Title: The Memory Burns
Author: Gamegirl452
Rating: PG
Pairing: M/A
Disclaimer: Nothing mines, blah blah woof woof
Summary: Challenge from The Broken World. Alec thinks about what his life is like at this moment in time. Set a few months after LATR but FN hasn't happened.
A/N: Okay this was a challenge from The Broken World anyway, the challenge was to look at a phrase provided and write non-stop for five minutes not stopping for spelling, grammar or tense or anything basically. Then either end it or carry it on. Well I took the challenge and ended it after five minutes. This is what I came up with so please excuse the writing because I did write it in five minutes. Tell me what you think.
A/N2: Oh the phrase was 'The Memory Burns'.
The memory burns, when I think of what I did to Rachel all those years ago, and still the memory burns, I try and take it out off my mind the way Manticore taught us too but I stop myself before I forget her entirely because it would be an insult to her memory. I can't believe what I have done. I can't believe I killed my first love the girl who taught me who to love. The whole in my heart has never actually healed from all those things that Rachel told me.
When I went up the stairs and told her that she was my job, it sounds so simple now. Just go in and kill Mr Berrisford, I could have told them that the daughter was sick and stayed home from school. I should have set the bomb off when he got in the car not waited for Rachel. It would have been simpler. Why couldn't I have done that?
Before I was the best in Manticore, the best there was Co of my unit and co of all X5 units. Had a sweet deal going with the guards. Even Berty the DNA specialist knew me. I like him and learn a lot about my skills because of him. It was great talking to him even though they killed him because he was asking too many questions about what missions we were actually sent for. He wanted to know so he could design us better but maybe he could maybe he couldn't.
Anyway, so Berty helped me understand the Manticore part of me, Rachel helped me understand the loving side of me. What about the façade the mask I put on when everything blown to bits. Oh well somebody very special has helped me understand that. Max.
She helped me understand the smart-Aleck part of me that pushed her into naming me. She is the only reason I stayed in Seattle all this time.
After a while I started to make friends and stayed for more, but the main underlying reason is Max.
"Hey, what you doing up here" a voice calls from behind me as she sits down and puts her head on my shoulders. "I missed you." she tells me and I put my arm around her shoulders just as I always do when we sit up here on top of the space needle our place. The high place. I'm not Ben, I'm not 494, and I'm not some tool that doesn't have emotions or pride. I'm Alec. Max's husband and Biggs best friend. Krit's brother-in-law and also cat burglar to Logan. Also in eight months I'll be a father. The memory still burns but Max is helping me through the pain and helping me to love again.
A/N3: Tell me what you think. This is my first short stand-alone. All my other stories are multi-chaptered. So this is a first. This story has no way distracted me from my other story The Secret Switch but because it was such a short challenge I thought I'd take it up and I've hit a brick wall with the secret switch. Anyone care to help me???
Author: Gamegirl452
Rating: PG
Pairing: M/A
Disclaimer: Nothing mines, blah blah woof woof
Summary: Challenge from The Broken World. Alec thinks about what his life is like at this moment in time. Set a few months after LATR but FN hasn't happened.
A/N: Okay this was a challenge from The Broken World anyway, the challenge was to look at a phrase provided and write non-stop for five minutes not stopping for spelling, grammar or tense or anything basically. Then either end it or carry it on. Well I took the challenge and ended it after five minutes. This is what I came up with so please excuse the writing because I did write it in five minutes. Tell me what you think.
A/N2: Oh the phrase was 'The Memory Burns'.
The memory burns, when I think of what I did to Rachel all those years ago, and still the memory burns, I try and take it out off my mind the way Manticore taught us too but I stop myself before I forget her entirely because it would be an insult to her memory. I can't believe what I have done. I can't believe I killed my first love the girl who taught me who to love. The whole in my heart has never actually healed from all those things that Rachel told me.
When I went up the stairs and told her that she was my job, it sounds so simple now. Just go in and kill Mr Berrisford, I could have told them that the daughter was sick and stayed home from school. I should have set the bomb off when he got in the car not waited for Rachel. It would have been simpler. Why couldn't I have done that?
Before I was the best in Manticore, the best there was Co of my unit and co of all X5 units. Had a sweet deal going with the guards. Even Berty the DNA specialist knew me. I like him and learn a lot about my skills because of him. It was great talking to him even though they killed him because he was asking too many questions about what missions we were actually sent for. He wanted to know so he could design us better but maybe he could maybe he couldn't.
Anyway, so Berty helped me understand the Manticore part of me, Rachel helped me understand the loving side of me. What about the façade the mask I put on when everything blown to bits. Oh well somebody very special has helped me understand that. Max.
She helped me understand the smart-Aleck part of me that pushed her into naming me. She is the only reason I stayed in Seattle all this time.
After a while I started to make friends and stayed for more, but the main underlying reason is Max.
"Hey, what you doing up here" a voice calls from behind me as she sits down and puts her head on my shoulders. "I missed you." she tells me and I put my arm around her shoulders just as I always do when we sit up here on top of the space needle our place. The high place. I'm not Ben, I'm not 494, and I'm not some tool that doesn't have emotions or pride. I'm Alec. Max's husband and Biggs best friend. Krit's brother-in-law and also cat burglar to Logan. Also in eight months I'll be a father. The memory still burns but Max is helping me through the pain and helping me to love again.
A/N3: Tell me what you think. This is my first short stand-alone. All my other stories are multi-chaptered. So this is a first. This story has no way distracted me from my other story The Secret Switch but because it was such a short challenge I thought I'd take it up and I've hit a brick wall with the secret switch. Anyone care to help me???