so seriously, He knew Tyson talked a lot of shit, but was he right in this matter? He didn't really care because what Tyson thought only mirrored his own confused thoughts, that and the fact that he realized that what Tyson had said had hurt, It had hurt him to the core of his being, he had thought that they had become friends, he had put his trust in them, even allowing them see what they had of his personality had been a huge accomplishment in 'the world of Kai', he felt betrayed because of what they said, he had been trying to let them in and they didn't even acknowledge it. His identity had always confused him, the place where he belonged. He didn't belong in his grandfather's mansion living under the rules of that abusive barsted, he didn't belong with the Demolition Boys in the Abbey, he had thought that he had finally found a home with the Bladebreakers, a sort of dysfunctional family, but apparently he hadn't done that either, it was then that he decided that there was only one solution to this, he didn't want to do it, but it would be better for everyone if he did, he would leave, go somewhere where he could start again, show people the true him, maybe this is what he needed to survive anyway.
With that he got up and stretched, hearing several satisfying cracks as his back moved into new positions and climbed through the small crawl-space that lead inside the building and proceeded down to the 12th floor where their suite was located. He slowly opened the door and using all the stealth he possessed he crept into the room that he and Rei shared, gathered his belongings and picked up a piece of paper and wrote his farewell, after he had completed this task he walked out of the suite and into the elevator and pressed the ground button, "This is it," he asked himself "are you sure this is what you want?" "Even if it's not what I want it's the only solution". The doors pinged open and he stepped out into the lobby and crossed to the revolving doors. When outside he inhaled deeply and turned, looking to where his team mates would be sleeping, "Good bye, I hope you will find a better captain to replace me with, one that will help you achieve all your dreams," with that he left and made his way to the train station where he brought his ticket and disappeared.
*Several Hours Later* All the Bladebreakers were seated around the table, Tyson on his 5th helping of Breakfast, all the others yet to eat as they had become very nauseous the moment Tyson had started on his meal.
"Hey you guys, has anyone seen Kai today, or even yesterday for that matter" asked Rei
"No cant say I've seen the Sour Puss anywhere," said Tyson spraying a mouthful of food all over Rei as he spoke.
"Thanks for that Tyson, I'm just going to go clean up now" with that Rei got up and proceeded into the bedroom, but now that he was seeing the room through fully awake eyes his mind focused on several important facts that he had missed while stumbling out earlier. The first and proberly most important was that all of Kai's belonging which were usually stored under his bed had been removed, and secondly the existence of a small white piece of paper folded neatly in the middle of the mattress. Rei carefully picked up the piece of paper opened it and read the short letter inside.
"Oh shit," Rei said as his eyes scanned the paper, "GUYS YOU BETTER COME HERE AND HAVE A LOOK AT THIS"
"What is it Rei?" said Max even more happy then usual as he had somehow manage to stomach a bowl of sugary 'sugar O's'. Rei said nothing but simply held out the note that Kenny retrieved from his outstretched hand and read aloud so everyone could hear.
"Rei, Max, Tyson and Kenny, By the time you read this I'll be long gone from here After hearing what Tyson said I have realized some sad truths, The team would be better of without me, You need someone with a kinder heart, someone who will be there for you in your direst time of need, someone who can offer you friendship, which is more then I am capable of. I have left to find a place were I can start over, as the person I want to be. I wish you the best of luck with your life, and never give up on your feelings or emotions which I'm ashamed to say I did long ago. I need to find a place were I belong, in all aspects of my soul. Goodbye forever Kai Hiwatari."
"So Kai's gone?" said Max dejectedly
"It sounds like it doesn't it, I told you this would come back to get us," Said Rei, sitting down as the full shock of the situation hit him.
"I can't believe that he took what I said so seriously, I never meant for things to end like this," said a shocked Tyson, "What are we meant to do?"
"I guess there's not much we can do but hope he finds a place were he feels he belongs, if only he knew that that place is here, with us, the Bladebreakers".